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Definitely better than the voices in your head.
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2024-11-25 08:05:33
NenuThis is a short note to anyone who might have been considering ending it all. You are better than the voices in your head. If you could survive life's trials, you can survive anything. I am proud of you, and I am most definitely rooting for you. Hugs and kisses.
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EMMA.Kristina's words might have not completely changed my mind from the aspect of death, but it did give me a new perspective. “Emma, I am always here for you. I have always been and I forever will be. Nothing will ever change that,”“I know,” I admitted.Deep down, I knew that Kristina would always be there, come rain or sunshine, she would never leave me, but that was the problem.I was a burden.“If you know that, why would you consider making such a horrible decision? Why would you knowingly hurt yourself? You're better than this.”“No, I'm not. I am most definitely not. I am a burden. I am a problem everyone keeps trying to solve. All I do is bring worry, and pain. Look at it now, I've brought on a new worry for you. You were not supposed to spend more than two days here, but I already know you're considering taking a week off just so you can take care of me because I’m a burden. All I do is bring issues, and problems. I don't do anything good. I can't make any good decisions.
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EMMA.“I'm genuinely tired of talking about how unfair life is, can we please change the mood?” Kristy smiled gently at me, “anything for you. What do you want to talk about?”“The hot waiter from last night,”Kristy's smile faltered slightly.“What's wrong?”“Oh, nothing. I never called.”“Why?”“Why should I call? I'll be here for a short while, and I'm not ready for anything serious. Moreover, do I want to be whoring around? It's not who I am.”“You lost the paper, didn't you?” I asked, slyly.Kristina loved to flirt, nothing could change that.She burst out laughing, “yes, I did.” She confirmed, “I had brought it out, and was about to call when I heard something about a girl drowning herself, and us having to evacuate the premises. I had left there to find you, and when I couldn't, I panicked and I can't even remember where I dropped the paper. It's gone now, and so is my delicious man.” Her face bent into a frown,“Aw. Sorry. Maybe you'll meet him again somewhere. You know, silv
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EMMA.I dropped the phone immediately. I never wanted to hear that voice ever again.I stared into the blank wall. The irony that he would call me a night after the night I tried to end my life because of him.He chose Isabella. He made the decision. He dumped me. He left me. He refused me. He disgraced me. He lied to me. Why was he back?What did he want?I waited for him. For years, I waited for him. I waited for him to treat me right, I waited for him to treat me right. I shouldn't have, and I know that, but I did. I stayed with him because I loved him. He told me he loved me. He promised to fight for me, but it was just all a lie.Fuck him. Fuck his love. Fuck his lies.I didn't want him anymore. Isabella could have him. Anyone could. I couldn't care less.“Emma,” Kristy called me, gaining my attention, I turned to her, “yes?”“Are you okay?” She asked.“I’m fine.”“Are you sure?”“Most definitely,” I replied with a broad smile.She nodded, and returned her attention back to her
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EMMA.He turned around.“Are you sure about that? I can always come by later.” I closed off my phone, “I'm sure.” I replied.His smile was all too bright for his excitement to be hidden. It somehow made me excited too. He had this boyish glow in his eyes whenever he was excited.I walked up to him.As I approached him, I noticed his eyes following my chest.Little did I realize that I wasn't exactly clad. I had unbuttoned my shirt, and while I had covered up, the buttons were mixed up, giving him access to see my chest. He looked away immediately. What a gentleman. Well-behaved. He maintained eye contact with me, and in his eyes, I could see him battling not to look again.Something about that turned me on.“Please come back,” I said.I said out loud just because. It was good that I did. I wanted to choose someone who wasn't Alex, and I had done that. I verbally, outrightly chose someone who wasn't Alex.I had broken free away from his grasp. I was my own woman.I took a breath, l
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EMMA.The first time I had made an attempt at calling Alexander Blackwood after his wife pleaded, he did not answer.I was immensely grateful for that. At least, I could say I tried.I mean, it would go down in record that I dialed his number, right?Yes, it would. I hadn't done anything wrong.I laid in bed, watching the ceiling, engrossed in thoughts.The day had gone all so well. Kristina and Samuel had gotten into a deep conversation about me, and I didn't want to be there while they analyzed my lifestyle.Well, two hours had gone by, and neither of them had come up to me.I looked out the window, only to find the entire family, and some friends in the backyard. They seemed to be having fun discussions, and eating together.Did anyone notice my absence?Did it matter?I was sure they were preoccupied with activities.I laid back.Looking at my screen, I stared at my wallpaper. There was a picture of me in sunglasses, and red lipstick. My smile was broad, and genuine. I was all too
