“You should have rest. Damn it.” He cussed under his breath with a clenching jaw, making me almost heaved upon holding myself together, for the mint fragrant smell coming from his mouth invaded my nostrils which is so addicting. No, I shouldn’t have think about it. I need to stop fantasizing him.If I could only slap my mind, I already did it.I still remained silent with a very pressed lips and my tongue was placed behind my teeth, for me not to say anything even my words are for complains and such. “Stay still,” he commanded, but I didn’t followed him and tried to tilt my body for him not to be the anchor of it, for him not to control it. “I said, stay still. Damn hardheaded wife,” added with the lowest voice he has, for he is fully aware Leira is just beside us, peacefully sleeping after the long hours of doing her tantrums. I know he is just holding the last rope of his patience while holding me with gentle, which is so unusual.With my eyes still silled with emptiness, I tried
I got frozen the moment my eyes landed on my mother’s pair of blue eyes. It was filled with worries, guilts and vulnerability. My heart began to shatter into fragment as I roamed my eyes around her body, back to her face. My mother changed a lot which made me want to cry my hearts out. She changed without my watch and I know I am one of the reasons why she became like this. I have been so selfish. Damn. Why the heck did I cut the ties between us before? My mom looks so weak and restless. I could feel it. She don’t deserve this. I gulped, trying to control my tears. But it started to pool from my eyes without me knowing when she stepped her feet towards my direction with a slow motion. Good thing, Tangerine held her arm to support her since I could see that my mom is now too weak to handle it alone. “Mom...” I uttered upon cracking my voice in a whisper. I gulped countless of times upon thinking the first thing I want to say from everything I have experience without them. Every sing
After that serious talk with Tangerine, she bid her goodbye for the reason that she still have lots of works to do, but she gave me an assurance that she will visit me again or set a schedule for us to have an alone time together. It’s been two days since I got discharged from the hospital together with Leira, and here I am, thinking what to do upon watching lots of maids who are roaming around the mansion. They were busy doing their whatsoever, and that made me feel so dizzy upon thinking they will be doing that for decades. What the heck is happening? I am not used to this kind of setup. I am already okay of having only Leira and Steffano in this huge mansion, taking a grip on myself upon finding a way on how to finish cleaning the huge mansion in just a day. And then, boom. This happened. How ironic.I was just sitting with boredom, looking at them cleaning to and forth. Don’t they have time for a break? They had been doing that since I don’t know when.Leira, on the other hand i
I can’t help but roll my eyes nonstop as the car keeps on running so as my blood that keeps on boiling upon thinking that even until now, my decision is still invalid. My curses are always evident everytime the road becomes rough. Steffano has been driving for I don’t know when, which annoys the hell out of me. He didn’t said where we will be going and I didn’t even dare asking him about it, for my pride is just not at it. No way. I don’t know why I got dragged with this situation, where in fact I already dropped my words; that I will not go anywhere if he will be with me throughout the trip. Yet, here I am questioning my existence in this warm uncomfy seat. He knows how to annoy me, huh. He really is having fun of making me look like an idiot.I can’t help but to look at Leira who is quietly sleeping on my lap upon hugging her favorite stuff toy. It is her who made me join their trip, even the doctor insisted that I should have rest, even if it means I will be left alone in the h
I walk without my consciousness in the hallway while my both hands were busy tying my hair in a messy bun. My eyes are still not fully awake due to what happened last night, but I have no choice but to start my day and get up to bed, for the reason that Leira will never stop bugging me around until I open my freaking eyes. Good thing she left after I stood up, so I then did my morning rituals, took a quick shower and wore my sleeveless black top and high-waisted pants since that’s all I have in my luggage, before going out of my room. My wounds were very visible and I no longer put a bandage on it since it is now healed but not fully. The reason why until now, my eyes keeps itself from closing is because of Leira’s naughtiness. Steffano had no choice but to do whatever the kid wants since she started whining. So, he stayed and slept with us last night. Good thing Leira is in the middle, but still, I could not sleep upon knowing I was lying the same bed with Steffano. The worst thi
I was silent for the whole day upon watching them having fun in front of me as if nothing happened lately. Leira came back to playing after being drowned in the pool, and here I am, sitting with peace, thinking how did my breakdown happened? All I did is to hug myself, think how to make myself feel better for me to end this day with a smile on my face. I took the glass of water Steffano prepared beside me in case I am thirsty. That’s what he said. I didn’t expected to experience that kind of breakdown again. I thought, I am fully healed after another trauma, but I guess, I am still stuck by that certain trauma. Do I really deserve to feel and experience this kind of life? As I was looking at Leira who came back to playing beside the pool, her mother’s eyes instantly captured my mind, so I tightened my grip to the handle of the bench and took a deep breath for me to calm down again. I can’t help but to reminisce the happening of me, being in a certain car accident with Leira’s mo
“Hmm... I know. Tell me once done. Yes, Hon.” A gulp escaped upon my throat after hearing him saying that and tried roaming my eyes elsewhere for me to end this gulping session of mine. In the end, I decided to take a very deep breath before walking towards Leira to play with her, and also, to stop myself from eavesdropping. It will only up me to no good. A moment of silence instantly came, then a hundred of reasons why I should despise him instantly popped like bubbles in my mind, so I slightly tilted my head upon unconsciously nodding in disbelief upon watching the kid joyfully playing alone in front of me, trying to ease her boredom. I pressed my lips togethr, thinking I almost forget how I hated him days before this set-up happened. Good thing, I didn’t bit Steffano’s bait after being teased by his I-don’t-know-how-to-call-it thing. I gulped once again after realizing that I almost ate his bait. Almost but I didn’t. Maybe I should be thankful to his mistress that she called
My eyes got widened due to what happened that I could even feel the tingling sensation from my feet down to the very bottom of my whole being. This feels so unexplanable! And the worse thing is, I love the scene of having him around, much closer to me. His lips crossed the distance between mine and even it is just an accident and unintentional, it still made my heart skipped its normal beating, and all I could feel is his lips and his touch from my palm. It is so tender that I was driven by it. I could feel nothing but the most unusual feeling that I haven’t felt before. I can even do nothing but to be rooted in place, upon still trying to figure out what to do in order for me to distance myself to him, since my mind is no longer working with my body, for the reason that my body is a traitor. It can’t work in accordance of my mind! I was in turmoil! His hand from my finger instantly got tightened, making me got so close to him. So close that I can feel even the every part of his b
“Steffano! Stop it!” I yelled in fear upon watching him punching the guy I am talking to earlier, nonstop, now filled with blood. My hands began to tremble as I was trying to stop him but damn, he is too strong for me to handle. “Fucking no one will gonna touch my wife! I will fucking kill you!” The bouncers were now trying to take Steffano away from Luvimir but it took them minutes before they let him go the poor man who’s just sitting peacefully earlier. Damn it. This is all my fault! The scene Steffano made brought a huge amount of gossip all around the place. The crowds were even surrounding us, talking about what happened. My trembling states doubled when Tangerine suddenly appeared from nowhere, so I took her hand and placed her at my back, for I am certain, Steffano will never let this thing be set aside just like that. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it!When the bouncers recognized him, they let him go, so he walked toward me and in just a swift motion, Steffano is now tightly h
“Come on! Just one shot!” yelled Tangerine when upon sitting on the couch, giving me a glass of Isabella Islay whisky which I am certain can burn my ass. I looked at her with my face filled with disbelief before roaming my eyes around every corner of the VIP table where we were currently at. I am even surprised that our old friends are here, willing to get wasted as well, which made me shake my head in disbelief. I can't help but feel uncomfortable every time I moved my body to find a comfortable position since one of my friend’s partners is sitting next to me and I could feel how flirting he is. The painful neon light mixed with the loud music made me feel so dizzy, partnered with different types of fragrances that were invading my nostrils. I felt like I will go nuts if I will keep myself in this chaotic place. I would prefer being with nature or anywhere just to be filled with silence than to stay in this unorganized and messy place. Now, I regretted why I came here, but ha
“Told you, I can’t go,” I said once more when she eyed me with her malicious stares and placed her arms on her waist. “No way. He fucked yo—” “Tangerine!” I yelled with the slowest voice I have as I tried not to cover my face with embarrassment. “Okay, okay. He made love to you, so it's your turn to have fun alone—Well, I know you’re also having fun fucking him—” “Okay, go out,” I cut her off, for I am so done with her. I can no longer contain this hot thing that envelops my whole being. I felt like I will be nuts if she will not stop talking. “Fine! Fine, but I'll not leave unless you will join me. Hmm?” She winked at me with her playful grin and even flexed her dress. She is wearing a black fitted sleeveless top and her cleavage is so evident that even I, can't stand watching it. She's in an all-black outfit and with a glimpse of it, you can easily figure out where she will be going. “I haven't prepared ye—” “Uh-uh. Shut up and let's go to your room. You look like a rag ri
If I woke up earlier with a ceiling who welcomed me early in the morning as the first thing I saw, today, I woke up for the second time, but I am now facing Steffano’s feature lying peacefully beside me. I can’t help but admire the every corner of his almost perfect face, that I can’t look away from it. I gestured my hand on air to point his think brows, to his pointed long and well-sculpted nose, down to his kissable wet thin lips. My finger even wandered his perfect and manly jaw that was waving in front of me as he slightly moved his body. I can’t believe he is this tired? He even fell asleep the moment we’ve done doing that thing, which made me so shock. He is indeed a beast on bed, but a kitten after it. It is already evening, yet we were still like this, feeling like our day is just started. A smile escape from my lips upon realizing everything we’ve done. Damn, I still could feel every thing. I don't know if he had work to do today, but I don't care for I enjoyed what happen
The morning sunrise welcomed my skin the moment I opened my sight, and the first thing I saw is the plain ceiling, which made me look at it as if it was the most interesting thing to see. I remained in that state for minutes before the phone rang from my side table out of a sudden, making me land my eyes on it and weighed myself on the bed to fish it. I adjusted first my position before answering a call with a yawn. “Euphoria! Goodness! I heard the news! Is it really true? Like effing true? How come y—” “W-Wait, wait wait, calm down, bitch,” I cut off her semi-tongue twisted words when she started yelling at the phone, too excited to talk to me. Damn, she's too loud for a morning phone call. “So, is it true? He brought you to the company?” she asked but more calmly as if that scene of being in Steffano’s company is a big deal. I can't help but roll my eyes at how nosy she is. Yeah, she is my cousin. Nothing changed. Well, I can't deny the fact that I finds it surprising, Stef
How come the sun is setting so fine even though it means, it will now be bidding its goodbye? Leaving is the only meaning of it but I haven’t felt any pain upon watching it vanish from my sight. Maybe because I know it will always come back no matter what? Before, I have been wishing to become a sunset or just to experience being one for me to feel how to take a rest beautifully without thinking any thoughts about life, but as time goes by, I realized that being a sunset can make you feel disappointed and could be filled with sorrow at the same time. I gulped with my thoughts. I don’t even know why I ended up thinking those. I have been here for hours and I could not help but admire the beauty of the whole place. How come it’s my first time coming to such paradise? Oh well, I’ve been wondering about malls and luxurious places before, and coming to this kind of place is just a waste of time for me. But now? I regretted that I haven't come here the moment I existed in this world. It
Starting today, my wife is now also your boss. Try gossiping, and you’re all fired,” he added as his touch on my waist tightened when those gossiping around us be filled with silence. But all I could see is his pair of eyes and I don’t have plans on looking around to see everyone’s reaction. I don’t care about them. I am still in a midst of confusion about what he is saying, but I chose to remain being with my poker face upon trying to uphold what I felt for I don’t want to act like a clown in front of everyone. He didn’t say a word after that and just grabbed me but with gentleness so we both started walking towards the elevator, leaving those people around us. But before I followed his every step, trying to compose myself with my sophisticated and bitchy ass look, my eyes landed on the lady only meters away from us, who is surprisingly looking at me with hatred visible in her eyes. I still looked at her as if I am curious with her sudden emotions. I bet she is in her mid-thirties
I didn’t come out to the car when we reached the company. I will not get out from here without Steffano by my side. I will wait for him no matter what for that is what I promised myself before I agreed to him being left on that road. The driver keeps on looking at me from the front mirror upon tapping his fingers on the car’s door, but I chose to ignore him and just focused my eyes on the entrance of the company. He didn’t even park it in the parking lot for he is hesitant to do so which made the scene of us, being in the midst of the company’s entrance caught each and everyone’s attention, particularly the employee. No, I will never go out without Steffano’s shadow. Their eyes were full of curiosity upon looking at the highly-tinted car where I am inside, thinking about Steffano’s safety. I pressed my lips together upon lowering my gaze, trying to divert my thoughts from those negative terms in my mind. Haggard is what I can see about my face right now. I didn’t even try putting
I can’t help but roam my eyes around every corner of my face in the mirror upon trying to boost my confidence with all those figurative words that were being chanted by my mind ever since the moment I sat there without my full senses. I was busy fixing my hair while trying to gather my ass as I was looking at the very deepest part of my system. I then put my red lipstick on for I know that red is the most suitable color for my face since it could partner my pointy nose’s shape, together with my eyeliner to make it look more intimidating and smoky. I am in the midst of doing those upon thinking that I will be going somewhere very important, even though Steffano will only bring me to his company. But it is just too difficult for me to just ignore it upon knowing the fact that their company is the witness of the scene our family made. It is not just a company. “You can do this, I know,” said my mind the moment I gestured my hand in the air to comb my hair while my other free hand is