5: Chosen ones

Aurora's POV

"Please don't do this to me." I murmur to myself after the door got locked from behind and there is no other way for me to leave.

I lie there on the floor in Alpha Caden's study not knowing what to do or how to think because things just blew out before I could even think. This is all too much for my mental health. I have been trying so hard to keep back in focus but it's hard now.

I left this pack for the same reason. I wanted peace of mind which this pack won't give me so I ran away. I left for my happiness only to come back and get trapped in the most absurd and unexpected way. This is really not what I was expecting when I decided to come to Brown Woods.

I have a long list of clients waiting for me back in Canada to get their tattoos designed. I have so much to do back home. I haven't fed my dog too though I have given him to my neighbor to take care of him while I am away. She is going to be worried if I don't return soon.

No one walked into the room for the next several hours while I sat there humiliated, panicked and exhausted. I don't know what to do as I sat there staring blankly into space. There is nothing I can do now that Alpha Caden is angry. I have never seen him like that.

I mean, he has been mad at Lucas once when he made me cry when we were children but that was about it. He never lost his cool but the man I saw earlier was a beast in human form. He was so scary and monstrous that I held my breath the whole time.

Stark naked in the study, I raise my head with great difficulty because it feels so heavy on my neck, then stare at the CCTV camera facing me. I always knew he hs them all over the house and they never bothered but this particular one irk me to no end.

I need to get dressed in case he is watching through that god awful camera and he will see me so broken and vulnerable. Slowly standing on my wobbly feet, I fell the next second because they were to weak to carry my suddenly too much weight. I yelp as my knee hit the coffee table.

A sharp cry escaped from my mouth as tears rushed down my cheeks in rapid succession. My chest heaved as my shoulders curved in, my spine curled forward to make myself smaller on the cold tiled floor I used to play in eith Lucas and Lilian when we were younger.

The burn in the back of my throat is so uncomfortable it brought another fresh tear rushing down my cheeks. I have never felt so weak and fragile like I do right now. I feel so hopeless and helpless with everything and everyone. My life won't ever get worse than this.

My skin tightened as something uncomfortable crawled all over my body making it hard for me to even breathe. Instead of attempting to stand again, I simply draw my knees up to my chest and rock myself in a small ball then lower my guard for Eva.

Instead of instantly rambling or giving her opinion on the matter, Eva enveloped me in warmth that circled my mind. I could physically feel her trying to wipe away my tears and hug me at the same time so I gave into the feeling. I want to be consoled.

For so long I have only had Eva my entire life. I couldn't even turn to my parents for a lot of things after finding out I could talk to Eva without getting judged. The only comfortable and constant in my life since I was eighteen. The best gift Moon Goddess had given me.

She was not happy in the human world but she stayed with me knowing there is no other place for me in this pack after being rejected. Everyone knows what rejection means from a mate so they won't question me at all for leaving.

I haven't told my parents about the rejection though and I don't think I ever will. If they find out, it has got to be from Lucas and not me. Or maybe Anne that he decided to be with. That he decided to mate. Someone he thought was far better than I am. Someone more powerful.

The thought again made a pang hit my chest. I forced myself to forget about all that stuff when I went to the human world in Canada to make new genuine friends that want me for who I am. Now I'm back and everything is turning upside down for me again.

I thought about Lucas more times than I could count even though he is the last person I want in my mind. I wanted him with my entire heart only for him to shatter eighteen years of friendship in one night with a few freaking words that are forever ingrained in my mind.

"I don't know what to say. I don't even understand what is going on and how things changed so suddenly." Eva said a few minutes later after simply being with me.

"I don't either, Eva. I don't know what is going on. This wasn't how things were supposed to be. This is fucked up. And very very messy." I mutter into my head not having the strength to even open my mouth.

"I understand. But I never expected this from Caden of all people. He is like the most cool headed male I have ever met. Why would he react like that?" She asked, anger lacing her tone and I know she is getting furious by the second.

"I don't know. I don't know, Eva! It feels like he has a switch button that was flickered on earlier. I couldn't even see the Alpha I grew up with." I swallow, anger also trying to boil my insides raw.

"Or maybe he is just grieving his wife? She died just a few days ago and the pain is still very much fresh." She said hopefully though we both know otherwise.

Alpha Caden wasn't grieving his wife with his actions. He never would have done that no matter what. What he did was solely because he wanted to and thinks I was wrong for what happened when we were all drunk out of our minds.

I can't remember a single detail after I took that bottle of whiskey and pressed it to my lips. I was so confused, surprised and overwhelmed after finding out Alpha Caden was my second chance mate. Wait, is he even my second chance mate or is destiny toying with me?

"That wasn't grieving Eva! That was pure brutality at its peak. He wanted someone to blame for what we did and I was the only option." I say angrily, not willing to give any benefit of doubt. He doesn't deserve it.

After going to the human world I realize that people have matched all over me in this pack in the name of me being forgiving. Not anymore. I have stopped giving excuses for people that do not deserve it. He wanted to blame me and he did just that. I am the safest bet.

"Yeah, that wasn't grieving. But that wasn't the Alpha Caden you knew either!" She insisted and I know it has become she thinks he is our mate and she doesn't want me to hate me.

As if I could hate Aloha Caden so fast though I wish I could do that right this instant. I wish I could loathe the mere emotion of his name but somewhere deep inside me I'm giving him the excuse and benefit of doubt I don't want to think about. He is a great man.

"Why did you even call him our mate, Eva? Our mate was Lucas, his fucking son that rejected us four years ago. Why?" I ask in a small voice, dropping my head between my naked knees.

She didn't answer me for a long moment and I thought she had blocked me for asking her such a question. But what was I supposed to do? I couldn't even digest the words after she said them. She didn't expect me to just accept something she's said, does she?

Lucas rejected me and honestly, I have never met anyone that got a destined second chance mate. Most of the rejected go through so much pain at the first stage then they move on with another person that isn't their mate. Never a second chance mate by Moon Goddess.

"It is a feeling I got then. I even connected to his wolf at that instant and he felt the same. Was … was Flora his fated mate?" She asked a question she's never asked. We actually stopped talking about anything Brown Wood related.

"No, she wasn't. They agreed to mark and marry each other as chosen ones."