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38. Lying To Myself
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2024-10-29 19:42:56ALEJANDRO
I don’t remember it. All I remember is Darien screaming at me to get a grip. I came to, only to realise the entire hallway was fucking destroyed. Blood was fucking everywhere and Rayhan was a bloody mess. I won't lie, I felt fucking guilty seeing him like that, but the fucker kept pushing me. This is why I prefer to be alone. No one around me to piss me off, no one to risk hurting.
I told you it was all I could fucking do: inflict pain, cause pain. It’s what I was good at…
I stormed upstairs, not caring about anything as they rushed Rayhan to the hospital.
I didn’t care if Rafael flipped or not. Maybe I just wanted to hear it from him, rather than just sense it and see it in his eyes. I wanted him to scream that I was a fucking monster, just like everyone else thinks I am.
Was that the reason I kept lashing out at the fucking kid? Got to admit he was pretty good… I looked at the marks that covered my entire torso. Fucker…
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