Asher“I forgive you.”From the moment she said those words, my heart lifted.The smile she gave right after was all I needed to feel a burst of longing. It never went away, but thanks to her at the moment, it had multiplied past my boundaries.I wanted to take her into my arms at that moment. I was so, so glad that she had given me a second chance. A chance to prove myself and my love for her.I moved forward, ready to hold her in my arms. I knew it was too forward to think about, but at this moment, I hadn't cared any less. Exhilaration and joy filled me like a drug, taking over mo from within.“I loved her.”I loved AriezelAnd I was going to make it all up to her, even if it was using the last breath I had in me.When I tried to hold her, however, I was surprised to see her hold her hand out to stop- although in hindsight, I shouldn't have been any less shocked. But what truly shook me to the core were the words she said right after.Her words smashed through the hope I had, leavi
AriezelWaking up to a new day felt somewhat different.My head ached slightly, making me groan and turn further into the sheets.Slowly my eyes slipped open, meeting the bright light.I was back in my room. Although remembering how I got back was more difficult, I clearly remembered what happened before that.Blood rushed through my cheeks at the thought. He had asked me if he could pursue me and try courting me again and I said yes.I buried my head into my palms once, shutting my eyes to reality.After everything, I had stopped him and held back. Although I wasn't set on leaving, I couldn't fall back into his arms happily. I hoped that through friendship, I could survive with him. I could be co tent with it, loving him but not being with him.But just like always, he turned my world upside down.His denial was one thing, but at the crucial moment when I could have refused, I should have refused, I didn't.Looking at his eyes which though the atmosphere was dark, still managed to sh
AriezelI held the note in my hands carefully, still reeling from the realization.Looking at them, a sense of joy came to me. But along with it was trepidation.I swallowed the lump in my throat. Looking at the flowers, conflict rose in my mind on what to do with them. I could keep them and maintain them like I had done with all the rest, but if I did that, wouldn't I be accepting him?Goddess, this was so difficult.In the end I shook my head, keeping the note in along with carrying the small flowerpot. It was merely a bunch of flowers and nothing more. There was no hidden meaning behind it and neither would there be meaning if I accepted it. It wasn't a courting gift after all.I continuously reminded myself of that, ignoring the heat that grew warmer in my cheeks as I stepped back into my home, flowerpot and card in hand. Whatever Asher had given me meant nothing.By the time the sun had wanted in the noon sky, that was the moment I finally heard one of the doors open.Looking ov
AriezelEven distantly, I felt the pack buzzing with excitement as the announcement of the new beta spread. Everyone spoke with awe at the event, which was scheduled for the next day.As Harriet and I came home together, we sighed in relief.“It feels strange that we knew about it already." Harriet said, letting out a small chuckle.I smiled in turn. Strange indeed.So far, I hadn't crossed paths with Asher. The sole daily reminder of his words and promise was the flowers, which I always managed to take and keep in the privacy of my room before they could be seen.I couldn't fully understand the reason why I was still accepting them, despite my newfound resolve days ago. I could have easily told Harriet or better, Alys. If I told Alys about I'm I had no doubt that when she went to the pack house again, she wouldn't hesitate to tell Asher off to stop sending flowers. Maybe then he would have stopped sending me flowers and that would be the end of it.But I held my tongue still, and cou
AriezelWhen we all woke up, we began getting ready for the ceremony held at the pack house.We weren’t in a rush as of yet, I, however, was panicking slightly. And it all started from the moment Alys and Harriet showed me their outfits.When they had spoken of the ceremony I thought it was a simple affair like all the announcements so far. In my former pack, we had had the affair during the Mourning period, so there was no festival. Shock filled me when they spoke more in depth as they showed me their outfit.Whilst I was determined to go to celebrate, I had not accounted for what I was going to wear.This was where the problems started.Alys and Harriet looked for clothes that would fit me, but it was all in waste. Both of them weren’t near my size, with Alys’ clothes being an overflow and Harriets far too short and tight. In the end, they perused my closet.“There has to be something.” Alys said, flipping through my wardrobe whilst I paced. I silently berated myself for not prepari
I froze as I gazed at her, her silvery green eyes taunting me.She wore a red sequin gown. How ironic, as it was in complete contrast to mine. Red and green, how ironic.“Must I say, green really isn’t your color.” She took a step forward and I couldn’t help but flinch. Her past wrongdoings to me still flashed in my mind.Unfortunately, I knew I had taken the wrong step as her lips curled into an obviously smug smile. By giving a reaction, I had let her know that she had affected me.“But it doesn’t matter, does it? No matter how much you primp up, a beggar will still be a beggar. In the end, your bond will remain broken and you'll have to go off on your own.” She tutted.Confusion hit me at her words before the realization hit. It seemed like she was still under the belief that Ahser was still responsible for breaking the bond. Even more, it seemed like she didn’t know about our reconciliation or Asher’s pursuit of me.Had Asher not told her anything? I forced my face to be neutral t
Ariezel was beautiful.I knew it from the moment I found her unconscious in the forest, though then I dared not notice. I knew it through every smile, every kiss.But the moment she came into view in the hallway, in that green dress, I was sure I couldn’t breathe anymore. She was everything I wanted. And even during the Beta ceremony, I couldn’t keep my eyes on her for long. It traveled through till the moment I watched her leave the place. Worry had shed in my heart then, wondering if I had crossed the line and gone too far.Now though, at this moment when her soulful blue eyes met mine, I couldn't say a word.Even from afar, the dress she wore framed her shape and curves perfectly.The worst part of it all was that despite all the looks of admiration she was given, she seemed utterly oblivious to it all. Time and time again I could partially feel the stares she was given. My wolf was growling deep inside me to lash out at anybody who dared to look at her.‘You lost that right’ I re
AriezelSlowly but surely, I loosened up and celebrated the festivities.Alys had disappeared from the hall again, but I didn't mind. I ended up staying by Harriet's side throughout, remaining a silent hovering presence while she spoke to people. I was once again reminded of the reason I got on easy with her as she spoke to others. She was the essence of a social butterfly, flitting from conversation to conversation with a smile. The fact that she held me throughout was a reminder that despite her outgoing nature, I was one of her few closest person's, and I never felt more privileged till that moment.Despite my rational thoughts, I still glanced around, hoping to spy the familiar figure, but it seemed like Asher had also disappeared from the venue. I swallowed the disappointment that came forth. I shouldn't be disappointed . So in the end, I continued moving around with Harriet.Soon enough, the drinks I had taken finally got to me.Excusing myself from Harriet, I went to the bathro