Chapter Three

Ryan was angry with himself for making the woman he loves think that he doesn't love her. He knew he was trying to get rid of the feelings he has for her but he still hates himself for making her feel unloved.

How ironic was that! She was in his mind for the past five years. No matter what he did, he couldn't stop thinking about her. He wouldn't stop wishing that she wasn't his step sister. If only she wasn't his step sister, he would have been with her by now. 

It actually hurts to know that she sees him as nothing but as her big brother. He knows that his love for her is forbidden but what can he do? He has tried his best to stop loving her but couldn't. There's no point in staying away from her again. The five years he stayed away from her didn't help in killing his feelings for her; rather he hurt her through the process. 

He won't hurt her again, so he won't leave her side again. He doesn't care if he's going to be tortured by this feeling he has for her, the only thing he wants is her happiness. He will be that brother she loves and adores. It hurts to be brother zoned but it looks like that's what fate had chosen for him by making her his step sister. 

“Please don't stop loving me. I want you to be my big brother forever," Amira mumbled with pouty lips as she subconsciously bit her lower lips. She looks so cute doing that and Ryan was tempted to kiss that plump pink lips of hers but he got hold of himself and put on a smile. It's somehow funny how she thinks that he would stop loving her.

“Who told you that I will stop loving you. You are my baby, my cute little sister and I will always love you," he said and kissed her forehead. His adam apple shifted once again as his lips touched her forehead. He wonders how soft her lips will be if her forehead is this soft. He believes that her lips will be soft and it will also taste sweet. Before he got lost in that dirty thought, he quickly snapped himself out of it.

“Really? You will love me forever?" Her beautiful smile once again returned to her face and he was happy to see her smiling again.

“Yes," he replied with a bright smile. “Also, I won't leave your side from now on. Even if I go back to London, I won't stop you from visiting me."

“What! Are you for real?" Amira was a bit shocked, she never expected that. Nevertheless, she was happy…. She was so very happy. Without wasting time, she quickly hugged her brother once again. 

Ryan chuckled. He's happy to see her happy and he won't ever make her sad again. 

….

After their happy moment, they settled in the car as the driver started driving them home. Amira was so happy, she couldn't hide her happiness and she won't stop clinging onto her brother. She missed him so much and doesn't think she will stay a second away from him. She was busy telling him stories of how her life was moving in the past five years he wasn't with her not knowing what her closeness was doing to him. 

Ryan was trying his best not to look at her cleavage which popped out from her v–neck dress. The way she is pressing her breast on his arm keeps doing things to his body. He knew she's only trying to be clingy towards her brother not knowing that that brother of hers is deeply in love with her and he's now struggling to control his body because of her closeness.

He's enjoying her story but the sudden rise of hormones in his body is too hard to control. He normally had her staying this close to him in the past until he fell in love with her and now it seems like a great struggle trying to accommodate her closeness. He wonders why her closeness is doing so much to him. Why can't he control himself? It looks like he's slowly losing his self control when it comes to her. This is just the first day of being with her after five years and he's finding it hard to control himself. He wonders how he will put up in the coming months, especially now she has matured into a beautiful, sexy lady. 

Luckily for him, they arrived home before his adam apple could stand like a giant tree. He was able to release a relief breath the moment they stepped out of the car but unfortunately, Amira didn't leave his side. She held his arm as they walked inside the mansion while the maids dragged in his luggage.

Her closeness to him is somehow ironic because he wants her close to himself but at the same time her closeness is doing something crazy to him.

“Ryan!" Hilary calls happily the moment she sees Ryan. She and her husband Raymond have been waiting for their son, they both miss him so much. Hilary didn't waste a second to welcome her son with a hug. 

“I missed you so much my dear," she said lovingly and kissed his forehead. 

“Welcome home son." Raymond also gave his son a warm hug. He couldn't believe that his young son has grown into a man and he's hard working too. 

After the warm hug, the family of four sat down to have their lunch. Happiness is booming in the whole household. Today, they will not only celebrate Amira's birthday party but also Ryan's welcoming party. 

Hilary can't explain how happy she is today. Her baby girl has turned twenty while her sweet son comes back home after five years. She feels like she's the happiest woman on earth right now. 

She personally prepared a welcoming feast for Ryan while Amira's birthday party will take place tonight. 

“I made all these specially for you my son, eat up," Hilary said lovingly as she served Ryan's favorite dishes to him.

“Thanks mum," Ryan replied sweetly. He couldn't explain why the word mum sounded odd to his ear. Well, it didn't begin today. He started feeling odd calling Hilary mum from the day he fell in love with Amira. 

He feels like his heart is commiting a great sin by loving Amira. How can he fall in love with a girl whom he shares the same mother with. How can he still see Hilary as his mum when he's in love with her daughter. He just feels miserable, he feels that his heart betrayed him by falling in love with a wrong person and the worst part of it was that no matter what he did, he couldn't stop loving her.