“You’re so fucking hardheaded. Why can’t you just stay and take care of Leira? I shouldn’t have let you leave. Damn it.” I heard some murmurs and curses as I was forcing myself to open my eyes, but my head is too heavy for me to move even my brows. I felt like I was glued the moment I tried moving my body.I tried activating my ears fully but all I could hear is a buzzing sound mixed with a man’s voice, and I know it is from the man I once loved. His voice changed a little bit, but I know it’s him. The only thing that made the frustration from my system got increased is the fact that I can’t hear him clearly. I tried moving my body but it feels like it was being covered with heavy loads for I can’t even lift my finger. My body is aching as if it was being placed to a flame. Damn this! What is happening to me?!I can sense everything but not that clear and I can’t even move, like damn!“If only you know how it is so difficult for me to act this way. If only you know how it pains me w
I was following his every movement as I tried moving my feet for the second time. He was busy slicing some apples while wearing his knotted brows, like a mad man who is willing to risk his everything just to finish what he’s doing. He really looks so adorable with that expression of him.All I did is to savor the scenery in front of me. His presence is a masterpiece I could watch over and over again without being satiated. I was like a little kitten, waiting for my master to feed me, and even so, I haven‘t felt being a burden at all. Instead, the joy I haven’t experience for the past one year appeared with bloom, and the last thing I want right now is to end this moment with him for I know, this will only happen once in a blue moon. Even in his simplest gesture, I want to capture and put it in the safest part of my memory.“How’s your stomach? Is it still hurting?” he asked when he successfully sat next to my bed and handed me a a piece of sliced apple.I can’t help but watch the ev
It’s been almost three hours since I woke up emotionless in this four-cornered empty hospital room. I can’t help but wonder what I did in my past life in order for me to suffer this kind of life I have right now. My body is still numb for me to lift a finger, and even if it’s not, I will still not move for I am so tired of everything. I am so sick of my situation. I think, I suffered enough, I’ve had enough, and hope this is enough. I am going crazy if this will not stop, and I don’t want that to happen. I pressed my lips together with an emotionless feature when the door got opened, revealing my husband’s vulnerable and tired sight. I didn’t diverted my eyes to his direction and just looked at the wall like I haven’t looked at it for decades. I am fully aware that my eyes right now is filled with emptiness, stuck with nothingness. I can’t even bare looking at myself on the mirror, for I will always remember how that old filthy man licked my fucking neck. Even that is just a MERE ex
“No! I need my momma! Momma! Momma! I need my momma!” That’s the first thing I heard the moment we reached the hallway very near to her room. A deep sigh escaped on my lips when Tangerine stopped from pushing the wheelchair I am currently situated. I could even feel that her body got frozen and was rooted in place due to way she’s holding the handle of the wheelchair, so I diverted my gaze to her with a confusing look even it is so difficult for me to do so, but she didn’t even looked at me and her eyes were focused on the man in front of us who just appeared recently, ready to enter Leira’s room. My brow instantly got knotted upon watching their every reaction while staring with each other like they haven’t been talking for years. Their eyes are shouting with something very interesting and intriguing. Is there something between them without my knowledge? I pressed the holder of the wheelchair where Tangerine is holding, trying to distract her, but her mind is still out from her
“You should have rest. Damn it.” He cussed under his breath with a clenching jaw, making me almost heaved upon holding myself together, for the mint fragrant smell coming from his mouth invaded my nostrils which is so addicting. No, I shouldn’t have think about it. I need to stop fantasizing him.If I could only slap my mind, I already did it.I still remained silent with a very pressed lips and my tongue was placed behind my teeth, for me not to say anything even my words are for complains and such. “Stay still,” he commanded, but I didn’t followed him and tried to tilt my body for him not to be the anchor of it, for him not to control it. “I said, stay still. Damn hardheaded wife,” added with the lowest voice he has, for he is fully aware Leira is just beside us, peacefully sleeping after the long hours of doing her tantrums. I know he is just holding the last rope of his patience while holding me with gentle, which is so unusual.With my eyes still silled with emptiness, I tried
I got frozen the moment my eyes landed on my mother’s pair of blue eyes. It was filled with worries, guilts and vulnerability. My heart began to shatter into fragment as I roamed my eyes around her body, back to her face. My mother changed a lot which made me want to cry my hearts out. She changed without my watch and I know I am one of the reasons why she became like this. I have been so selfish. Damn. Why the heck did I cut the ties between us before? My mom looks so weak and restless. I could feel it. She don’t deserve this. I gulped, trying to control my tears. But it started to pool from my eyes without me knowing when she stepped her feet towards my direction with a slow motion. Good thing, Tangerine held her arm to support her since I could see that my mom is now too weak to handle it alone. “Mom...” I uttered upon cracking my voice in a whisper. I gulped countless of times upon thinking the first thing I want to say from everything I have experience without them. Every sing
After that serious talk with Tangerine, she bid her goodbye for the reason that she still have lots of works to do, but she gave me an assurance that she will visit me again or set a schedule for us to have an alone time together. It’s been two days since I got discharged from the hospital together with Leira, and here I am, thinking what to do upon watching lots of maids who are roaming around the mansion. They were busy doing their whatsoever, and that made me feel so dizzy upon thinking they will be doing that for decades. What the heck is happening? I am not used to this kind of setup. I am already okay of having only Leira and Steffano in this huge mansion, taking a grip on myself upon finding a way on how to finish cleaning the huge mansion in just a day. And then, boom. This happened. How ironic.I was just sitting with boredom, looking at them cleaning to and forth. Don’t they have time for a break? They had been doing that since I don’t know when.Leira, on the other hand i
I can’t help but roll my eyes nonstop as the car keeps on running so as my blood that keeps on boiling upon thinking that even until now, my decision is still invalid. My curses are always evident everytime the road becomes rough. Steffano has been driving for I don’t know when, which annoys the hell out of me. He didn’t said where we will be going and I didn’t even dare asking him about it, for my pride is just not at it. No way. I don’t know why I got dragged with this situation, where in fact I already dropped my words; that I will not go anywhere if he will be with me throughout the trip. Yet, here I am questioning my existence in this warm uncomfy seat. He knows how to annoy me, huh. He really is having fun of making me look like an idiot.I can’t help but to look at Leira who is quietly sleeping on my lap upon hugging her favorite stuff toy. It is her who made me join their trip, even the doctor insisted that I should have rest, even if it means I will be left alone in the h
“Steffano! Stop it!” I yelled in fear upon watching him punching the guy I am talking to earlier, nonstop, now filled with blood. My hands began to tremble as I was trying to stop him but damn, he is too strong for me to handle. “Fucking no one will gonna touch my wife! I will fucking kill you!” The bouncers were now trying to take Steffano away from Luvimir but it took them minutes before they let him go the poor man who’s just sitting peacefully earlier. Damn it. This is all my fault! The scene Steffano made brought a huge amount of gossip all around the place. The crowds were even surrounding us, talking about what happened. My trembling states doubled when Tangerine suddenly appeared from nowhere, so I took her hand and placed her at my back, for I am certain, Steffano will never let this thing be set aside just like that. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it!When the bouncers recognized him, they let him go, so he walked toward me and in just a swift motion, Steffano is now tightly h
“Come on! Just one shot!” yelled Tangerine when upon sitting on the couch, giving me a glass of Isabella Islay whisky which I am certain can burn my ass. I looked at her with my face filled with disbelief before roaming my eyes around every corner of the VIP table where we were currently at. I am even surprised that our old friends are here, willing to get wasted as well, which made me shake my head in disbelief. I can't help but feel uncomfortable every time I moved my body to find a comfortable position since one of my friend’s partners is sitting next to me and I could feel how flirting he is. The painful neon light mixed with the loud music made me feel so dizzy, partnered with different types of fragrances that were invading my nostrils. I felt like I will go nuts if I will keep myself in this chaotic place. I would prefer being with nature or anywhere just to be filled with silence than to stay in this unorganized and messy place. Now, I regretted why I came here, but ha
“Told you, I can’t go,” I said once more when she eyed me with her malicious stares and placed her arms on her waist. “No way. He fucked yo—” “Tangerine!” I yelled with the slowest voice I have as I tried not to cover my face with embarrassment. “Okay, okay. He made love to you, so it's your turn to have fun alone—Well, I know you’re also having fun fucking him—” “Okay, go out,” I cut her off, for I am so done with her. I can no longer contain this hot thing that envelops my whole being. I felt like I will be nuts if she will not stop talking. “Fine! Fine, but I'll not leave unless you will join me. Hmm?” She winked at me with her playful grin and even flexed her dress. She is wearing a black fitted sleeveless top and her cleavage is so evident that even I, can't stand watching it. She's in an all-black outfit and with a glimpse of it, you can easily figure out where she will be going. “I haven't prepared ye—” “Uh-uh. Shut up and let's go to your room. You look like a rag ri
If I woke up earlier with a ceiling who welcomed me early in the morning as the first thing I saw, today, I woke up for the second time, but I am now facing Steffano’s feature lying peacefully beside me. I can’t help but admire the every corner of his almost perfect face, that I can’t look away from it. I gestured my hand on air to point his think brows, to his pointed long and well-sculpted nose, down to his kissable wet thin lips. My finger even wandered his perfect and manly jaw that was waving in front of me as he slightly moved his body. I can’t believe he is this tired? He even fell asleep the moment we’ve done doing that thing, which made me so shock. He is indeed a beast on bed, but a kitten after it. It is already evening, yet we were still like this, feeling like our day is just started. A smile escape from my lips upon realizing everything we’ve done. Damn, I still could feel every thing. I don't know if he had work to do today, but I don't care for I enjoyed what happen
The morning sunrise welcomed my skin the moment I opened my sight, and the first thing I saw is the plain ceiling, which made me look at it as if it was the most interesting thing to see. I remained in that state for minutes before the phone rang from my side table out of a sudden, making me land my eyes on it and weighed myself on the bed to fish it. I adjusted first my position before answering a call with a yawn. “Euphoria! Goodness! I heard the news! Is it really true? Like effing true? How come y—” “W-Wait, wait wait, calm down, bitch,” I cut off her semi-tongue twisted words when she started yelling at the phone, too excited to talk to me. Damn, she's too loud for a morning phone call. “So, is it true? He brought you to the company?” she asked but more calmly as if that scene of being in Steffano’s company is a big deal. I can't help but roll my eyes at how nosy she is. Yeah, she is my cousin. Nothing changed. Well, I can't deny the fact that I finds it surprising, Stef
How come the sun is setting so fine even though it means, it will now be bidding its goodbye? Leaving is the only meaning of it but I haven’t felt any pain upon watching it vanish from my sight. Maybe because I know it will always come back no matter what? Before, I have been wishing to become a sunset or just to experience being one for me to feel how to take a rest beautifully without thinking any thoughts about life, but as time goes by, I realized that being a sunset can make you feel disappointed and could be filled with sorrow at the same time. I gulped with my thoughts. I don’t even know why I ended up thinking those. I have been here for hours and I could not help but admire the beauty of the whole place. How come it’s my first time coming to such paradise? Oh well, I’ve been wondering about malls and luxurious places before, and coming to this kind of place is just a waste of time for me. But now? I regretted that I haven't come here the moment I existed in this world. It
Starting today, my wife is now also your boss. Try gossiping, and you’re all fired,” he added as his touch on my waist tightened when those gossiping around us be filled with silence. But all I could see is his pair of eyes and I don’t have plans on looking around to see everyone’s reaction. I don’t care about them. I am still in a midst of confusion about what he is saying, but I chose to remain being with my poker face upon trying to uphold what I felt for I don’t want to act like a clown in front of everyone. He didn’t say a word after that and just grabbed me but with gentleness so we both started walking towards the elevator, leaving those people around us. But before I followed his every step, trying to compose myself with my sophisticated and bitchy ass look, my eyes landed on the lady only meters away from us, who is surprisingly looking at me with hatred visible in her eyes. I still looked at her as if I am curious with her sudden emotions. I bet she is in her mid-thirties
I didn’t come out to the car when we reached the company. I will not get out from here without Steffano by my side. I will wait for him no matter what for that is what I promised myself before I agreed to him being left on that road. The driver keeps on looking at me from the front mirror upon tapping his fingers on the car’s door, but I chose to ignore him and just focused my eyes on the entrance of the company. He didn’t even park it in the parking lot for he is hesitant to do so which made the scene of us, being in the midst of the company’s entrance caught each and everyone’s attention, particularly the employee. No, I will never go out without Steffano’s shadow. Their eyes were full of curiosity upon looking at the highly-tinted car where I am inside, thinking about Steffano’s safety. I pressed my lips together upon lowering my gaze, trying to divert my thoughts from those negative terms in my mind. Haggard is what I can see about my face right now. I didn’t even try putting
I can’t help but roam my eyes around every corner of my face in the mirror upon trying to boost my confidence with all those figurative words that were being chanted by my mind ever since the moment I sat there without my full senses. I was busy fixing my hair while trying to gather my ass as I was looking at the very deepest part of my system. I then put my red lipstick on for I know that red is the most suitable color for my face since it could partner my pointy nose’s shape, together with my eyeliner to make it look more intimidating and smoky. I am in the midst of doing those upon thinking that I will be going somewhere very important, even though Steffano will only bring me to his company. But it is just too difficult for me to just ignore it upon knowing the fact that their company is the witness of the scene our family made. It is not just a company. “You can do this, I know,” said my mind the moment I gestured my hand in the air to comb my hair while my other free hand is