It’s been so long since I last felt this foreign feeling, I couldn’t even blink normally due to what my heart feels right now. All I could do is to stare at the wall, like what I always do when my mind is in a state of being in turmoil. Breath in, breath out. “He’s your husband, Euphoria. Your husband, okay? Not a high school crush or something,” I reminded myself while my feet is on the wall while my hands were playing with something on the floor of the rooftop. I chuckled upon saying that thought in a whisper. Yes, he is my husband, but I still, feel like I am living with a stranger on whom I have a crush. The last thing I felt about this one is way back in college. When our parents forced us to live under the same roof for us to be so closed since we were about to marry each other when the time comes. Well, we still ended up together, but not in a situation I expected back then. We ended way far from that situation.I can’t help but stare at the millions of stars, shining so brig
The “I miss you...Selina,” he uttered in an instant, making my smile fades away just like that. My lips got pressed together upon trying to control my sudden emotions from its explosion. Damn this feeling of mine. I should not assume in the first place. I shouldn’t have expected it.“I am not Selina,” I said bitterly in a whisper and took his hand away from my wounded finger to mend it myself. My heart began to pound abnormally as his every breath got heavier, and so as his body that is currently laying on my back. He’s so heavy to handle.I sighed in disbelief and tried to lift his body using my bare arms but I failed for he is three times bigger and heavier than me. I took a deep breath as a sign of giving up when I couldn’t even lift his head. I can’t carry him to his bed myself, and can’t leave him in this state either. I have no choice but to sleep with him tonight... with this position? I chuckled in incredulity upon thinking about our situation. The thought of him waking up w
I can’t help but stare at him with tightly pressed lips for the rest of being in silence with him. My fingers were clutched by each other while waiting for our food to be served, fighting with time. We’ve been like this for almost half an hour, and no one would ever dare to talk. Like, who would start an awkward conversation if you’re both born with pride?I sighed with a semi-rolled eye and sat straight in my seat as a sign of giving up. Nothing will happen if I’ll let ourselves be like this the whole time.“Since when did you come back?” I asked bluntly and drank the liquid on the glass before diverting my gaze in his direction. I roamed my eyes around his face, down to his body, and nodded under my head upon realizing that he changed...a lot. He loses his weight but is still one of the most handsome men I know.“Yesterday. Mom’s asking if you’re alright...” he replied while giving me a gaze. I sarcastically chuckled and glance at him straight to his eyes upon hearing that from his
I immediately bid a proper goodbye to my brother and drove fast when I received Steffano’s call. His blazing voice echoed in my mind and all I could distinguish right now is the fact that Leira is currently not in a good condition. I tried not to tremble, but I couldn’t help it since I heard the doctors oozing from the other line. What the hell just happened?It is Elander’s birthday, yet I left him hanging, didn’t even give him any explanations, and just left him just like that. But my priority right now is Leira. I can no longer control the rapid release of air from my lungs, mixed with the abnormal beating of my heart. Damn this.This is all my fault. I shouldn’t have left her alone. I shouldn’t be complacent just because I knew she can now handle herself. She’s still a kid who needs to be watched.I bit my lips upon controlling the steering wheel, my eyes were being focused on the road but my mind is nowhere to be found. I gathered myself together and took a tight grip on the ste
My lips were tightly pressed while staring at Leira who was sleeping in peace. My eyes landed on her thick brows down to her lips and a smile painted on my lips when she ceased her brows. All I could do is pray, hoping for her recovery very soon. I don’t know what happened, but I knew this thing happened due to my carelessness. I will never erase that in my mind, will be carved again and again. I bit my lips upon holding her little hands, pressing them like fragile precious stuff.She fell off the stairs while waiting for her playmate almost an hour before I left the mansion, that is what Steffano said, but I can sense something is off. Well, if there is one person who should be responsible for this matter, it should be nothing but me. I should have known. Leira is still a little kid who needs to be protected with so much care. I am all at fault for I am too complacent that she’ll be okay to be left alone.I sighed upon playing with her small fingers and stood up when someone knocke
If I am in a normal situation, I will surely be nervous with his presence, but since I saw his mistress clinging her arms on his today, all I could do is to roll my eyes with disgust and irritation, but I know, from the deepest part of my heart, I’ve been enduring this so much pain. It is so hard to accept that he had gone this far—disrespecting me. I stood straight while still holding Lebanon’s right arm, didn’t even surprise with Steffano’s presence. I could barely see his reaction, for I am looking opposite to his direction. I tried not to be affected for I don’t want to feed his satisfaction. He don’t deserve it and I don’t deserve to be treated this way. As I slightly diverted my gaze to them, I have noticed Steffano’s fist got tightened upon staring at me slowly loosen my grip on Lebanon’s arm. His jaw clenched with his intersected brows and eyes were now in flare, ready to give Lebanon the taste of its own blood. He really is so aggressive. He then diverted his gaze to me wit
I was silently eating the apple I sliced lately while waiting for Leira to wake up again. The chaos gave her so much exhaustion, I know. Good thing, the commotion ended without anyone being in a critical condition. I protruded my lips while lying on the couch freely with heavy breaths mixed with heavy emotions all over my being, that I couldn’t even think straight. I still can’t move on about what happened lately for I still could feel my trembling hands upon watching Leira in a state of breaking down. The eyes of the woman Steffano brought instantly popped in my mind, making me tightened my fist upon thinking she might be one of the reasons why this thing happened to my little fella. But I sighed in the end, trying to calm my senses since the commotion’s already done and there is no point for me to feel this nonsense. They all vanished our sight the moment Leira said she wants everyone gone except her momma, which made my heart. At that moment, I instantly caressed her, thinking t
We have been staring with each other for almost a minute and it’s me who broke the cold stares between us. I didn’t even dare to drop a voice to him, and just looked at him as if I have been looking at the wall full of nothingness.My face began to heat up, pertaining that tears were now ready to flow from my eyes upon hearing his promises in my mind while looking straight to his eyes with a sudden gulp, for me to control my emotions. Being deafened due to his words in the past is what I have been feeling as of the moment.After a minute, I diverted my gaze elsewhere, for I am fully aware that the atmosphere is starting to be filled with awkwardness. From my peripheral vision, I noticed him walk towards our direction, especially to Leira’s bed.I remained Silent upon lifting my head, trying to see his reaction when he successfully sat next to the kid, talking to her in a whisper even she’s sleeping. After a moment of silence inside the room, I decided to maneuver my body, readying my
“Steffano! Stop it!” I yelled in fear upon watching him punching the guy I am talking to earlier, nonstop, now filled with blood. My hands began to tremble as I was trying to stop him but damn, he is too strong for me to handle. “Fucking no one will gonna touch my wife! I will fucking kill you!” The bouncers were now trying to take Steffano away from Luvimir but it took them minutes before they let him go the poor man who’s just sitting peacefully earlier. Damn it. This is all my fault! The scene Steffano made brought a huge amount of gossip all around the place. The crowds were even surrounding us, talking about what happened. My trembling states doubled when Tangerine suddenly appeared from nowhere, so I took her hand and placed her at my back, for I am certain, Steffano will never let this thing be set aside just like that. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it!When the bouncers recognized him, they let him go, so he walked toward me and in just a swift motion, Steffano is now tightly h
“Come on! Just one shot!” yelled Tangerine when upon sitting on the couch, giving me a glass of Isabella Islay whisky which I am certain can burn my ass. I looked at her with my face filled with disbelief before roaming my eyes around every corner of the VIP table where we were currently at. I am even surprised that our old friends are here, willing to get wasted as well, which made me shake my head in disbelief. I can't help but feel uncomfortable every time I moved my body to find a comfortable position since one of my friend’s partners is sitting next to me and I could feel how flirting he is. The painful neon light mixed with the loud music made me feel so dizzy, partnered with different types of fragrances that were invading my nostrils. I felt like I will go nuts if I will keep myself in this chaotic place. I would prefer being with nature or anywhere just to be filled with silence than to stay in this unorganized and messy place. Now, I regretted why I came here, but ha
“Told you, I can’t go,” I said once more when she eyed me with her malicious stares and placed her arms on her waist. “No way. He fucked yo—” “Tangerine!” I yelled with the slowest voice I have as I tried not to cover my face with embarrassment. “Okay, okay. He made love to you, so it's your turn to have fun alone—Well, I know you’re also having fun fucking him—” “Okay, go out,” I cut her off, for I am so done with her. I can no longer contain this hot thing that envelops my whole being. I felt like I will be nuts if she will not stop talking. “Fine! Fine, but I'll not leave unless you will join me. Hmm?” She winked at me with her playful grin and even flexed her dress. She is wearing a black fitted sleeveless top and her cleavage is so evident that even I, can't stand watching it. She's in an all-black outfit and with a glimpse of it, you can easily figure out where she will be going. “I haven't prepared ye—” “Uh-uh. Shut up and let's go to your room. You look like a rag ri
If I woke up earlier with a ceiling who welcomed me early in the morning as the first thing I saw, today, I woke up for the second time, but I am now facing Steffano’s feature lying peacefully beside me. I can’t help but admire the every corner of his almost perfect face, that I can’t look away from it. I gestured my hand on air to point his think brows, to his pointed long and well-sculpted nose, down to his kissable wet thin lips. My finger even wandered his perfect and manly jaw that was waving in front of me as he slightly moved his body. I can’t believe he is this tired? He even fell asleep the moment we’ve done doing that thing, which made me so shock. He is indeed a beast on bed, but a kitten after it. It is already evening, yet we were still like this, feeling like our day is just started. A smile escape from my lips upon realizing everything we’ve done. Damn, I still could feel every thing. I don't know if he had work to do today, but I don't care for I enjoyed what happen
The morning sunrise welcomed my skin the moment I opened my sight, and the first thing I saw is the plain ceiling, which made me look at it as if it was the most interesting thing to see. I remained in that state for minutes before the phone rang from my side table out of a sudden, making me land my eyes on it and weighed myself on the bed to fish it. I adjusted first my position before answering a call with a yawn. “Euphoria! Goodness! I heard the news! Is it really true? Like effing true? How come y—” “W-Wait, wait wait, calm down, bitch,” I cut off her semi-tongue twisted words when she started yelling at the phone, too excited to talk to me. Damn, she's too loud for a morning phone call. “So, is it true? He brought you to the company?” she asked but more calmly as if that scene of being in Steffano’s company is a big deal. I can't help but roll my eyes at how nosy she is. Yeah, she is my cousin. Nothing changed. Well, I can't deny the fact that I finds it surprising, Stef
How come the sun is setting so fine even though it means, it will now be bidding its goodbye? Leaving is the only meaning of it but I haven’t felt any pain upon watching it vanish from my sight. Maybe because I know it will always come back no matter what? Before, I have been wishing to become a sunset or just to experience being one for me to feel how to take a rest beautifully without thinking any thoughts about life, but as time goes by, I realized that being a sunset can make you feel disappointed and could be filled with sorrow at the same time. I gulped with my thoughts. I don’t even know why I ended up thinking those. I have been here for hours and I could not help but admire the beauty of the whole place. How come it’s my first time coming to such paradise? Oh well, I’ve been wondering about malls and luxurious places before, and coming to this kind of place is just a waste of time for me. But now? I regretted that I haven't come here the moment I existed in this world. It
Starting today, my wife is now also your boss. Try gossiping, and you’re all fired,” he added as his touch on my waist tightened when those gossiping around us be filled with silence. But all I could see is his pair of eyes and I don’t have plans on looking around to see everyone’s reaction. I don’t care about them. I am still in a midst of confusion about what he is saying, but I chose to remain being with my poker face upon trying to uphold what I felt for I don’t want to act like a clown in front of everyone. He didn’t say a word after that and just grabbed me but with gentleness so we both started walking towards the elevator, leaving those people around us. But before I followed his every step, trying to compose myself with my sophisticated and bitchy ass look, my eyes landed on the lady only meters away from us, who is surprisingly looking at me with hatred visible in her eyes. I still looked at her as if I am curious with her sudden emotions. I bet she is in her mid-thirties
I didn’t come out to the car when we reached the company. I will not get out from here without Steffano by my side. I will wait for him no matter what for that is what I promised myself before I agreed to him being left on that road. The driver keeps on looking at me from the front mirror upon tapping his fingers on the car’s door, but I chose to ignore him and just focused my eyes on the entrance of the company. He didn’t even park it in the parking lot for he is hesitant to do so which made the scene of us, being in the midst of the company’s entrance caught each and everyone’s attention, particularly the employee. No, I will never go out without Steffano’s shadow. Their eyes were full of curiosity upon looking at the highly-tinted car where I am inside, thinking about Steffano’s safety. I pressed my lips together upon lowering my gaze, trying to divert my thoughts from those negative terms in my mind. Haggard is what I can see about my face right now. I didn’t even try putting
I can’t help but roam my eyes around every corner of my face in the mirror upon trying to boost my confidence with all those figurative words that were being chanted by my mind ever since the moment I sat there without my full senses. I was busy fixing my hair while trying to gather my ass as I was looking at the very deepest part of my system. I then put my red lipstick on for I know that red is the most suitable color for my face since it could partner my pointy nose’s shape, together with my eyeliner to make it look more intimidating and smoky. I am in the midst of doing those upon thinking that I will be going somewhere very important, even though Steffano will only bring me to his company. But it is just too difficult for me to just ignore it upon knowing the fact that their company is the witness of the scene our family made. It is not just a company. “You can do this, I know,” said my mind the moment I gestured my hand in the air to comb my hair while my other free hand is