"I am truly me in the company of you. even if it's on the phone. You make me feel butterflies, in my stomach. it's a beautiful feeling bending me towards you. " [Jacqueline]
Jacky's POV:
The deep pitter-patter of rain reverberated through the window of my bus as I adjusted my backpack on my legs sitting on my usual seat in the back of the bus.
I glanced outside the window, watching as people passed by the side of the bus trying to find some roof to protect themselves from rain. Eventually, as my eyes moved forward I set my eyes on a handsome boy in our white school shirt who walked through the crowd to the way where our bus was parked in the heavy rain. Not even caring if he was wet. Entering through the gate, he shook his head water dripping from his black hair, water seeping into his wet white shirt and grey pants creating ugly dirt marks on the floor of the bus.
The driver must have said som
"I had always laughed at the idea of love. it was more like God to me, believed to exist because you are told it does. when no one has ever actually felt it, while capable people earned million on creating tales out of it. Being in a family where parents hate each other and barely talk apart from extremely necessary things and watching as your father hits and abuses your mother. love as a concept eludes you."[Jacqueline]Jacqueline's POV:"Good morning Students." Wishing everyone Mrs. Smith, My favorite teacher of our first-subject stepped into our classroom"Good morning Mam." Everyone chorused."Hmm Morning Everyone." Smiling she asked a young boy to step forward. However, As he came into the class, My eyes snapped open with shock."Let's welcome your new classmate Rohan. Rohan, Please introduce yourself."Jacky trembles as she sets her black eyes on Rohan. It occ
"Our inward Conflicts express themselves in our outward disasters. When we want nothing more than to keep them hidden." [Jacqueline]"Writer's pov.""Rohan, I am sorry. It was my fault. I shouldn't have lied to you." Hearing her pleasant and sweet voice made Rohan's heart skip a beat. His lips curved into smugness as he raised a question."But what is your real name sweet cheeks,? Do your classmates know about your hobby of lying to strangers?"Fear hit Jacqueline like a cold shower. She was sure he would create trouble for her out of nothing."I. I believe you can forgive me, Rohan, so tell me what do I have to do to earn your forgiveness?"Rohan grinned victoriously, his gorgeous, eyes shone with a gleam of mischief,"Are you suggesting that you will do whatever I want?"Her grip on h
"Have you ever made a scene, you saw in a movie or read somewhere in your head and then put yourself in it? Have you ever watched yourself from a different person's view going deeper and deeper into the scene, away from you? I hope you can feel my pain by placing yourself in the scene where your mother asked you to pack some food for your Parents. " [Jacqueline]My head throbbed, clenching my fist, I spooned some rice-eating it. But now it felt tasteless to me. I think just because I always wanted to have food with her in the same way she had served me was the mere reason which made it tastier than it was. But her words had completely ruined my appetite. Maybe because food may fade away but feelings don't."Are you okay dear?""Yeah.""Then you didn't answer me?""Thank you for asking, aunty, but my parents are not at home. So it's not required.""Oh Okay. By the way, Do you know Jo
"Real people will always be judged as Rude or arrogant. You can either learn to ignore comments or become fake like the rest of them." [Remo]....Writer's POV:Remo frowned at her answer, it wasn't a big deal to lie. Why was she getting so restless on such a small matter? it didn't make sense to him."I don't think it's a big deal, Jacky. You are overthinking. he won't be that bad."Jacqueline's brows furrowed, Ofcourse it wasn't a big deal for him. He would never have been bullied as to say such things. Again why did she even told him about it?'Ah. stupid woman. Now he will think you're nothing but a dramatic girl.' Her subconscious voice taunted her back and forth and she forgot to reply to him for a few minutes.Waiting for a response Remo sipped the juice he was having earlier. Disappointed at her behavior he texted again."What's wrong?"
Sorrows other than love's longing does this life provide,Comforts other than a lover's union to abide. [Remo]…...His eyes darkened with a sudden emotion as he read her text. It wasn't because he was still affected by it. But because every time he was reminded of it. He will always remember the betrayal. It always hurts like the first time it did."Yeah. I wrote it for my first love.""You loved her too much. Huh. Didn't you?""I did."Seeing the reply getting shorter and shorter Jacky realized she had laid
"Waking up every day to make breakfast feels as hard as sowing vegetables in farms." [Jacky]......The smell of the tea aligned up to my nose. Waking me up from my slumber. As I served it in two large cups. One for me and another one for my sister, I had woke up early today to make breakfast for us while my mom was writhing in pain from the last two hours. She had a stone in her gall bladder. And almost after every two days, she felt pain. And it was also one of the reasons for waking up early. Since I had to call the nearby Uncle from the medical store to give her a shot for controlling it.He had still advised me to ask daddy for an operation. Since it was the only way to cure it. It has been an hour since she slept and I came back to the kitchen to make something for breakfast. But my thoughts were occupied by the boy of the night.I was still stuck to him. His words. His thoughts. His life. 'What had he gone through to
"I seek solace in nature, beneath an enormous sky. Hearing birds chirping and smelling the pleasant smell of soil."...."Yeah. Now I do.""Great." Just when I tried to move forward he held my ponytail. Making me flinch as my head hurt."Now. What's wrong with you?""Nothing. I just like your hair.""Leave my hair. It hurts.""Oh Gosh, You are such a drama queen." He rolled his eyes at me dramatically, leaving my hair but came around my side to stand in front of me. Stopping me from moving forward from the corridor. Just as I tried to sidestep him on one side, he followed my steps. Irritating me. And, that was a wrong move of him, because when I am irritated I do stupid things. Like right after that I did.I glared at him trying my best that my eyes can maybe move him like how Goku in dragon ball zee can make people back off just by lifting his hands. Yet he didn't even flinch. 'Oh, God. Please I don
"You can shrink your real self in the corner of your head, but it will bounce back the moment you will be yourself." [Jacqueline]......"What are you doing Rohan?" I screamed at Rohan for the hundredth time. The last class of attending was already over and almost all students had left for their homes. While I was stuck in a room with him. 'Why?' Because I forgot my diary on the table and when I came back to get it. Someone came from outside and locked the door. That, someone, was Rohan, The asshole. For half an hour I was requesting him to open the door and let me leave. But it seemed either he was deaf or I wasn't speaking. Every time I got to the door, he will drag me back to the bench. Now that I had caught the handle of the gate in a death grip, he had placed himself on the door. I was agitated to the point that I would have kicked him or punched him only if I was able to. But since I have never practiced t
"Life is a series of unfortunate incidents, so don't always wallow in life's unfairness. Instead, do something even if it's little." [Author][Jacqueline]Jacqueline: You can be.Remo: Jacqueline Please, if you don't want to be my friend. Just say so. You don't have to force me to become your brother.Jacqueline: I think you are overreacting. Why can't you be my brother?Remo: Because God already gave me one sister. I don't want more.There was a reason I was calling him brother again and again. It was because I wanted to irritate him. Though our future was still uncertain since I didn't know if I could forget his words or not.Jacqueline: Okay. Fine. Good night.Remo: Good Night.I didn't send another message to him and left our conversation at that. After all, I was a mere time past. Why should I try to be more than that? Switching off the phone, and the lights. I went to sleep.But the noise of my parent's fight didn't let me sleep. I walked down and saw mommy on top of daddy as sh
Dear Readers, In the last few chapters, I made a mistake and Nina and Tina's names were swapped. I apologize for that, please remember wherever you see Tina behaving nicely with Jacqueline, that just means it's her friend Nina, not that bully Tina. Hope you have a good time reading it. If you like the chapter, don't forget to leave a review.Your author,Ifveen"There will be a beautiful time, and then there will be hard times, people, places, and feelings, and your way of dealing with them will change, but what won't change is how you feel. So always stay true to yourself and others." [Jacqueline] Jacqueline:Jacqueline: It's Okay. Please don't do this again. Also, I wanted to ask you what you meant about you talking to me as a time-Pass. Am I a time-pass to you?I sent another text to him, just to clear my misunderstanding or maybe if I was understanding it right.'I mean, who in their right mind would want me?' I rolled my neck and flung my hair to the side. My heart pounded in m
"Forgiving a person, who is not at all apologetic is good for yourself. But giving the same person a chance to hurt you again, is the worst thing you will do to yourself." [Jacqueline]*******[Jacqueline]It's been Four days since I and Remo talked, he didn't send me any messages, nor did I. His words, even though he didn't say them, were still ringing in my ears. It was a feeling I didn't want to feel again. Though I did have thought about his words and concluded that he was just being brutally honest with me. And it wasn't like he said it because he wanted to hurt me, it was me who pushed him to answer me like that. "Hey who are you dreaming about?"Rohan questioned me, with furrowed brows. He had been missing school for a few days. It was a surprise for him to come to school today. I didn't think he would come today. Now that I looked at him, he looked rather haggard. "No one, you tell me where have you been these past days?" I questioned him back. His fingers are drumming on
There was no future of mine with them, my paternal cousins, yet I loved them with all my heart. They were bad most of the time in all of the memories we had. There was this once when the same girl who Remo identified as I used her foot to make me fall from three feet high stairs. I remember it very vividly, I think we were playing run and catch. Where she had to catch one of us, between me and my sister. And since it was her second time as the one to catch someone. She was angry to the point she pushed me down. Of course, the damage wasn't that great. I got wounded on my knees and elbows since the place where I fell was an area of small stones.Mom at that time wasn't depressed. So she raised a question against my paternal aunt and demanded that my cousin Jenny apologize to me. However, the arrogant aunt took it as a threat and made a drama out of nothing. First, she was adamant about how her daughter didn't push me, and I was lying which proved to be a wrong move. Since the people in
Jacqueline: "Well, I thought you don't want to talk to me, since you never replied to my apology."Remo: "What are you talking about? I forgot about it a long time ago."Jacqueline: "Then maybe you could have texted me."Remo: "I assumed that you were busy, so I didn't."Jacqueline: "Oh, okay. I get it."There was a strange pause in my breathing, I did not know why I felt like he didn't miss me. Because if he would have, he would have texted me. Without giving it much thought, I asked him directly."So, Did you miss me?""Nope."His response saddened me to the point I asked myself if I even meant something to him. Or was I just a time pass? 'You are thinking too much Jacqueline, it's just your insecurities playing with you.' My reasonable side gave me a reason that I did feel somewhat acceptable. So instead of telling him how I am feeling. I asked him a single question just to kill my curiosity. Jacqueline: "Why?"Remo: "Well, I was pretty busy."Jacqueline: "Oh. Okay. I understand.
"Don't make one person; Your everything. Instead invest in your goals, dreams." [Jacqueline]********[Jacqueline]Sweat was ticking down my back. The nervousness I felt today was like pressing me to dig a hole in the ground and hide in it. Finally, I heard the title track play out. We were lined up just behind the curtains all dolled up on our stance. Our dance teacher was a complete sucker for this show and so she was instructing us to perform well from the last fifteen minutes. It was a big day for her, and I thought it would be a big day for me as well. After all, this would be the first performance of my life. I never did anything that involved stage.Of course, I had my insecurities about messing it all up but t
"A Bad guy with trust issues, will love you more." [Remo] [Rohan] The day was finally here. Today was the massive annual function day. And I was looking forward to dancing with Jacqueline. After those gruesome practice sessions where she practically pressed my ankle with her weight millions of times before learning the right step. I was her counselor for days and I should not have been thinking about her; there should be rules against that kind of thought. I believe. But I still did. She was stripping in my dreams and gyrating to a dirty song, eliciting emotions even more than I have. Our families would be attending the function, not that mine would be coming but many students were excited for the same reason. The Celebrations were bound to be grand considering the stage was well equipped and beautiful
"When your mental health isn't in the best state. Give yourself a break. And don't feel guilty about it."[Author] ******* Jacqueline: I felt bad for Tina. Like real bad! But I was sure she didn't need my empathy. I looked at her face once more, she looked terrible. Blood, blood, everywhere on her face. I could feel that her bleeding had not stopped despite her friends filling her nose with tissues. Her friends helped her up as they took her away shouting profanities in a much lower tone than I would have expected from them. Unexpectedly Rohan's head popped in front of me blocking my view of her back. I grabbed the corner of the table to balance myself. Hi
"You have to learn to be alone. Learn to do everything individually, people are going to leave you sooner or later anyway." [Jacky]*******[Jacqueline] It's been three days since Remo talked to me. Aside from sending me a two-word text, after my apology "it's okay" there was nothing. He didn't chat with me. Not even for once, he tried even though he was online most of the time. As if he specifically wanted to show me that he was online, he changed his display picture. I scrolled through his pictures like a souvenir, like trophies on the shelf. Watching as one by one his friends, beautiful girls commented on his pictures and he replied to each one of them nicely. I honestly had no idea what I should do. I wanted to talk to him but I didn't want to come out as a bother. I wanted to ask him if he was still angry, but I didn't know I should. 'Did I say something that touched his borderline?' Sometimes it was better for