Chapter 81
Max
What my sister did was very sneaky and I don’t like it one bit . She called Ellie b cause she thought that it was necessary for me to take action because I was such an over thinker; fix the mess I made because I was walking around like a wounded animal that hurt itself and was refusing to get help. So in her head; she is like a vet that found me and she is trying to fix me so that I can walk or run again .
I have always been a stubborn man ,and I have always , more often than not lived with regret for not acting sooner . I respect Ellie because she had always been able to call me out on my bad behavior , she’s always believed that I can be good and do good. I knew she was the right person to ask, to do the interview and get it to the right people . Part of me was also thankful that I kept AM sports because Ellie’s company was now part of the Luca conglomerate of businesses and if I needed any sort of help with regards
Chapter 82Ellie I don’t like it when my friends are attacked or bullied. I have always protected the people that I have loved and I have a way of indirectly with people who attack people who are weaker than them . I’ve always kept my circle small and I have only let people who prove themselves by word and deed into my circle and I know for a fact that; if I ever get into trouble , or need some protection, the same people I have been protecting will protect me . That’s if they know what’s going on because over the years I have learned that the tattle tale sign of someone who wants to control you and abuse you; is to isolate you from the people you love and care about you .Dexter was the biggest lesson I have ever had to learn and the scars I have are nothing compared to what he had put me through when we were in a relationship with each other . He was jealous of my friendship with Sam and when he found out about my other friends , he isol
Chapter 83MaxI don't think I am deserving of Ellie's love. She has been there for me in more ways than one , even when I thought that I was just broken beyond repair. Elie is a fixer and by that I mean that; she hates not making sure that things are fine and that you are well taken care of , and everything is alright .The moment I held Ellie in my arms was the moment I stopped running. I was in pretence mode and I am usually in control of my feelings , but when I saw Ellie's face I cried like a baby and I didn't care who was watching . I missed her and I felt like she was the only one who understood me . She loved me inside out . I even showed her the ugliest parts of me and she accepted me and what she did yesterday was nothing short of heroic . She wrote an article and in it she wrote about me and tried to clean up , balance and shine my already defor
Chapter 84ElliI have always loved being active and since I can do some of the stuff I used to do and I have been given the all clear , I went on a walk instead of a run this morning with Daniel. Before I left the house Blake was already awake and he was doing some sort of research on the Luca airline hostesses , he was really focused , and I knew it was the right time to ask him for a favor .When he told me that the boys were going to play drinking games ; I tapped out and called it a night , and I told them to bring Max back in one piece because he is not a heavy drinker and he didn’t get to go through college because he was schooled by the academy that he played for , and they didn’t teach him how to be a heavy drinker . Max is not a heavy drinker he’d rather take pills … which is also a bad habit because he knows how to hide them. The boys did not listen to me and they ended up wasted . Max had to be carried inside the
Chapter 85MaxI have been feeling a bit off this morning and the main reason for this was because I had, decided to participate in getting drunk with people that have had experience ... My brother included . I was in the car at the backseat drinking water . Note to self if I am ever going to get outrageously drunk and of I ever get asked if I want to participate in binge drinking, the answer for anything to do with alcohol should be; no.I am used to talking other things not this much alcohol and I noticed this morning when my brother was making me the hangover cure that ;Ellie skipped breakfast and she went out walking with Daniel who is a doctor , but I hope she had something to eat after being active . I trusted Ellie with Daniel more than I trust her with Paul .Dan has proven to be a really good friend and I love him to bits . He too has also warned me about
Chapter 86EllieMax has been on edge ever since our conversation at the hotel . I thought I was the one who was supposed to be on edge and a bit off balance because of the past couple of weeks . When he came in with Blake at the hotel room he looked tired and stressed . He ran to give me a hug and I hugged him back . Holding him after all this time felt good , Maxwell always felt like home even when I was seriously mad at him or questioned our relationship.Maxwell wanted privacy ; he wasn't one to just blurt out how he was feeling . As much as he tried sharing some things with his fans , he keeps important or significant events to himself . He was openly private ,and privately open . We ended up having brunch at the hotel since the food market by the sea was full and most of the people who were out with their families. I didn't mind the vibe but for some sort of odd reason; Max did .When we
Chapter 87MaxI hate being disturbed during sexy time . It is unnecessary and really an infringement on my privacy and much needed time with Ellie. We have just gotten back to talking with each other and I couldn’t be more happier .We have had a rough patch and I am very happy that we are working through it .Jimmy just rubbed me up the wrong way . By the end of the week he is going to catch hands , I am going to slap him silly for doing what he did .The national coach doesn’t like me and I knew that putting my hand up for selection would be a waste of time . He indirectly threw stones at me . Something must have happened during practice to make him changed his mind .The only thing I could think of was that ; one of his little darlings , must have gotten injured during practice , and
Chapter 88EllieI don't know what happened one moment I was sitting on the couch with Max and he was telling me how much he loved me . You know some people wait a split second or a lifetime to hear their significant other tell them that they love them and that; their sun rises and sets with them. All that mooshy stuff gets us feeling all fuzzy and warm and it's a high that can't be fabricated or achieved by using drugs or alcohol which is also a drug but a depressant.The time I've spent with Max for the past couple of hours was far from depressing . It was illuminating in more ways than one ,and he just had to be the perfect boyfriend and bring me a peanut butter and banana smoothie . It was delicious and never have I ever not liked anything that Max had ever done for me . He is a chef in the kitchen and the sweetest guy if you don't double cross him .I was sitting
Chapter 89MaxThere were days when I loved going to work because; I was with a woman who didn't treat me with tender, loving care , and the respect I deserved . She even cut me off my own family and vilified them . She made me believe that they didn't care and that She was the only one in the world who cared about me ; but she only wanted someone she could control , and abuse emotionally.The article that Ellie wrote in my defence was accurate . I didn't understand what was going on , because ; the only thing I've ever known was physical and emotional abuse , and when I came clean to Betty about my passes ; she played me like ping pong ball . She played on every emotion , preyed on my insecurities ,and even when we fooled everyone , I couldn't fool myself . She cheated on me and ended up blaming me for her actions.Betty knew that I wanted to be a father and eventually have children with her ; but she didn't want to have kid