It's another kind of pain to be denied a dream that you desperately want by the one person you love and trust. ~ A. Gupta.COLETHE Way my phone was blowing up all the time I was away from her, I knew I’d have a very frantic princess in my hands, on the verge of breaking apart. But I think I knew how to handle that, and I also knew that I could no longer wait. Life was un-fucking-predictable which was why I was not going to wait for the right fûcking moment to make her mine. I stepped out of the car and almost stumbled. I hadn’t realized how weak I was until I stepped out of her cosy little apartment. With her in my arms, day in and out, sleeping and lounging in her bed, I had thought I was already better and ready to go on with my life putting the accident and its injuries in the past but apparently not. Just a trip in a car and getting worked up with adrenaline running through my veins, all I needed was my princess’ slender arms around me and my head on her chest, preferably pillo
It hurt my heart to cause her pain and to hear those words from her. ~ A. Gupta.COLETHE Silence felt too loud in the room, the intake of our breaths were the only thing I could hear and my churning thoughts that reminded me of my past and the promise I gave Violet that day, the promise I was about to break. I had told her to give us a chance, that I’ll do whatever she wanted but apart from mentioning that she has a condition she hadn’t mentioned anything, not until now. And now even as my body throbbed with pleasure, my heart was in a spin as I didn’t know how to look into her eyes and say the words that will hurt her. “Violet—” She sat up and I grabbed her elbow when she would’ve stepped out of the bed. “Wait. Let me do it.”I slipped out of the bed and made my way to the bathroom. When I came back with a wet towel she had pulled a blanket over her body. I sat down beside her and took the edge of the blanket from her. She bit down on her bottom lip as she let me pull the blanket
I trusted him to not break his promise. But he did it once and now he was doing it again. ~ A. Gupta.COLE“You shouldn’t have come back.”“Don’t say that.” I never thought I will hear these words from her, and it fûcking pained me that she’d say such a thing to me. She crossed her arms across her chest as if trying to hold herself up. “Why not? You knew... you knew all along... And still you sat here night after night, spent your days with me, made my heart ache for you. And then you left me when I needed you.” She took a deep shuddering breath, her eyes filling with tears as if once again remembering all the pain that she had felt at my absence. “You know what, when you left it hurt. It hurt so terribly. I cried for days. But then, I started to hope that maybe I was pregnant. We never used any precautions. And I hoped, that even if you left, I will have something to love that you gave me. I hoped that I was pregnant. But then the next month came and went by, and I realised that I
Some nightmares stay with you even when you're awake. ~ A. Gupta.COLEI Wake up with a jerk, my whole body covered in sweat and trembling as if I was still sobbing my heart out like I was doing in my nightmare because it was a nightmare, I realised as I sat up and looked around my suite in the hotel at the outskirts of the town. I palmed my face in my hands and pulled back to see my palms wet, it seems I had shed real tears in the gut wrenching nightmare I just had.In my nightmare, Lily was standing at the top of the stairs, looking same as the day she had looked years back on my birthday. And she was pregnant, this time she had a swollen belly and she was smiling at me as she made her way downstairs with a hand on her stomach, only she never made it. Her scream still echoed in my ears as if she was in the room with me, the same way she had screamed in the nightmare when her foot slipped and she rolled down the stairs. And no matter how much my dream version I tried, I couldn’t mov
Time doesn't heal, you just start to live with the pain and it becomes a part of you. ~ A. GuptaCOLE“What the hell are you doing here?” I asked as I stepped out of the bedroom and found Alex lounging in one of the sofas in the drawing room.“Is this how you tell me that you missed me?” He said, “Explains all this empty bottles.”I looked at the mentioned bottles. Since that night when everything went to shît, I had barely eaten but chose to drink my sorrows. It didn't help but at least it lessened the frequency of my nightmares. “What do you want, Alex? I thought you all didn't care anymore.”“Don’t be sad, Cole. We didn't abandon you but we couldn’t let Vi think that we were taking your side.” His dark brows lowered and he pointed at my hands that were bruised and swollen from the fight I got into last night. “You could've called me or better yet Maddox if you wanted to use your fists. He is the one who is too furious with you.”“Not you?” I asked.He shrugged one shoulder. “I don'
It’s a bitter pill to swallow— to love someone so intensely yet unable to bridge the divide that has created between the two. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETI Wasn’t ready to face him yet, not after that day when he told me that he won’t give me my dream and never become part of it. All these days, I had spent pretending that my heart doesn’t hurt. I went on with my life like he hadn’t stomped all over my emotions and my dreams to be with him. To build a family with him like Mad had with Bree, and now Dom was getting with Kiara. Next, it will be Brandon and if fate had it one day it will be Alex but if I stayed with him and I won’t, because he wouldn’t let me.Now as I stood in my small apartment, facing him, palpable tension surrounded us. There was a dot of blood at the corner of his lips where Maddox punched him and made his bottom lip split open, it was now starting to quickly swell as I watched. And instinct almost had me reaching out for me, but I held myself glued to my spot. My scream h
COLE“You need to come back.”I looked down at the text displayed on my phone screen for the dozenth time now and my gut clenched, because something didn't feel right about this text. And a part of me was afraid that Mad was texting me this because Violet got what she really wanted, the timeline was perfect for it as it had been more than three weeks now since I came back to New York.My thumb hovered on the keyboard to type a message back but before I could bring myself to do it, another text popped up. “She tried to burn her paintings, man. This is not good.”A cold chill ran down my spine, freezing my blood in my veins. The glass of whisky slipped from my fingers, making a thud as it dropped down on my father’s office desk, sloshing the golden liquid everywhere. The conversation between my father and Uncle, that I was only pretending to listen to, came to a halt.“What is it?” My father asked and I could feel the weight of my Uncle’s eyes on me through the screen of the laptop.“I
COLEShe hadn’t stopped crying, even when she was sleeping I could see the tears leaking from the corner of her eyes. I hate it. I hate that she’s in so much pain. I didn’t know what I’d have done if she had gotten her wish, but I knew that I didn’t like what she had become now. It’s like she had lost all the spark of life and all she did was cry and stare at her ruined paintings as she stood at the threshold of her painting room.She was standing there now and as I walked to her, in a voice that was low and gentle, I asked her, “Do you want to go to the Carter house, princess?”I knew she heard me, I saw the change in her posture. Every time she has looked at me since last two days, she had that look in her eyes that kept fûcking with my mind. It was not crazed but it didn’t look right either. She looked at me like I was the reason for all her pain and also like she hated me for needing me at the same time. It scares me to think at any moment, she will pull back and decide that she d