Chapter 81
Max
What my sister did was very sneaky and I don’t like it one bit . She called Ellie b cause she thought that it was necessary for me to take action because I was such an over thinker; fix the mess I made because I was walking around like a wounded animal that hurt itself and was refusing to get help. So in her head; she is like a vet that found me and she is trying to fix me so that I can walk or run again .
I have always been a stubborn man ,and I have always , more often than not lived with regret for not acting sooner . I respect Ellie because she had always been able to call me out on my bad behavior , she’s always believed that I can be good and do good. I knew she was the right person to ask, to do the interview and get it to the right people . Part of me was also thankful that I kept AM sports because Ellie’s company was now part of the Luca conglomerate of businesses and if I needed any sort of help with regards
Chapter 82Ellie I don’t like it when my friends are attacked or bullied. I have always protected the people that I have loved and I have a way of indirectly with people who attack people who are weaker than them . I’ve always kept my circle small and I have only let people who prove themselves by word and deed into my circle and I know for a fact that; if I ever get into trouble , or need some protection, the same people I have been protecting will protect me . That’s if they know what’s going on because over the years I have learned that the tattle tale sign of someone who wants to control you and abuse you; is to isolate you from the people you love and care about you .Dexter was the biggest lesson I have ever had to learn and the scars I have are nothing compared to what he had put me through when we were in a relationship with each other . He was jealous of my friendship with Sam and when he found out about my other friends , he isol
Chapter 83MaxI don't think I am deserving of Ellie's love. She has been there for me in more ways than one , even when I thought that I was just broken beyond repair. Elie is a fixer and by that I mean that; she hates not making sure that things are fine and that you are well taken care of , and everything is alright .The moment I held Ellie in my arms was the moment I stopped running. I was in pretence mode and I am usually in control of my feelings , but when I saw Ellie's face I cried like a baby and I didn't care who was watching . I missed her and I felt like she was the only one who understood me . She loved me inside out . I even showed her the ugliest parts of me and she accepted me and what she did yesterday was nothing short of heroic . She wrote an article and in it she wrote about me and tried to clean up , balance and shine my already defor
Chapter 84ElliI have always loved being active and since I can do some of the stuff I used to do and I have been given the all clear , I went on a walk instead of a run this morning with Daniel. Before I left the house Blake was already awake and he was doing some sort of research on the Luca airline hostesses , he was really focused , and I knew it was the right time to ask him for a favor .When he told me that the boys were going to play drinking games ; I tapped out and called it a night , and I told them to bring Max back in one piece because he is not a heavy drinker and he didn’t get to go through college because he was schooled by the academy that he played for , and they didn’t teach him how to be a heavy drinker . Max is not a heavy drinker he’d rather take pills … which is also a bad habit because he knows how to hide them. The boys did not listen to me and they ended up wasted . Max had to be carried inside the
Chapter 85MaxI have been feeling a bit off this morning and the main reason for this was because I had, decided to participate in getting drunk with people that have had experience ... My brother included . I was in the car at the backseat drinking water . Note to self if I am ever going to get outrageously drunk and of I ever get asked if I want to participate in binge drinking, the answer for anything to do with alcohol should be; no.I am used to talking other things not this much alcohol and I noticed this morning when my brother was making me the hangover cure that ;Ellie skipped breakfast and she went out walking with Daniel who is a doctor , but I hope she had something to eat after being active . I trusted Ellie with Daniel more than I trust her with Paul .Dan has proven to be a really good friend and I love him to bits . He too has also warned me about
Chapter 86EllieMax has been on edge ever since our conversation at the hotel . I thought I was the one who was supposed to be on edge and a bit off balance because of the past couple of weeks . When he came in with Blake at the hotel room he looked tired and stressed . He ran to give me a hug and I hugged him back . Holding him after all this time felt good , Maxwell always felt like home even when I was seriously mad at him or questioned our relationship.Maxwell wanted privacy ; he wasn't one to just blurt out how he was feeling . As much as he tried sharing some things with his fans , he keeps important or significant events to himself . He was openly private ,and privately open . We ended up having brunch at the hotel since the food market by the sea was full and most of the people who were out with their families. I didn't mind the vibe but for some sort of odd reason; Max did .When we
Chapter 87MaxI hate being disturbed during sexy time . It is unnecessary and really an infringement on my privacy and much needed time with Ellie. We have just gotten back to talking with each other and I couldn’t be more happier .We have had a rough patch and I am very happy that we are working through it .Jimmy just rubbed me up the wrong way . By the end of the week he is going to catch hands , I am going to slap him silly for doing what he did .The national coach doesn’t like me and I knew that putting my hand up for selection would be a waste of time . He indirectly threw stones at me . Something must have happened during practice to make him changed his mind .The only thing I could think of was that ; one of his little darlings , must have gotten injured during practice , and
Chapter 88EllieI don't know what happened one moment I was sitting on the couch with Max and he was telling me how much he loved me . You know some people wait a split second or a lifetime to hear their significant other tell them that they love them and that; their sun rises and sets with them. All that mooshy stuff gets us feeling all fuzzy and warm and it's a high that can't be fabricated or achieved by using drugs or alcohol which is also a drug but a depressant.The time I've spent with Max for the past couple of hours was far from depressing . It was illuminating in more ways than one ,and he just had to be the perfect boyfriend and bring me a peanut butter and banana smoothie . It was delicious and never have I ever not liked anything that Max had ever done for me . He is a chef in the kitchen and the sweetest guy if you don't double cross him .I was sitting
Chapter 89MaxThere were days when I loved going to work because; I was with a woman who didn't treat me with tender, loving care , and the respect I deserved . She even cut me off my own family and vilified them . She made me believe that they didn't care and that She was the only one in the world who cared about me ; but she only wanted someone she could control , and abuse emotionally.The article that Ellie wrote in my defence was accurate . I didn't understand what was going on , because ; the only thing I've ever known was physical and emotional abuse , and when I came clean to Betty about my passes ; she played me like ping pong ball . She played on every emotion , preyed on my insecurities ,and even when we fooled everyone , I couldn't fool myself . She cheated on me and ended up blaming me for her actions.Betty knew that I wanted to be a father and eventually have children with her ; but she didn't want to have kid
Chapter 374 Ellie I locked eyes with him, placed my spoon down, I placed both the palms of my hands on either side of his jaw and kissed him. "I have always had the fear of you leaving me and us not getting back together again. We almost lost it all but we fought to get to every year and I don't want us to not be with each other and have each other's backs when we're down. I know that sometimes our Lives can get hectic and thank you for forgiving me for what I did with Matteo. We both don't want to risk losing the people we loved and it seems as if Paulina is in love with you." "That may be true but my heart belongs to you I love you and I will never stop loving you you went when I was with other people I could think about was you so we also have something that we did together in that binds us so nice and I will never forget the day that we had our binding rooms done together at the same tattoo parlor. That was one of the best days of my life because you admitted strawberry ice cr
Chapter 373 Ellie I've been in pain before both emotionally and physically but combined it's a different kind of pain. Pain has levels that transcends by either triggers or events that trigger the same sensation that you felt before. It's like seasonal trauma but on a bigger scale because you feel it physically and you also feel that emotionally and no matter how hard you try not to feel like you always end up feeling it because it's meant to be felt. I always said that if you have torrents for paying you can tolerate anything, any blow that hits you or any fall that you suffer. I didn't expect what would happen. It wasn't supposed to happen if I had just said that I wasn't pregnant and just kept quiet and walked away instead of letting my ego get the better of me. I had to help my territory. Paulina needed to know that what she was doing was wrong. I already admitted to wrongdoing by trying to stop her friendship with my fiance from blooming because I was afraid of losing him
Chapter 372 Max By the time we made it to the hospital we had to enter another section of the hospital which was in the main entrance. I was a betting man. I'd say that these people have sections of hospitals everywhere they have wings .even when I traveled abroad with Daniel he had to go see a friend of his who was involved in a shooting that he wasn't supposed to be involved in and the level of security clearance was out of this world I had never seen security clearance like that and me being a football player which of course I'd need to get back to playing football our security clearance is nothing compared to the security clearance these guys have to get you have to be identified you have to know that you will be searched and the people that are searching you have to know that you're coming so for me to be tagging along with Fabio was a miracle. As soon as we walked in we were offered something to eat and drink but I don't have the first to drink anything in all the appetite
Chapter 371 Max have you ever been connected to someone so much so that you know that when something is wrong you can feel it in your blood bones and everything including your soul and you wonder if it might be something good or might be something bad or maybe it's just your mind playing tricks on you but I believe that when you are connected with someone and you've created love with someone you can feel when something is a bit off or something is wrong and in my case I did feel that something was off when I got taken away all of the sudden when I organised a meeting between Romano and Claudio. however understand reason why it happened but what I don't understand is the way I'm feeling right now because if you deserve the right has been pulled out from under me and I don't know how to react how to respond or 38 I don't know how you feel because I cannot comprehend how I feel everything was going ok I knew that the person that I loved and my loved ones are ok but all of the sudden t
Chapter 370MaxwellI don't like being hurt preferably I would love to do the hair thing because I know that I I'm getting something out of it I'm getting cathartic experience but the only thing I like getting as a punching bag which of course I love hurting because it doesn't fight back and it's just there for me to take out my frustration but when somebody takes out their frustration when you turn extent it's called abuse if you allow it to happen on a constant basis but in this case it wasn't to be my best friend who I really appreciate right now and I am happy and Proud to call a friend.I have to say that he pulled a number on me I'm in pain and I'm recovering from The Blues that he told me to make it look like I was involved in an attack this guy's a professional at what he does and I didn't have any makeup so he made it look like it was very young and I have been coming for a little while I don't know how he does it but he's a genius and I'm thinking that Daniel bought the fact
Chapter 369 Ellie The worst thing about setting up a meeting is if the person who set up the meeting doesn't pitch for the meeting and were civil and swine you know that the meeting is very important to both parties because it has to do with me marrying someone who requested for a meeting that I so wanted and now he's not here to eat the fruits of his labor. I'm still confused as to why Maxwell decided to have cold feet and not come to the party he's not the type of guy to chicken out of something that he said that he would do he's always been dependable and he's always been directed deliberate and intentional so for him to do what he did at a very important time of my life and at a time when I needed him the most is sort of out of character because it's not the guy that I've come to know and it's not the man that I thought and mind you thought being the operative word I was going to marry. I had to focus on the positives if I was still confused at how things had turned out and if
Chapter 368Max I'd like to believe that I'm not a skeptic but that would be lying. I know for a fact that I am a skeptical person because sometimes people don't always tell the truth, sometimes they just do and they sometimes make it into something that they want you to believe. There are always three sides to a story. I will say that there's always four sides to every story, there's the part that you hear, there's the part that the other person has to tell, the part that people believe is their own opinion of the truth and then the one that balances all is the real truth. When somebody says something it is always right to ask the person that they are talking about if what you heard was true if you don't it means that you choose to believe the truth that the other person who's lying told you and then you have to either verify the truth or believe the truth or someone else's version of the truth instead of hearing it from the horse's mouth. Deep down I knew for a fact that Matteo Ma
Chapter 367 Ellie If there's one thing that I don't want and one thing I don't want to go through again is the same hurt that I felt when Maxwell left me. You can love someone and give your all in a relationship but if the trust is not there then there's something that's missing people often say they trust is like a plate once you break it you can't put it back together but I beg to differ because once you break a plate it's up to you if you sweep up the pieces burn them making your plate it's ceramic for crying out loud so why would you not want to fix what was once broken and see if this person is capable of changing because everyone is capable of change if they want to change and if they are changing for the right person because if someone refuses to change they can actually limit the growth I always say a person who doesn't want to change as like a stagnant water , if doesn't move it can harbor filth. Water like blood is a life force. It's constantly moving and it's constantly
Chapter 366Maxyou know very well when you're about to go play a match whatever you have is enough to get you through the performance, whatever you wear and what every feeling you have means. I normally work through the nerves and of the times that I've been nervous my go-to thought all my go to safe place has always been the person that I want to marry and it turned out to be the person that I am engaged to right now. I've had nerves and I've had instances where I don't feel confident about the game I'm going to play but the only way to beat that is to have safe thoughts recently it has been only my son and my fiance but now I've got more things to think about than the usual soccer game and a performance that I have to put on. This is one of those days when I am not supposed to put on a performance because if I couldn't performance they are going to pick it up and if I act all weird they are still going to pick it up so the only thing to do is to act normal around both men who are