Chapter:-6

“...just breath with me. In and out. Inhale. Exhale. Slowly. Focus on my eyes and only my eyes and don’t think about anything else."

Brandon.

I do as I’m told and it’s starting to get better because now I finally see his eyes. That eye. Are they even real eyes? I know they’re dark brown because I’ve seen them before but in this light, they are golden green-like even though it’s impossible. They are so fascinating that all I can do is stare.

“Good. Really good. You’re doing great Little Flower. Now count down from ten with me..10...9...8…”Brandon continues and what did he just call me?

I do as I’m told again and after a few minutes it’s over and reality kicks in and I start to blush because Mr Sexy just saw me in this state and now I’m noticing the hand he has on my back and the hand he has on my face. And did he just talk to me? I guess we’re buying that lottery ticket after all Sammy.

“I-I’m s-s-so sorry. R-really t-thank you I-I” I try to talk but easier said than done and he interrupts me.

“Why are you saying sorry? Just lean back against the wall and relax, Flower.” He speaks softly and reassuringly and I do as I’m told for the third time. Did he just call me to flower? Twice? The first time he did it I thought I might’ve misheard since I was just coming down from my panic attack but now I hear him loud and clear. But I don’t say anything because I kind of..like it?

After a minute or two of actually-not-so-awkward-silence, Brandon speaks.

“I hope it’s not too inappropriate but do you mind telling me what triggered you in there?”

No, I couldn’t answer him because then I have to say why and that means I have to tell the story. The story about what happened at Tommy's party and he’ll hate me. Because everything is my fault.

“Umm nothing triggered me I just felt really bad. Th-the same thing happened Wednesday”

“I don’t believe you. My mother is a psychologist and she taught me a thing or two but if you don’t want to tell me it’s okay” Brandon's voice is still so soft and kind so I answer him.

“The violence, the near-death experiences, the danger…” And Brandon will probably ask “why” now because all these things are normal in movies even I know that. But instead, he just nods.

“Okay, let's get you out of here. Wait here darling and don’t move I’ll be right back.” Brandon flashes me a beautiful smile and steps out of the restroom.

All I can do is obey that handsome face and try not to think about the fact that he just called me Flower and Darling in the last ten minutes.

Brandon returns almost immediately and by then I’ve managed to calm down and wash my face a couple more times.

He crouches down beside me and smiles kindly.

“Well do you wanna stay here or do you wanna go grab something to eat?”

Wait I’m going out to eat with The Brandon? I am actually kind of want to because he has this mysterious yet carefree aura surrounding him and I just wanna unlock every secret hidden behind those beautiful eyes. I still think he’s a douche though and going out to eat means eating and that doesn’t sound so..appealing.  

“Umm w-what about the movie and the others? We can’t just leave them a-an-and…” I say attempting to find an excuse not to go but Brandon interrupts me by a simple finger on my lips. The hottest guy in the universe’s finger is on my lips. Please take notes at that. Then he takes it away slowly while staring into my eyes and I fight the urge to lick my now super dry lips. I can feel my face becoming redder by the second.

“Don’t worry I took care of it and now let's go. I brought your things along with me” Brandon says and I notice my wallet and cellphone in his hand and he hands them over to me.

“Thank you,” I say shyly and his smile widens and he helps me up. When we’re about to head out one of the employees that assisted us sees us and she grins at me while giving two thumbs up. I can’t help but smile.

“Whoa, what is that? That’s the most angelic smile I’ve ever seen in my entire life..! Why don’t you do that more often?! I’ve only seen you smile twice today and wow I must say it’s really dazzling and this is coming from the most shining human being alive!” Brandon exclaims and winks at me while smiling and I blush.

He’s right I don’t smile that often and it’s not something new because I never smile at things unless they really impress me. But with time and because of a certain..person I started smiling more and more. That person taught me how to smile and do a lot of things but now I’m back to my previous state not daring to smile at just anything because I don’t deserve it. Someone like me shouldn’t smile.

“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to upset you darling I meant it as a compliment! I like your smile Braze.” Brandon states seeing the shift in my expression and okay, I heard that right? I’m not imagining things? He called me by my

name and it sounds so beautiful coming from him.

It's been a month when someone calls my name with so much love after I lose him. The same person who taught me how to smile and I could feel tears starting to sting at my eyes and another panic attack arising but no. I can’t. I can’t bother Brandon more than I already have and he probably thinks I’m really weird. I mean, he’s been with several people, right? I bet no one had a panic attack and got upset because of a simple compliment. I made Brandon miss out on a movie that’s, according to Ash, one of the most popular movies and the last thing I wanna do is make him regret that decision more than he already has. So I start to focus on something else. We’re going to McDonalds, right? It’s the closest source of food from here and it’s approximately 5 minutes away. What am I going to order? And I have to eat otherwise Brandon would surely think he totally wasted his time. Maybe I could only order fries..? Without ketchup of course but will he think that’s weird? Slowly the bubble of panic that has been building inside me fades away while I try to think of a way to escape this situation.