C H A P T E R 4 - Sam.

I could tell by the expression on the Alpha's face that he was uncomofortable. I could see it in his body language, pick up on it in the way that he was looking at me, and I knew that he was not going to stick around here for much longer. And could I blame him? I could not. If I had the choice to leave, then I also would not hesitate to do it. But I did not have the choice, and that was why I remained seated where I was. If I had any intention of getting out of this situation without embarressing myself, then I would need to stay here.

"I would like to take a moment to apologise for her behaviour. I am sure that she did not mean to offend you. She did not know who you were."

I watched as the Alpha clenched his jaw, the action visible to me. He was still looking at me as if he was trying to look right through me and I found myself questioning whether or not I was going to find myself in a heap of trouble. I knew that I couldn't allow my father to find out that I had slept with this man - this man, whom I could not even name. I had not thought that I would see him again, and yet, look at the situation that I now found myself in.

"Not knowing who I am, does not give her the right to attack me in my own home."

"And what if you were not who you were? What if it was someone who had come in here with every intention of threatening my life? What was I supposed to do, Alpha?"

I stood up when I started speaking, wanting him to know that I was not going to back down from this argument, and I definitely wasn't going to apologise for what I had done. If he hadn't man-handled me in the way that he had, perhaps he wouldn't have found himself laying on the floor. He needed to accept accountability for what he had done, just as I was doing. I wasn't sorry for any of it, and therefore I would not pretend to be.

"Samantha."

My eyes moved to my father, and I could tell that he was furious. He was trying to get me to relax, to remember that there was a certain way that you were supposed to address your Alpha, and the way that I was doing it, was not right. On the contrary, it was the furthest thing from right as it could be. His use of my full name was as much of a threat as any. And even though I wanted to be the one who got the last word, I decided to pick my battles and to avoid this one.

"No. Leave her. Let her say what she wants to say."

My eyes moved to the Alpha again, and I found that his expression had chaned. He was looking at me like he had looked at me in the club, and I could feel the beginnings of the goosebumps that were starting to appear on my back. What was going on? Why was he affecting me like this? And worst of all, why was I not disgusted by the fact that he was older than me? I should be running for the hills, feeling ashamed for what I had done, but I was the furthest thing from ashamed as was remotely possible.

"I take offense to her treating you in such a manner. You are her Alpha, and it would do her good to remind that."

As much as I loved my father, I was quite bothered with him in that moment. There was a part of me that wished that I hadn't called for him. But how was I supposed to know that it had been the Alpha, that it was his house and not someone who had come in here like a thief in the night? For crying out loud, I couldn't just smell things like that in the air. I hadn't shifted yet, and I wouldn't be doing so for another week. It was wrong of my father to hold me accountable as if I had.

"You need not take any more offense. I believe that this is nothing more than a misunderstanding, and I have faith that it will not happen again. Hopefully, I will not see you again until the morning."

As if he had now decided that the conversation was done, the Alpha walked around the sofa, avoiding my gaze and then going up the staircase. All the while, my father remained silent, and I got the distinct impression that he was going to give me the worst lecture that he could possibly muster up. I didn’t think that it was necessary, especially since he did not know the full story about what had happened, but I also did not want to tell him the full story.

My father knew that I had an active social life - and I was sure that he knew that I did many other things too. But telling him that I had fucked our new Alpha, definitely wasn’t going to score me any brownie points. Could you imagine his reaction to it? It would be anything but good. That much I was sure of.

Despite the fact that I was hoping that the Alpha would come back down here and call my father, and save me from this conversation, I knew that it was not going to happen. I was not favoured enough for things like this to go my way. I would merely have to hope that my father would not be unnecessarily cruel. He had warned me to be on my best behaviour, and now, he probably thought that I was doing anything but that. And I couldn’t even blame him for thinking like that.

“What has gotten into you?”

He practically hissed at me as he spoke, and I could not help but feel myself questioning my heritage. No true-blood wolf should be able to do that as well as he had done it. But I knew better than to start a conversation about lineage right now. I wasn’t going to get any response from him, other than the warning that I needed to shut my mouth and take all of this seriously.

“I was not aware that he was our Alpha.”

“That does not matter, Samantha. Whether it was him, or someone else, it wouldn’t have mattered. We are new here, and allowing something like this to happen, isn’t right. Do you have any idea what he could have done? He could have sent us away. Do you know that? Did you even dare to think that far?”

I clenched my jaw as my father spoke, for I did not like his tone of voice at all. It was triggering, and I wanted nothing more than to have the ground open up and swallow me whole. It was never nice having to listen to him when he started acting like this, but I also couldn’t just turn around and walk away. That wasn’t the way that things worked with the two of us. You listened to your lecture, and you dealt with it. There was no running away.

“As I said, I did not know whether or not my life was being threatened.”

He shook his head although he did not say anything else to me. I knew that it was too early to start hoping that he had already said what he had wanted to say, but when he turned around and started making his way up the staircase without saying much else, I found myself relaxing slightly. I knew that this wasn’t forgotten, and that it would be bound to be brought up during a time when it could be used against me, but now was not that time, and I was thankful for that.

Once I could no longer hear my father moving about, I sat down on the sofa that I had been sleeping on, taking a moment to self-reflect on what had happened. I knew that there was no hope for me to fall asleep now, not after everything that had happened. I might as well make good use of my time.

I did feel guilty for what I did, but not because I had done it. I would have done it again if I was put in that position. The thing that made me feel guilty, was the fact that all of this had disappointed my father to this extent. I had been hoping that he would be able to understand what I had gone through in the moment, but he hadn’t. He had only thought about the consequences that all of this would have on him. I knew that it was no sin to think selfishly in situations like this, but it would have been nice if it was not the case.

And then of course, the way that the Alpha had reacted hadn’t helped my case either. It had made my father feel like he needed to be upset with me, and that wasn’t fair. I might have been a child, but my father barely ever treated me as such. Perhaps that was why I was so offended by all of this. It didn’t feel right or fair in the slightest. Just because we had joined a new pack, did not mean that we would need to behave any differently than we normally would have. Putting up a front like that was asking for trouble.

But even as I thought of my father and the guilt that I was feeling, I couldn't help but think of the Alpha, and the fact that I had no idea what he intended to do with the information that the two of us had fucked. I wanted to make sure that he knew that the information wasn't something that he could blurt out to anyone and everyone, and I wanted to make sure that he did not intend to keep it as ammunition to get back at me at a later stage. 

I didn't know why he would need to do that, but I did know that people were odd creatures. They would do anything, and hang on to any piece of information that would benefit them in the future. I was not about to put something like that past someone who had literally fucked me in the middle of a club, and didn't seem to think twice about it once it was done. 

Who knew what else he could just put behind him until he needed to remember it?

So, I did what any person in my situation would do, and I decided to get off of the sofa that I was sitting on, and to go and have a discusson about what was going on. I needed to make sure that the two of us were on the same page and that we did not end up saying something that would compromise the secrecy of what we had done. I had the distinct feeling that I wasn't going to enjoy the conversation, but there was nothing that I could do about it. 

When I had gone to bathe, my father had told me which of the rooms him and my mother would be sleeping in, along with Arthur on the floor, which meant that the other one belonged to the Alpha. I made sure that I made as little noise as possible, knowing that my intentions would be questioned if someone found me before I got to my destination. And what was I going to say then? 

Oh, I was just going to go to the Alpha's private room. No big deal. 

Except, doing something like this, was quite a big deal...