I couldn’t remember the last time Bob and I had sex. I was always busy with housework, and Bob usually worked late.
I smiled slightly at the thought of the white roses he had brought me just a few mornings ago. He had worked especially late the night before, not even bothering to come home. He apologized profusely when he gave me the flowers and told me he just didn’t want to disturb me. I mentally cursed myself. I should’ve seen the writing on the wall. I pulled the mystery man’s jacket tighter around myself and forced back my tears. “Are you okay?” the man asked. It must have been the millionth time he had asked me that, but damn it felt good to have someone care. I smiled. “I’ll be fine.” “You know, you’re actually taking this pretty well.” “I am?” “Yeah. I know a lot of women who, in your position, would’ve ripped their husband’s balls off.” I giggled. “Why would I do that? I don’t have much use for them as it is.” The man laughed. I felt years of tension ease from my shoulders at the sound. “I can imagine. He doesn’t look like a shower or a grower.” I laughed until I snorted. I blushed. “I’m so sorry about that,” I murmured. “Sorry about what? I thought it was cute. You should laugh more.” “Yeah, it’s just…my snorting is so embarrassing…” “No, it’s not. It’s adorable, like a little piglet.” My blushing spread to my ears and neck. Somehow, though, I had never felt more at ease. Relaxed. Then the man began snorting like a pig. I motioned for him to be quiet, but he only got louder. After a minute of this, I could only laugh until my sides ached. And I snorted, too. For once, I didn’t care. “Hey! What’s going on down there?” Bob’s brother, Peter, shouted from a window on the second floor. I immediately stopped laughing. My mind froze. Before I could even think to say goodbye to my companion, I ran back inside with his jacket still draped around me. •* * I waited until all our guests were gone and only Bob’s family and I remained. I didn’t care what people thought of Bob, but confronting him in front of others would embarrass me, too.I found him sitting alone in his study, reading a magazine. With a deep breath, I entered the room and stood in front of him until he looked up at me.“Yes?” he asked.My fist clenched. Tears danced at the edges of my eyes.“Why did you cheat on me?”“Do you really want me to say it?”Bob and I glared at each other in silence for a full minute before Peter and Bob’s parents barged in.“What do you want, Peter? I’m trying to have a private conversation with my wife,” Bob spat.“It’s about your wife.” Peter crossed his arms over his chest as he faced me. “I saw her having a rendezvous with another man in the garden.”My jaw dropped. Bob’s face slowly turned scarlet.“She what? When?”“Tonight! I saw her with my own eyes. And look!”Peter lifted his hands, and that was when I realized that he was carrying the man’s jacket. Did he go in my closet?“What’s that?” Bob asked, his eyes never leaving me.“The man’s jacket. She was wearing it,” Peter responded.I should have just told them that he was a stranger, someone invited to the dinner party, but I couldn’t find my voice. I looked to Bob’s parents for support, but they glared at me as well.“You come in here accusing me of cheating,” Bob began, “when this whole time you have been cheating on me.”“How dare you accuse my baby of such a thing!” Bob’s mother screeched.“And to think, you risked having your little tryst when you had guests over,” Bob’s father added. “I…please…” I croaked.“Just stop, Anna. I don’t want to hear your excuses.”Bob stopped, as though considering something.“The only thing to be done now is for Marsha to move in. The least you can do is let me take care of my child.”My nails dug into my palm until they left imprints.“No! There is no way that your mistress—”“Well, maybe if you could get pregnant, then my son wouldn’t have needed to find other options,” Bob’s mother snapped. “He’s carrying a legacy on his shoulders, one that you obviously can’t help him pass on.”I instinctively stepped towards the door, but Peter blocked her exit.“I mean, has there always been something wrong with you?” Bob’s mother continued. “Why didn’t you tell us earlier? Just to piggyback onto our wealth?”Tears poured down my cheeks. The gremlins ripped relentlessly at my stomach. I wanted to vomit, but I refused to give them the pleasure of seeing me so weak.“If you want to continue to be a part of this family, you must find a doctor and get help for your infertility immediately,” Bob’s father demanded.I could barely see Bob and his family through my watery eyes. A vein pounded in my forehead. The gremlins had climbed up my esophagus and begun clawing at my throat.“You—”I coughed.“You will not—”I coughed again.“You will not tell me what to do with my own body—”I coughed again. The last thing I saw before darkness claimed me was a mouthful of blood cradled in the palm of my hand. •* * I awakened to the blinding light and sterile smell of a hospital room. Medical instruments beeped loudly in my ear. I longed to silence them, but I knew that those noises meant that at least I was still alive.I looked to my bedside to find a singular vase of carnations with a teddy bear and a get-well card. I smiled, knowing that they had come from my best friend Lily, but it wavered. The carnations only served to remind me of that adulterous florist, Marsha.“Good afternoon, Mrs. Hayes, I am Dr. Perez.” a man in a doctor’s uniform said as he approached my bed. About sixty years old, he had salt-and-pepper hair and kind, dark blue eyes. “How are you feeling?”“Fine, I guess. Thirsty.”“Here, let me help you.”The doctor bent over and grabbed a glass of water from my bedside table. He helped me drink from the straw before setting it back down.“Mrs. Hayes—”“Please, call me Anna.”“Anna, I’m afraid that there’s no easy way to say this. You have stomach cancer.”I felt the color rush from my face. “I have what?”“Stomach cancer. Now, there are a number of treatments available, but to determine the best option for you, I’m going to refer you to an oncologist…”I nodded, only half-listening to Dr. Perez’s words. Stomach cancer? How could this have happened?“Is there anyone you want me to call for you? Your emergency contact, perhaps?”I shook my head quickly.“No, no. Please, don’t tell anyone about this. Please.”Dr. Perez’s kind eyes locked on mine, but he nodded.A sudden knock drew our attention to the door. Bob stood in the doorframe.“Can I help you?” Dr. Perez asked.“I’m Anna’s husband,” Bob replied.Dr. Perez glanced at me for permission. When I nodded, he motioned Bob to my bed.“I was just going over your wife’s diagnosis,” Dr. Perez explained.“I’ll just be a minute,” Bob said. He turned to me. “I want a divorce.”Dr. Perez narrowed his eyes at Bob and slammed his pen on his clipboard.“Excuse me, sir, but now is not the time for this. Your wife has just learned—”“Please, Doctor, give me a minute with my husband,” I interrupted him.Dr. Perez looked at me and, at my pleading glance, nodded. “A nurse will be by to check on you in five minutes, and I will come back to finish our discussion before the end of the hour.”With one last glare at Bob, Dr. Perez left us in relative privacy with only the other patient in the room.Bob seemed about to speak when I said, “I agree to the divorce.”Bob blinked in surprise.“Oh. Good. Sam will be by to serve you with the papers sometime later today, I guess.”He shifted toward the door, then turned back to face me.“Are you moving in with that man you met with in the garden?”“What? Why would you even think that? I just found out about the divorce.”“Well, it seems that you’ve been cheating on me for a while now, so—”“I have been cheating on you? Your mistress is pregnant, Bob!”“That doesn’t mean you haven’t been showing your fat ass around town, too.” Bob huffed. “No wonder you’re like a piece of wood in bed, never letting me get off.”I laughed dryly. “Oh, please. You didn’t give me anything to work with, with that thin little toothpick of yours. I mean, one can’t possibly react to a nonexistent gadget.”I smirked as the incoming nurse let out a chuckle.Bob’s face turned red. He grumbled something under his breath, but I couldn’t make out what it was. He slunk towards the door, but just before leaving, he regained his composure and turned to face me.“Make sure you come get your shit once they let you out of here, or I’ll leave it on the lawn,” he said with a finger in my direction.Bob left before I could respond.“That your husband?” the nurse asked.“Ex. Soon to be.” I hadn’t expected the first time I said that to feel so freeing.“Honey, I don’t know the whole situation, but from what I just saw, you are much better off without him.”I grinned, but my heart still ached a little. “Thank you.”“Don’t tell me you started the party without me?” a familiar musical voice called out from the door.I had to laugh, even though it hurt my stomach.“Never without you. You’re the life of the party!”I turned to greet my beautiful best friend, Lily. The thin, robust Tik Tok travel influencer
“Stop right there! Unless you want a million people online to watch you committing assault. In which case, thank you for providing all the evidence in person!”Peter’s fist immediately retracted. I had never been so relieved to hear that clear, bright voice.“Hi, Lily,” I said softly.Everyone turned to the door to see Lily standing there, her phone’s camera pointed at Peter. To me, she looked like a superhero straight from the gym with her designer sweats, sports bra, light jacket, and high ponytail. She even had her free hand placed on her hip.Lily made her way through the room, phone still held up, until she stepped between Peter and me. The expression she gave him dared the man to mess with her and find out what would happen.“I’m live right now, so everyone better keep that in mind,” she warned. She leaned into me. “Are you okay?”“Yeah, luckily, he didn’t get any hits in. He just touched my butt.”“Excuse me?” Lily shrieked. “And no one did anything about it?”“I slapped him.”
My eyes widened, but I forced myself to stay calm. It had been so long since I had last seen Barnett. His blonde waves were even more breath-taking than I had remembered, his toned muscles more captivating than I had dreamed.I swallowed several times before speaking.“Nice to meet you, Barnett—”“Cogsworth. Barnett Cogsworth.”His deep voice sent shockwaves down to my groin, but I remained composed. There was no use in losing myself to my hormones like some love-struck teenager. What I felt back then didn’t matter now.“That’s right, Barnett Cogsworth. Nice to meet you,” I said, as though meeting him for the first time. I hoped that my voice did not betray the fire burning in my stomach and below.Barnett turned to Lily, who shrugged helplessly. I could tell that this had not been the reaction that Lily had been hoping for, but hopefully she wasn’t about to push it. Barnett returned his attention to me and took off his sunglasses.I struggled to repress my reaction to seeing his full
“So what if I am?” Barnett asked.I yelped as Barnett’s other arm wrapped under my knees and Barnett lifted me in his arms as easily as a rag doll. I had no choice but to put my arms around his neck and lean in close to his chest to maintain my balance.“Why don’t you take her bags to her new apartment?” Barnett said to Lily. “We’ll follow behind you.”“Sure thing.”Lily grinned like a schoolgirl holding in excited laughter. I wanted to stick my tongue out at her, but that would have ruined the front we were putting up for Bob—whatever that was exactly.Barnett glared at Bob. “Don’t follow us.”We left a stammering Bob behind as Lily climbed into her Lamborghini and Barnett carried me to his Rolls Royce. How could he handle me so effortlessly? I weighed at least 200 pounds!“I am so sorry about all that,” I said once we were out of Bob’s hearing range.“Think nothing of it. Anything to give a jackass like him what he deserves.”“Well, you really know how to sweep a girl off her feet.”
“I don’t know,” I said as I turned the card around in my hands. “I’m going to have to think about it.”Barnett merely stared at me, so I kept rambling.“I’m not as confident about sharing and social media as Lily is. Besides, I’m just some newly divorced fat girl. Who’s going to want to watch me work out?”“First of all, you are not fat. Second of all, you never know about the whole social media thing. I bet there are all sorts of people who will want to watch you.”I cringed, thinking for a second about the kinds of perverts Barnett might be thinking about. Peter immediately came to mind. I almost gagged at the thought of him watching my ass while I stretched.Barnett rolled his eyes and chuckled.“I don’t mean that kind of person,” he said. “I mean people like you—divorced, looking to get healthy, a little more down on themselves than they should be.”He tried to meet my eyes, but I refused to return his gaze.“You know,” he continued, “the ones with the hot girls inside just waitin
I took a deep breath. “Here goes nothing.”Holding my phone out from me at arm’s length, I clicked the camera icon and plastered my best fake smile onto my face.“Hi, everyone,” I said, mentally cringing at the sound of my own voice. “My name is Anna Leonard, and this is my first day working out at Stand Up. I’m super excited to get started on some cardio here on the treadmill after I get in some stretching.”I paused, unsure of what to say next. Then I remembered what Barnett had said the night he had given me the V.I.P. card.“Look, I’m going to be honest here. I’m not some supermodel or fitness guru. I’m just an ordinary fat girl looking to get her hot self back after a particularly bad breakup.”Tears welled at the corners of my eyes. I brushed them away with the knuckle of my index finger.“If you’re like me and just want a little inspiration for your own journey back to your best self, I welcome you to like this video, leave a comment, and follow my transformation over the next
I should have seen this coming. Of course one of the hottest—one of the handsomest—internet celebrities would want one of the hottest stylists. Not just by reputation, but physically as well. I wouldn’t have even come here if Lily hadn’t gone through all this trouble to get me an interview. She was my friend, after all. I couldn’t let her effort go to waste. But there had to be a reason why Lily had gone through all that effort. It couldn’t just be because she was my best friend. That certainly wasn’t the reason why she had me style her hair and makeup every time she went to a party. Then it hit me. “You’re friends with Lily, right?” I asked. Arthur rolled his eyes. “Yes, that’s why I agreed to this charade in the first place.” “You’ve been to parties with her, then?” “Of course.” “And what do you think of her hair and makeup?” His Cupid’s bow lips quirked into a little smile. “They’re always utter perfect
Arthur was elated to see me the next day. It made me suspicious. “Well, Anna, you really did it,” he said it with a brilliant white grin. “Mona Williams of Good Morning, Mona loved my new look, especially the pompadour.” He ran his fingers through his hair. I wanted to smack him for messing with it, but I was too excited about the news to care. “You’re kidding, right?” I just couldn’t believe that a look I had styled had been mentioned on a nationally syndicated TV show. “No, I’m not. You did wonderfully, little fan girl. And I can’t wait to see what you have in mind for me today.” I couldn’t stop smiling. It was hard to believe that I had wasted eight years running a household for someone like Bob when I could have been using my talents to make something of myself. I sobered a bit. According to the oncologist, I only had about six months remaining to right that wrong. But I would value every moment of my existence that I had lef
9 years later… I sat down in the first row, my coffee cup balanced in my hands. The rink was cold, and I was bundled up in a sweater and a winter coat. Beside me, Lily sat with my daughter on her lap. Winnie was just three years old, and she was already asleep on Lily’s shoulder, the hood of her pink parka pulled up over her head. The sight of them together warmed my heart.“Damn, she’s getting heavy,” Lily said.I smiled. “I know. They grow up fast.”She nodded. Lily didn’t have kids, and I didn’t think she ever wanted to. She was happy being Cool Aunt Lily, and I thought that was amazing. She still traveled all over the world, bringing exotic gifts back for her niece and nephews.“She asks about you all the time now,” I said. “She calls you ‘wi-wy.’”“Adorbs.” Lily hugged her closer. “We’re going to be besties when she’s older.”“For sure.”“Scratch that. We’re already besties.”The first period was about to start, and I sat up straighter. Both teams were on their benches. I could
“I’m the father,” he repeated.I nodded. “That’s why I was trying to find you. I wanted to tell you, but after what Julia said, I thought you never wanted to see me again. If not for Lily, I would have continued to think that. Still, I’m sorry you’re only finding out now.”A sad look crossed his face, and he put his head in his hands. “God, I’m sorry.”I stood up and walked around the desk. His muscles tensed, but he didn’t look up as I ran my hands over his shoulders. “You’re here now,” I said.“I should’ve been with you the whole time.”He swiveled around in his chair and hugged me, his face resting lightly against my stomach. I ran a hand through his soft blond hair. “I’m so sorry,” he said. He looked up at me and gave me a wide smile. My heart skipped a beat. “I’m really happy, Anna.”“You are?”“You have no idea.” He still hadn’t let go of me, but I didn’t want him to. I never wanted him to. If I could have stayed in his arms forever, I would have.“I’m happy too,” I said, tears
Barnett gestured for me to sit down, and I took one of the plush armchairs across from his desk.“Can I get you anything?” he asked. “Water or something?”I shook my head. “No, I’m alright.”He nodded and sat down in his leather chair. “Either Lily is clairvoyant, or she convinced you to come here,” he said after a moment of awkward silence.“She’s adamant that we talk.”He just nodded again.Another long stretch of silence ensued as I searched for something to say.“You look great,” he said. I wasn’t used to this awkwardness between us. It seemed to squeeze at my throat, preventing the words from rising. So much time had passed, and he felt both familiar to me and completely a stranger.“I heard about your father,” I answered, ignoring his compliment completely. That felt like dangerous territory. “I’m sorry he was sick. Is he doing better now?”“He is,” he said. “It was tough going for a while, but he’s doing a lot better now. Good enough to kick me out, anyway.”“He sounds like a c
“Barnett, open up!” Lily called.Barnett sighed and got out of bed. It was still early in the morning, early enough that he wanted to yell at her through the door and tell her to go away. He hardly slept as it was. The last thing he needed was an early morning wake-up call.He pulled on his robe and stomped over to the door.“Barnett!” she called again.He yanked open the door and scowled down at her. “Do you know what time it is?”She smirked and shoved past him into his apartment. At least she had two coffee cups with her. She handed him one and he took a sip. It was still hot, and it burned his tongue.“It’s a beautiful day,” she said.“Is it?”He sank down onto his couch and pulled his robe tighter around him. Lily didn’t sit down, she just started pacing back and forth in front of him. He was much too tired to deal with all her energy. Lily wasn’t much of a morning person either, but today she was clearly on something.“Did you sleep at all last night?”“Like a baby,” she said, h
I’d been home for nearly a month, and people were still talking about my ‘relationship’ with Arthur. It was really starting to drive me crazy. To the point where I knew I’d have to set the story straight if I ever wanted the rumors and speculation to stop.The nursery was mostly finished now, and the rest of the rooms were looking better, too. I had my office set up with a desk and some of my filming equipment. I planned to use it mostly for behind-the-scenes stuff, but it would work if I needed to film a quick video like I did now.I decided to just film a sit-down video. I’d been filming my vlogs at the gym in my building, and while that was going well, I’d avoided addressing everything with Arthur.I knew people were still talking about it because the comments on my videos were mostly about our relationship. People wanted to know why we weren’t traveling together more. If we were going to get married. What we planned to name the babies.Everyone seemed convinced that they were his,
I wiped my hand across my cheek, realizing at the last second that I had blue paint on my fingers. I rushed over to the bathroom and laughed when I caught sight of myself in the mirror. There was pale blue paint smeared across my cheek, dotted across my white t-shirt. There was even a bit of paint at the ends of my hair that I would probably have to cut off.Deciding to decorate the nursery myself might have been a bad idea, but I couldn’t deny I was having a lot of fun. As much as I was making a mess, it felt meaningful to do it myself. To pour all my love and hope into that one little room.The cribs were arriving in a couple of days, and I already have a tall, white dresser to put in there for all the baby clothes. I bought a changing table from a lady online and it was already up and waiting in my new office. There were still quite a few things I needed before the babies were born, but I was finally on track.After arriving home, I decided that the first thing I needed to do was f
He couldn’t stop looking at the pictures. He knew he needed to, but Barnett couldn’t turn away. They were all over the internet. Everywhere he went, the photos and videos of them taunted him. They were holding hands on a sailboat. Sitting together on a rock, their faces red from their hike. Having dinner beneath the stars in some far-off place with just trees and mountains for miles, looking far more intimate than Barnett would have liked.One headline caught his eye as he scrolled, and he sucked in a breath.PREGNANT FITNESS INFLUENCER ANNA LEONARD TRAVELS WITH FAMOUS BOYFRIEND ARTHUR STARDUSTHe finally forced himself to put down his phone. Agonizing over it wasn’t helping him. Anna was happy without him. He just had to accept that somehow and move on, even if it seemed like an impossible thing to do. She was clearly in love with Arthur.Just as he placed his phone down on his desk, it rang.He picked it up without checking the Caller ID, half-convinced it was Anna calling. That he’
Lily found Barnett at his apartment. She had to knock a few times before he finally came to the door, a slight scowl on his face.“So, you’re back,” she said.He stepped aside to let her in. She closed the apartment door behind her and trailed him into the room. “How was Egypt?”“It was fine. Saw the pyramids.” He looked interested, but she wasn’t there to talk about Egypt. “Have you been online recently?”
I stopped in front of the mirror and pulled up my shirt. A few months of filming later, and I was really starting to show. I kept having to buy new clothes as my size changed. Those jeans I worked so hard to fit into didn’t even make it past my thighs now.I dropped my shirt and looked over my outfit. I had on a pair of workout leggings, sneakers, and a form-fitting pullover that showed off my protruding belly. Arthur and I were hiking today for our segment. My hair was up in a high ponytail, and I had some natural makeup on. Without it, I had dark circles under my eyes from all the early morning shoots.