Fed, Robyn turned her back so I could assist with her corset ribbons. “Cass gave me this dress. It’s a shame to ruin it.”
“We have lots more back in Volare, don’t worry. I intend to sort out your brother and his shitty boots too,” I reply gruffly. She smothers a laugh. “True, they are falling apart.”I noticed her silver mark, very faint, like spatters of rainfall working down her lower back. Graceful and delicate, like the dancer she was born to be.Instead of stripping off, I just shredded the clothes I stood in, allowing my ashy brown wolf to rise once more.With the gathering grey clouds ahead, we sprinted. Robyn’s wolf was excitable, sprinting and darting all over to find more obstacles to fly over.Finally, we reached the river. Our enthusiasm ground to a halt. Rainfall has churned up the rapids into a sea of white, raging foam. Robyn’s brown wolf’s paws skitter nervously at the edge. Peering down the black rocks, trying to judge a crossing.I let out a little bark of warning and began walking up the shoreline. Trying to gauge the place with the safest route back onto Volare land. Trying to gauge just how far we might be swept downstream seemed impossible.Black rocks jut out everywhere. Edges sharp enough to slice flesh. I wish I didn’t have to drag this smaller wolf of Robyn’s into this, but there is no convincing her otherwise. The bridge isn’t an option.Not unless we wait another six days for the Council of Alpha’s in their huge convoy to arrive, which would be far too late. Plus, Cass and I have plans to make.It will involve Robyn returning to the exiles with instructions well before the Council arrives.With a final little bark, I nod for Robyn to go first. She’s brave, with a running leap her small brown wolf flies into the foaming water and vanishes. I follow straight after, the water blindingly cold. Muscles seize, my lungs halt, but I’m kicking and pushing as hard as I can, hurtling downstream.It’s pure luck as I find myself upside down, shoulder smashing into a black boulder, inhaling a lungful of water in the confusion. Suddenly, my paws find edges, mossy grass, it’s land. Dragging us upwards, my wolf is choking, hacking up water.No more crossings. It’s too risky.Except there is no sign of Robyn. Fuck. Suddenly, I spotted her, shifted back to human, her pale arms clinging to a rock, her face pelted by the onrushing water.I quickly shift back to human and slide back down the rocks, allowing the swirling current to propel me downstream. Just as her hands give way, I catch her wrist. Dragging her to the riverbank, I bellow over the mindlink for help.“Breath!” I shout, but Robyn lays still, her head lolling on the grass. “Fuck! Come on!” as I start chest compressions. Corbin will rightfully mutder me if this fails. Marcus too. She smells of peaches as I keep pressing my lips to hers before pressing sharply down into her chest. “Robyn, wake up!”I bend down and clamp my lips to hers, forcing air into her lungs. Over and over.Only to look up and see a panting Cassie, Raphael and Marcus stood open mouthed, Lucas on horseback.I'm naked. With a naked woman writhing underneath me, spewing up lungfuls of water.I don’t care how it looks. She’s alive.“Robyn!” Marcus cries alongside Cass. His face is freshly shaved, I notice. Smelling of my cologne, too. He’s been in my room, the dick. Although now is probably not the time for pulling him up.“Get that blanket quick!” he shouts at Raphael who immediately turns and reaches in Lucas’ saddlebag, his face flush with frustration as tools, and weapons scatter to the floor.Cass runs towards me, tears brimming in her eyes. I hope she hasn’t assumed something foolish but she runs to the pair of us and cries “you saved her!"“I know it looks-”She shakes her head quickly, dismissing my worries instantly.She’s bent over Robyn, holding her face and stroking her back as she final dregs of water are coughed out. Her small frame lurches with each retch into the long, swaying grasses.“Here!” Raphael shouts, throwing me a maroon blanket. Cass grabs it from me and wraps it around Robyn instead. “You’re fine,” she points out with a quick smirk,, blatantly looking my naked body up and down in the space of a second. Spitfire.Cass softly strokes Robyn’s soaking hair, the light copper now almost burnt orange, plastered to her face and scalp, giving her blue eyes a wild, hysterical look. We can all hear her teeth chattering.Cass, of course, looked stunning, her brown chestnut curls falling about her shoulders. She is wearing a long cream gown,, her perfect curves displayed via clinging, teasing material that I know will peel away so easily in my hands.My quick little spitfire takes in every detail, pointing out every scratch and bruise appearing on Robyn’s insanely delicate skin. “Can we get her to the Inn, the packhouse?” she cries out to my Betas before returning to cradle her friend, trying in vain to warm her up. “I’m so sorry you got hurt, that wasn’t meant to happen-”Robyn focused her gaze, regaining her breath just enough to start spluttering all over again.“Cass? Cassie we need to talk. I didn’t want to lie to to you, I never should have. I’ve been so worried about you,” her sentences arriving in fits and starts.Raphael flung me another blanket from the other saddle bag as I stood up and let the two women reunite. He edged towards me./How bad was it?/ Raphael silently checked./Worse one yet. Nobody else should try. All these storm clouds make it too dangerous. Until they pass it’s just not safe.//Did you get what you needed, from your wolf?/ he asks flatly, his gaze flitting towards Cass and the maroon-wrapped bundle on the floor. /Are we going to war then?//If we do, it’s for Volare. I wouldn’t expect our warriors to risk themselves for my mate./But Raphael doesn’t answer. He probably thinks I’m lying, or already worrying how many new tasks I've inadvertently given him. He stalks back towards Lucas and Marcus, shaking his head.But Cass, my beautiful mate with the warmest heart, had simply pulled Robyn close, wrapping her in the thick material.“I’m sorry I left things the way I did. My head got the better of me. You’re not something to control. You’re my friend. I just want to be your friend. So I want you to be happy. Even if it is with this idiot,” as Robyn’s blue eyes looked over and found my loyal, idiot blonde cousin smiling softly at her from the other side of the tall grasses.“That would be me,” he opens with a soft, serious smile. His blue eyes are following her every move. I don’t think I’ve ever seen Marcus really try before.Normally, he just offers some appalling jokes and cheeky charm, and they fall into bed with him. He’s already slept with her and is still trying to charm her. She must be something really special to him.It’s sounds judgemental. It's based on years of facts.“Hi,” she whispers. Cass starts to help her to her feet, quickly tying the blanket under her armpit like a toga. “Can you walk? Do you want the horse?”“I’ll be fine,” Robyn smiles, gripping Cass’s hand tightly. Marcus holds his out as they cross over a thick patch of tall grass.With a smile, Cass releases her to make her way towards Marcus. I immediately wrapped my arm around her stomach, pulling her close to me, her back pressed against my torso. Home.Cass made the slightest little sound at being back in my arms, I squeezed her tighter.Nuzzling her hair to the side, I press my lips down to her collarbone and inhale as her fingers meet mine, gripping me as tightly as she can.Wrapped up tightly in her toga-blanket Robyn’s foot doesn’t lift high enough. “Ah!” she cries out as a tree root causes her to stumble forward several paces.“I’m here!” Marcus cries as various hands reach out to grab her as she flails forward into the Betas, all of them helping to steady her as she finds her footing.We all gasped as Robyn freezes, bent over, her face down at the ground.Because she whispered. “Mate.”Except it isn’t Marcus’ eyes, which shimmer with blood red shards.It’s Raphael.The six of us are trapped in an awkward stand-off. Nearly all of my joy at seeing Ayr has diverted into guilt about Robyn’s life being put in danger. Nearly all. As soon as she started hacking up water, I allowed myself to enjoy the fizzing sparks. The temptation to deny him a blanket was unreal. Then Robyn said that tiny, potentially friendship-shattering word. Still staring at the ground, frozen by an emotion I can’t even begin to guess at. Marcus’s mouth hangs open. He’s still holding onto her hand. Like he can will the Goddess into changing her mind. I don’t need to be on the Volare mindlink to know that Lucas is currently screaming SHIT SHIT SHIT at Ayr. I just grip Ayr a little tighter, press his hand harder across my stomach. We all just assumed. I completely forgot that a mate bond doesn’t play by our human expectations. They obviously liked each other. We all watched her eyes light up as he announced himself. Robyn, not jumping into bed with Marcus, perhaps gave him t
From what I’ve heard, the overwhelming feeling you get when your mate bond clicks into place, shouldn’t be guilt. Shame from having blatantly desired another man, his best friend, by the looks of it. A man I hadn’t looked twice at. I only stumbled because I was rushing to get to Marcus.How stupid can you get? Now I’m walking hand in hand with a stranger. Far ahead of us, Cass and Ayr dived into an embrace. Easy and natural, his arms clamped her to him whilst her arms snaked carefully around the scars on his neck, into his hair. Not even caring who saw. Even though the clouds are dark grey and ominous, I swear the patch of land they stood on seemed brighter. It's clear Ayr adores her, not that he said much. But his face just lifted whenever Cass came into our hiking chats.So where do I go from here? Because I'm definitely not beaming like Cass.My mate, apparently called Raphael, is holding my hand but not tightly as we slowly walk. If I gave the slightest tug of resistance, I k
Asking Ayr to tell me what happened with his wolf felt like I’d thrown cold water all over our reuniting. Instead of pulling me back to him for another kiss, he got all serious. “I think we better get some privacy,” he muttered. “And some clothes for you, unless you fancy living like this full time?” trying to lift his mood back up. But it was gone. The change made my heart sink, his eyes narrowing with thought. Maybe he failed to connect with his wolf. I'm sure he tried his best. “Shit, yeah, clothes,” Ayr replies half-heartedly, My mate is seriously distracted. At the packhouse, every person gives him enthusiastic smiles, pleased at his return. He should be buoyed upwards. Instead, he just keeps a tight hold on my hand and leads me up the now-familiar dark wooden corridor up to his bedroom suite. Back inside, Ayr dives into a steaming shower. I sit on the desk and give him a minute. I don’t think he’ll like all my ideas, but some risks just have to be taken. When he emerges
Hours later, there is nothing more to work out. Just a grey stone floor, covered in chalk. Circles, crosses, swooping arrows. Angry crossings out. Papers scattered. Wet spatters where the occasional tear had fallen. Cass is steel and fury on the outside. Inside she’s so fucking hurt. So easy to injure. I should know, I’ve been responsible for a chunk of that pain. This is why I am ruthlessly determined to prove to her that this can work. Eventually, she nodded and whispered. “That’s it. That’s how we’ll do it.” "You really need Dominic's head?" "Yes I really fucking do," she answered archly.Cass is right. She can't do everything alone. Not only does Elle have the Kallio guards, but she also has the Elders. They might be older, draped in stinking robes but they will defend their treacherous bitch of a Luna to the death. The stone floor resembles a giant chess game. Anticipation of Elle’s actions, the movement of gossip and rumour across multiple packs. What we have seen in histor
I felt every single beat of her heart. Her convulsing, shaking body as I buried myself as deep as I could. The scissors scattered to the ground. With her back arched, ass sliding up and down the wooden desk, I became addicted to grabbing her back to me. Hands on her hips, yanking her exactly where I need her. With me. By my side. Carrying our child. With those thoughts spiralling ever upwards, I slam myself home as Cass tightens around me again. I daren’t bend to kiss her, in case my wolf tempts me into marking her. Fuck I hope it works. I pray she’ll conceive. We’ve already played with fire a few times but I'd burst with pride to know we had created something so perfect together.Not because I’m some insecure dolt who thinks I need a child to bind me to my mate. All those worries about not being enough, not deserving her have vanished. Because I look into her amber eyes and see her pride in me. The same I have for her. The love she has to give shouldn't be only for me.Eventually, w
Ayr ordered me to do exactly as he instructed, regardless of what happened. I don’t know if that meant eavesdropping his rejection. I almost came out of my little mossy nook down by the bridge, but that would mean I’d failed my challenge in less than two hours. I want to prove myself, despite my pride being blowtorched twice in one day. Even though the river looked like an early grave, I took the plunge and jumped in. In order to have some fucking dignity on the other side I didn't shift. Soppjng wet, I marched towards Pemberton with only the goal of a beer in mind. I want to be seen. I didn’t even get to my first bar before a looming, spindly Kallio guard approached me. “Your Alpha rejected his mate then?” Offering me a creepy smile with his thinning teeth, I had to try not to shudder. He must think I broke my skull if I'm just going to merrily chat about Ayr to him. “What the fuck is it to you?” I replied back, weaving around the orange and gold baboon to slam some gold coins
The instant I left Robyn at Mrs Berrybrow’s Inn, I knew I had to get to work. Lucas was busy galloping after Marcus, so I roped in some Beta Warriors. Hoisting and heaving huge tree trunks into position. Hammering metal spokes in until the sweat soaked through their shirt. “Come on, this has to be ready to go up by nightfall!” I bellow, the sound of chopping and sawing filling the air. “Yes Raph!” they shout back in perfect unison. While they chopped, dug, and hammered, I was running around, sending links, sorting endless shit out. I needed rope, fittings, wheels, anything I could repurpose. Men are running around like ants on my command. For her. Nobody else. I’m being selfish for the first time in my life. I almost allow myself to say ‘my mate’ but even my wolf stops me. She’s not ours yet. I’ve already stumbled when she described herself as broken. I didn’t mean she hadn’t been through things. I only meant I see her whole. No flaws. Fuck I need to get better at talking to he
My mate is unnervingly quiet, however I’m slowly learning it’s not because he doesn’t care. Watching through the inn window, the sheen of sweat on his brow at the top of his chest did something inexplicable to me. My ribs tightened, brain short-circuited to the point I flung the door open before he had a chance to knock. Jet black tousled hair, face filled with worry. He must have been working hard. The sweet scent of fresh cut wood merging with rum left me so churned up that I ended up being the quiet one. A day spent with Mrs Berrybrow was no cure for the guilt I felt about Marcus either. She was kindness personified, but she knows I’m not Volare. What if I’m just the bitch who broke her favourite customer's heart? Then we met Ayr which meant another jump into the whirlpool of confusion. My blatant curiosity drank in the messy, chalky handprints on his shirt. Barely had his shirt tucked back in. Messy, roughed up. Deep down, I felt jealousy. Ayr looks like he barely knows what d
Corbin is the first to arrive, urgency in his steely eyes. He and Ayr now share the dubious honour of matching neck scars. I imagine his lower chest is even more grisly after the attack on him “Is everything okay? It’s so fantastic to see you,” enjoying the sweep of his huge, iron-like hug. The sweet scent of warm baking is the only soft feature about this hardened leader. “When they set up a room for me to recover in, they found this. I thought you should have it,” withdrawing a thick envelope from his jacket. “It’s written by your mother.” I stare at the aged paper and wonder just what I will gain from reading her drunken rantings. “What made you bring this? She must have hundreds of letters, I know she kept a diary too.”“She addressed it to you. It’s the only one with your name on it. No diaries found.” "Go on, I’ll greet everyone else. It will only irritate you if you don’t read it now, " Ayr suggested "Corbin and I need to talk bridges," as the pair grinned. I took the letter
Life is very different in Volare these days. Leo is almost two. Wonderful in every way, his pouty lips and blue eyes making it almost impossible to tell him no. I flit between wondering what my mother would think of my own material efforts. Praying I make better choices than her. I still don’t know what the hell was on her mind when she died. Was it out of love for me or hatred of Elle? Staring at Leo, I will never understand how she stood by all those years in silence. It has taken some serious organising but tonight, finally everyone is going to be reunited. A celebration of friendship. Raphael and Robyn have been sorely missed. Almost eighteen months without any visits between us. Corbin had requested all bridges go up for our own safety for a period. He was attacked in an uprising in the centre of Pemberton. Touring a pack and hit in the chest with a cannonball. Quite how the fuck a group of rebels got hold of a cannon is something Raphael is furiously investigating. The nigh
She’s dreamed of me? Even as my head spins in a frenzy of pure desire, I need to delve into that conversation more. Women are clearly my blind spot. No pun intended. She’s guiding me along the wooden wall, “I‘m staying in the packhouse, come on,” she breathes, and I’m so close to just being swept along. But this is serious. Flashes of Imelda cross my mind. “Jessica, Jessica, come on, what do you mean dreaming? What colour are your eyes?” as she drags me into the packhouse. Where I once snuck in order to shave in Ayr’s fancy bathroom. Her hand feels so tiny in mine. In fact, everything about her is petite. I’m almost stumbling, and I secretly love the way she doesn’t give a shit I can’t see. She’s taking me to her room regardless. “How about you just trust me?” she whispers before placing a kiss on my open chest. Shit that must be how tall she is. When she first kissed me, she must have been on her tiptoes. What the hell is this? “If you know who I am, I don’t…I’m not going to b
Jessica never appeared at dinner. It was a shame, I totally thought her and Marcus might hit it off, but there will be more opportunity. She’s got that daring confidence that I thought might spark his interest. When the lightning flashed and rain descended, everyone jumped in the packhouse. Ayr ran out to find Marcus. Check he hadn’t got caught in the storm and lost his bearings, but he was nowhere to be seen. His blue gauze was trodden into the mud by the packhouse door, though. “He’s not answering his link?” Ayr said, rubbing his chin. “If he wants us, he will,” Matthew answered steadily. “There’s a line of how much he’ll ask for.” Ayr reluctantly agreed, and the evening continued as planned. Drinks consumed, food eaten, I sat in our bed and watched Ayr as he stripped down. I know how long he stays awake at night reading to me. I also know how the instant he thinks I’m asleep he switches from pirate adventures to love sonnets. My dreams are warm, full of summer sun and happiness
The day I stop opening my eyes and searching for a flicker of dawn will be when my wolf stops trying too. Not once did I stop believing. Now, finally, after almost five years, something has happened. Since Ayr told me their silver wolf has vanished from the heavens, the constant blackness has started to part. There are shadows and hints of grey and white in my peripheral vision. I can’t see shapes, but there is lightness where once only pitch black existed. My first instinct was to call out to Berrybrow. But then I shut my lips and breathe sharply. This is for me to know. My secret. For if it turns out, all I can see are the shadows at the edges. What has been gained? But maybe, just maybe my purgatory is finally ending? I already know my irises have turned to jade. Mrs Berrybrow was sweet to sell it kindly, maybe as proof that my wolf is still trying to heal me. Ayr has since said he doesn’t give a fuck, that I was exactly the same man to him. Except hearing how the others hav
I secretly bought a set of jangling bells, but thankfully, they weren’t necessary. I did once tie them to her and woke up to a barrage of jangling cushions to the face. Then she pinned my wrists to the mattress as best as she could before wrapping her mouth around my semi-hard early morning dick. Confusing, briefly terrifying me and making me want to explode all in the space of five seconds. Perfection. Now, such spontaneity has been briefly retired. Instead, she has to choose from a pile of leatherbound books instead of leaping onto my groin. Holding out a selection of hardbacks, I mock-grumpily bark. “Pick one then,” before helping to place the covers over my hugely pregnant, half-glowing, half-irritated mate. We’re in the final stages of this miracle of a pregnancy, and somehow, my plan worked. “You always know which one I’ll choose,” she smiles back softly, her stunningly soft figure draped in an emerald green silk nightgown before choosing the same one she’s had for the pas
It’s not possible. “It can’t be…I mean…” only to turn and see the look on Ayr’s face. The one I’ve always wanted to see. It’s joyous. The sweetest, kindest expression. A god melted into a beaming man. But it is a look he shouldn’t be giving me. Anyway, it’s just one old lady’s opinion. I said I felt sick, but that surely happens to everyone who’s having the minor trauma of almost killing their mate in their sleep. Accepting the golden-eyed wolf could be hunting Ayr and I down for the rest of our lives out of spite is enough to turn anyone’s stomach. Or, as Mrs Berrybrow suggested, the golden-wolf attaches itself to a newborn. Then what? The instant some child turns eighteen and can connect with their spirit, will their soul be corrupted. Try to harm us? “Cass?” Ayr whispers, before reaching out for my hand. I have no idea how long I’ve been silent for whilst I felt the idyllic protection of my Volare life crumble around me. It's not safe. It will never be safe. I still can’t move
It’s been almost three months, and with Cass at my side, anything feels possible. Apart from conception, obviously, but we’ve both agreed that doesn’t matter in the slightest right now. I don’t know how it works, but even the Volare population seemed brighter. The packhouse has never seen so many bawdy nights, bands playing, people talking late into the night. Annoyingly, now I’m officially not a kidnapping, raping, deviant scumbag, the other packs are scrambling to purchase even more of our goods. Something to be remembered every time I am forced to attend a Council with the two-faced pricks. Apart from Locksley. He had absolutely zero scruples in buying fancy items from a despised Alpha. Or trying to seduce Cass via pastel suits and bouquets of flowers but thank fuck that game is over. At Cass’s request I have even led a couple of Volare full moon runs. Pretty sure she just wanted to get me naked in the Kallio side of the woods though. Unfamiliar territory to her meant I had th
Robyn had arrived in Volare with a few of my favourite gowns and essentials. Like she already knew I would never be coming back if they found me in Volare. “Cass what the hell happened here!” she gasped, taking in the dishevelled room. “Take a guess, Robyn!” I reply, towel wrapped around my body. “AH you're marked. I knew it!” she squealed.Hugging tightly, I quickly dressed, and we headed down to the main packhouse. I couldn’t resist my hunger any longer. Taking a long, empty bench in the far corner, my hair still damp from the shower with Ayr, I told her everything. Yet just last week, when we played with Lucy’s dolls house, I assured her I was fine. Snapped it at her if I recall properly. Now she knows the full extent of the agreement, the silver wolf waiting to be born. How we had decided, after making amends with everyone, that we had a clean slate. No guilt, no blame. Just forwards. “That’s exactly how it should be,” Robyn smiled. “I can not believe how much you’ve changed