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I WILL MAKE MYSELF WORTHY
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Even though he had already returned to his seat and the class was already started but she could still sense Lu Sheng's worried filled gaze fixed at her. She could feel that Lu Sheng was not fake and was true towards her but for some reason she couldn't help but feel guilty. He loved her and she loved him back, but the thing which bothered her was that was she really worthy of being his girl?
Qin Yue had a hard time concentrating on the class and even passed out every few seconds. And what was Lu Sheng up to? He sat still on his seat and jotted down her every action deep in his heart which was being restless for some reason.
The school bell echoed in the corridors as everyone started to pack up their stuffs and headed towards their home. As always Lu Sheng and An Zihao came up to her; Lu Sheng was silent but this time it was An Zihao who was being noisy.
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