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Chapter 42
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2021-09-29 15:38:27Koushalya's POV
Every so often, I feel like leaving everything and running away somewhere, where no one can find me. I want to disappear so that I don't need to face anyone.
I'm tired. There's no energy left in me to handle all these now. I need to restart my life, restart myself and rearrange the things in my life. Or if it's possible I would rather go to the past by using a time machine and stop my past self from taking those foolish decisions, due to which right now I'm suffering.
My perception of myself has been destroyed so much, I barely recognize who I am.
This is my fucking life, but heck with it. I never felt like one. Because everyone around me controls my life except me. I don't have any rights in my life. There's no room for myself, my emotions, and my thoughts. There's not a single person who loves me for who I am. I'm desperate for someone
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