Now that I was left alone in the manor having maidservants and butlers going around, I decided to tour myself around. I went to the south hall and west hall seeing that nothing had changed. Lastly, I decided to go to the east hall where Desmond's chamber was located.I felt nostalgic all of a sudden. I suddenly remembered how Desmond and I made love here in every corner of his manor. I castigated myself. Of all things, I could think of, why those freaking memories?"Unbelievable, Seraphina..." I shook my head.I halted when I came to see the chamber of Desmond and me which was now his own chamber. I approached it and halted in front of the closed door. I kept fluttering my eyes when my eyes were getting misty for some reason. I also felt a pang of pain as well because this place brought so many memories to me.I exhaled sharply, wanting to open it to see what it looked like inside. I wonder if Desmond had renovated the chamber since the master's bedroom was quite vast.I wondered if t
I wiped the tears that fell from my eyes. Damn it... I should have not reminisced about our past. Why did it become so memorable to me? Why is that memory still sitting in my heart?I quietly left Desmond's chamber before I returned to the north hall, feeling dejected. I laid on my bed, staring at the ceiling. Somehow I rejected going there. My hand crawled to my neck where I was holding the other ring—my wedding ring—which I already made as a pendant.I never threw this away and still managed to keep it by my side. But I never wore it to my ring finger on my left hand anymore because I already thought that it was futile to think to myself that I was still married to him.I managed to wear it from the time I removed my bangle. Ah, yes. That bangle was still in my flat. It was a good thing that I managed to wear this pendant. I was already planning on passing this down to Sander and having him keep the pendant but I was afraid he might lose it.Now that I recall. I caught Desmond looki
"Sander, can we please talk?" I knocked on the door of his chamber. I could only hear his soft sobs and sniffs.I sighed for the nth time. I had been knocking here so many times but it seemed that Sander didn't really want to talk. I already told him that I apologized for the behavior I had shown. I should have dealt with this matter when Desmond and I were alone but my emotions got the better of me.I knocked on the door again. "If there is anything you need, Mama is in her chamber, sweetheart," I said softly before I decided to give him some space because it looked like he needed it.I might try to speak with him later.But just before I could leave, the door of Sander's chamber slowly swung open. There, I came to see Sander's swollen, puffy red eyes, hiding behind the door.My wolf felt heartbroken upon seeing our pup being in this state. She scolded me earlier because I did not control my emotions and decided to lash out at Desmond."Sweetheart..." I knelt on the floor and opened
Sander had been feeling more cheerful for tonight. He was excited that he would have us on his bed to sleep.I couldn't say no to this little man. I promised myself that I would let Sander experience having a complete family. I must do what it takes even if it means of enduring Desmond by my side.I was just done taking a bath and wore a night dress. I went straight to Sander's bedroom, hearing soft giggles from him and deep chuckles from Desmond.Knocking, the laughter gradually dissipated. Desmond was the one who opened the door, having our son in his arms."You're here now, Mama," Sander exclaimed happily.I gently tapped his nose. "Of course. I promise that I will be here, right?" Or rather, Desmond begged me not to spoil the fun for Sander. I could have just ignored him the whole night and just focused on Sander.And that was how I was going to do it. I would ignore him.But my eyes betrayed me. I glanced at Desmond when I heard uneven breathing from him only to see him looking a
Ever since that day, Sander was already fine. He was no longer sulking and kept beaming more.I went to Luna's Garden when Sander wished to be alone in the library to read more books while Desmond was out with his Alpha duties. Contemplating, the tips of my fingers were brushed against the orchid flowers.They looked so beautiful. I felt like... I had been showered with love again.It was extremely difficult to understand Desmond right now.He made me suffer in his hands while I was working with his tuxedo then he would act like a good father and he was trying to seduce me again. And it was affecting me.I decided to go out of the manor but I was blocked by Elron again. "What again?" I arched my eyebrow.He gently bowed his head. "Please be informed that Alpha's protocol is—""Allow me to escort Lady Seraphina, Elron."I turned my head when I heard a familiar feminine voice. My facial expression turned into a stoic one upon seeing the arrival of that person with whom I thought I could
The ceremony...Desmond was finally making his move that he would be going to introduce Sander as the next heir of the House of Marquis Verlice and the next Alpha of the Rising Diamond pack.The act that he wished to discuss with me was just a decoy. In reality, he was really making a decision without me.I opened the door of his study room without bothering to knock. I came to see Desmond who was wearing his spectacles as he always did in the past as he looked at me to meet my darkened expression."No," I immediately said as soon as I locked the doorknob. "You are not going to do this to me, Desmond."He clasped his hands together and looked up as if he was a god. He didn't even falter even though he saw that I was mad right now. "Our pack members deserve to know that their Luna and our offspring are here already."My blood boiled more upon hearing this. "I am no longer a Luna here and Sander is not going to be the next Alpha, I told you," I said through gritted teeth.With my words,
"We should go to your father's chamber. I am certain he is waiting for you." I ushered him to take his hand so we could go to the east hall."Mama, don't you want to come with us?"I was already fixing my bed when Sander asked that. "No, Sander." I turned at him wearing his nightshirt given by his father.Tonight was the night when Sander was going to sleep in Desmond's chambers. It was Desmond's request actually. Sander immediately agreed after that since they were establishing their relationship as father and son.Hugging the stuffed toy given by Desmond, Sander nodded. "Okay..." he said in a dejected tone. Hesitant, Sander turned at me. "Mama, about the ceremony..."I just kept my smile plastered even though upon knowing the fact that tomorrow was the ceremony for Sander. He was well aware that I disagreed about the ceremony Desmond was about to hold. He was not that naive to know that something was not right between Desmond and me ever since the day we discussed it.I knelt befor
I was silent the whole ceremony for Sander. I tried my best to put up the best smile because I didn't want to ruin this day for my son.He was now introduced as the son of the Alpha. Now that Desmond made this bold move, it meant that any movement from me that I would do something to separate him from this pack would be courting death.Shit... He was moving quickly as I expected. I should have known better.While Sander was busy playing with the other children, I came to see Declan and Mariana."So long, sister-in-law?" There was sarcasm smeared in his tone.I scoffed. "Long time no see, Declan." Then I glanced at his mate. "Mariana.""It has been a long time since we saw each other, Seraphina," Mariana said with a smile."You still dare to come back here after what you have done to my older brother?" Declan said through gritted teeth. His amber eyes were sparkling in anger."Declan..." Mariana hushed him, shaking his head. But Declan expressed that he was displeased that he was being
"Are you certain that you have no task for today?" I asked for the nth time as we headed to the kitchen area to grab snacks for the three kids who were near finishing their tasks.Desmond helped me prepare for their snacks but after a while, he hugged me from behind and couldn't stop sniffing my scent. "You sound like you want to shoo me away... I am sulking, seraphim." I could tell that he was pouting. "You know that we are on vacation.""Hilarious..." I leaned on his back and stayed in that position for a while.We were both enveloped in the silence that was so peaceful. Both of us were purring at each other's presence until I felt something poking behind me which made me frown."Desmond..." I warned him and pinched his arm."Aww!" He stepped backward and caressed his arm that I pinched. "That hurts..." He frowned."We can't do it right here." I shook my head.Desmond chuckled. "Ah, yes. It is not the two of us now. We have kids." I could feel my cheeks getting in heat right now beca
"Wrong answer! Wrong answer! Wrong fucking answer!" Hazel said, losing her mind already as she kept stabbing Sander's chest until Sander screamed in pain while there was blood oozing from his chest. "Papa...! Mama...! Please help me...!" "Sander!" I cried. "You motherfucker! How fucking dare you!" Desmond attacked her by using his wolf speed. He tackled her down by holding her neck, gripping it. "Bring her to the prison cell! Bestow her a hundred lashes! You do it, Harvey!" he ordered angrily. "Sander!" I rushed by my son's side as he fell to the ground, coughing with so much blood. "No, no, no... Summon Anderson!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, panicking more. "Mama..." Sander groaned in pain, crying. "It hurts..." "I know, baby..." I decided to tear the skirt off my dress, not minding if it was a customized one. "Help me to wrap this," I said to Desmond as my hands were shaking right now. "Sander, son... It will be alright, hmm?" Desmond asked, already shedding tears as he
"Desmond..." I looked at him, worried upon hearing that.That woman... That fucking leech...She took Sander as her hostage! How dare she!Desmond growled so loud, grabbing everyone's attention as he had Harolyn in his arms. "Harvey, Oakley," he called after dispatching his elites and the pack warriors to look for Hazel."Alpha."He shot Harvey a glare. "We are going to talk later. She took Sander!" His voice raised. "You said that she will not cause a problem for me anymore, Harvey!" He grabbed Harvey's collar causing Harolyn to cry, frightened at his father's action."Papa..."Harvey gasped, horrified. "S-She is, Alpha. I-I didn't know that Hazel would be acting like this..." Then he looked at Harolyn who was sniffing, worried about her."You should've known better! She is your fucking sister, you dumbass Harvey!" Desmond couldn't help shouting at him causing everyone to look in our direction."P-Papa... Please don't be mad at Father..." Harolyn sobbed.I stepped forward even though
"Desmond?""Hmm?""Do you still need to watch me getting measured?" I asked, looking at him in his reflection while he looked so alluring learning at the wall as he had Saoirse in his arms. "Are you finished with your Alpha duties?"They needed to measure my size because Desmond insisted that I need a new dress to wear to my upcoming Luna ceremony.Yes, Luna ceremony. Desmond and I sealed our mate bond again. We marked each other again to solidify our mate bond. It meant that I would become his pack member at the same time as the Luna of the Rising Diamond pack."Why? Don't you want me here?" Desmond frowned, looking like he was sulking.I playfully rolled my eyes. "I am thinking that you are not finished with your tasks." As soon as they were finished taking my measurement, I walked straight to him and tiptoed so I could kiss him fully on his lips.In my peripheral vision, Desmond covered Saoirse's eyes before he removed his hand after we finished kissing. He said that our daughter w
To start anew with courtship, Desmond took a day off from his Alpha duties and decided to take me to the town. We dated and went to eat some delicious meals in a restaurant."I could have wished we brought our pups and the twins," I said as I suddenly missed them already.Desmond nodded. "But this time, it should be only the two of us, Seraphina. I really want you all for myself for this day."I tried my best not to exert a smile since it made me feel ticklish from what Desmond said, especially since he brought my hand to his lips and kissed the back of it. My wolf and I felt ticklish after that."Thank you for giving birth to our pups, seraphim. It must have been hard for you to leave because of how jerk I was before." He heaved a sigh. I could see how regretted all of the actions he had done in the past.It was clear that he would want to ask for my forgiveness. He never pressured me that I should forgive him now. He was being patient and more considerate to me now."You will not be
"Mother!""Hezekiah... Harolyn..."Desmond and I watched their reunion as Hazel hugged her twins and rained them with kisses. Desmond intently watched them with his earnest expression. He was really watching them with wariness."What?" Desmond asked, surprised. His heart was racing so fast right now that he caught me looking at him.I inhaled slowly, having his amber eyes piercing me. "Um... I am glad that you bestow Hazel a chance to be with her twins." Even though Hazel threatened to kill me. She was just blinded by jealousy. I was certain that she would not do anything that would displease Desmond.I hope so.Desmond heaved out a sigh before he returned his glance to Hazel and the twins. "Actually, I am still hesitant to let Hazel see our twins. I still have no assurance that she really changed." He lowered his eyes to the ground. "But if you say that she really changed then I will believe you, Seraphina."His tone was soft and gentle. It was still unusual for me that Desmond was b
"What punishment did you bestow to Desmond, Mother? Why did he act like that?" I said as I sat beside Her and hugged my mother.Mother caressed my hair. "He has a fear of abandonment, dear. I just made it worse and bestowed on him some nightmares.""He has what? Fear of abandonment?" Then it hit me. If Mother meant that abandonment, was this the time that Desmond developed this when I left after finding out that he had an agreement with Hazel?"Yes," Mother answered the question I had in my mind. "Ever since that he forced you to return to his pack, Desmond is already paranoid and wants you to keep at bay. He does not want you to leave again. I know you have seen his desperation to fix your mate bond.""But the thing he did is to control me through that process until I felt suffocated with his actions." It almost resulted in Desmond wanting me to separate from Sander and I almost lost Saoirse when I had her in my belly."Indeed." Mother nodded. "Remember when you tried to make some te
I was shocked when they called me that. Mama? They really called me that, right? And I freaking softened after that.I looked at Desmond, expecting that he heard what they whispered at me but his attention was on our daughter which he bestowed on her nannies. Saoirse was taken care of by the newly hired two nannies which Desmond himself picked. Since we needed to have a conversation, it would have been better if our daughter had not been present here."As you know, Hazel is not present here, Seraphina," Desmond began when the three of us were left here in the dining hall. I nodded as a response. "I already took custody from Hazel two years ago since she had been defying me so many times." He glared at Harvey.I shivered since he did not change the way he conversed with his people. But it seemed like he acted differently since Hazel was involved."I see." I already knew that... Mother told me what was happening in Desmond's pack. She made sure that I would not remain clueless until suc
"Oh, is this my baby Saoirse?" Desmond asked, looking at Saoirse in my arms after he carefully put down Sander to the ground.Nodding, I spoke. "Yes," I said softly as I wiped the tears. I turned to Saoirse who was slightly tilted her head, looking at her Papa. I gently held her hand. "Sweetheart, honey." She looked at me. "That's Papa, hmm?""Da-da?" She pointed at Desmond. I nodded and smiled. At that moment, Saoirse clapped her hands. "Da-da!" she exclaimed.Desmond cried more when our daughter reached out to him. "Saoirse..." He hugged her with so much gentleness. "You have grown up so well, my daughter..."I placed Sander by my side as I watched them having a reunion. I looked at how he adored Saoirse as he sniffed and kissed her forehead. Saoirse giggled after that.Then Desmond's eyes lingered on me which made my heart skip a beat. I decided to curtsy before him. "Greetings, Marquis Verlice."There was melancholy written in his eyes when I greeted him formally. "Greetings to yo