UNDONE “I was going to tell you it was going to last all weekend, but I chickened out last minute. I’m sorry.” He says all of this in one breath. I’m too guilt ridden to get mad at him, and my smile is as real as it can get whilst full of guilt. Plus, his apology was my undoing. It was cute. “Its okay.”He peers into my face, his brows pulled together in the way they do when he studies me. I make my eyes wider, trying to create the illusion of everything is okay. “Are you sure?”I wave his concerns away, “Positive. I’m just feeling the exhausted. Speaking of, where is the room?” I ask as we stand in the hallway packed full of framed memories. His mom had asked me to show me to the room I'll be staying for the weekend, and he spilled his guts immediately we were away from earshot. He scratches the back of his neck. “Here.” He points to the only room in the hallway and shrugs.“My sisters took everything else and left me with this.”So it was his ch
CONFLICTED I did not mean to get up so late the next morning, even I know it was terrible manners to visit someone, especially the parents of the man you were sleeping with and not help out around the house, but game night last night ran into the wee hours of the morning. Saph finally graced us with her presence late into the night, when both parents had retired for the night. “Good afternoon peanut.” My eyes scan the room to find him, he stands at the door of his room, in different clothes from yesterday, he must have gotten up earlier. He is beaming at me, and this causes butterflies to flutter around my chest and stomach. “It's afternoon already? I missed everything!” I exclaim and jump out of bed. “You missed nothing, everybody else just got up.” He says walking into the room. “Really? Are you just waking up?” I find that I am dressed in just my shirt, as I discarded my pants before I collapsed into bed last night. He presses his mouth on my forehead and tha
BACKTurns out the definition of swimming for the Walker family was to lounge around the beach, taking cute pictures and splashing at the shallow end of the water. “I still can’t believe there are people in California who can’t swim.” I tell Vaughn as we walk along the beach, my hand sitting comfortably in his. Electric jolts crawl up our joined hands and I have to stop myself from thinking about it. “We are exceptions then. We like to tell ourselves it's because we aren’t from here.” I chuckle, Sandy had said that same thing over and over, her sisters agreeing with her. “This is nice.” I found myself saying as the cool breeze went through my hair. I feel Vaughn's eyes on me, my own eyes wandered everywhere but his face, I couldn't meet his eyes. “You showed me your cool place back in Maine, why don’t I show you mine?” My head jerks up, excitement already brewing in my guts as he hurried me along, obviously impatient to get us there. “Your special, cool
HOT“You are drooling everywhere on my leather couch.” Leo chastised, snapping out of my reverie. “I know the memories of him are just that hot, but does my couch have to suffer?” I blush all the way to my toes, from the top of my head. I was thinking about Vaughn and our activities at the library. The way his mouth moulded against mine ever so delicately, his hands moved like an expert every where on my naked skin, he knew what to do with me, my body was his canvas. I clear my throat nosily, trying to distract myself from my thoughts. “What makes you certain that I was thinking about him?” He rolls his eyes as if I was dumb for asking that question. I had come back home Sunday afternoon without my professor and announced to everyone who was willing to listen; AKA Cecilia, Jessica and Leo, that henceforth, i had nothing to do with the most good looking professor in the world because I did not love him and I got what I wanted out of the arrangement, more
DENIAL“Holy shit! If love does exist.. it does exist, so I actually do love him.” The words sounded foreign in my ears, but they were true, or else why was my heart banging against my rib cage? And my stomach in tumbles? “I love him.” I whisper.And then with even more conviction, I go, “I really am in love with him!”“Much better isn’t it?”Excitement bubbled in my veins, threatening to burst wide open. “Much! Oh, thank you Leo! Thank you so much! I gotta go let him know how I feel. Do you think he would accept my feelings? Oh my god if I get rejected or something, the world has to end.” He chuckles. “Hey, I got rejected and I turned out okay.” I physically wince at that.“I’m sorry about that.”He waves me and my too late of apology away. “I got over it. Besides, we are talking about you and your first love now.” I bite my lip in thought.“Did you always know? That I was in love with Vaughn.” It still sounded foreign and made me feel t
DISGUST It seems all the phones were going off at the same time. I mostly ignored mine whilst scouring the internet for his sister's social media and hopefully, their phone numbers. I had sent dozens of texts to him but got no response, and it had taken a stern talking to from Leo for me to see that going over to his place would only fan the rumours and put him in an even more awkward position. Cecilia’s agents and others were calling non stop, I pretend not to see her grit her teeth as she hit the ignore button. Guilt nipped at my conscience but I was too preoccupied to let it bother me. Jessica kept rejecting calls from people we shared classes with. The whole thing had gone crazy, people were actually leaving comments about how I was favoured in his class and how we always left class together, some might be true but I wish they’d focus on their business, we are two grown adults. “Any luck finding them?” I shake my head, not looking away from the screen. I lef
LOVER GIRL I swiped reject on Anne's call again as I head for the door. A text comes from her immediately I do, like she was typing the message as she called. “A heads up, the school board will be calling you in.” My heart dropped to my stomach, as if it was not already there since the whole ordeal started. “Where are you going?” Jessica asked in an urgent tone. Just then an e-mail drops, the one inviting me to sit with the board, the date and time said now, and failure to attend means I was guilty and ready to receive whatever punishment came our way. “School board. And I have to go now.” My voice raised, even in my ears. Jessica cursed and then slipped on her shoes. “Let's go.”“What do you mean..?”She snatched the car keys from me. “You are too shaky to drive, and you will need moral support.” She matches to the car after her spiel. I numbly follow her to the car, and as I fix my seat belt, Leo and Cecilia slid into the back seat. I can only mana
RUCKUS “Can I discuss this with him first?” I find myself asking. The woman who baited me scoffs. “Would you look at that? She has to run to him first. Do you think a grown man would offer himself up for you?” I ignore her and search the faces of the other board members. “It happened with both of us consenting, I shouldn't have to make this decision alone.” “Mr. Walker was unreachable when we called you in, which explains his absence. We need your decision today, as you know the school's image is at stake.” I swallow.“One hour, I know where he is, I’ll get there in an hour and be back here with your response.” Baiting lady scoffs again. Grating on my nerves. “Do you think we should wait for you? We have important things to do.” “But this concerns him also. It’s only fair that he knows about it.” “Three hours. No more.” Mr. Adam says, startling everyone in the room, including me. When I don't move, he cocks his head to the side. “You really have time