GRATEFUL“You have always known.” I say more to myself than to him. He sighs and wipes his face with his hand. “Why don't we go downstairs together, eat and then talk about it?” I take a another look at the room filled with hundreds of drawings and sketches of me. “I can’t believe you always knew about it.” “Is it a bad thing that I knew?”“Is that why you paid for me exclusively?” He shrugs,“Yes.”“Why didn’t you say something? All those hours we spent alone together..” He gestured with his hand for a bit and then dropped it. “I don’t know. I didn’t know how you were going to react I guess. Plus, that was my favourite part of the day, if you had stopped it for any reason..” I nod in understanding, I knew what he meant by favourite part of the day. I looked forward to our sessions together all day as well. “I was very happy the day you talked to me for the first time.” He chuckles to himself. I remember that day clearly. I don’t know what possessed m
BODY“I can make the popcorn.” I offer, just sitting on the couch watching him move blankets from the guest room to the living room. He sighs like I asked him to hand over his first born child.“Listen here young lady, when I say sit, you sit, if I need your help, I’ll ask, but until then, please do not lift your pretty butt of that sofa, do you understand me?” I gulp. Even with his voice and words even, I could feel my body come alive as he spoke. “Peanut? Where’s my confirmation?”“Yes, I understand.”“That’s my good girl.” He goes into the kitchen to make the popcorn and my eyes follow him. They never leave his body as he moves about in the kitchen. How can he make popcorn in such an erotic way? Was that even legal? I watch with lips slightly parted as he popped one piece into his mouth, I gulp as he chews. “Perfect.” He says to himself as he picks up the bowl and returns to the sofa.“Come over here.” He tells me.When I do shift over to him, he
CAN'T “Wow, this is a real pigsty if I have ever seen one.”Cecilia comments as she opens the door to my room. I peep through slightly parted eye lids to watch as she saunters into my room, Jessica on her heels. “I thought I said I wanted nobody in here?”“Welcome to life, we almost never get what we want. Jessica tells me you’ve been like this for a while.” I shoot Jessica a look and she shrinks into Cecelia’s form. I throw the blanket over my head, covering my entire body and hoping to stay that way for a while. “You know you can't hide from the world forever right?” Ignoring them, I squeeze my eyes shut. “Okay, I tried the easy way, but I don’t think you want that. Don't forgive me for this.” Was Cecilla's only warning before the blanket is pulled off of me, I hiss from the onslaught of sunlight. “Cecilia!”“CeceStar. And get up now. Whatever the problem is, I’m sure it won't be solved even if you become one with your bed.” “What do you want fro
USED The wind from the sea bit deep into my skin. “I need to stop feeling. I need to not feel. I need to stop thinking..” I mutter over and over to myself as I rush into the changing room. Hurriedly, I change into my surfing gear and without doing any form of stretches, I paddle into the cool water. Desperate to stop thinking. Being on the water muted all of my thoughts. And I very much needed to stop hearing the last words Cecilia told me before I dashed here. “You played with someone's feelings...” I groan and push off from the board. I push off to a stand and start to surf, but my mind still felt crowded, too crowded. I needed more, I push myself even further. I felt a cramp in my ankle but that would not stop me. I could not let it stop me. Pushing myself even further, I felt myself lose my balance on the board. I right my legs, and continue to go forward. I cross my ankles, in a position I use to right myself when I felt untethered on the board, not how I u
TOMORROW My legs, heart and throat must not be receiving the same command, because my legs are taking me in his direction. And my heart keeps telling me to run the opposite direction. My throat won't work. He has a hopeful look in his eyes by the time I reach him. He definitely did not hear a word of the conversation. He was far away from us anyway. “Peanut..” He whispers when I reach him.I choke back a sob at the nickname. I hated the name before, so why was I being sentimental over it now? I couldn’t wait to be rid of it any way. “Are you okay? You.. were you crying? Did you get hurt? Did something happen?” he takes a step towards me, his eyes roaming my body. “I’m fine.”His brows almost touch. “You don’t look fine to me.. your eyes are red..”“From the salt water. Water got into my eyes. I’m fine. Really.” He swallows and then nods. Most likely swallowing his hurt. My chest tightens from hurting him that way. “You must be getting cold. Let’s get you
DISOBEY His hands around my waist slide up and down my slides, slowly caressing my skin. I remove my mouth from his and focus my attention on taking off his pants. His fingers help me and together, we finally succeed in taking off his pants. My finger tips run on his hardened cock from on top of his silky boxer briefs. He takes a sharp breath as I do. Hastily, I pull the briefs down, and he sprang up, hard and veiny. “Protection.” He murmurs as he pulls out his wallet and picks out a single rubber from inside it. In one fluid motion, he had sheathed himself to the hilt. My tongue darts out and licks my lip, he really is a fine specimen, just watching him was very, very, arousing and I settle myself on top of him. My hands gripping his shoulders tight, my feet firmly planted against the leather seats as my ass hovered in the air above him. We let out identical gasps once he was at my entrance. “Baby..” “Vaughn..”The walls of my insides tightens ag
PUNISHMENT He grits his teeth and reverses out of his driveway. But it is too late, Priscilla must have heard the sound of the car pulling in and turns in the direction of the car. I hold my breath and watch as her confusion clouds her features. Even if she cannot see us in the car, I am still unable to breathe until she is a tiny spec in the distance. “She could not see us.” I murmur to myself and to him.He doesn’t respond for a while and then he speaks. “I’m sorry, she shouldn't be here, I don’t know..”“Don't.. don’t apologise for her. You did nothing wrong.”I look away from him, the rest of my sentence stuck in my throat, the part that said the truth. “Should I head to your place?” Lacking energy, I nod and sink deeper into my seat. Happiness had seeped put of me at this point. I felt drained. Cupping my head in the palm of my hand, I close my eyes. “Are you Okay?”I sigh at the softness of his voice, the kindness in his voice. He was so kind. Suc
PAIN “Wait here.” He orders as he puts the car in the parking lot of a shopping complex. “What do you want to get?”A small quirk of his brow tells me that was the wrong question to ask. “You’ll see.”He climbs out of the car and disappears into the complex, I try to follow him with my eyes but he got lost in the crowd. I sigh and sag into my seat. Instead of dwindling my thumbs as I wait for his return, I dial Joanna's phone number, my father’s secretary. “Hey Joanna..” I pause when I hear shuffling in the background. And then even more shuffling.“Roxanne.. hello..” she answers breathily. “Is this a bad time?”More shuffling, “No, not really. I needed the break anyway.”“Is something going on?”She sighs, “Your father is contesting the will. He says there is nothing wrong with being progressive.” I snort. Like sucking up to his mother in-law was the least bit progressive. “Please. I wish I could say good luck with that. Anyway, I calle