Chapter 1

"I already told you Jillian! That jerk is cheating on you!" Lorina exclaimed exaggeratedly before she shook her head.

A woman in her middle 20's only shrugged. She was wearing a red bodycon dress that hugging her small and curvy body. Crossing her legs, she drank the wine she was holding and closed her eyes.

Everyone is having fun. Ang ilaw na may paiba-iba nua kulay ay mas lalong dumagdag sa magulo at nakakahilo niyang nararamdaman. The crowd dancing like there was no tommorow. Making out in a dark place. Drinking. And smoking. 'This is really weird, I've never been here before'. She thought in her mind before opening her eyes.

"Wake up Jillan! Ilang beses ka pa bang magpakabulag-bulagan?! That jerk is cheating on you!" Lorina spatted, her best friend since grade school. They been together for how many years, that's why they really knew each other.

"How can you say that? Do you have enough evidence to prove your accusation?" she asked while wandering her eyes all over the place.

Lorina laughed mockingly to her "Wake up, Jillian. How many times do I have to tell you that you need to wake up from the truth? I've seen him earlier, with another woman, Jill." her best friend said desperately.

She feel a pain in her chest thinking what Lorina told her. Of course she knew it well. Ang ginawang panloloko ng matagal na niyang kasintahan na si Pablo, alam na niya ang bisyo nito. But she got blinded with love. She loves him so much to the point that she could even die if she lose him. Ayaw niyang mawala kay Pablo, at ayaw na ayaw niyang iwan siya nito. She hates being left alone.

"Sawa na ako sa mga ganyan Lorina. If you want me to believe what you are saying right now, then give some evidence. Para naman maging kapani-paniwala ang pangbibintang mo." Lorina's mouth dropped on what her best friend said.

'This is not the Jillian I know. Naging bulag lang siya sa pag-ibig.' Lorina said in her mind while staring at Jillian.

"Jill, as much as I want to prove it, I just can't. I know what you might feel. You love Pablo so much. And me, as your best friend don't want yo see you hurting just because of that jerk. Remember Jill, he's not a man for you, he's only a boy." 

Tears pooled down to Jillian's cheek as she wiped it. She been hurting this past months, due to Pablo. Samo't-saring balita nalang ang naririnig niya na may iba itong kasintahan. These fast days, she heard a humor of him with a woman living together. She has no doubt with that. Kahit siya ay napapansin niya rin na palagi itong busy kung sakaling gusto niya ng kausap. Minsan nalang silang nagkikita. At palaging nakaoff ang cellphone nito kung sakali mang tawagan niya.

'Is this really a love? I am hurting. How can you defined love when you're hurting?' she asked in her mind before wiping her tears away.

Lorina held her hand tightly "I hate to do it but I can't help, Jill. Especially that you've been blinded of the truth and your love for him. Let's go, I have something to show you."

Suminghot siya "And what is it?"

Her best friend sighed heavily. She knew that this won't going to be fine, but Jillian needs to wake up from the truth.

She did not answered Jillian, instead she pulled her away making her to stand up. Lori pulled her away from the crowd and went upstairs. Nagtataka niyang nilingon ang kaibigan ng huminto sila sa tapat ng isang kwarto. She suddenly gulped when she felt the lump of her throat. 'This is not going to happened. Please no..' she pleaded in herself.

Muling pumatak ang luha sa kanyang mata, nanlalabo ang kanyang paningin habang tinitingnan ang kwarto sa kanyang harapan.

"Jill I swear, I don't want to see you hurting but you have to wake up. Wake up from the truth that he'd been cheating for a long time now." and with that, a man in his black suit pass by. What captures her is his tantalizing blue-eyes. Napakurap-kurap ng ilang beses si Jillian ng dumaan ang lalaki sa kanilang likuran. Hindi niya alam kung bakit may kakaibang dulot iyon sa kanya.

"Here's the key," a woman approached them making her back to her sense. May binigay itong susi sa kanyang kaibigan pagkatapos ay tinanguan siya.

"L-Lori.." her voice became shaky as Lori started to unlock the door.

Mapait siyang nginitian ni Lori at hinaplos ang kanyang pisngi.

"This is the only way that I can do for you. Gusto kong makawala ka sa sakit na nararamdaman mo, Jill. Gusto kong matanggap mo ang katotohanang ginawa ng gago mong kasintahan.." 

Within a second, the door finally unlocked. Hindi na siya hinayaan ng kaibigan na magsalita at basta-basta nalang binuksan ang pintuan.

"Oh shit!" 

She covered her mouthed using the both of hands. Tears started to pooled in her cheeks as they witness what they are doing inside the room. Her chest tightened. It feels like a million of needle is pricking her heart when she finally saw the man he loves with another woman. Both naked, and panting so heavily.

Napapikit siya sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman. Mabuti nalang at naalalayan siya ni Lori dahil kung ay baka kanina pa siya bumalagta sa sahig.

Shock is overload in her boyfriend's face the same with the woman he was with. Dali-daling tinabunan ni Pablo ang katawan ng babae at nataranta ring sinuot ang kanyang damit. His face become pale as he tried to reach her.

"J-Jill.."

Iniwas ni Jillian ang kanyang kamay mula dito "W-Wag mo 'kong hawakan.. H-Hayup ka.." nanginginig niyang sambit habang patuloy pa din sa pag-iwas.

"J-Jill, I-I'm s—"

Hindi na niya ito pinatapos at mabilis na hinila si Lori palabas ng kwartong iyon. How can he do that to her? She called him earlier and he said that he was busy because of some paper works, but here he is right now! 'How dare him! I hate this fucking love! I really hate it!' she said in her mind while sobbing.

After many shots, her head is spinning. Everything around her is spinning. That's why she decided to stand up for a dance.

'Hell yeah, this is the best way to dance!' thought in her mind.

But Lori suddenly held her hand "That's enough Jill, we need to go home now.."

She laughed hysterically "Oh Lori! Ayaw mo ba akong magsaya kahit ngayon lang? I wanted to feel free and to be happy kahit ngayong gabi lang! Come on!" 

Lori massage her temple before sighing "Oh sige sige na, basta ilang minuto lang. At 'wag na 'wag kang mawawal sa paningin ko Jilliana!"

"Yes Mommy!"

And with that, she mixed in the crowd. She raised her both hands and dance with the music. Hips moving while hands up in the air. 'This is life, this is the freedom.' she murmured in her mind as her body sway.

Hanggang sa may maramdaman siyang sumayaw sa kanyang likuran. Mas lalo siyang ginanahan sa pagsayaw at tila nawala na sa kanyang katinuan ng bigla siyang hapitin ng estranghero sa kanyang likuran. She felt the heat against him as they body swayed with each other.

She doesn't know but she feel something tingling sensation when his hands started to rhyme with her body, caressing her belly up and down. When she looked down to his hands she smirked 'Hmm, maugat.'

And that when she finally face him. Shock is written all over her face when she recognize him. It was the man earlier! The man with tantalizing blue eyes! 'Oh fuck!'

It feels like his deep and blue eyes is devouring her and even her soul. Perfect angled eyebrow, long and thick eyelashes. Pointed nose and ruddy lips that fit to his perfect angled jaw. She inhaled his scent and can't help but to giggle. It was too manly!

"Lovely," he commented and sexily chuckled to her ears.

'What I am feeling right now? I supposed to feel this to Pablo and not to this stranger with blue eyes.' thought of her in mind.

Nagtindigan ang balahibo niya ng haplusin siya nito sa beywang at nilagay ang dalawa niyang kamay sa balikat nito. Then they dance together. Igniting the heat between them. She gulped when he saw a small curve of smile in his lips. And within a second she felt his lips brushing her.

She couldn't move because of the shock. Feels like everything vanished because of the simple kiss. Lahat ng sakit na naramdaman niya ay nawala nalang bigla dahil sa simpleng halik na ginawad niya dito. She felt the rumble of her heart against her chest as she stared at the stranger.

'No way.. Hindi ako tutulad kay Pablo.. ' she murmured in her mind as they body swayed with each other.

'Hindi ako tutulad kay Pablo.' said many times in her mind as they lips crushing at each other.

Later on, she realized that she already did it 

She already did. She did.