Prologue
Do you hear it? I hear it. The deafening ambulance’s sound that shatters my eardrums. I can hear voices from different people but I don't understand a word. Have you ever been under the water and you cannot hear everything vividly? That's exactly how it feels. It feels like I am under the water and my ears are filled with water that I don't understand what they were saying. The sky, I see the sky. It was bright—too bright that it blinds my eyes. I see unfamiliar faces staring at me, but I couldn't identify any of them. They were too blurred for me. My body. I couldn't feel a thing; I can't feel my own body like I was numb. What's happening? Where am I? “FREYA!” Perhaps, I went out under the water. That's the only thing I heard clearly. Slowly, my eyes landed on a very familiar woman crying over someone. Along with the loud sound of the ambulance, her shattering voice and cry invaded my ears as if she was mourning. I couldn't move, not even my fingers. The next thing I knew, I was being moved as if I was flying in the air. I looked beside me while the sky vanished from my sight. It became a ceiling filled with tons of unclear bright lights. All of a sudden, as I felt like dying, tears fell beside my eyes as I saw her covered with blood. “F-Freya,” I mumbled. It was the last thing I knew before everything suddenly shut down; everything just went black. “She killed Freya! I cannot forgive her for doing that to her sister,” “Freya is an innocent woman. Why does it have to be her?” “Excuse me? It was a car accident, Faith didn't kill Freya! She was also part of the accident! How can you blame Freya's death on her when they were together in the accident?” “Exactly! They were together and she probably didn't save her sister! She only thought of herself, letting her sister die from that damn accident, Lily!” “Lily, please don't meddle. This is our family's business.” “How could you think of Freya without thinking of your other daughter? Faith is also your daughter. She also fought for her life,” “And I wished she's just the one who died from the accident, not Freya!” “What?” What's going on? Am I dreaming? Why do I hear voices, fighting? I wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn't. They felt heavy as if something was preventing me from waking up. My body, I tried to move even just a little—but I failed. I don't feel anything as if I was a mere statue. “That's enough, hon.” It was Mom, wasn't she? I know her voice very well. With all my remaining strength, I gave another shot to finally see them with my own eyes. As I did, the blurry image of people inside the room invaded my eyes. I blinked a few times, trying to clear my sight. “I will not calm down! I lost our daugh—” “Faith!” Lily, my best friend, quickly rushed towards me as soon as she saw me finally awake. Where am I? Why is everything in this room painted with the color white? “Why did she even wake up?” My brows crossed. What's going on? I woke up from what? “Hey, can you hear me?” Lily asked. Finally, I felt something. I felt the warmth of her hand as it lingered on my hand. I glanced at my parents who were only standing there. My mother was glancing at me, wearing her blank eyes while my father couldn't even look at me as if I was a dangerous thing. In one snap, all my questions earlier were answered. Everything that happened began to flash in my head like the waves of the sea that smacked the shore. “Freya, you can't drive! Mom will get mad at me if she finds out that I let you drive,” I said to Freya while she was being stubborn again and forcing me to let her drive the car. “There will be no problem if they will not find out. Besides, I know how to drive. My friends taught me,” she winked at me and started the car's engine. “What? You drove secretly? That's dangerous!” I was being hysterical already. Freya has always been like this. She's often stubborn and playful. She loves adventure, doing everything that she thinks is fun to do. “Come on, I'm still alive! Just trust me, okay?” I heaved a heavy sigh when she already drove and I couldn't do anything anymore. “Be slow! You don't even have a license for god's sake.” I shut my eyes firmly. She's indeed a pain in the neck to me. “Calm down, Fai—” “Freya!” That moment, I wasn't able to close my eyes. The blinding yellow lights of the huge truck greeted me as everything seemed to get slow. Time suddenly froze for a few seconds. Until the next thing I knew, Freya was painted with blood beside me and we were both bleeding inside the car. “Do you remember everything, huh?” I became feeble, too weak to speak. I was lost for words while my hands began to tremble. Tears started to drip down on my face while I was having a short breath. “F-Freya…w-where is she?” I asked shiveringly to all of them. My parents didn't speak, they were only eyeing me with those cold eyes. “Faith,” Lily called beside me. “L-Lily, where is she? W-Where's my sister, huh? W-Where's Freya?” “You want to see where your sister is?” My father finally spoke. “Come on, I'll show you where Freya is.” “Uncle, please don't do this!” Lily exclaimed when my father suddenly grabbed me like a piece of paper on the hospital gown that I was wearing. I didn't know if I didn't resist or I was just too weak that he was able to drag me in one snap. “Faith!” Lily exclaimed and followed us. “Where are you taking her, Sir? You can't drag her like that,” the Nurse intervened and tried to stop my father. “Get out of my way!” He pushed the nurse away and didn't stop from dragging me like a piece of cloth. My eyes couldn't stop from pouring tears. Why does he look mad at me as if seeing me fills rage into his system? Morgue. I became feeble even more and shivered when I saw what's written in the room where Dad brought me. “Please, don't do this to her! Let her rest, for god's sak—” “You shut up, Lily! You don't get to defend her!” My mother exclaimed and shut Lily up who was crying a river while watching me. I was stunned. I froze and I couldn't move a little when I saw someone covered with a white sheet. “W-Why did you bring me here, Dad? Freya isn't here,” His eyes were filled with rage towards me. But why? Why me? He burst into tears as his finger pointed out the dead body lying down in the morgue. “Why don't you check that out, huh? Check it out and see what happened,” he said firmly. It couldn't be Freya, right? I shook my head. It can't be. I walked beside it, and with my trembling hands, I slowly pulled down the white sheet that was covering it entirely. I was filled with extreme fear as I did so. “F-Freya,” my voice shattered. Everything shattered—my world shattered into a million pieces. “No…No, no, Freya. It can't be! Wake up, come on, Freya!” I tried to shake her and wake her up, but nothing happened. “Get away!” “Faith!” Lily exclaimed. My lips parted immediately when my father pushed me so hard that I hit the wall. I glanced at him with so many questions running in my head. His eyes were burning as if he could kill me any moment. “You killed your own sister, Faith! How could you? Are you so insecure about her that you let her die, huh?!” My brows crossed, trying to absorb everything in my head. I killed who? Freya? What is he talking about? I shook my head multiple times in front of them. “Why are you saying that, Dad? I didn't kill her…I didn't kill Freya.” I stood up and tried to reach them. “Dad, it was an acci—” I paused when his hand landed on my cheek. I felt how it burned from that hard slap. “Please, stop!” Lily exclaimed and shielded me from them. “I can't bear to see you in the house with us,” my father said as if he was disowning me. “D-Dad…it's not what you think. Let me explain…I didn't kill Fre— “I will arrange your marriage today so you can leave our house,” Mom uttered beside Dad, giving me those coldest eyes. Wait. Why do I feel like I am the villain here? Why do I feel like I am a criminal who killed my own sister? It was an accident. I didn't want it to happen! “M-Mom,” “Don't you ever touch me!” She exclaimed when I tried to reach her. Those eyes, she was looking at me as if I am the most cruel person in the world. “As soon as possible, you will get married.” My father declared, putting an end to everything. “I will marry her then,” all of us paused as we heard that voice. It was him, Elijah Gray Luciero, walking towards us and eyeing me with his cold and blank eyes. “What are you saying, Elijah?” Lily asked, stunned. “I will marry Faith,” he announced very clearly as he went closer to me. “I will make you regret everything you did to Freya, Faith.” He whispered. itsclarixassChapter 1 “Where are you going?” Mom asked me when I went downstairs, wearing a black dress. Today is my sister's funeral. It's been two days since I got discharged from the hospital. Since I came back home, none of them treated me right. My parents never talk to me, not until now. I had to look behind me, checking if she was talking to me or not. “It's Freya’s funeral,” I replied. My father laughed as if he lost his mind. I remained glancing at them with questions right through my eyes. “Who says that you're going with us?” Mom asked as the side of her lips rose while her sharp eyes were pierced at me. “What? But Freya is my sister. I must co—” “And you killed your sister, Faith. Have you forgotten about it?” My lips parted. I was left with no words at all. I couldn't even make a sentence when she said that again. I was indeed in awe. Everything was processing in my head slowly. I can't believe them. I can't believe that they are blaming her death on me. “How many
Chapter 2 I was standing on the balcony of my room, watching the clouds move in the sky. Today is the wedding. I am already wearing the wedding gown that I designed myself. I designed this a long time ago and I never once expected that I would be the one to wear this as well. In a few hours, I will be tied to Elijah. In my entire life, I never once thought that this day would happen. Who would have thought that I would marry the man that was once a lover of Freya? I don't know if I should be happy or not. Everything just feels heavy ever since Freya died from the accident. “You still have time to run away,” I was standing alone when I heard her. I didn't waste my time looking at her anymore. I heard her footsteps coming towards me as she went inside the room. “I won't run away,” I uttered as I heavily sighed. “Are you okay?” She asked beside me. I glanced at her for a moment, her words warmed me. She was already wearing a sleeveless rose gold semi-gown with a slit on its left
Chapter 3“Congratulations, Faith and Elijah.” We have been greeting the guests since we arrived at the reception of our wedding and I have been forced to smile like everything's fine in front of them. All of them have their own worlds, even our parents who were busy entertaining the others. Honestly, I don't know any of them. Some of them are familiar to me, unlike Elijah who knows each of them. “Thank you,” I replied, forcing a tiny smile on my lips. That was all that I could do while engaging with them.“Sadly, Freya didn't get to see this.” One of the ladies uttered, which made my smile fade. I froze for a moment before I glanced at Elijah. I saw how his fake smile vanished as well. “You were Freya's boyfriend before, right? I can't believe your parents arranged this marriage beyond tha—”“She's dead, Mrs. Alejandro. Can we at least respect it?” I looked away when Elijah cutted her out. I felt the tension embraced all of us and I knew that they would talk behind our backs after
Chapter 4 That night it rained; it was a very heavy rain as if the sky was filled with rage. I could feel my tears slipping out of my eyes while looking at the white ceiling of the room. Elijah's scent was all over me. I could still feel his touch as if his hands were still traveling every corner of my body. The middle of my legs was sore—and I could feel it all like it was burning and wrecked. “W-Where are you going?” He caught my attention in one snap even how stuttered I was when he didn't even lay down beside me. He was all naked in front of me and he didn't mind. For so many years that we have been together as friends and as my sister's lover, I never once imagined myself being with him on this kind of night where we are both naked with our torn hearts and souls. “The honeymoon is done,” he replied without giving me an eye. I crumpled the sheet of blanket covered on my body. He sounded like he just portrayed his role as the groom in this wedding. My womanhood is bu
Chapter 5“He despised me,” I uttered while I was busy checking out the new set of clothing fabrics that was delivered today. I am still stuck with what I heard and saw from Elijah last night. He was grieving, mourning, and hating me each day. It slapped me with the truth that he really did just marry me to punish me—to make my life like a real hell. “How was he?” Lily asked. Yesterday, it was Lucas who visited me, and now it's her. I know that the two of them are worried. Among all the people who hate me, there are still Lucas and Lily who cared for me. It turns out that Elijah belongs to the group of people who wished me to die instead of my sister. “Cold? He doesn’t care. Elijah changed after Freya passed away. He's full of anger,” rage is firing up inside and outside of him. “What about your parents? Did they reach out?” I smirked and shook my head. Of course, they won't contact me again unless they have to. They hate me. They treat me like a devil who killed Freya as if I pl
Chapter 6“Ms. Faith,” I heard the maid calling me again. Elijah began to wear his shirt, as if kissing and bringing a woman in our house wasn't a wrong thing at all. Tears are welling out in my eyes and I knew that at any moment they would slip out. “I'm going upstairs,” that is all that I could say. Everything became heavier. Making a step to go upstairs like nothing happened at all was the hardest thing to do. My entire body was feeble; my hands and legs were trembling in weakness. A dagger was stabbed in my chest and I could feel its pain invading the entire me. “The dinner is ready,” one of the maids broke the ice between me and Elijah. I glanced at him and I didn't even see any glimpse of conscience. “You should eat first,” the maid beside me said. She looks concerned, they all do—except for Elijah who doesn't care at all. I feel like they stepped on me, crushing my legality and rights as his wife. “I'm fine,” I replied and forced a tiny smile as much as I could. “Ms. Fai
Chapter 7Elijah's cruelty worsened. I thought he would stop, but he didn't. He is not just shattering me, he's also disrespecting me as his wife. It seems like the piece of paper that is tying us together in this same roof has no power at all. He didn't leave any shame and respect for me. “You like it, baby?” “Y-yes! Ahhhh! Shit, faster, Elijah!”“Ohhhh! Ahhhh!” I can hear them loudly each night. They don't make me sleep, not even a blink in the evening. I was always here in this room, wide awake. I moved out of my room and now stayed in one of the guest rooms after I witnessed him fucking another woman. Guess what? Tonight is another woman who's probably enjoying his company and his penis in her vagina. How can't they? Elijah is fulfilling their dreams as a woman. Perhaps, they are thinking that it is a privilege to be fucked by Elijah Luciero that they all dreamed of. Two weeks passed and they still haven't stopped yet. I go home each day from work seeing different women who ar
Chapter 8“Sleep in my house from now on,” Lily captured my eyes in one snap. Does she hear herself? “My house is always open for you, Faith. Uh, you also have your condo. Why not stay there? Or just choose where do you like to stay—”“Hold on,” my brows crossed while I was processing everything they were saying right after they brought me back to my shop. I saw Elijah leaving earlier. He didn't even say anything back there. I tilted my head and made an awkward chuckle. “I can't do that,” I said. They both froze. Their eyes were both glued at me. “What do you mean you can't? If you're scared of Elijah, don't worry about him.” Lucas said with no fear at all. He looks chill as if he can handle Elijah in a blink of an eye. “I'll talk to my lawyer to help you with the divorce pap—”“No,” that one word made them both pause. I think that was enough to cut out the thoughts filling their heads. “No?” Lucas asked, probably befuddled. “I'm not filing a divorce. We've already talked abo
Chapter 67 “Then I wouldn't mind killing people,” his eyes were glued to me the moment he said that. We exchanged tough stares together, and he was reading me like a damn book. I didn't back down as I was trying to examine every reaction from him. He wouldn't mind killing people? I suddenly remember how I found out that he has feelings for me. It was the day Elijah and Lucas fought that they almost killed each other. He had feelings for me and Lucas knew all my life that my parents didn't treat me right as they always had their eyes on Freya. “Really?” I asked, trying to catch him. The side of his lips moved and nodded. “Yeah, of course. I mean, that's how I love. I don't want my woman getting hurt,” Tension—that was what filled the entire room. It felt like there were only the two of us and Lily and Brian were not there at all. He remained looking at me and I didn't back down. But inside me, I was terrified. Not with the fact that he might hurt me, but the fact that if he's rea
Chapter 66“It's really them,” Elijah uttered while reviewing the documents that the detective brought. I was in awe, or perhaps in despair. My eyes were stuck in nowhere. I couldn't say a single word after he told us the new suspects. Lily and Lucas. They were both close in my heart. I have been with them my entire life and they have witnessed everything that I have been through. It's not just that, Freya is also their friend. We are all damn friends and yet one of them might be the culprit. “Now we have three suspects: your mother, Lily and Lucas.” The detective said while my entire world is already colliding. I wanted to prepare myself, but I couldn't. No matter who it is, it would surely shatter me to the point that I might not know how to stand up again. All my life, I thought we were not just friends but a family that I never had. “Only one of them is the suspect,” Elijah uttered, trying to crack the puzzle. “As of now, all I can do is to watch them closely. You should do t
Chapter 65I closed my eyes, trying to feel the same feeling I've felt towards Elijah. My lips were on his lips, and my hand even traveled on his neck. I moved my lips, still eager to make myself feel those strange feelings I used to have. But then, no matter how I tried, I felt nothing. It was not the same when I remember myself kissing Elijah. It was totally different. It was always strange, but I loved it. The soft kiss that would make my eyes close without me noticing. The silence, as if no one was around us. Our breaths hit each other's face. Our eyes together were filled with delight and unbeatable romance. His hands on my waist felt warm. It has always been like that. A very short kiss that feels like the longest one. I didn't feel any of that when I kissed Brian. We eyed each other and his eyes were satiated with delight, love and sincerity. I wore the same eyes before. But right now, my blank eyes remain—or perhaps, disappointed. I crumpled my hands as I faced Elijah who
Chapter 64“I still fucking love you, Faith.” I felt betrayed. The worst is, I was fighting with myself. The moment Elijah said that, my heart began to race, which I didn't feel a long time ago. As far as I remember, the last time I felt the same was also because of him. I hate myself for feeling this strange feeling again. I could not move in my position as if my feet were glued on the floor. Our eyes were both stuck towards each other. His eyes were filled with sincerity. They were soft as before, which reminds me of how I was captivated by those eyes before—when everything was still fine, when our souls were not ripped yet. He was begging with those eyes. They were speaking to me, trying to make me believe how pure she is. “Trust me, I regret everything. Every day that you were away in four years, I couldn't stop thinking of you that I felt like going mad,” it was the first time that I listened. I have heard all those reasons from him ever since I arrived here. But right that m
Chapter 63“Where have you been last night? Sorry, I slept early. I didn't see you coming home,” Lily said while I was the one cooking our breakfast. I only stared at her for a moment. Just like what the detective said, I should not trust anyone until the culprit is caught. As of now, my mother is the biggest suspect that we have. But knowing that the culprit is around me, I felt like I cannot trust any of them. Who knows? The person behind this might be just playing under my nose for a long time. “Work? I work overtime,” I avoided her eyes and acted normal right in front of her. If it is not my mother, would it be Lily? Would she plan something cruel like that? I don't know. She has been my one and only best friend in my entire life. If it is her, I don't know what I can do, but I am sure that it would break me into a million pieces. Inside me, I was hoping that she is not the culprit. I hope she's innocent. “What else do you want? I really don't understand why you want triple sa
Chapter 62I was in awe. The image of my mother wearing that earring before was flashing back in my head. How can I forget her favorite earring to wear in every grand event that she attended in the past? My entire world was crumbling again and I couldn't pull myself back together. My palm was already filled with bruises because of my nails that bury everytime I clench my hands, just like right now. I was shivering right there and it felt like I'm going mad. “What do you want me to do?” The detective asked in front of me. I couldn't even touch the food that I bought. He was only eating in front of me comfortably, waiting for whatever I wanted to do. “The case is not closed right?” “Yeah. I can open it again and continue what I started if you want me to do that,” he shrugged; he's now giving me the authority to decide whether to continue the digging or not. “Do it, investigate the case. This time, I want it done.” A smirk played beside his lips. “I've been wanting to dig this up, y
Chapter 61“We can move next week to my condo,” Lily mentioned while we are on our way to our businesses. I was the one driving with my head flying elsewhere. I just have to drop her off at the mall before I go to my company. “Okay,” I shortly replied, having no energy in my voice. The weather was gloomy, it makes me feel lazy to move and work today. “Are you sure you don't want to come with me and go shopping? You need this. Take time to unwind,” she has been asking me to come since last night. This is our usual way of decreasing stress, by spending our wealth in luxury things that we love. “How can I go there? I can't even visit my shop in the mall because of the issue,” I can't blame anyone. I was the one behind that exposure of the truth from our past. In my state right now, shopping wouldn't fix everything. “Well, you have a point,” she nodded and shook her head at the same time. I stopped the car in front of the mall for her. She could have used her car but she's being lazy
Chapter 60“My name is Melinda Ching, I don't even know if Elijah Luciero remembers my name,” she chuckled and smirked thinly. “Yeah, I was one of Elijah Luciero's women before. We used to fuck each other anywhere, until he one day brought me to his home and I found out that he's actually married to Faith Flamera, the famous fashion designer,” I crumpled both of my hands while the woman was now revealing everything to the people. I do not remember her anymore. How can I? Elijah brought ton of women in our house and they were fucking each other each night. “I asked my friends, and it turned out that some of them were one of her chicks as well. They told me that Elijah brought them home, too, and they met his wife. He was a cheater—yeah, you heard it right. I think it's the reason why his wife divorced her. Before, I was asking myself, ‘why the hell is she not dumping him when he's cheating right in front of her?’ She was the most martyr woman that I ever met in my life,” I was shiv
Chapter 59The typhoon destroyed nature and a lot of buildings around. The construction of my house continued and they still have to clean everything first before starting the building of the house. “What do you mean you want more?” Brian asked while we were having breakfast together in the hotel. “He's not yet struggling, Brian. I want to trample him on the ground until he cannot stand anymore and wear a freaking smile on his face,” what did he say? He will get me back? Then I will show him what I am capable of. “So, what do you want?” That's the big question now. Aside from making him struggle as he chases me, I want more than that. I want her to be torn inside and out and completely ruin his entire life.“I can find the women he fucked and brought to your house before,” Lily mentioned, which captured my attention in one snap. “Then what?” Brian asked. “Pay her and make her speak about the past. She has to tell the entire world how Elijah cheated on me,” I found a little sly sm