/Axel POV/
"For the last time, I am not interested, mother!" I sullenly said, wiping the corners of my lips, a frown starting to take over. The grip on my napkin tightened when I noticed the former Luna twist her lips.
As expected, she did not take it well, abruptly standing up from her seat. I swallowed loudly, the vein in my head ticking, when I saw her plate. My mother hadn't bothered to take a bite of the roasted potatoes and steak or anything else for that matter.
Tears brimmed in her eyes, a hand slapping over her lips while turning on her feet. I cursed under my breath.
"Mom! Please!"
"Please, what?!" She hiccuped, a tear sliding down her cheeks as she glared at me. "Do my words mean anything to you anymore? I have been trying to tell you from last year, Axel!"
Her voice softened as she took a step in my direction, placing a warm hand on my shoulder. I sagged against the chair, a breath whooshing out of my chest. My grip on the napkin loosened, slowly falling in my lap.
"It's been three years, honey."
Something twisted in my chest at the harsh reminder. My wife passed away three years ago, leaving a gaping hole in my chest that will never be filled. It has been a trying time ever since for my family as well as the pack.
"You may not like to hear it, but I am getting old, and I don't want to spend my afternoons doing the Luna duties."
Guilt swarmed my belly at the tired lines marring her face. With no Luna to take over, my mother had to fulfil the responsibilities and manage the pack members. My mother enjoyed her time away from the pack when the incident occurred, and she took over.
"I told you to take weekends off." I lamely said, looking up at her.
"As if that's possible. You know how it gets during the weekends, Axel. I am tired of handling this pack."
"Mom..."
"You gave me your word." She cut me off with a pointed look, her expression unwavering. "Last year...when I asked to go, you told me you'll try this year. Do not back away now."
"Fine!"
"I'm asking this for your sake. The last thing I want is to see my son end up like me. It only gets lonelier as you age and have no one by your side."
I looked away, staring at my feet. The ex-Pack Alpha, my father, passed away as soon as I turned eighteen. She was left with no mate and continued to hold on. Having no other successor, I had to learn all the skills as soon as possible. Those days were difficult for both—my mother and me, but she left my side, ignored the protests of our elders and made me the Pack Alpha.
***
The next day everything was arranged for my departure. As expected, my mother was over the moon, bidding me goodbye with a radiant smile.
I stared up and breathed deeply through my nose to calm myself. The smell of the freshly cut grass, the sound of wind yowling, along with the birds chirping echoed in my ears. It's a trick my mother taught—to focus on what I can hear and smell if I feel too overwhelmed.
"Your horse is ready, my lord." The stable boy informed, his face pink from the chill.
I reached out to pet Williams mane when he bristled, cooing at the horse gently and ensuring he was calm before mounting.
"You ready?" I heard my beta from the left, Liam appearing every bit calm and determined. It helped that he's the second in command and my best friend at the same time.
"Like that matters. Let's go!"
***
It took six long hours to reach our destination. The Palace stood, all bright, brilliant against the sky, its lights emanating from the windows and casting a glow on the massive expanse of its grounds. I grimaced, mouth set in a thin line as I thought of the Alpha King behind the pack. He's something of an evil mastermind—rumoured to have killed his brother and his wife for the throne. No one knows the truth.
"Alpha Axel?" Liam blinked at me, standing in front of the guards, a brow raised towards me.
"Take my horse. My legs feel cramped so I will walk. Do not worry; I know the way in."
"Should I send someone along with you?"
"No. I am fine." I dismounted smoothly from my horse, and the crunch of gravel under my shoes felt solid, grounding.
At the end of the stone way, I noticed it break off into three more roads in varying directions. I twisted my lip and noticed the lack of guards lining them. Just as I stood there, with my arms crossed together, considering a path, my nose caught a sweet scent that had me turning left. I followed it before I could stop to wonder.
It's faint but strong. The smell clung to the walls, more so as I got closer to the open door a few metres into the hallway. I connected the smell, identifying it as jasmine and amber, smoky yet subtly sweet.
I sauntered down the hall, staring up at the ceiling, the cornices almost shimmering silver. I stepped further into the room and down one of the aisles, unconsciously following that scent which grew stronger the more I explored. Turning to the next aisle, with my eyes on the ceiling, I was in awe at the dome-like structure.
"Fuck!" A curse flew out of my mouth as I tripped, barely catching in time on the ledge of the shelves around. Straightening up, I heard a hiss of pain from the floor, letting me know my feet knocked over a person.
"Oh, I am..." I whirled around to help the person when the words died in my throat.
An omega.
I stared unabashedly at the person on the floor now, through a mask of cool nonchalance, my eyes drinking in every piece of her. Blue. Her eyes are the most striking colour of earth and ocean, widened in fear as she stared back. The pink of her lips are parted, glossy and round.
I winced as the pain in my chest intensified, vision getting blurry around the edges. What was this sudden sensation?
The omega sat on the floor against the shelves with a book in her lap like she had been lounging and reading, small hands clutching her ankle that I might have accidentally hurt.
"I'm so sorry, omega," The title slipped out in a way normally meant for mates. What was I thinking? I shook my head, balling my fingers into fists. "You should not be sitting here like this."
"Excuse me?!" Her voice was high, a light rasp like the omega hadn't spoken much. The sound of the book falling off her lap echoed in my ears as she abruptly stood up. She had her arms crossed, raising her head as if in an attempt to tower me. No way it's possible with her shoulders reaching only up to my chest.
I never had a pair of eyes make my heartbeat increase as it did now.
The omega's clothing was thin linen, a thick pearl necklace glimmering in the light but still the neckline of her top remained exposed. At the heaving breath, she took, my eyes flit over her jutted collarbones, the expansion of her neck, and I had to swallow against the rush of saliva in my mouth. The skin was so pale, smooth and unmarked.
“Are you trying to turn this around, mister? You should be the one watching where you are going."
My mouth slacked a bit at the sharp tone of her response while I tried to control my breathing, trying not to let the scent drive me primal. I knew that I should leave, that it would be the best option, but at the same time, the thought of turning around and leaving this omega alone and unprotected with an open collar made my alpha itch with self-aimed anger.
"How dare you talk back to me? Do you know who I am?"
"Why?" She blinked at me with an amused tilt of her lips. "Do you not know who you are? Want me to tell you your identity?"
The unwavering of her voice and an overconfident stance made something shift inside. No one in my pack or outside spoke to me in this manner. Her stupidity and lack of manners were hilarious. She was breathtaking, brighter than the sun as she lifted a dainty hand to cover his mouth.
I could feel my jaw slack a little, rage coiling in my belly.
"Why, you little..."
"Oh, moons!" She cut me off, her eyes falling onto the clock. The omega hastily brushed a hand down her gown, picking the book from the floor. "I have to leave now." Turning to me, she made a sound. "Hope you find yourself soon. Bye!"
I stared at her retreating back in a daze, nostrils filled with her scent and heaviness in my chest disappearing.
***
Descending the stairs, I watched in acute interest as my entire family stood by the doorstep. Every year they didn't even bother to stay in the same room before ball night, making silly excuses. I wonder what bought this on? From my peripheral view, I saw Beth nudge my side, almost dragging me next to them."About time." My sister snickered, her hateful gaze settling on the pearls around my neck. Clicking her tongue, she crossed her arms together. "Why did you even bother with that? Just flash our guests since you are so desperate."I heard Lucas chuckle under his breath, his hateful gaze settling on my face. “Are you that eager to find a knot?”"All of you, be quiet now!" I heard the Luna hiss, her hands clasped together, the red lipstick making her teeth gleam. She straightene
As I lay in bed at night, I couldn't help but be plagued by thoughts of the obnoxious Alpha. My mind started spinning, fingers itching with the need to pull it over my head and let out a scream. How can anyone be so frustrating and narcissistic?Confining against the bed, I tried to let the softness of the mattress under and the darkness of the bedroom lull me into sleep. I urged my body to relax and sink into the endless night, but the image of fair, tall, smug Alpha kept me falling over the edge.Why did I feel these emotions towards him? What was about him that I could not stop thinking?I swung my legs off my bed and stumbled towards the lone window in my room. A cold gust of wind blew through the cracks, the clouds hiding t
A heavy blend of murmurs and whispers echoed around the room, grating against my skin. Why was this so controversial? I thought while roaming my eyes, teeth sinking in the bottom lip. From my peripheral view, I saw my uncle tense before rushing in my direction.Dread settled in the pit of my stomach, fearing rejection. I did not have a good impression on the Alpha, regret filling me. Why was I stranded with him of all Alphas?No! I cannot let him reject me no matter what. Most of them could afford waiting and not fear being rejected. Some even don’t follow the standard procedure and mate with others. This was my only chance to escape the Palace and experience all the things I had been dreaming of.&nbs
Something shifted, his words hanging in the air, almost taunting. My vision started getting blurry, fission of heat scorching in my belly. I opened my mouth, ready to fire back at him, when a whine tore past my lips.I felt hot and uncomfortable under his stare, a layer of oily skin making me hyper-aware of the weight and texture of my clothing, making the nerves prickle with the urge to jump him.“Princess Lana?” He sharply breathed, sensing the shift of my scent, eyes turning darker.I swallowed harshly against the tendril of arousal curling at the pit of my stomach, born from imagining what it would be like to have those broad shoulders c
"What?!" I exclaimed, sitting up in my bed, not caring about the covers slipping off my body. The sound made my head throb, a hand rushing to cradle it from the side. "Have they lost their mind?"The housekeeper twisted her lips. "You cannot blame them. It's the only way through which the Palace May save face if your heat incident gets out in public.""But..." I exhaled, rubbing my hands over my face, knees pulled together. I couldn't help but recall Axel's words from the night before. The Alpha was reluctant to accept me as his mate and looked prepared to reject me on the spot. "He doesn't want me, Beth. That's the reason he pulled me away from the crowd and in the gardens."Frustration bubbled in my stomach, fingers clutching at the ends of the duvet and picking at loose threads. "Why would the
What could he possibly want to say that he hadn't already? I bitterly thought under my breath. From the corner of my eyes, I saw my uncle hide a grimace on his face, barely managing a nod."That can be arranged."Axel cleared his throat as if sensing the hesitancy in the tone. "We will be in the Palace gardens."My uncle whooshed out a breath, raising the cup of tea to his mouth and nodding delightedly. Of course. He must be embarrassed due to the incident last night and didn’t want a repeat of that.“Alpha Axel, let me tell you, my daughter is thrilled to be betrothed to you,” My aunt cut in, almost gushing, while I resisted the urge to flinch. Thrilled was not
Every pulse of my heart was in pain, an ache between my ribs that spread like wildfire, clogging my throat. It stung—a loveless marriage with the Pack Alpha.Those words kept on haunting me; I was feeling unbelievably nauseous.No words came out of my mouth, tongue rigid, arms reaching to wrap tightly around my body. My parents had always been the couple I looked up to. They made me believe in true love, and I wanted that.This was not happening. Then again, I should have known he would never commit to me.The Alpha was not looking for a mate; that much was evident from his behaviour these past days. Still, I had
I smelled the Alpha before I saw him, the earthly musk mixed with the undoubted scent of blood. My body froze at the entrance of the door, watching a gigantic wolf in front of me. A low, breathy whine escaped my lips, the hair on the back of my neck standing up as the realisation cemented inside.It's true. He's my mate. My wolf could feel it from inside, the way it immediately responded to his scent.Alpha Axel appeared sinister and equally gorgeous, the thick black fur a coat on his body, glinting in the rays, a bushy tail. His eyes were sparkling, almost golden at the edges with olive undertones, sharp and piercing. The Alphas paws were almost twice my size, pushing against the grass, almost digging in.&
My head hurt, and so did my throat, like there were iron bands around, squeezing until it was close to breaking and poking. I had no intention of prolonging the pain, staring at the person in front of me. So quickly, I stepped towards the double french doors leading towards the alley and threw them open. On my way, I could feel the prickle of his stare on my back, but I ignored it. As soon as the gust of fresh air greeted me, I sucked in a deep breath. It nipped at my overheated skin in a gentle caress as if it knew of the pain I was going through.My vision blurred again with tears as I gathered the courage to pull myself together and get away from Axel. I could feel nothing except a terrible hollowness, the emptiness inside left by Axel. As if it’s a void, sucking in everything that made me who I am. For a second, I thought I could quickly fill in the gap by finding someone else, having someone else. I could go to another Alpha and let him press tender kisses to all the worst parts
/Axels POV/“Axel! Axel!”“Hmm?”“Are you even listening to me?”“Yes…I apologise for….”The omega shook her head with a choked-off scoff, a half-aborted toss that made a long strand of hair fall in her face, curling over her wild, doe-shaped eyes. Eyes shone in the dim study room with more than just the soft glow of the candles. Her jaw flexed, knuckles turning whiter with how hard she clenched her fingers.I swallowed the lump forming in my throat and lifted my chin, meeting her gaze and holding it. For a moment that seemed to last forever, we stood there, surrounded by the heavy silence that Lana had created with her words. Why would she say that?I assure you this Lana would kill herself before harming you.No. I curled my toes, trying not to let the perfect composure slip. It’s the gratitude, I thought internally while looking at the omega in front of me. After all, I agreed to mate her and get her out of that Palace. “You don’t believe me?” She sounded wounded, a hurt noise sli
“What do you mean by problems?” Ethan beat me to it, curiosity written all over his face, leaning forward. “It doesn’t end well?” I winced as those words slipped out of my mouth, biting my tongue. “Well…yes. It’s a tragedy buried so deeply that rarely anyone alive knows about it.” The hardcover burned in my hands the longer I stared, tears blurring my vision. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Ethan, hawk-eyed, lips pursed in a single line and brows furrowed. The Alpha had difficulty taking all this, just like me, but he handled it better. At least for now. I thought shakily, averting my stare toward Daniel. He leaned against the stone wall and bought his knees to his chest; chin propped down. “The book…you can take it with you and read when you get back.”On instinct, I tightened the grip on the cover, nails digging around the bounds. “T-Thank you.”“It was the only existing copy after the great war fifty years ago. There are no more copies.”The way he worried his bottom lip whi
/Axels POV/I shook my head, watching as the omega walked away, trying to eliminate the unwanted thoughts as I wandered into my chambers. As if on a whim, I let the thick coat draped over unceremoniously fall on the side table, an audible sigh leaving my lips. Why did she seem in such a hurry anyway? What was Lana hiding? Or perhaps the omega had no interest in taking a walk with me.The last part stung. It didn’t matter if that was the result I wanted from her side; it still hurt. Rubbing my face, I decided to relax in the bathtub with scalding water, a mountain of bubbles piled onto my chest. To soothe the turmoil, I also added some scents but nothing compared to her natural scent. Sweat beaded down the side of my face, and fingers were pruned as I tilted my head back, shifting my legs. The water swirled around. I hadn't realised that I was bone-tired, almost in a zone between falling asleep and becoming awake, in the incoherent moment when one was too tired to close one's eyes. T
My heart didn't stop pounding the entire time I walked away from Axel, hands sweaty and throat wilted with guilt. It was for the best; I kept telling myself. Just one little lie so I could sneak out with Alpha Ethan to see his friend. As the commander asked, I stood patiently by the fire, wearing boots tied on tightly and my cape clipped. My arms came to wrap around the torso as a gust of cold wind blew by. I squinted my eyes while noticing a dark figure approaching me, body stiffening. When I got hold of his scent, my body automatically relaxed, staring at the Alpha. He was dressed in a black sweater over top of his white button-up, a thick black cape pulled on with the hood over his head as he approached me. Ethan was also carrying a satchel thrown over his chest; his shoes switched to thick black boots. "Should we leave?" "Yes." The Alpha guided us to the room on the other side of the wing, the table in a far corner standing out. I watched as he pushed away, pulling the car
/Axel's POV/My beating heart fell to my stomach like a dead rose petal, watching the omega speak with Ethan, eyes crinkling and mouth curving at something he had said. I could feel my stomach boil, an irrational surge of feelings taking over, and the utter negligence from inside had my feet moving towards them before my mind comprehended it. This was not the same Lana I chose to mate; overflowing with sweet, earnest innocence made her intentions towards me clear as the night. She was yielding in all ways, except in her stubborn decision. This was not the same one who had laughed at my silly attempt of humour, who stared at me as if I hung the moon and stars for her.I was lucky if she spared me a glance in my direction now. How did it come to this? I fought down a strangled, choking sound, whirling around, marching purposefully through the nearest open door in a drastic attempt to get away. I needed the cold wind whip on my face – a firm, strict reminder that this was my choice.I
My mouth gaped at his crude statement, and I recoiled on the spot. Rage filled my insides, my back stiffening as I narrowed my eyes into slits. I took a deep breath, resisting the urge to scream at him.How dare he accuse me of such a thing? Especially since he was the one to set the boundaries from the beginning. Axel reminded me time and time again that I meant nothing to him. “Why do you care?!” The words slipped out before I could stop myself, biting my tongue. A chuckle burst out of him, hollow and empty. “Why do you I care? You are still my omega, for moon's sake!”My toes curled at that, and I didn’t know what to think of the strange stirring in the bottom of my belly, and the permanent lingering of his scent did little to help me.“Oh, am I? Cause last time we slept together, you made sure to remind me I meant nothing.”He flinched as if he had been slapped by my words, teeth grinding. The Alpha's harsh breath fell on my face as he merely leaned closer, the vein in his foreh
It's been a few days since the last time I saw Axel, so I had a lot of time to think with a clear mind. There was no point in denying that his absence affected me; the marks left on my skin wholly faded. It gave my omega enough nightmares, waking up to look for his arms only to find myself all alone in the bed. I didn't know when things switched from vehemently hating being anywhere near him to wanting to get as close as I possibly could without being too obvious.But his words stung. The wound was still raw, and I had no intention of making the same mistake again. For all I know, the Alpha rejected me without actually saying those words. Despite his long stares in my direction and wanting to talk, I had completely shut down the attempts. I had no interest in hearing the exact words again. Pinning after a mate who doesn't even care about relationships is the possibly highest act of stupidity. Shaking my head, I stood up, noticing the cape Amy had placed on the bed for me. Ethan was
/Axel's POV/Liam stayed behind as I slipped inside Jade's place, feeling on edge. The beta kept quiet the entire way as if he understood my inner conflict. It’s been a lot; ever since I woke up to Lana sleeping next to me, looking very angelic and sculpted by the moon goddess, guilt swarmed my belly. During my rut, all I saw was how she would look up, lush, her long curls a mess and matted on her forehead and tear tracks streaming down her reddened cheeks as she whispered back softly, urgent and unsteady to knot her. I felt my breath catch sharply at the memory, the jolt pulling me straight back to the present. Still, despite everything, I coerced her into sleeping with me, a sick feeling taking over my body. If not for my rut and the Alpha taking over, I would have never let her near me. Why did she give in? Maybe…No! I completely shut the thought before it started forming, fully aware of its danger. Our relationship was a facade, a mere convenience for both of us, and I made t