It's been a few days since the last time I saw Axel, so I had a lot of time to think with a clear mind. There was no point in denying that his absence affected me; the marks left on my skin wholly faded. It gave my omega enough nightmares, waking up to look for his arms only to find myself all alone in the bed. I didn't know when things switched from vehemently hating being anywhere near him to wanting to get as close as I possibly could without being too obvious.But his words stung. The wound was still raw, and I had no intention of making the same mistake again. For all I know, the Alpha rejected me without actually saying those words. Despite his long stares in my direction and wanting to talk, I had completely shut down the attempts. I had no interest in hearing the exact words again. Pinning after a mate who doesn't even care about relationships is the possibly highest act of stupidity. Shaking my head, I stood up, noticing the cape Amy had placed on the bed for me. Ethan was
My mouth gaped at his crude statement, and I recoiled on the spot. Rage filled my insides, my back stiffening as I narrowed my eyes into slits. I took a deep breath, resisting the urge to scream at him.How dare he accuse me of such a thing? Especially since he was the one to set the boundaries from the beginning. Axel reminded me time and time again that I meant nothing to him. “Why do you care?!” The words slipped out before I could stop myself, biting my tongue. A chuckle burst out of him, hollow and empty. “Why do you I care? You are still my omega, for moon's sake!”My toes curled at that, and I didn’t know what to think of the strange stirring in the bottom of my belly, and the permanent lingering of his scent did little to help me.“Oh, am I? Cause last time we slept together, you made sure to remind me I meant nothing.”He flinched as if he had been slapped by my words, teeth grinding. The Alpha's harsh breath fell on my face as he merely leaned closer, the vein in his foreh
/Axel's POV/My beating heart fell to my stomach like a dead rose petal, watching the omega speak with Ethan, eyes crinkling and mouth curving at something he had said. I could feel my stomach boil, an irrational surge of feelings taking over, and the utter negligence from inside had my feet moving towards them before my mind comprehended it. This was not the same Lana I chose to mate; overflowing with sweet, earnest innocence made her intentions towards me clear as the night. She was yielding in all ways, except in her stubborn decision. This was not the same one who had laughed at my silly attempt of humour, who stared at me as if I hung the moon and stars for her.I was lucky if she spared me a glance in my direction now. How did it come to this? I fought down a strangled, choking sound, whirling around, marching purposefully through the nearest open door in a drastic attempt to get away. I needed the cold wind whip on my face – a firm, strict reminder that this was my choice.I
My heart didn't stop pounding the entire time I walked away from Axel, hands sweaty and throat wilted with guilt. It was for the best; I kept telling myself. Just one little lie so I could sneak out with Alpha Ethan to see his friend. As the commander asked, I stood patiently by the fire, wearing boots tied on tightly and my cape clipped. My arms came to wrap around the torso as a gust of cold wind blew by. I squinted my eyes while noticing a dark figure approaching me, body stiffening. When I got hold of his scent, my body automatically relaxed, staring at the Alpha. He was dressed in a black sweater over top of his white button-up, a thick black cape pulled on with the hood over his head as he approached me. Ethan was also carrying a satchel thrown over his chest; his shoes switched to thick black boots. "Should we leave?" "Yes." The Alpha guided us to the room on the other side of the wing, the table in a far corner standing out. I watched as he pushed away, pulling the car
/Axels POV/I shook my head, watching as the omega walked away, trying to eliminate the unwanted thoughts as I wandered into my chambers. As if on a whim, I let the thick coat draped over unceremoniously fall on the side table, an audible sigh leaving my lips. Why did she seem in such a hurry anyway? What was Lana hiding? Or perhaps the omega had no interest in taking a walk with me.The last part stung. It didn’t matter if that was the result I wanted from her side; it still hurt. Rubbing my face, I decided to relax in the bathtub with scalding water, a mountain of bubbles piled onto my chest. To soothe the turmoil, I also added some scents but nothing compared to her natural scent. Sweat beaded down the side of my face, and fingers were pruned as I tilted my head back, shifting my legs. The water swirled around. I hadn't realised that I was bone-tired, almost in a zone between falling asleep and becoming awake, in the incoherent moment when one was too tired to close one's eyes. T
“What do you mean by problems?” Ethan beat me to it, curiosity written all over his face, leaning forward. “It doesn’t end well?” I winced as those words slipped out of my mouth, biting my tongue. “Well…yes. It’s a tragedy buried so deeply that rarely anyone alive knows about it.” The hardcover burned in my hands the longer I stared, tears blurring my vision. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Ethan, hawk-eyed, lips pursed in a single line and brows furrowed. The Alpha had difficulty taking all this, just like me, but he handled it better. At least for now. I thought shakily, averting my stare toward Daniel. He leaned against the stone wall and bought his knees to his chest; chin propped down. “The book…you can take it with you and read when you get back.”On instinct, I tightened the grip on the cover, nails digging around the bounds. “T-Thank you.”“It was the only existing copy after the great war fifty years ago. There are no more copies.”The way he worried his bottom lip whi
/Axels POV/“Axel! Axel!”“Hmm?”“Are you even listening to me?”“Yes…I apologise for….”The omega shook her head with a choked-off scoff, a half-aborted toss that made a long strand of hair fall in her face, curling over her wild, doe-shaped eyes. Eyes shone in the dim study room with more than just the soft glow of the candles. Her jaw flexed, knuckles turning whiter with how hard she clenched her fingers.I swallowed the lump forming in my throat and lifted my chin, meeting her gaze and holding it. For a moment that seemed to last forever, we stood there, surrounded by the heavy silence that Lana had created with her words. Why would she say that?I assure you this Lana would kill herself before harming you.No. I curled my toes, trying not to let the perfect composure slip. It’s the gratitude, I thought internally while looking at the omega in front of me. After all, I agreed to mate her and get her out of that Palace. “You don’t believe me?” She sounded wounded, a hurt noise sli
My head hurt, and so did my throat, like there were iron bands around, squeezing until it was close to breaking and poking. I had no intention of prolonging the pain, staring at the person in front of me. So quickly, I stepped towards the double french doors leading towards the alley and threw them open. On my way, I could feel the prickle of his stare on my back, but I ignored it. As soon as the gust of fresh air greeted me, I sucked in a deep breath. It nipped at my overheated skin in a gentle caress as if it knew of the pain I was going through.My vision blurred again with tears as I gathered the courage to pull myself together and get away from Axel. I could feel nothing except a terrible hollowness, the emptiness inside left by Axel. As if it’s a void, sucking in everything that made me who I am. For a second, I thought I could quickly fill in the gap by finding someone else, having someone else. I could go to another Alpha and let him press tender kisses to all the worst parts