22. You hurt me first

Losing him was blue, like I'd never known

Missing him was dark gray, all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know

Somebody you never met

But loving him was red~ Taylor Swift (Red)

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VIOLET

AVOIDING him has been nothing short of the most difficult task of my life. But no matter how much I ignored him, took pains to not even glance in his direction, I was always aware of him. But today was different because he wasn’t here and I felt his absence deep in my bones like someone thrust me back into the past when every cell in my body had begged the universe to send him back to me. And even though I was aware of the tiny part of me that looked for him and feared that he had finally given up, I still couldn’t come to terms with the fact that someone else, no not someone else, Tara touched him. That he was with her. He hadn’t given me a simple answer of yes and no to my question, so what else could it be.

“Hey...” Kevin slid in the seat opposite me placing a steamy bowl in front of me.

“Hi,