I run for hours and hours, only stopping when I'm incredibly tired and hungry. I don't know where I am now, but I take the time to eat in the woods until I'm satisfied and then go back. I think I absolutely overdid it this time. By the time I get back to the house it's been hours and the muscles in my legs are swollen. I carefully enter the house, but obviously Clara and Andy are both already asleep. I decide to take a shower in the full bathroom upstairs and go out naked to our room, but Clara is not there. Immediately my heart starts pumping hard. The bed is made, so she hasn't been here at all. I go straight out to Andrew's room. I walk over to his body on the bed and start moving him until he moans and pushes my hand away. "What do you want?" he moans, eyes puffy and hair wild, "Let me sleep." "Where's Clara?" "How should I know? Sleeping?" he asks, incredibly annoyed and raising a hand to carve his eyes, "She's not in her bed....ew! Why are you naked?" "She’s not the
"You're seriously unhinged," I push his hands away and try to move, but he won't let me do it, "I don't understand why I should apologize." "For sleeping in another bed last night, for starters. For spending unnecessary money on me. And more importantly, for being a pain in my ass!" He spouts that nonsense in my face and now takes advantage of my bewilderment to keep undressing me until I'm only in my panties. Once he has me like this, he grabs my face in his hands and pulls our foreheads together, "I have a right to get upset sometimes, okay? You can't act like I'm just your boy toy and I have to accept everything you do without complaint. We're a couple, aren't we? You have to ask me before you do things like that, I'm not just another ornament in your house. I don't know if Daniel just let you dress him like a doll to keep you happy, but I don't like it." "I was doing something nice for you, you should say thank you even if you don't mean it," I blurt out, though I understand wh
We go down to the kitchen together after getting dressed for the day. Rodrick finally accepted that I don't plan to return anything I bought and today he decided to wear sports clothes because he will spend all day fixing up a cabin. I decided to wear a short sundress and sandals because I plan to go out with my mother later for lunch. When we get to the kitchen, we see Andrew. He’s already sitting down, eating cereal and giving us a curious look. "Oh, you’re happy again," he comments as we get closer to him, "That's good. The tension was killing me." "It's all good now, but why are you eating that?" I complain, reaching over to take the bowl from him before he tries to keep eating that and then leave the house with only that in his stomach, "It's not enough, let me cook you something else." "We fucked our problems away, if you must know," Rodrick shares, causing Andrew to groan out loud in disgust. Rodrick laughs at his brother before reaching over to scent his hai
{ Rodrick } Clara looks incredibly gorgeous when she comes down the stairs once she's ready for our date. The sight of her makes my heart race like crazy and my hands start sweating like when I was little and first started liking girls. She's wearing extra high heels and a short dress, her hair is curled and her makeup extra heavy. She looks like a superstar, although I have to admit I like her better when she's just woken up, when her eyes are puffy and her hair is a mess all over, but I have enough brains to know that's something I should keep to myself. I walk over to her and take her face in my hands with the intention of kissing her, but Clara pushes me aside. "No. I don't want you to ruin my makeup. We can kiss when we get back home," she says with a condescending smile before patting my chest a couple of times. She grabs my hand before I can express how stupid that is and pulls me towards the door, "Bye, Andy. Order some dinner, okay? Don't go to bed without eating."
{ Clara } Olivia has been out of it the whole night. Her eyes are glazed over and she hasn't been talking at all, she only has eyes for Daniel and Laurie, as if she is in her own little world where no one exists but her family. It’s actually cute.But Daniel on the other hand is being himself all the way through and trying to be the perfect groom, talking to the guests throughout the party. The only time he relaxes is at his first dance. It's beautiful to watch, to be honest. The way Daniel holds my sister and smiles at her with all the love in the world is just magical. And when Laurie runs up to them and dances with his parents it makes everyone's heart melt. "Hey, you don't have to keep catering to everyone, you know," I tell Daniel when I end up next to him at the bar, "That's what my parents are for." "It's expected of me," he replies after taking a swig from his liquor glass and looking at me with a smile. The complete bliss on his face makes me feel a mixture of good an
When the ceremony is over and Oli and Daniel are on their way to their honeymoon, we go back to my parents' house to eat, but before the food is ready I approach my father. "Hello there, sir," I greet, coming to his side in the backyard as he watches his grandchildren playing. "Hello there, little flower," he greets, immediately putting his arm around me to hug me against him, "How are you?" "I'm perfect, but I have a little question for you. Can we go somewhere private to talk?" "Of course, let's go," he agrees and directs me to the guest room beside the stairs, "What's up, baby? What do you want to talk about?" "Well, I want to talk about Rodrick's community service... What's that about? I would think it's normal, but then I remembered Anthony's community service. He had to build the whole kindergarten single-handedly. And then clean it for four months.” "Anthony stole money from the school and tried to scam people,” he reminds me, “All punishments are personal, they’re supp
I walk away from Rodrick as he finishes cooking so as not to make things worse for him and I go sit in the living room next to Carolina, who gives me a knowing look when I approach because she can imagine I'm a little nervous about the subject. She knows everything I went through with Daniel, she knows he never had a rut while we were married, but luckily she doesn't say anything about it. I try to calm my nerves by diverting my attention to my niece, resting on the floor around her toys. I pick her up and throw her up to the air a couple of times, making her squeal with excitement. Her baby laugh is the most beautiful sound ever.Looking at Hannah is always a little bittersweet, even more so than looking at Alex and Rio, because I always wanted a daughter more than anything else. And because Carolina and I look so much alike, I feel like Hannah looks exactly like me, like a daughter of mine would look. And that hurts, but at the same time I'm grateful to have her in my life, even
Under the eyes of my alpha, I am forced to obey and there is no choice but to do as he asks. I have never done anything like this and at first I start to feel insecure as I lift up my shirt, but when I pull down my pants and am left in just my underwear, Rodrick's body stops looking relaxed on the bed. He becomes tense and his eyes get even heavier, as if he wants to come get me. That gives me the confidence boost I needed to get rid of the stupid nervousness that took over me since I heard the word 'rut'. I have nothing to be shy about with Rodrick, this man is crazy about me. Or just crazy in general. "Do you want me to keep going?" I ask just to play with him, but Rodrick is not in a playful mood and just gives me a warning look that makes me laugh, "What? This was your idea!" "I didn't think it was going to be so annoying and that you were going to move so slowly," he complains, "Come on!" "God, so demanding," I mutter and move a hand behind my back to unclasp my bra and l
I really don't know what happens after I get the news. I'm in complete shock. Alessandro keeps touching me all the time and everyone tries to strike up conversations with me, not realizing that I'm not really paying attention because I’m lost in my own mind, trying to deal with my overexcited wolf. A couple of hours later we say goodbye to everyone and it's finally time to go home. I feel like there's something pushing on my shoulders until I manage to get into Alessandro's room (our room?) and I'm able to lie down on the bed. "What's wrong, baby?" asks Alessandro, sitting down next to me on the bed, "Are you thinking about the pregnancy?""I'm just thinking about everything. I feel like I woke up in another dimension, I mean... I was asleep for a whole week and now everything is different. I don't know how to feel yet," I honestly admit. Alessandro nods and looks at me with understanding in his eyes."I can imagine how hard it must be. Come here," he says, but he doesn't even wait
{ Andrew } I have no idea what happened after I decided to let my wolf out for a while, but when I return to my body, I'm naked and next to Alessandro in a bed. My body feels freshly fucked and that makes my face turn hot. I don't freak out because it's obvious that Alessandro is the culprit, but I'm pretty confused about at what point exactly that happened. "Hey, Kitten, you woke up," Alessandro says next to me, putting a hand on my face, "It's you again, baby. How are you feeling? Your wolf's been out all week." "What?!" I exclaim and sit up in bed in absolute shock, "What do you mean all week? Was I on heat again?" I was only supposed to log out for a little while. A little while, meaning an hour or two while my sadness subsided. Not a whole damn week of my life, what the hell? "You weren't in heat, you just decided to give control to him," he explains, looking at me with so much love it leaves me even more confused than before, "Some things have happened, you want to kno
I don't know how to react to this. I’m upset and relieved at the same time, in equal amounts. All I can do is look down into the most beautiful, innocent eyes I've ever seen in my entire life... even if that innocence is a lie, at least at this moment. "Did you get yourself wet on purpose to come hide here and make me think you were with another alpha?" I ask, still trying to make sense of what's going on before any reaction. "No, no," he answers immediately, looking a tiny bit unsure for the first time, "I was just flirting with that alpha on purpose, I wanted you to go stop him or at least... I don't know, make you look upset, but every time I turned to look at you you were focused on something else. I wasn't planning on the other guy getting me wet or that alpha wanting to bring me here, I just went with the flow to see if you cared enough. But, five minutes? Do you know everything that could happen in five minutes?" This little manipulator. "I don't like this, Andrew. These
I get out of the car after saying that, managing to keep my tears under control because now I'm more angry than sad. I know I have no right to be because it's all my fault, but that doesn't help to control my emotions. I walk inside the house and curse internally when I see the whole family here. Frank, Dalia, Lucinda, Robbie, Carolina, Daniel, Olivia, Rosie, Carolina, Harry and the kids. The only one missing is my brother. I can't believe I was so upset that I didn't even pay attention to all their cars outside. They all look at me with intrigue when I walk in smelling like pure misery, probably. "Hey, how did it go?" asks Clara as soon as she sees me. And since she's the closest thing to my brother, I walk over to her to hug her, "Oh, no. What happened?" "Nothing, everything went fine," I lie because I don't want to be the cry baby of the family anymore, "I just want a hug." ➿➿➿➿ This is the first time I've ever seen my brother so concerned about his appearance. He checks
{ Andrew } Nobody asks me anything about how I feel anymore, not even my brother. It's obvious that I'm not well and it's obvious that I have issues, but I still try to act normal and carry on like I used to when Alessandro didn't exist in my life. I've been living with my brother and Clara again and I spend all day cooped up at home at my new job babysitting my nephew or reading in my spare time, which is still as fun as before, except I'm doing it to escape again and that's not so good. I need to remind myself of the good things in my life again. Like this roof over my head, my big new family and my lovely nephew. "Does that taste good, Phoenix?" I ask my nephew as I feed him and he just bangs his little fists on his table, as if demanding that I give him more food. As soon as I bring the spoon close to his mouth he grabs it in his hand and steals it from me to bring it to his mouth frantically as if he's starving, "I guess that's a yes. God, pup, that's why your cheeks are so
{ Andrew } [ 18 years old ] My wolf was right. I am an omega. I look in the mirror and try to find differences in my body like curves or something, but I'm still as skinny as ever. The only change is the way my wolf feels, like an omega. It's nothing new, he’s always had the idea that we are. But today he knows for sure. And I'm filled with excitement, until it's time to leave my room. Today is Saturday, Rodrick should be at work right now. My dad could be anywhere, working, visiting one of his siblings or just hunting in the woods... but today is the anniversary of my mother's death. My dad is here. It's only nine in the morning but from the amount of bottles around him I know he's already drunk. He looks at me with much more hatred and contempt than usual, although I'm used to it. His hatred for me is always worse this day. I killed the love of his life, after all. Except this time when I approach instead of starting to yell things at me, his brow furrows in confusion an
"I'll leave," I say and turn around to do so, before this gets a thousand times worse. "What?" Alessandro spits and follows me as I walk to the stairs to go to the guest room. My heart is in my throat as he follows me, I feel stalked in the worst possible way. I start to think: what the fuck am I going to do if he seriously hits me? My father was just a beta, a short man without that much strength and even his beatings hurt and left me unable to go to school for a day or two. How would it feel if a strong alpha hurt me? I would probably just pass out from the pain. "Andrew, stop it right now. Why are you acting like this? Look at me!" he roars just before I can get to the guest room and it scares me even more because his command makes me actually stop and turn to look at him. And then I remember that he has alpha power, he can subdue me and force me to do whatever he wants. But instead of grabbing me and hitting me, Alessandro takes a big breath and raises his hands in surren
Alessandro was being serious, surprisingly. Instead of going to work, he drives home and carries me bridal style until we're inside his room. "I missed you so much last night," he says against my lips once I’m standing on my own before kissing me and not giving me a chance to tell him I missed him too. Alessandro kisses me like he needs me to live, touching as much of my body as he can and ripping off Clara's pajamas before pulling away from me to start undressing himself. "Wait," I stop him, "Can I do that?" "Undress me?" He asks and I nod. Alessandro lets out a laugh but nods and suddenly I have another one of my fantasies coming alive. I've always wanted to do this, to have this man perfectly groomed in front of me and be able to undress him bit by bit, making him all messy and wild. It's one of the things I fantasize about every day. Alessandro has a smile on his face as he waits for whatever it is I'm going to do and his scent smells of complete bliss. That gives me the con
I walk into the therapist's office nervously, but she manages to make the conversation casual at first until I start to loosen up and then I can tell her why I'm here. I blurt out all about the wall in my head and my abusive father and how he would do stuff to me. "What ‘stuff’ did he do, Andy?" she asks with a sweet smile that makes me feel good, safe. So I tell her and thankfully her face doesn't change much when I talk about the beatings he gave me since I started walking. Or how he started forcing raw meat on me when I turned twelve until I was fourteen when I was finally able to shift. And then how that was another problem because I was too small, too weak. And then it was another problem because I presented as omega and he didn't like that one bit. "And how do you feel about being an omega?" She asks when I'm done talking. I sit there thinking for a bit. "Before my presentation I was very excited. I always wanted to be an omega... until I actually was and my dad ruined all t