"I seek solace in nature, beneath an enormous sky. Hearing birds chirping and smelling the pleasant smell of soil."
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"Yeah. Now I do."
"Great." Just when I tried to move forward he held my ponytail. Making me flinch as my head hurt.
"Now. What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing. I just like your hair."
"Leave my hair. It hurts."
"Oh Gosh, You are such a drama queen." He rolled his eyes at me dramatically, leaving my hair but came around my side to stand in front of me. Stopping me from moving forward from the corridor. Just as I tried to sidestep him on one side, he followed my steps. Irritating me. And, that was a wrong move of him, because when I am irritated I do stupid things. Like right after that I did.
I glared at him trying my best that my eyes can maybe move him like how Goku in dragon ball zee can make people back off just by lifting his hands. Yet he didn't even flinch. 'Oh, God. Please I don
"You can shrink your real self in the corner of your head, but it will bounce back the moment you will be yourself." [Jacqueline]......"What are you doing Rohan?" I screamed at Rohan for the hundredth time. The last class of attending was already over and almost all students had left for their homes. While I was stuck in a room with him. 'Why?' Because I forgot my diary on the table and when I came back to get it. Someone came from outside and locked the door. That, someone, was Rohan, The asshole. For half an hour I was requesting him to open the door and let me leave. But it seemed either he was deaf or I wasn't speaking. Every time I got to the door, he will drag me back to the bench. Now that I had caught the handle of the gate in a death grip, he had placed himself on the door. I was agitated to the point that I would have kicked him or punched him only if I was able to. But since I have never practiced t
"Some days, the things you do; don't make you bad. While some days it doesn't!" [Author].....I held my head as I gazed at the mirror in my bathroom. It had been two hours since I came back home after practically killing Rohan with a pen. I felt goosebumps as I recalled how the pen got stuck in his chest. Though I was tempted to go back to him and help him remove it. But I knew it was a bad idea. So I ran and ran till I reached the entrance of the school without looking back. The guards were surprised seeing me, as they yelled at me to leave the premises."What the hell were you doing in the school this late girl? Get out."My breathing was a little faster because of all the running, so it came in short pants as I waited for my heart to calm down keeping my hands on my knees.After calming down, I explained hastily, knowing they will not be able to reconfirm my lie with her. Because she was the most strict
"Be a realist, in every way you find possible. Even in the times, you don't want or need to be." [Jacqueline].....Jacqueline's POV:The fear engulfed me from inside making me breathless.'Who can it be?'As my thoughts wandered, A name flashed in my mind.'Rohan.''Who said things that happen in desperation can be good. The whole scene replayed in my mind in the spotlight.''Oh God, please save me.'My whole body shuddered as the realization dawned upon me.'I'm so done. He will probably kill me.'Closing my eyes, I took deep breaths to calm down when the door of my bedroom opened and a head peeked inside. It was Nikki.Her black eyes instantly connected with mine."Jacky, I made Gajar ka halwa. Would you like some?"I gathered my wits to refuse her. But her hopeful gaze stopped me. Unable to say a word, I nodded at her. Smiling a fake smile.A
"Eyes are the informers of heart. They darken when we are angry, while softens when we are filled with love." [Jacqueline]....Jacqueline's POV:I gripped the straps of my backpack tightly. My whole form trembling in anticipation of what would happen to me today. I shifted in discomfort from one foot to another as a kid of age 6 years glared at me. If you are wondering where I am? I am at my bus stop waiting for my school bus to arrive for the last ten minutes.I could sense my cortisol level increasing with each minute. Cortisol; a stress hormone, our nature's inbuilt alarm system. And it was alarming to me that I needed to calm down. But when does that happen what we want? Almost every time what happens is opposite to what we want.I place my hand on my heart. Realizing that My heartbeat was abnormally high."Di are you okay?"The same 6-year-old kid asked me confusion clear in her eyes
"When you try to save yourself from something. You are going to be more caught up in it." [Jacqueline]....I put up a fake bravado and gathered my courage out. Daring to explain to him."I. Uncle. He and I. It's not like what you are thinking."His hold tightened upon my words. And I almost yelped as he pinched me on the shoulder."She is upset with me. Uncle. That's why she is saying that. Don't mind her.""I." I was trying to say that he is lying. But I stopped when I looked at him from the side and noticed he was already looking at me. He mouthed the words, 'I will kill you. If you didn't shut up.' And I gulped and stopped explaining to him. Even if I did, uncle will probably never believe me. He will think I was just hiding the fact of having a boyfriend.I inhaled.'Probably if he said so, no one will believe you. Have you seen his face, his body? If he is saying that you are his
"All the good girls do is chill and ignore people. While working hard at the same time on their dreams. And there are going to be very few ones who will allow you into their lives. So respect them." [Jacqueline]......[Jacqueline's POV]'He freaking took my first kiss.'Realizing it was her first kiss, I struggled hard from his grip. But he pinched my wrist making me gasp in pain. which he used as an advantage and entangled his tongue with mine. Further Deepening the kiss.'Oh, God! Please help me. What should I do?''1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10.I counted to ten, that he will be done by the time. But when he didn't, I realized I was choking on air. My breathing had stopped while my heart was feeling like it had run over a mile.For what felt like an hour, was only a minute in reality when the kiss ended. And his lips left mine. I felt a
I was back in my room, doing my delayed homework that I needed to complete. After our bad encounter, The rest of the day went smoothly for me without any difficulties and I didn't saw him again too, just a few rude words here and there from some of my bullies nothing worse.'Your first kiss is stolen. What could be worse than it?'My stupid brain reminded me and I shook my head to clear my thoughts. Crying over things that I have no control over will do me nothing good. It will only increase my problems.Inhaling a breath, I opened my phone to distract my mind. Wanting to see if Remo did text me again or not."Hey""Are you worried about me Jacky?" I read and reread his text multiple times.'Why? I didn't even know myself.Scrolling down I saw his other text."Riots have occurred after the last day we talked and the internet was shut down for a few days here, so I couldn't c
"God knows your sorrows, your insecurities, your doubts, your fears, your goodness. Return to him. He will heal you. For he is the best healer." [Jacqueline].....[Jacqueline's Pov]I found myself staring at the structure of the heart that our teacher had drawn on the blackboard. The first thing I noticed was it was neat. She had done an awesome job drawing it. That I don't think will be able to draw. It was not my zone. We were in the first lecture of our classes for the day. And Mrs. Neha was trying to explain about the pumping organ Heart. I shifted in discomfort on the wooden chair I was sitting on. It was uncomfortable and I can even bet that no one would be comfortable sitting over it. Though the amount of fat I had on my buttocks kind of feel like a cushion to me. But when you are sitting on it for the last 40 minutes without moving an inch, even it will fail you.A tingling sensation m
"Life is a series of unfortunate incidents, so don't always wallow in life's unfairness. Instead, do something even if it's little." [Author][Jacqueline]Jacqueline: You can be.Remo: Jacqueline Please, if you don't want to be my friend. Just say so. You don't have to force me to become your brother.Jacqueline: I think you are overreacting. Why can't you be my brother?Remo: Because God already gave me one sister. I don't want more.There was a reason I was calling him brother again and again. It was because I wanted to irritate him. Though our future was still uncertain since I didn't know if I could forget his words or not.Jacqueline: Okay. Fine. Good night.Remo: Good Night.I didn't send another message to him and left our conversation at that. After all, I was a mere time past. Why should I try to be more than that? Switching off the phone, and the lights. I went to sleep.But the noise of my parent's fight didn't let me sleep. I walked down and saw mommy on top of daddy as sh
Dear Readers, In the last few chapters, I made a mistake and Nina and Tina's names were swapped. I apologize for that, please remember wherever you see Tina behaving nicely with Jacqueline, that just means it's her friend Nina, not that bully Tina. Hope you have a good time reading it. If you like the chapter, don't forget to leave a review.Your author,Ifveen"There will be a beautiful time, and then there will be hard times, people, places, and feelings, and your way of dealing with them will change, but what won't change is how you feel. So always stay true to yourself and others." [Jacqueline] Jacqueline:Jacqueline: It's Okay. Please don't do this again. Also, I wanted to ask you what you meant about you talking to me as a time-Pass. Am I a time-pass to you?I sent another text to him, just to clear my misunderstanding or maybe if I was understanding it right.'I mean, who in their right mind would want me?' I rolled my neck and flung my hair to the side. My heart pounded in m
"Forgiving a person, who is not at all apologetic is good for yourself. But giving the same person a chance to hurt you again, is the worst thing you will do to yourself." [Jacqueline]*******[Jacqueline]It's been Four days since I and Remo talked, he didn't send me any messages, nor did I. His words, even though he didn't say them, were still ringing in my ears. It was a feeling I didn't want to feel again. Though I did have thought about his words and concluded that he was just being brutally honest with me. And it wasn't like he said it because he wanted to hurt me, it was me who pushed him to answer me like that. "Hey who are you dreaming about?"Rohan questioned me, with furrowed brows. He had been missing school for a few days. It was a surprise for him to come to school today. I didn't think he would come today. Now that I looked at him, he looked rather haggard. "No one, you tell me where have you been these past days?" I questioned him back. His fingers are drumming on
There was no future of mine with them, my paternal cousins, yet I loved them with all my heart. They were bad most of the time in all of the memories we had. There was this once when the same girl who Remo identified as I used her foot to make me fall from three feet high stairs. I remember it very vividly, I think we were playing run and catch. Where she had to catch one of us, between me and my sister. And since it was her second time as the one to catch someone. She was angry to the point she pushed me down. Of course, the damage wasn't that great. I got wounded on my knees and elbows since the place where I fell was an area of small stones.Mom at that time wasn't depressed. So she raised a question against my paternal aunt and demanded that my cousin Jenny apologize to me. However, the arrogant aunt took it as a threat and made a drama out of nothing. First, she was adamant about how her daughter didn't push me, and I was lying which proved to be a wrong move. Since the people in
Jacqueline: "Well, I thought you don't want to talk to me, since you never replied to my apology."Remo: "What are you talking about? I forgot about it a long time ago."Jacqueline: "Then maybe you could have texted me."Remo: "I assumed that you were busy, so I didn't."Jacqueline: "Oh, okay. I get it."There was a strange pause in my breathing, I did not know why I felt like he didn't miss me. Because if he would have, he would have texted me. Without giving it much thought, I asked him directly."So, Did you miss me?""Nope."His response saddened me to the point I asked myself if I even meant something to him. Or was I just a time pass? 'You are thinking too much Jacqueline, it's just your insecurities playing with you.' My reasonable side gave me a reason that I did feel somewhat acceptable. So instead of telling him how I am feeling. I asked him a single question just to kill my curiosity. Jacqueline: "Why?"Remo: "Well, I was pretty busy."Jacqueline: "Oh. Okay. I understand.
"Don't make one person; Your everything. Instead invest in your goals, dreams." [Jacqueline]********[Jacqueline]Sweat was ticking down my back. The nervousness I felt today was like pressing me to dig a hole in the ground and hide in it. Finally, I heard the title track play out. We were lined up just behind the curtains all dolled up on our stance. Our dance teacher was a complete sucker for this show and so she was instructing us to perform well from the last fifteen minutes. It was a big day for her, and I thought it would be a big day for me as well. After all, this would be the first performance of my life. I never did anything that involved stage.Of course, I had my insecurities about messing it all up but t
"A Bad guy with trust issues, will love you more." [Remo] [Rohan] The day was finally here. Today was the massive annual function day. And I was looking forward to dancing with Jacqueline. After those gruesome practice sessions where she practically pressed my ankle with her weight millions of times before learning the right step. I was her counselor for days and I should not have been thinking about her; there should be rules against that kind of thought. I believe. But I still did. She was stripping in my dreams and gyrating to a dirty song, eliciting emotions even more than I have. Our families would be attending the function, not that mine would be coming but many students were excited for the same reason. The Celebrations were bound to be grand considering the stage was well equipped and beautiful
"When your mental health isn't in the best state. Give yourself a break. And don't feel guilty about it."[Author] ******* Jacqueline: I felt bad for Tina. Like real bad! But I was sure she didn't need my empathy. I looked at her face once more, she looked terrible. Blood, blood, everywhere on her face. I could feel that her bleeding had not stopped despite her friends filling her nose with tissues. Her friends helped her up as they took her away shouting profanities in a much lower tone than I would have expected from them. Unexpectedly Rohan's head popped in front of me blocking my view of her back. I grabbed the corner of the table to balance myself. Hi
"You have to learn to be alone. Learn to do everything individually, people are going to leave you sooner or later anyway." [Jacky]*******[Jacqueline] It's been three days since Remo talked to me. Aside from sending me a two-word text, after my apology "it's okay" there was nothing. He didn't chat with me. Not even for once, he tried even though he was online most of the time. As if he specifically wanted to show me that he was online, he changed his display picture. I scrolled through his pictures like a souvenir, like trophies on the shelf. Watching as one by one his friends, beautiful girls commented on his pictures and he replied to each one of them nicely. I honestly had no idea what I should do. I wanted to talk to him but I didn't want to come out as a bother. I wanted to ask him if he was still angry, but I didn't know I should. 'Did I say something that touched his borderline?' Sometimes it was better for