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66: Truth breaks the heart
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2021-01-17 11:56:04Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them - we can only love others as much as we love ourselves.
Brené Brown"Who told you that?" I ask, even though my brain has done the calculation and narrowing down, my heart refuses to accept and believe that.
His eyes narrow at me, "I think both of us knows who it is that told me."
I shake my head, trying to look as untouched as I can look, "I don't believe you."
He gives a burst of wicked laughter, "Why not? 'Cause your fiance is so trustworthy? Do you even know who you're getting married to? The man you're carrying his child?"
A part of me wants to listen to him and the other part knows that the truth he knows is going to break and crush me and if be
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