I want you and I want to be everything you want. ~ A. Gupta.COLEIf I thought hurting her would make me feel better and the pain in my chest would ease, I was wrong. It hurt like hell to watch her blue eyes fill with tears and that beautiful face pale as she turned around and walked away from me. My heart raced in my chest as the door shut behind her, leaving me in haunting silence with nothing but pain as a companion. And it wasn’t just physical pain that made it impossible to breathe. For some reason it felt like if I let her go this time, I won’t be able to get her back again. And it fûcking terrified me. In that instant, my hurt and rage transformed into a desperate need to go after her, mingling with a sense of self-loathing for allowing myself to succumb to my need to hurt her back. I wished I could take back my words or go back to ten minutes prior and stop myself from uttering bullshit lies like the one where I told her that I hated her. Like I could ever hate her.My bre
Forgiveness comes at a price. Who’s going to pay? ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETI Clutched his hand between mine, unable to let go as the weight of everything that transpired between us fell upon me and I felt too exhausted to do anything else but just marvel at the fact that he was alive. I didn’t want to think about anything else, he was here and he was mine, and everything else could wait. “If you don’t stop crying I’ll think you’re not happy to see me alive.” Cole said, wiping my tears with his other hand that had the IV jostling and making him wince with discomfort.I shook my head and placed his hand back on his stomach. “Don’t move.”“Don’t cry.” “They are tears of relief, Cole. I was so scared and I was also afraid that you won’t ever forgive me.” I replied, looking down at our joined hands, ashamed of what I did even though he had forgiven me. “I am really sorry for that.”“It’s impossible not to forgive you, princess. How will I live with myself?” More tears escaped with sobs that
How do I tell her that she's the only thing I hunger for and if I didn't get her, I might really die this time. ~ A. GuptaCOLEIF someone asked me what does heaven and hell wrapped up in one feels like, I’d say this was it. It was being in her bed, surrounded by her things and her presence, her scent and everything that she was but not being able to do anything about it.It has been a week since I got discharged from the hospital and to my surprise Alex dropped me off at Violet’s studio. And every day since then I had been living in a hell of her making and heaven because she was in it with me. Each day I was subjected to her smothering care and as if she wasn’t enough Mrs Carter dropped by unexpected and then decided to look after me herself. But I was quite happy that she did because with her she brought food— food, that was actually edible, unlike whatever unhealthy shit Violet cooks. But I won’t ever say that to her even if my cholesterol level dips or suddenly I start to have an
All I desire is a life lived with you. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETNO one told me that an unfulfilled desire can make you go crazy. Why am I saying that? Because I think I was turning into one.The smallest of things were making me angry and the barest of touches from him were making me mad with the way I hungered for him. All I wanted was to grab a fistful of his dark hair and lose myself in those sherry eyes and have all those fantasies that were keeping me awake at night come true. To finally have what I couldn’t for the last two years and for the days that I spent in my captivity.Even though I had overcome that part of my life, almost come out from the darkness, sometimes they still try to drag me back. Sometimes, I feel if I didn’t constantly fight back once again I’ll get trapped in that nightmare. But whenever I felt like it was getting too hard, l had found solace in him, the man Daisy likes to call as my protective bear. But he’s more like a hero to me. Always there, somehow underst
If she'd just ask me, I'll give her the entire world, for her presence alone is my greatest desire. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETI watched as Cole’s eyes took in the image opened on my phone screen. And then his lips parted as he slowly lifted his gaze to meet mine. My hand was still outstretched and he quietly placed the phone on it. We both stood there, still like a statue as we stared at each other. “Princess...” I swallowed as my throat felt too dry, my skin stretched taut with the tension surrounding us that pulsed through my veins and every nerve endings in my body came alive as I read the dark temptation in his eyes. “Don’t torture us, princess...”The already charged air crackled around us, our desire felt too potent to ignore anymore. We have been dancing around the inevitable for so long it felt like centuries had passed since we felt each other, even though we have been kissing like two teenagers who had just discovered what a delicious act it was, and I was not ashamed to confess
Lost in a tangle of desire, I wanted to surrender to the intoxicating symphony of pleasure. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETMy shirt hung open and my shorts were already discarded as Cole pushed my thighs open and then placed an open mouthed kiss between my legs over the fabric of my panties that was already clinging to my sensitive flesh.“You smell so fûcking divine, princess.” I bit down on my bottom lip, his words made my lower belly clench and I felt myself throb in answer. “I can’t wait to have you coming all over my face and drink those sweet juices of your pûssy.”A low, needy whimper escaped me and I felt myself turning hot at his dirty words that felt foreign to my ears but also left me feeling hot with desire. I gasped as he brushed his lips on the inside of my thigh, licked a trail up my soft flesh. Goosebumps decorated my skin, sending electric sensation all over my body with the way he grazed his teeth and nibbled as he got closer to where I needed him the most. “Cole...”“Hush, pr
COLEFor an unfathomable reason, a fission of apprehension went through me as I quickly grabbed her clothes and stuffed them behind a huge cushion before I made my way to open the door. I checked myself one last time and raked my fingers through my hair as I opened the door to find Mr Carter and Alex standing there. Mr Carter looked at me with his green eyes, from the top of my head to my bare feet before he pushed past me and entered. With a frown etched on his face, he questioned, “What took you so long to open the door, Cole?”“Don’t tell him the truth.” A cold voice whispered in my ear as Alex breezed past me, momentarily taking his father’s intense stare off me. “I told you, Dad, nothing was wrong. See, he is fine.”Mr Carter didn’t acknowledge Alex’s words as he asked, “Where is Violet?”“She is somewhere.” Alex snickered at my fumble and Mr Carter arched a dark brow at me. “I mean she is in the bathroom.”“Which was probably why she didn’t pick up your calls, Dad. Right, Cole?
Losing you is like losing a reason to live anymore. ~ A. Gupta.VIOLETTHE ringing of Cole’s phone had me groaning and I slightly turned around in his arms. As I blinked my eyes open, I realised I must’ve dozed off when Cole had adamantly made me lie down beside him because since morning I’d had a headache that was refusing to go away. Now as I sat up, I saw him picking up his phone. I think he ignored the first call because it started to ring again. It wasn’t even late at night, we had just laid down sometime during the evening because I was being too cranky which was making him irritated too. This time Cole answered in a hushed voice and because he was still close to me, I felt the tension entering his muscles as he sat up too quickly with a jerk and then groaned as some of the injuries were still acting up after he had stopped taking his medicines even when the doctor said that at least he should continue the treatment for another week.“I will be there.”I pursed my lips. “What