My eyes widened, but I forced myself to stay calm. It had been so long since I had last seen Barnett. His blonde waves were even more breath-taking than I had remembered, his toned muscles more captivating than I had dreamed.I swallowed several times before speaking.“Nice to meet you, Barnett—”“Cogsworth. Barnett Cogsworth.”His deep voice sent shockwaves down to my groin, but I remained composed. There was no use in losing myself to my hormones like some love-struck teenager. What I felt back then didn’t matter now.“That’s right, Barnett Cogsworth. Nice to meet you,” I said, as though meeting him for the first time. I hoped that my voice did not betray the fire burning in my stomach and below.Barnett turned to Lily, who shrugged helplessly. I could tell that this had not been the reaction that Lily had been hoping for, but hopefully she wasn’t about to push it. Barnett returned his attention to me and took off his sunglasses.I struggled to repress my reaction to seeing his full face. With those deep brown eyes and pouty lips, it was no wonder that his face adorned so many magazines. Or any wonder that he had a sexy international model for a wife.I couldn’t go anywhere without seeing a picture of Julia. Her ads even blessed the big screens of such cities as New York City and Los Angeles. Devilishly wide hips, large breasts, and a thick ass with a sinfully skinny waste, Julia made Barnett envied by every man alive.Well, her and his wealth. Heir to the Cogsworth family fortune, he was the third richest person in the world, with control over an immeasurable fortune. They had their hands in just about everything possible.Not that I thought about him much anymore.I glanced at the lion’s head cufflinks and shook my head.No, I thought. No, Barnett couldn’t be the guy from that night. It’s impossible.His hand in my face brought me out of my thoughts.“It’s nice to meet you as well, Anna—”“Hayes. Well, I suppose it’s Anna Leonard now.” I supposed that I would have to get accustomed to using my maiden name again.I took his hand and shook it. So firm, so confident. If only I could be so confident.“What do you mean, it’s Leonard now?”“I mean that my husband and I are getting divorced.”Barnett nodded in acknowledgement but did not comment on it.Yeah, he can’t be the same man as the other night, I told myself. He’s acting too distant, even more distant than when he was Coach Barnett.“I say that she’s better off for it. Her husband is a lowlife, and his family is even worse,” Lily spat.“Yes, well, every couple has their problems,” I countered.“Yes, they do,” Barnett agreed.Lily rolled her eyes.“Anyway,” she said, addressing me, “I’m staying at Uncle Barnett’s house for a few days, so I thought I’d bring him as backup.”“Backup?” I asked.“You know, just in case.”It disturbed me that Lily had thought that she would need the backup around Bob and his family. How long had she been under this impression without saying anything to me? Then again, hadn’t I thought the same thing when I asked Lily to be my backup?“In case of what?” I asked warily.“Oh, I don’t know, your brother-in-law trying to hit you in the face.”I rolled her eyes. “You seemed to handle that quite well by yourself. You and your followers, that is.”Lily grinned. “I did, didn’t I? And who says social media is a waste of time?”I just shook her head. “Come on, we need to get my bags. You made me drop them back there.”Lily and I went back up the walkway and each took some of my bags to take to the Lamborghini. We were almost to the car when we heard a voice calling Anna’s name.“Anna! Anna!”I turned my head and immediately groaned.“What?” Lily asked.“Bob.”“Good God, what does he want?”“I have no idea.”“Anna, wait, please!”Bob came running to a halt in front of us, panting. We let him catch his breath before motioning for him to speak.“Anna, I’m so sorry. I don’t even know why I brought up the divorce,” he pleaded, his eyes wide in an attempt to appear sincere.“Uh, maybe because you were fucking around behind her back?” Lily said.Bob ignored her. “Please, Anna, I’m sorry. I regret asking for a divorce, I genuinely do.”“No, what you regret is the fact that you’re going to have to split your property with her.” Lily shook her head and threw my bags in her car. “Let’s go.”I didn’t know how much more of this I could take. “Bob, just leave.”“Anna—” Bob grabbed my hand with both of his— “please, please forgive me. I was stupid, I wasn’t thinking—”“No, you never do. And you aren’t now.” Tears welled up in my eyes.Damn it, I thought I was done crying for him, I mentally cursed myself.“Things can just go back to the way they were—”I ripped my hand out of his grasp. “What? With you cheating on me?”Bob tried to grab my hand again, but I pulled it away. “I know that neither of us really want this.”“Really? Because the more we stand here talking about it, the more that I want it.”I wasn’t entirely sure if that was true, but it was truer than me wanting to go back to him.“You have no idea what you’re getting into going back into the world. Alone and single, you’ll be eaten alive—”“It sure as hell will be better than staying with you.”Bob grabbed my forearm and pulled me close.“I’m asking you nicely. Please…come…back…home. Now.”I tried to pull my arm away, but Bob’s grip only tightened. For once, I was actually frightened of my soon-to-be ex-husband. The anger in his eyes contained a fire that I had never seen from the normally cowardly man before.What might he do in his desperation?“Get out of my way and don’t touch my woman,” Barnett’s sexy voice rang out as he tore Bob’s hand off my arm.I watched Barnett in surprise. What did he mean, my woman? Not that I minded the sound of that at all.Barnett looked at me from the side of his eye. He then effortlessly wrapped his arm around my shoulder, pulling me close to him. I could smell that familiar scent of sweat, pine, and, after all this time, hockey jerseys and helmets.The same smell that had made me swoon that fateful night.No, I chided myself, he is not the same man.I resisted the urge to rest my head against Barnett’s shoulder, no matter how tempting it was—or how strong the urge to piss Bob off was.I could not remember ever feeling so safe or so welcomed in Bob’s embrace.Bob’s mouth moved up and down like a trout gasping in open air.“You…you’re…are you Barnett Cogsworth? Billionaire Barnett?”
“So what if I am?” Barnett asked.I yelped as Barnett’s other arm wrapped under my knees and Barnett lifted me in his arms as easily as a rag doll. I had no choice but to put my arms around his neck and lean in close to his chest to maintain my balance.“Why don’t you take her bags to her new apartment?” Barnett said to Lily. “We’ll follow behind you.”“Sure thing.”Lily grinned like a schoolgirl holding in excited laughter. I wanted to stick my tongue out at her, but that would have ruined the front we were putting up for Bob—whatever that was exactly.Barnett glared at Bob. “Don’t follow us.”We left a stammering Bob behind as Lily climbed into her Lamborghini and Barnett carried me to his Rolls Royce. How could he handle me so effortlessly? I weighed at least 200 pounds!“I am so sorry about all that,” I said once we were out of Bob’s hearing range.“Think nothing of it. Anything to give a jackass like him what he deserves.”“Well, you really know how to sweep a girl off her feet.”
“I don’t know,” I said as I turned the card around in my hands. “I’m going to have to think about it.”Barnett merely stared at me, so I kept rambling.“I’m not as confident about sharing and social media as Lily is. Besides, I’m just some newly divorced fat girl. Who’s going to want to watch me work out?”“First of all, you are not fat. Second of all, you never know about the whole social media thing. I bet there are all sorts of people who will want to watch you.”I cringed, thinking for a second about the kinds of perverts Barnett might be thinking about. Peter immediately came to mind. I almost gagged at the thought of him watching my ass while I stretched.Barnett rolled his eyes and chuckled.“I don’t mean that kind of person,” he said. “I mean people like you—divorced, looking to get healthy, a little more down on themselves than they should be.”He tried to meet my eyes, but I refused to return his gaze.“You know,” he continued, “the ones with the hot girls inside just waitin
I took a deep breath. “Here goes nothing.”Holding my phone out from me at arm’s length, I clicked the camera icon and plastered my best fake smile onto my face.“Hi, everyone,” I said, mentally cringing at the sound of my own voice. “My name is Anna Leonard, and this is my first day working out at Stand Up. I’m super excited to get started on some cardio here on the treadmill after I get in some stretching.”I paused, unsure of what to say next. Then I remembered what Barnett had said the night he had given me the V.I.P. card.“Look, I’m going to be honest here. I’m not some supermodel or fitness guru. I’m just an ordinary fat girl looking to get her hot self back after a particularly bad breakup.”Tears welled at the corners of my eyes. I brushed them away with the knuckle of my index finger.“If you’re like me and just want a little inspiration for your own journey back to your best self, I welcome you to like this video, leave a comment, and follow my transformation over the next
I should have seen this coming. Of course one of the hottest—one of the handsomest—internet celebrities would want one of the hottest stylists. Not just by reputation, but physically as well. I wouldn’t have even come here if Lily hadn’t gone through all this trouble to get me an interview. She was my friend, after all. I couldn’t let her effort go to waste. But there had to be a reason why Lily had gone through all that effort. It couldn’t just be because she was my best friend. That certainly wasn’t the reason why she had me style her hair and makeup every time she went to a party. Then it hit me. “You’re friends with Lily, right?” I asked. Arthur rolled his eyes. “Yes, that’s why I agreed to this charade in the first place.” “You’ve been to parties with her, then?” “Of course.” “And what do you think of her hair and makeup?” His Cupid’s bow lips quirked into a little smile. “They’re always utter perfect
Arthur was elated to see me the next day. It made me suspicious. “Well, Anna, you really did it,” he said it with a brilliant white grin. “Mona Williams of Good Morning, Mona loved my new look, especially the pompadour.” He ran his fingers through his hair. I wanted to smack him for messing with it, but I was too excited about the news to care. “You’re kidding, right?” I just couldn’t believe that a look I had styled had been mentioned on a nationally syndicated TV show. “No, I’m not. You did wonderfully, little fan girl. And I can’t wait to see what you have in mind for me today.” I couldn’t stop smiling. It was hard to believe that I had wasted eight years running a household for someone like Bob when I could have been using my talents to make something of myself. I sobered a bit. According to the oncologist, I only had about six months remaining to right that wrong. But I would value every moment of my existence that I had lef
We had just finished moving everything important—and dry—out of the apartment. I still wasn’t sure what to do with them, but maybe Barnett knew of a storage unit nearby with an opening.I was about to ask him just that when Barnett opened his mouth.“So, Anna, about the night that Lily…introduced us,” he said.Heat rose into my cheeks. God, I knew what this was about.“You acted like you didn’t know me.”Yup, here it goes, I thought. He’s going to ask if I really didn’t remember that he was my hockey coach.“Did you really not recog—”A pounding at the door startled us both.I looked at the clock. It was nearly 9:30. Who would be visiting at this hour?“Let me just see who that is,” I told Barnett as I squeezed by him. I tried to avoid touching him, but the heat between us nearly undid my composure.When I opened the door, my landlord stood on the other side. A portly man with oversized glasses and a tendency to vape, I hadn’t dealt with Mr. Smith much outside of signing the lease. Th
“I’ll teach you.” I couldn’t find the words to object. Honestly, I didn’t want to, either. “Okay. So, how do I start?” I said instead. He motioned to the padded block at one end of the machine. “Sit here.” I obeyed. “Put your feet here.” I put my feet where he indicated and strapped them in. Barnett bent over me and checked the straps on my feet. My heart fluttered at the smell of his sweat and the feel of his arms as they wrapped around me. This felt just like when Barnett coached me in hockey, except somehow more…intimate. “Good. Nice and tight.” Like the back support belt, I said in my mind. “Now, I want you to grab this.” He leaned over me and handed me what looked like a pole on an elastic string. “And we’re going to turn this on to keep track of your progress.” Again, he leaned over me to press some buttons on the monitor by my feet. I tried to pay attention to
“You mean…you knew?” “You think?” “I…well…” I was a bit distracted. I would never admit that out loud. By your words…your actions… “Did you think I wasn’t observant enough to see the camera set up right there?” I blushed even though Barnett couldn’t see me. His tone during the workout had been its usual forceful one, but something about how he had conducted himself, about what he said, how close he was to me when he said it—it was too much for me even now. “Well?” I shook my head, realizing I had lost myself in my thoughts. “No, I guess…I don’t know what I thought. I’m sorry.” “Don’t worry about it. Just remember that other people might not be as cool about it as I am. Okay?” “Okay.” “And in the future, I don’t mind being in your videos, any time you need me.” “Okay,” I said, a bit surprised. “I am your trainer, after all.”•* * That night, I dreamt of a memory from
9 years later… I sat down in the first row, my coffee cup balanced in my hands. The rink was cold, and I was bundled up in a sweater and a winter coat. Beside me, Lily sat with my daughter on her lap. Winnie was just three years old, and she was already asleep on Lily’s shoulder, the hood of her pink parka pulled up over her head. The sight of them together warmed my heart.“Damn, she’s getting heavy,” Lily said.I smiled. “I know. They grow up fast.”She nodded. Lily didn’t have kids, and I didn’t think she ever wanted to. She was happy being Cool Aunt Lily, and I thought that was amazing. She still traveled all over the world, bringing exotic gifts back for her niece and nephews.“She asks about you all the time now,” I said. “She calls you ‘wi-wy.’”“Adorbs.” Lily hugged her closer. “We’re going to be besties when she’s older.”“For sure.”“Scratch that. We’re already besties.”The first period was about to start, and I sat up straighter. Both teams were on their benches. I could
“I’m the father,” he repeated.I nodded. “That’s why I was trying to find you. I wanted to tell you, but after what Julia said, I thought you never wanted to see me again. If not for Lily, I would have continued to think that. Still, I’m sorry you’re only finding out now.”A sad look crossed his face, and he put his head in his hands. “God, I’m sorry.”I stood up and walked around the desk. His muscles tensed, but he didn’t look up as I ran my hands over his shoulders. “You’re here now,” I said.“I should’ve been with you the whole time.”He swiveled around in his chair and hugged me, his face resting lightly against my stomach. I ran a hand through his soft blond hair. “I’m so sorry,” he said. He looked up at me and gave me a wide smile. My heart skipped a beat. “I’m really happy, Anna.”“You are?”“You have no idea.” He still hadn’t let go of me, but I didn’t want him to. I never wanted him to. If I could have stayed in his arms forever, I would have.“I’m happy too,” I said, tears
Barnett gestured for me to sit down, and I took one of the plush armchairs across from his desk.“Can I get you anything?” he asked. “Water or something?”I shook my head. “No, I’m alright.”He nodded and sat down in his leather chair. “Either Lily is clairvoyant, or she convinced you to come here,” he said after a moment of awkward silence.“She’s adamant that we talk.”He just nodded again.Another long stretch of silence ensued as I searched for something to say.“You look great,” he said. I wasn’t used to this awkwardness between us. It seemed to squeeze at my throat, preventing the words from rising. So much time had passed, and he felt both familiar to me and completely a stranger.“I heard about your father,” I answered, ignoring his compliment completely. That felt like dangerous territory. “I’m sorry he was sick. Is he doing better now?”“He is,” he said. “It was tough going for a while, but he’s doing a lot better now. Good enough to kick me out, anyway.”“He sounds like a c
“Barnett, open up!” Lily called.Barnett sighed and got out of bed. It was still early in the morning, early enough that he wanted to yell at her through the door and tell her to go away. He hardly slept as it was. The last thing he needed was an early morning wake-up call.He pulled on his robe and stomped over to the door.“Barnett!” she called again.He yanked open the door and scowled down at her. “Do you know what time it is?”She smirked and shoved past him into his apartment. At least she had two coffee cups with her. She handed him one and he took a sip. It was still hot, and it burned his tongue.“It’s a beautiful day,” she said.“Is it?”He sank down onto his couch and pulled his robe tighter around him. Lily didn’t sit down, she just started pacing back and forth in front of him. He was much too tired to deal with all her energy. Lily wasn’t much of a morning person either, but today she was clearly on something.“Did you sleep at all last night?”“Like a baby,” she said, h
I’d been home for nearly a month, and people were still talking about my ‘relationship’ with Arthur. It was really starting to drive me crazy. To the point where I knew I’d have to set the story straight if I ever wanted the rumors and speculation to stop.The nursery was mostly finished now, and the rest of the rooms were looking better, too. I had my office set up with a desk and some of my filming equipment. I planned to use it mostly for behind-the-scenes stuff, but it would work if I needed to film a quick video like I did now.I decided to just film a sit-down video. I’d been filming my vlogs at the gym in my building, and while that was going well, I’d avoided addressing everything with Arthur.I knew people were still talking about it because the comments on my videos were mostly about our relationship. People wanted to know why we weren’t traveling together more. If we were going to get married. What we planned to name the babies.Everyone seemed convinced that they were his,
I wiped my hand across my cheek, realizing at the last second that I had blue paint on my fingers. I rushed over to the bathroom and laughed when I caught sight of myself in the mirror. There was pale blue paint smeared across my cheek, dotted across my white t-shirt. There was even a bit of paint at the ends of my hair that I would probably have to cut off.Deciding to decorate the nursery myself might have been a bad idea, but I couldn’t deny I was having a lot of fun. As much as I was making a mess, it felt meaningful to do it myself. To pour all my love and hope into that one little room.The cribs were arriving in a couple of days, and I already have a tall, white dresser to put in there for all the baby clothes. I bought a changing table from a lady online and it was already up and waiting in my new office. There were still quite a few things I needed before the babies were born, but I was finally on track.After arriving home, I decided that the first thing I needed to do was f
He couldn’t stop looking at the pictures. He knew he needed to, but Barnett couldn’t turn away. They were all over the internet. Everywhere he went, the photos and videos of them taunted him. They were holding hands on a sailboat. Sitting together on a rock, their faces red from their hike. Having dinner beneath the stars in some far-off place with just trees and mountains for miles, looking far more intimate than Barnett would have liked.One headline caught his eye as he scrolled, and he sucked in a breath.PREGNANT FITNESS INFLUENCER ANNA LEONARD TRAVELS WITH FAMOUS BOYFRIEND ARTHUR STARDUSTHe finally forced himself to put down his phone. Agonizing over it wasn’t helping him. Anna was happy without him. He just had to accept that somehow and move on, even if it seemed like an impossible thing to do. She was clearly in love with Arthur.Just as he placed his phone down on his desk, it rang.He picked it up without checking the Caller ID, half-convinced it was Anna calling. That he’
Lily found Barnett at his apartment. She had to knock a few times before he finally came to the door, a slight scowl on his face.“So, you’re back,” she said.He stepped aside to let her in. She closed the apartment door behind her and trailed him into the room. “How was Egypt?”“It was fine. Saw the pyramids.” He looked interested, but she wasn’t there to talk about Egypt. “Have you been online recently?”
I stopped in front of the mirror and pulled up my shirt. A few months of filming later, and I was really starting to show. I kept having to buy new clothes as my size changed. Those jeans I worked so hard to fit into didn’t even make it past my thighs now.I dropped my shirt and looked over my outfit. I had on a pair of workout leggings, sneakers, and a form-fitting pullover that showed off my protruding belly. Arthur and I were hiking today for our segment. My hair was up in a high ponytail, and I had some natural makeup on. Without it, I had dark circles under my eyes from all the early morning shoots.