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His Heart Ruler 62
Jenny’s POV I wish there was nothing like the feeling of losing someone. There is no word that can do justice to the definition of that hollow feeling inside me. There is no language in which I can explain the grief I'm going through. The grief, It just snatched everything away. Everything came crashing down in front of my eyes. No hopes. No beliefs. No courage to even pick up a fallen pen. Everything reminds me of him and those times when he was alive. It’s been a month since my dad lived his last day on the earth before leaving. I was so broken and crying weakly that those memories of saying goodbye to him have become easy for me. I wasn’t in my senses, and couldn’t remember much about that day because all that I know is, my father is no more. I lost him, and I still can’t believe this. How can God be so cruel that he snatched the only person I had ? If he wanted to make me suffer then he could have taken my life instead of my father’s. Why him ? The doctors said it wa
His Heart Ruler 63
Jenny's POV Days become weeks and weeks become months, the frequent random crying did stop and now I'm at a point where even if I want to cry, tears just won’t come, because there isn’t any left. But i realised that grief of losing someone i loved can be intense like physical pain. I literally felt my throat hurting, aching and heart tearing into two. Those moments were the ones where I cried because I didn't know what else to do. Every day felt the same, the routine of recalling about dad and then crying because I couldn't stop thinking about him knowing that he doesn’t exist in this world anymore. I also realised my pride of not wanting to cry so much in front of others and the notion that I needed to be strong for my dad made me suppress a lot of the feelings which made it worse. Then there was guilt and a lot of what if I did this or that, would we have a different and he would have lived? I miss him, so much that if there’s any way to get him back i would. If there’s e
His Heart Ruler 64
Three months back, Ryan’s POV She is in her worst situation ever, and I'm not able to see her like this. I know losing her father is a big deal for her but the way she keeps neglecting herself these past months is scaring me. She isn’t sleeping properly, she skips her meals, and constantly cries. Her health is getting worse and she doesn’t seem to care for any of these now. I tried distracting her with something else but nothing works when she herself doesn’t want to get out of the grief she is right now. Day by day she is turning weak, and lean. That puts me into worry. I don’t know if i can ever see her the way she used to be. Because nowadays, she doesn’t even utter a word. If anyone asks something to her, she will either nod or shake or maintain her silence. Mostly she would stare at empty walls or would spend her time looking out of the window in her room. Making her step down for dinner or lunch would be one hell of a job, she was falling into the loneliness that star
His Heart Ruler 65
Ryan’s POV “ Are you sure ? i mean….you keep telling me that you want to get rid of the phobia but when it comes to treatments you never cop up…..and then you leave us hanging in the middle “ Said Mr. Aaron looked at me through his round thick glasses. Well I can't deny the fact that he is right. For the two whole times I decided to get treated, but for some reason I couldn’t continue the treatment and left it in the middle. And being the good sort of therapist, Aaron had tried his best to convince me everytime when I left the treatment in the middle. But now, Now i really want to get cured, i don’t want to see those nightmares anymore,i don’t want to keep a check on my proximity with jenny whenever we’re together because i can’t let my phobia kick in when i or her crossed the border line. Infact few times i almost got on edge of getting panicked when jenny would reach up for my shirt buttons while kissing me, but thanks to those friends of hers who always interrupted us in th
His Heart Ruler 66
(Three months ago) Ryan’s POV I am obsessed with the sunset. I keep observing the colours , shades and patterns of sky and clouds and how everyday it is different. The clouds make the sunset look more pretty. I believe every sunset and sunrise needs a sky to show up and few fluffy clouds to peep out. Setting of the sun shows how the end of the journey can be so beautiful . Sunset makes me feel beautiful and fills me up with positivity . When I watch sunset it feels like everything paused for a moment and colours are flying in the sky just to paint the world. Every day the sun rises, crosses the sky and sets. And it does it again and again and again like the perpetually repeating cycle of events in a day that people follow and tend to complete as if they have got a task to finish before the deadline. Sunsets are one of the few things in life that is guaranteed and subconsciously the certainty and guarantee is extremely soothing to the soul, just like her. No matter how bad a
His Heart Ruler 67
( Present time ) Author’s POV Jenny was waiting for his response even though the stunned look on his face gave her all the reason to assume his rejection beforehand. And yet she was waiting just because of the last drop of hope she had on him. A marriage isn’t what she actually wants with him, but the promise of togetherness despite all the flaws and hurdles they have between their relationship. She wants him to stay with her, she wants him to be around her as much as possible. She wants him to be hers, in all sense. Knowingly or unknowingly she is possessed by the thought that her dad wanted her to get married and her refusal led to unwanted arguments between them and before she could sort out things with him, he left. So in order to end the slight guilt that is eating her alive inch by inch, day by day Jenny came up with a decision of getting hitched to Ryan. Besides, after her father she began to feel left alone just how she was before Mr.Oberoi adopted her. Of cour
His Heart Ruler 68
Author’s POV “ C’mon, accept your loss “ exclaimed Maya as she glared at Sam who wasn’t ready to accept the fact that Maya won the bet. “ you cheated , otherwise “ he dragged the last word looking around finding a way to distract her from the over prodigiousness of her talent of predicting people's next moves. “ Did you realise how cheap and lame you have been from the past ten minutes ?” shooting daggers at him Maya smacked him on the back of his head, for which he just smiled and nodded off. Well, he had to accept it. It’s been an hour since Maya and Sam are waiting for Jenny at their favourite meeting spot. The Lasata restaurant, which not only serves coffee and cakes but also provides interesting games that would involve people’s full attention and strength. Despite having all kinds of games, like video games, whirl cars, ball game, cricket and karaoke, Maya and Sam decided to spend their time predicting what every third person they saw around would do, who’s guess
His Heart Ruler 69
Author’s POV Turning the knob of the door Maya pushed open it walking inside as her eyes scanned the hall. Disappointment covered her face as her eyes didn’t find the sight she always wants to look at. Taking off her heels she sighed as his shoes weren't on the rack which means he is not back yet. Dropping her bag on the couch leisurely she slumped on bed stretching her arms out of exhaustion while a faint yawn left from her mouth. For the last few days she hasn't been getting enough sleep and rest because of the rush between the office and Jenny’s home. Sometimes, she would be working till late night to complete her pending works. Skipping the meals, and sleeping made her look like a ghost as she turned pale and lean. Her chubbiness was melting, and she wasn’t happy about it. She loved every inch of her chubbiness, and watching her figure turning lean she got worried over her health and decided to give some attention to her body as well. Looking around she grabbed the wat
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