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14. Guilt

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ZEDKIEL.

I’m about to run after her, but Kash blocks my path. The crushing pain in my chest is unbearable. Her words ring in my mind and the repercussions that they carried, sting.

I’m losing my mind. I need her. I can’t imagine life without her.

I know I once promised her that she could leave, but now… even if she wants to leave, I will not let her.

How easily she was ready to throw me away…

“Move aside.” I snarl. My heart is thundering and the urge to kill everyone within the vicinity is overcoming me. Friend or foe, it was all becoming a blur.

All Zerachiel and I want is destruction if we don’t get to go to her.

“I know you want to go after her, but you need to calm down. I’ve sent some guards to watch over her at a distance. Zed, give her an hour or two to calm down and then you can go. If you go in anger, it’s only going to make matters worse.” Kash tries to reason with me.

“She misunderstood.” I snarl. My claws are out and I’m trying to control myself from ripping him in
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Nana Leger
zerachiel needs to control his danm temper,because nothing come out of rage is good, especially his thirst for blood danm.
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Nicole Bryers
Ooh! I'm pissed with you Angel! It's alright! It's all his fault! He should've told you everything! Zed, you know she loves your dum a**! You just need to stop acting like a dum a**! SMH!
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stephanie c
When will the rest be on audio?
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