(Dmitri’s Thoughts) “I am dreaming again, I know I am,” I say as I watch myself from this very incident I wish to forget, “This is my worst nightmare.” Almost a decade ago, one particular incident changed not only my life but the life of a young woman who untimely lost her parents because of my recklessness. I clearly remembered what happened that night. The scene in my dream changes and it brought me back to the night of the accident. I was out hanging with my friends, drinking, partying, clubbing, doing things that I thought would make me happy. Not until I received a call that night. I went out of the bar only to hear my sister’s sobbing voice, “Dee, she’s gone! Mom’s really gone for good!” “Hello, Heathe, what the hell are you talking about?” I scold her with my drunken voice. “Unsere eigene Mutter hat uns verlassen,” after repeating what she said for the third time, I finally understood. “Maybe she went out for a while. Or probably with her friends, or just on a vacat
(Dmitri’s Thoughts) Finally, I woke up from that nightmare in the middle of the night. I thought I could let go of the past after lots of sessions with a shrink, and yet, here I am, still having nightmares. I went to the kitchen and reached for my medicine in the secret storage that only I know. Once in a while, I still meet with my shrink in Germany. I drink water and stare at the moonlight.I sigh when flashes of scenes still appear in my mind. I rub my temples. Yes, I lied, so that no one would ask me what happened. And I was right, no one reminded me of what happened, no one even dared to ask. That’s how I lived my life for the past decade, full of secrets, full of lies. And this has something to do with Avery, this is how our ill-fated relationship started. People say everything is a coincidence. They strongly believe that everything is fated. Every circumstance happens for a reason, and it depends on how we act according to what life brings us. But I am the living testimon
(Dmitri’s Thoughts)When I said that nothing was a coincidence for us, it was true. I followed her around like a stalker, and I knew her every move. So when she and Seid were having some problems in their relationship, I was a bit happy about it. The only thing I didn’t like about was the resort she came up with. Me, being a billionaire, I admit that I love women, and rich guys, like me, sometimes love doing crazy stuff. That’s why my closest friends and I created the sex online community SEXONITE.“I was one of the founders of SEXONITE,” and seeing her name pop out of the system somehow aroused my heart. I immediately called the group to make sure that I, alone, will own Avery. I asked them to block all the results that would come out of Avery’s reference but they said it would be too impossible to happen. “In order to do that, we would have to recreate all the algorithms,” Damien said. “I don’t care, just do it!” I scold him. But the other two said, “No can do, Mr. Sullivan. W
(Avery's Thoughts)We agreed to meet at the apartment that I just sold. Well, the contract is yet to be finalized so I just needed to put up with his tricks for the last time.To be honest, I actually didn't even want this day to come. Yet, I need to sell the apartment to him since I needed the money to buy a house in France. Another thing is, I don't have the money to pay him three-folds.I bite my lips out of frustration every time I remembered how he tricked us. He is as sly as a fox. No wonder, he is able to expand their domain in terms of hotels and accommodation.How dare he used the same tactics with me. I will show him what I am capable of. I will drain him with his money, and I will ask for renegotiation.Then I take a shower and pick up a nice seductive dress to tease him and lead him to give me what I want.Before I finish, my phone rings, and I see Jeff's name flashing on the screen."Oh my goodness!" I utter. I totally forgot about telling him. Should I mention it or not?
(Avery’s Thoughts)As soon as we enter the apartment I know something’s wrong. His mood changes. He goes straight to the living room, and he adjusts his clothes. “Is he hot? He is covered in sweat,” I tell myself. I look at him as I close the door behind me and put the keycard on the kitchen counter. I look at him loosening up his clothes, looking irritable and uncomfortable. Suddenly, what Greta said a while ago pops up in my mind. Is it really true? Did he really find me? Just as Peach said. Then, why didn’t he approach me? Did I make a wrong decision?Now, I am so confused. I follow his every move with my eyes, and as soon as my right foot steps on the carpet in the living room, our eyes meet. I see his green eyes, his alluring eyes, only looking at me. And his gaze, his focused gaze melts me away, it melts all the hatred and the confusion away. It only gives me warmth and the desire, the longing to be touched by him once again. I bite my lips and I c-can’t stop myself from lo
(Dmitri’s Thoughts)Her phone has been buzzing like crazy since last midnight. At first, I tried to ignore it, but since it has been four hours now, I am awakened by it, and I got a glimpse of two names flashing on the screen. “Seid, her martyr ex-boyfriend, and Jeff, her clueless future husband,” I click my tongue. I never thought of myself being in a relationship like this. Usually, I am the one who is being chased by others, but now, I am the one chasing her, but it doesn’t matter. Avery is special, and I love her. I look at her sleeping soundly next to me, “And if this is the only way of keeping her close to me, I don’t give a damn. As long as I am seeing her, as long as she’s happy with me, I won’t let her go.”The phone rings again, and I thought it might be something important, I sigh and check the time, it is still five in the morning, “What the hell does he want? Since when did Jeff become this obsessed and frantic?” I thought myself. So I gently wake her up with my low
(Avery’s Thoughts)After I accepted his offer last week, we’ve been secretly going out together, but of course not here in this city, but in other states, in their hotels, or sometimes even outside the country. But if I want to be in the city at times, our usual hangout sex place is my apartment. We make sure to keep a low profile and only hire trustworthy people who're going with us together on our tips. Since we don’t want to end up in yet another sex scandal. Yes, we are sex buddies, and I have never been so happy, fulfilled, and satisfied with my sex life. I feel like I am on cloud nine every time we have sex, and to be honest, I never think of Jeff when I am with Dmitri. “Am I a slut? A cheater? A whore? A cunt?” Sometimes I ask myself these questions. And the usual answer I’ll get would be, “Maybe, but do I need to care about that? I just want him. Nothing more, nothing less,” I boldly confess. Still, I never forget my obligation to Jeff as his girlfriend and fiancee, just
(Avery’s Thoughts)The long-hour flight from Seattle is finally over. Thanks to this private jet the travel time cut down to only a 16-hour flight instead of a day and 6-hour flight with 2 stopovers. This is one perk of knowing a billionaire, the travel time shortens.It is morning time when we reach Macau International Airport. The sun has already reached its peak, so its rays are killing me. It is a good thing that I prepared my sunglasses beforehand. As I wear it, two strong arms wrap around my waist from behind, “Aren’t you going down the plane?” says the man with a deep cold voice when I block the jet’s door. I turn around and we begin kissing, not minding the staff in and out of the jet. After a long torrid kiss, he holds my hand and we step down using the retractable staircase of the jet. Once our feet land on the airport ground, I notice the black sedan surrounding us, and they are accompanied by bulged muscular men. I cling to Dmitri’s arm and ask him, “Who are these sca
(Avery’s Thoughts) (Two Years After The Divorce)I am standing backstage at one of the famous morning talk shows here in NY.I don’t know why I feel so nervous, well, it is my first TV appearance nationwide.Then I look at the mirror and fix myself, “Well, I am not yet ready to reveal my personality so I think of a way to hide my identity, and that is to use a pen name and a sophisticated mask, like the ones you wear in a masquerade ball.”A staff finally reaches out to me and says, “Miss Sparks, in a minute they are going to call you on stage. And your cue is the dimming light, okay?”“Uh-huh,” I hesitantly answer.But she is there to boost and cheer me up, “Take a deep breath, relax, and remember, you are good, and you definitely got this!”The sound from the crowd suddenly dies down and the voice of the host is heard. I look up at their gigantic spotlight and wait for the cue.I take a deep breath and say to myself, “You got this, Avery. You got this!”“Let us all welcome with a ro
(Avery’s Thoughts) “Dear Avery - My Loyal Wife, When you came into my life and agreed to be my wife, that was the best day of my life. That day, on our sudden wedding day, I promised that I would cherish you more than anyone else.I swore to protect the smile on your face, a smile so genuine when I first met you at that hotel five years ago. Avery, I know you’ve been trying so hard, and you never once failed to fulfill your duty as my loving wife, even if it means putting your heart aside. You’ve been so good to me, and you’ve been faithful to me like you promised me. But sometimes kindness and compassion aren’t enough when love is forced. Eventually, the true feelings will immerse.With so much regret, I’ve seen you fell right in front of my eyes. I’ve witnessed how your bright spark faded when you married me. I’ve become the reason why you lost yourself.I let it happen. And I can’t forgive myself for that ever again. You were forced to love me. I forced you to love me. And
(Avery’s Thoughts)“Babe, did it come out now?” Jeff yells behind the door. While I am damn nervous to even peek at it. “It is only a minute, it needs another minute, babe. Please, don’t stress me out,” I yell back at him. “I’m sorry. I just feel so excited about the news. I can’t wait to tell mom and dad about our baby!” he says exhilaratingly. “Don’t jinx it!” I scream angrily. “Okay, okay, I’ll wait here patiently,” answers Jeff. I am here sitting on the bathroom floor, waiting for the result to come out from the pregnancy test kit. It has been almost three years since we got married and there was never a time that we didn’t try having a baby. But until now, there’s still nothing. I hug my knees and start crying silently, “What if it fails again? Am I infertile?” I ask myself. The kit finally ticks and now I have to face the truth. God knows we’ve been trying so hard that’s why I even ask Kendra to take full charge of the business for now. I stop all my physical activities
(Avery’s Thoughts) Our El Nido, Palawan experience was splendid. And of course, I still can’t believe it. I came there single, “And now, I am officially Avery Tales. I am now married,” I murmur as I stare at both my and his wedding ring while he’s holding my hand in his sleep. It’s been a week since we came back here to America. Of course, the honeymoon stage has just begun and Jeff wants to make love to me almost every time. And me, being a good wife, always give him what he wants. Although, right now, I think I am still a little swollen down there. I go to the bathroom to clean myself up and wash my face as I promised Kendra I’ll be meeting her so we can talk about our new business venture. After brushing my teeth, I wake Jeff up, “Hey, babe. Didn’t you say you have an interview at Kirkland’s Best?”He groans and instead of getting up, he pulls me into the bed and showers me with morning kisses. I giggle as his kisses tickle me, “Babe, stop it. We have a lot of things to do tod
(Avery's Thoughts)Even though the wedding is sudden, Jeff managed to pull it off, and he has planned it all along. So after the wedding ceremony, we stayed for a little bit, I got to finally meet his parents. And for the longest of times, I once again felt the warm embrace of a parent. It made me cry because I knew that I am no longer alone, and no longer an orphan. Because now that we are married, his parents became my parents, too. And I can’t deny, my heart is full. After that, we stayed to talk to our guests for some time, and then we ate and enjoy the party, too. And now I am here standing on the balcony staring at the moonlight, while Jeff is still cleaning. I don’t know why. It isn’t the first time we are going to have sex, but for some reason, now that we are married, there’s this tension inside me, a feeling of hesitation, a feeling that I am officially owned by him. And unexplainably, I feel afraid. And now, my heart almost stops as I hear the gushing of the water fina
(Avery’s Thoughts) Later this evening, all four of us will meet Jeff’s parents. And because of it, I am so dead worried and I can’t get this nervousness out of my system. So while Jeff is away meeting his parents ahead of time, I rush downstairs and go to our neighboring villa. I knock ceaselessly, but Kendra and Nik aren’t coming out. I move back to look up, and I see that the light is on, it means they are there, so I continue to rampage on their door. “Kendra, Kendra,” I knock nonstop, “Open up, please!” I scream a little loud. Then after five minutes of almost breaking their door down, someone finally opens the door for me. “Thank God you finally come out, what took you so l–” I am about to complain but when I see her glaring at me with her hair a little bit frizzy and wrap in a blanket, I know that I should be more careful with my next words. Then later on Nik comes down with a little sweat on his forehead. “Uh-oh, definitely bad timing, Avery,” I say to myself. Then Kend
(Avery’s Thoughts) “Hey, we are going to be late for our flight!” I yell when I notice Kendra still struggling with how to put all her stuff in one big luggage. “Wait up! This stupid luggage just won’t listen to me!” she frustratedly yells back at me. Kendra is not a patient and she hates dealing with this kind of stuff. So I go to her room to check up on her. And there I see her leg wrestling with her luggage just so she can close it up. “Stupid-little-luggage!” she yells and kicks before she pounds it hard in the end. And then she sits beside it looking at me with so much energy wasted. “Help me out, A?” she begs. I smile at her and then gently hit her on her forehead. “That’s why I’ve been telling you to pack a week ago,” I nag at her a little and she sticks her tongue out for a moment. “Hmm, let’s see what unnecessary things you put in here,” I tease her. Then I begin to take out some clothes and things she can’t wear to our destination. “Nope!” “–But I need it.” “–It’
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Then a slight touch on my shoulder and a breathy apology are enough to get hold of the situation, “I am sorry, Kendra. Let me fix this,” is all he says. And even without looking, I know this one is definitely Dmitri’s voice since it triggers the hatred hidden deep within my bones.And as he passed by me, he steps up and grabs the arms of that tallest guy, “Let go, Luke, please,” he calmly says.Then the man who fell suddenly stands up continuing his tantrums like a child, “Why are you siding with them, Dee? He punches me first, you should get mad at that bitchy Heather’s husband” then scowls at Dmitri. But Dmitri is true to his words for the first time in his fucking life, he is trying to fix the situation. He glares at him and Luke, “I said Let go, Luke. Don’t make me say it for the third time, and you, I told you to be more careful with your words, this is my city, they know me here as a businessman, you should have thought of me more before creating a scene. T
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Avery finally got discharged from the hospital and in the meantime, I invite them over to stay in my apartment instead of wasting all their money paying for a hotel room. I have two more spare rooms in my apartment so I guess it is fine. Kervin is still here, so they will look after him while I go out with Nik and enjoy our anniversary. I am about to finish dolling up when A enters my room. “Hey there, gorgeous,” she says while leaning on the side of the door. I am currently wearing my earrings when my side zipper comes undone. So she goes to me and says, “Here, I got this,” she says and helps me out. I can’t stop smiling. I am just happy to know she’s here. I am happy we get to do this again. I hear the zip sound finishes, “Okay, you are good to go, sexy K. Are you going to bring the house down tonight with your fiery red velvet bodycon dress?” she pokes my side. “Oh god, no. We will just eat and then go home since that bitchy wife already knew our annivers