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15: Walking time bomb
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2021-01-31 02:16:32"Never separate your mind from your heart when making relationship decisions. The purpose of the mind is to protect the heart."
~Anonymous
Alexanders POV
This is the third time we've come out since last week and the first was seven days ago when Julian took me to the park and although it ended up bad because some cameramen saw us together and tried to make a scene when securities told them no photo in the park and Julian had to get me out of there as fast as he could.
It was almost a week since Julian's arrival and he'd done more for me than anyone else had done since the last eight weeks and we've tried out a few things too, grilled fish, chicken suya and my favourite the grilled gizzard. We bought them four days ago when we went to the park and since then I haven't been able to get enough of it. Julian who is an amazing soul got them for me. Whenever he's coming home from work would buy and bring them over.
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