/Axel POV/
"For the last time, I am not interested, mother!" I sullenly said, wiping the corners of my lips, a frown starting to take over. The grip on my napkin tightened when I noticed the former Luna twist her lips.
As expected, she did not take it well, abruptly standing up from her seat. I swallowed loudly, the vein in my head ticking, when I saw her plate. My mother hadn't bothered to take a bite of the roasted potatoes and steak or anything else for that matter.
Tears brimmed in her eyes, a hand slapping over her lips while turning on her feet. I cursed under my breath.
"Mom! Please!"
"Please, what?!" She hiccuped, a tear sliding down her cheeks as she glared at me. "Do my words mean anything to you anymore? I have been trying to tell you from last year, Axel!"
Her voice softened as she took a step in my direction, placing a warm hand on my shoulder. I sagged against the chair, a breath whooshing out of my chest. My grip on the napkin loosened, slowly falling in my lap.
"It's been three years, honey."
Something twisted in my chest at the harsh reminder. My wife passed away three years ago, leaving a gaping hole in my chest that will never be filled. It has been a trying time ever since for my family as well as the pack.
"You may not like to hear it, but I am getting old, and I don't want to spend my afternoons doing the Luna duties."
Guilt swarmed my belly at the tired lines marring her face. With no Luna to take over, my mother had to fulfil the responsibilities and manage the pack members. My mother enjoyed her time away from the pack when the incident occurred, and she took over.
"I told you to take weekends off." I lamely said, looking up at her.
"As if that's possible. You know how it gets during the weekends, Axel. I am tired of handling this pack."
"Mom..."
"You gave me your word." She cut me off with a pointed look, her expression unwavering. "Last year...when I asked to go, you told me you'll try this year. Do not back away now."
"Fine!"
"I'm asking this for your sake. The last thing I want is to see my son end up like me. It only gets lonelier as you age and have no one by your side."
I looked away, staring at my feet. The ex-Pack Alpha, my father, passed away as soon as I turned eighteen. She was left with no mate and continued to hold on. Having no other successor, I had to learn all the skills as soon as possible. Those days were difficult for both—my mother and me, but she left my side, ignored the protests of our elders and made me the Pack Alpha.
***
The next day everything was arranged for my departure. As expected, my mother was over the moon, bidding me goodbye with a radiant smile.
I stared up and breathed deeply through my nose to calm myself. The smell of the freshly cut grass, the sound of wind yowling, along with the birds chirping echoed in my ears. It's a trick my mother taught—to focus on what I can hear and smell if I feel too overwhelmed.
"Your horse is ready, my lord." The stable boy informed, his face pink from the chill.
I reached out to pet Williams mane when he bristled, cooing at the horse gently and ensuring he was calm before mounting.
"You ready?" I heard my beta from the left, Liam appearing every bit calm and determined. It helped that he's the second in command and my best friend at the same time.
"Like that matters. Let's go!"
***
It took six long hours to reach our destination. The Palace stood, all bright, brilliant against the sky, its lights emanating from the windows and casting a glow on the massive expanse of its grounds. I grimaced, mouth set in a thin line as I thought of the Alpha King behind the pack. He's something of an evil mastermind—rumoured to have killed his brother and his wife for the throne. No one knows the truth.
"Alpha Axel?" Liam blinked at me, standing in front of the guards, a brow raised towards me.
"Take my horse. My legs feel cramped so I will walk. Do not worry; I know the way in."
"Should I send someone along with you?"
"No. I am fine." I dismounted smoothly from my horse, and the crunch of gravel under my shoes felt solid, grounding.
At the end of the stone way, I noticed it break off into three more roads in varying directions. I twisted my lip and noticed the lack of guards lining them. Just as I stood there, with my arms crossed together, considering a path, my nose caught a sweet scent that had me turning left. I followed it before I could stop to wonder.
It's faint but strong. The smell clung to the walls, more so as I got closer to the open door a few metres into the hallway. I connected the smell, identifying it as jasmine and amber, smoky yet subtly sweet.
I sauntered down the hall, staring up at the ceiling, the cornices almost shimmering silver. I stepped further into the room and down one of the aisles, unconsciously following that scent which grew stronger the more I explored. Turning to the next aisle, with my eyes on the ceiling, I was in awe at the dome-like structure.
"Fuck!" A curse flew out of my mouth as I tripped, barely catching in time on the ledge of the shelves around. Straightening up, I heard a hiss of pain from the floor, letting me know my feet knocked over a person.
"Oh, I am..." I whirled around to help the person when the words died in my throat.
An omega.
I stared unabashedly at the person on the floor now, through a mask of cool nonchalance, my eyes drinking in every piece of her. Blue. Her eyes are the most striking colour of earth and ocean, widened in fear as she stared back. The pink of her lips are parted, glossy and round.
I winced as the pain in my chest intensified, vision getting blurry around the edges. What was this sudden sensation?
The omega sat on the floor against the shelves with a book in her lap like she had been lounging and reading, small hands clutching her ankle that I might have accidentally hurt.
"I'm so sorry, omega," The title slipped out in a way normally meant for mates. What was I thinking? I shook my head, balling my fingers into fists. "You should not be sitting here like this."
"Excuse me?!" Her voice was high, a light rasp like the omega hadn't spoken much. The sound of the book falling off her lap echoed in my ears as she abruptly stood up. She had her arms crossed, raising her head as if in an attempt to tower me. No way it's possible with her shoulders reaching only up to my chest.
I never had a pair of eyes make my heartbeat increase as it did now.
The omega's clothing was thin linen, a thick pearl necklace glimmering in the light but still the neckline of her top remained exposed. At the heaving breath, she took, my eyes flit over her jutted collarbones, the expansion of her neck, and I had to swallow against the rush of saliva in my mouth. The skin was so pale, smooth and unmarked.
“Are you trying to turn this around, mister? You should be the one watching where you are going."
My mouth slacked a bit at the sharp tone of her response while I tried to control my breathing, trying not to let the scent drive me primal. I knew that I should leave, that it would be the best option, but at the same time, the thought of turning around and leaving this omega alone and unprotected with an open collar made my alpha itch with self-aimed anger.
"How dare you talk back to me? Do you know who I am?"
"Why?" She blinked at me with an amused tilt of her lips. "Do you not know who you are? Want me to tell you your identity?"
The unwavering of her voice and an overconfident stance made something shift inside. No one in my pack or outside spoke to me in this manner. Her stupidity and lack of manners were hilarious. She was breathtaking, brighter than the sun as she lifted a dainty hand to cover his mouth.
I could feel my jaw slack a little, rage coiling in my belly.
"Why, you little..."
"Oh, moons!" She cut me off, her eyes falling onto the clock. The omega hastily brushed a hand down her gown, picking the book from the floor. "I have to leave now." Turning to me, she made a sound. "Hope you find yourself soon. Bye!"
I stared at her retreating back in a daze, nostrils filled with her scent and heaviness in my chest disappearing.
***
My head hurt, and so did my throat, like there were iron bands around, squeezing until it was close to breaking and poking. I had no intention of prolonging the pain, staring at the person in front of me. So quickly, I stepped towards the double french doors leading towards the alley and threw them open. On my way, I could feel the prickle of his stare on my back, but I ignored it. As soon as the gust of fresh air greeted me, I sucked in a deep breath. It nipped at my overheated skin in a gentle caress as if it knew of the pain I was going through.My vision blurred again with tears as I gathered the courage to pull myself together and get away from Axel. I could feel nothing except a terrible hollowness, the emptiness inside left by Axel. As if it’s a void, sucking in everything that made me who I am. For a second, I thought I could quickly fill in the gap by finding someone else, having someone else. I could go to another Alpha and let him press tender kisses to all the worst parts
/Axels POV/“Axel! Axel!”“Hmm?”“Are you even listening to me?”“Yes…I apologise for….”The omega shook her head with a choked-off scoff, a half-aborted toss that made a long strand of hair fall in her face, curling over her wild, doe-shaped eyes. Eyes shone in the dim study room with more than just the soft glow of the candles. Her jaw flexed, knuckles turning whiter with how hard she clenched her fingers.I swallowed the lump forming in my throat and lifted my chin, meeting her gaze and holding it. For a moment that seemed to last forever, we stood there, surrounded by the heavy silence that Lana had created with her words. Why would she say that?I assure you this Lana would kill herself before harming you.No. I curled my toes, trying not to let the perfect composure slip. It’s the gratitude, I thought internally while looking at the omega in front of me. After all, I agreed to mate her and get her out of that Palace. “You don’t believe me?” She sounded wounded, a hurt noise sli
“What do you mean by problems?” Ethan beat me to it, curiosity written all over his face, leaning forward. “It doesn’t end well?” I winced as those words slipped out of my mouth, biting my tongue. “Well…yes. It’s a tragedy buried so deeply that rarely anyone alive knows about it.” The hardcover burned in my hands the longer I stared, tears blurring my vision. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Ethan, hawk-eyed, lips pursed in a single line and brows furrowed. The Alpha had difficulty taking all this, just like me, but he handled it better. At least for now. I thought shakily, averting my stare toward Daniel. He leaned against the stone wall and bought his knees to his chest; chin propped down. “The book…you can take it with you and read when you get back.”On instinct, I tightened the grip on the cover, nails digging around the bounds. “T-Thank you.”“It was the only existing copy after the great war fifty years ago. There are no more copies.”The way he worried his bottom lip whi
/Axels POV/I shook my head, watching as the omega walked away, trying to eliminate the unwanted thoughts as I wandered into my chambers. As if on a whim, I let the thick coat draped over unceremoniously fall on the side table, an audible sigh leaving my lips. Why did she seem in such a hurry anyway? What was Lana hiding? Or perhaps the omega had no interest in taking a walk with me.The last part stung. It didn’t matter if that was the result I wanted from her side; it still hurt. Rubbing my face, I decided to relax in the bathtub with scalding water, a mountain of bubbles piled onto my chest. To soothe the turmoil, I also added some scents but nothing compared to her natural scent. Sweat beaded down the side of my face, and fingers were pruned as I tilted my head back, shifting my legs. The water swirled around. I hadn't realised that I was bone-tired, almost in a zone between falling asleep and becoming awake, in the incoherent moment when one was too tired to close one's eyes. T
My heart didn't stop pounding the entire time I walked away from Axel, hands sweaty and throat wilted with guilt. It was for the best; I kept telling myself. Just one little lie so I could sneak out with Alpha Ethan to see his friend. As the commander asked, I stood patiently by the fire, wearing boots tied on tightly and my cape clipped. My arms came to wrap around the torso as a gust of cold wind blew by. I squinted my eyes while noticing a dark figure approaching me, body stiffening. When I got hold of his scent, my body automatically relaxed, staring at the Alpha. He was dressed in a black sweater over top of his white button-up, a thick black cape pulled on with the hood over his head as he approached me. Ethan was also carrying a satchel thrown over his chest; his shoes switched to thick black boots. "Should we leave?" "Yes." The Alpha guided us to the room on the other side of the wing, the table in a far corner standing out. I watched as he pushed away, pulling the car
/Axel's POV/My beating heart fell to my stomach like a dead rose petal, watching the omega speak with Ethan, eyes crinkling and mouth curving at something he had said. I could feel my stomach boil, an irrational surge of feelings taking over, and the utter negligence from inside had my feet moving towards them before my mind comprehended it. This was not the same Lana I chose to mate; overflowing with sweet, earnest innocence made her intentions towards me clear as the night. She was yielding in all ways, except in her stubborn decision. This was not the same one who had laughed at my silly attempt of humour, who stared at me as if I hung the moon and stars for her.I was lucky if she spared me a glance in my direction now. How did it come to this? I fought down a strangled, choking sound, whirling around, marching purposefully through the nearest open door in a drastic attempt to get away. I needed the cold wind whip on my face – a firm, strict reminder that this was my choice.I