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Her Bitter Rescue Out of It
{ Andrew } The encounter with Alessandro ruins the rest of my night completely. As soon as he leaves with his date sweetly holding hands, I have a bunch of people around me wondering what the hell just happened, but I can't answer because I'm just as lost as they are. "Hey! Stop!" growls Frank from his spot almost ten meters away from us. Everyone immediately stops, "Andrew, come here." Oh, no. Oh, no. Am I in trouble? I walk away from everyone, but Olivia follows me until I get to where her father is, on his sides are Dalia and Lucinda. "Olivia, no one called you," Frank says to his daughter with a raised eyebrow, "Go somewhere else." "This is a free fair, I can go wherever I want. And besides, I'm just coming in search of my mate," she lies, because Daniel is playing with the pups elsewhere, but Frank doesn't move his eyes from his daughter until she is forced to walk away, giving me an apologetic look before leaving me alone. "What's going on with Alessandro?" he asks a
Her Bitter Rescue Coming Clean
{ Alessandro } I can see Frank's face change from disapproval to intrigue. He settles back in his chair and gives me his full attention. I wasn't planning on talking about this with anyone, but now it's the only way to explain my behavior. "I have never done anything inappropriate against Andy and I never will," I begin, feeling for the first time on the other side of the coin, being the one being judged, "I am fully aware that the age difference between us makes him a child to me and I don't find him attractive… but my wolf does. Ever since I first saw him in the courtroom, my wolf woke up and decided that Andy is his fated mate. That's why he felt so... possessive yesterday, when he saw Andy kissing another alpha." "What?" Frank asks, his face turning pale with horror. "I don't understand it either, sir. I've tried to explain to my wolf that Andy is a beta and therefore it's impossible for him to be his mate, but he's sure of this," I continue, shaking my head. Frank mouth is
Her Bitter Rescue New Living
I end up arriving at William's house at ten o'clock at night. He lives a bit far away, half an hour from the office, but it doesn't matter. As long as he doesn't want to charge me a lot of money to live with him, it's worth the gas. "Hi," I greet when he opens the door for me, looking up at him with embarrassment. "Come in, I made you some dinner too," he says and I walk into the house, looking around. It's very empty, it only has a couch and a TV, but what else does anyone need? This is perfect, "I could tell you were having a hard time. You fought with your brother, I imagine?" "Not really. I'm actually avoiding a fight," I explain and sit in a small chair in his kitchen table as he moves to serve what he's cooking. It's some kind of chicken with a sauce I don't know, "I'm not bothering you?" "No, not at all. I made butter chicken, do you like it?" he asks and I nod because even though I've never tasted it, it smells delicious and it's not meat so it’s no problem. William smil
Her Bitter Rescue Enchanted To Meet You
I'm so hard and frustrated that I can't even deal with myself. I have to lie still and close my eyes trying to think about anything but Andy or anything to do with him. I would love to go jerk off but I can't because I know I'm going to think about him. And I'll feel horrible if I do that. I stare at the ceiling for a long time and try to calm myself down without risking putting my hand down to give myself even a little relief. I can't do that, I don't deserve it. I have to stay like that until I slowly fall asleep and the next morning I head to the hospital first thing to talk to Carl Willis. "Good morning, Mr. Judge," Carl greets me as soon as he opens his door for me. I sit down in the chair in front of his desk, "What's going on?" I release all the air in me and blurt out the whole situation to him, about how my wolf is going through a moment of dementia. The doctor frowns and listens to my story with confusion. "How sure are we that the guy is really a beta?" He asks o
Her Bitter Rescue Try It All
I stand there for a long time, unable to digest what just happened, until I manage to move and plop down on the couch with one hand on my chest, trying to stop my heart from racing. Putting aside how much I hate Alessandro right now for what he said in Frank's office... this is the first time I've had him this close. If only this had happened a week ago, I would have been the happiest guy in the world. His body is so much bigger than mine and even though I couldn't fully enjoy it because of the fear his wolf caused me... it was hot. Having him be all alpha with me now that the shock is wearing off... fuck, it was exciting. It was everything I've been dreaming of since the moment I met him. If only my wolf could wake up from his fucking long nap... I squeeze my eyes shut and try again to connect with him. All my life I've had to endure living as a beta while he in my head repeats and repeats that I'm not. But now when I really need him to repeat that to me and make it manifest
Her Bitter Rescue Here We Go
"Thank you, Daniel, really," I say with a smile, but he doesn't look very happy to be accepting this. He takes the card I hold out as if I'm forcing him, "Give me your daughter, I can watch her while you go." Daniel hesitates for a few seconds, but he knows he can trust me so he sighs and accepts, placing his extremely tiny daughter in my arms very carefully. "Can I come with you, father?" Laurie asks from behind and Daniel answers yes so the pup gets out of my car, messing everything up even more with his exit. And I'm left alone with a baby. I sigh with relief at the thought that I will be able to be normal again and look down at the baby. Her eyes are open and she is calm, just looking at me. Hmm. This is the first time I've ever held a baby, I realize. My omega sister left the clan long ago and I only met my nephews when they were toddlers already. I never had a chance to meet a baby only a few months old. They are... cute. I reach out my hand to play with hers as Danie
Her Bitter Rescue Close To Breaking
{ Andrew } Under the intense stares of Daniel and Frank trying to study our every move, I open the laptop and start the report Alessandro asked me to do while they review the alpha applications. 260 alphas applied. I never thought there would be as many people as Rodrick, but apparently there are. And I have to write each of the names in a table and write down their comments and whether they were accepted or not. Every so often I can feel Alessandro look up at me, but he immediately looks away and keeps on being the stoic and extremely professional man I know, even when his scent smells so… needy. Needy of me. Hungry for me. But I have to remind myself that it’s because of his wolf, not himself. 140 alphas later, my brother's name comes up in the postulations and I can't help but sit up straighter with anxiety. "Rodrick Easton is a very good candidate, in my opinion," Lana begins to speak after reading his paper, making me smile even though I try to stop my facial muscles fro
Her Bitter Rescue Broke Loose
I stare at his text for over thirty seconds. What the fuck is this about? I want to answer him a few things, like: "Why the fuck?" "Absolutely not." "If you're this jealous you can take the week off and then come back." "You're not allowed to quit." But I can't send any of those texts. They're completely inappropriate and he'll call security to come get me, but I don't feel too bad about this because something tells me this is just a little tantrum. He doesn't really want to quit. He didn't want that when I asked him to get me omegas, he didn't want that when I lost my mind and attacked him telling him to let his wolf out, so he totally doesn't want that now. But then, what does he want? Does he want me to break up with Monica? I'll do it. I won't see her again. Does he want me to leave him alone and stop being creepy? I'll do it. If I tell my wolf that he needs to fucking chill out or we won't have him sitting next to us every day, I know he will. I just need to apologi
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Her Bitter Rescue Epilogue
I really don't know what happens after I get the news. I'm in complete shock. Alessandro keeps touching me all the time and everyone tries to strike up conversations with me, not realizing that I'm not really paying attention because I’m lost in my own mind, trying to deal with my overexcited wolf. A couple of hours later we say goodbye to everyone and it's finally time to go home. I feel like there's something pushing on my shoulders until I manage to get into Alessandro's room (our room?) and I'm able to lie down on the bed. "What's wrong, baby?" asks Alessandro, sitting down next to me on the bed, "Are you thinking about the pregnancy?""I'm just thinking about everything. I feel like I woke up in another dimension, I mean... I was asleep for a whole week and now everything is different. I don't know how to feel yet," I honestly admit. Alessandro nods and looks at me with understanding in his eyes."I can imagine how hard it must be. Come here," he says, but he doesn't even wait
Her Bitter Rescue Last But Not Least
{ Andrew } I have no idea what happened after I decided to let my wolf out for a while, but when I return to my body, I'm naked and next to Alessandro in a bed. My body feels freshly fucked and that makes my face turn hot. I don't freak out because it's obvious that Alessandro is the culprit, but I'm pretty confused about at what point exactly that happened. "Hey, Kitten, you woke up," Alessandro says next to me, putting a hand on my face, "It's you again, baby. How are you feeling? Your wolf's been out all week." "What?!" I exclaim and sit up in bed in absolute shock, "What do you mean all week? Was I on heat again?" I was only supposed to log out for a little while. A little while, meaning an hour or two while my sadness subsided. Not a whole damn week of my life, what the hell? "You weren't in heat, you just decided to give control to him," he explains, looking at me with so much love it leaves me even more confused than before, "Some things have happened, you want to kno
Her Bitter Rescue Understanding
I don't know how to react to this. I’m upset and relieved at the same time, in equal amounts. All I can do is look down into the most beautiful, innocent eyes I've ever seen in my entire life... even if that innocence is a lie, at least at this moment. "Did you get yourself wet on purpose to come hide here and make me think you were with another alpha?" I ask, still trying to make sense of what's going on before any reaction. "No, no," he answers immediately, looking a tiny bit unsure for the first time, "I was just flirting with that alpha on purpose, I wanted you to go stop him or at least... I don't know, make you look upset, but every time I turned to look at you you were focused on something else. I wasn't planning on the other guy getting me wet or that alpha wanting to bring me here, I just went with the flow to see if you cared enough. But, five minutes? Do you know everything that could happen in five minutes?" This little manipulator. "I don't like this, Andrew. These
Her Bitter Rescue Mischievous
I get out of the car after saying that, managing to keep my tears under control because now I'm more angry than sad. I know I have no right to be because it's all my fault, but that doesn't help to control my emotions. I walk inside the house and curse internally when I see the whole family here. Frank, Dalia, Lucinda, Robbie, Carolina, Daniel, Olivia, Rosie, Carolina, Harry and the kids. The only one missing is my brother. I can't believe I was so upset that I didn't even pay attention to all their cars outside. They all look at me with intrigue when I walk in smelling like pure misery, probably. "Hey, how did it go?" asks Clara as soon as she sees me. And since she's the closest thing to my brother, I walk over to her to hug her, "Oh, no. What happened?" "Nothing, everything went fine," I lie because I don't want to be the cry baby of the family anymore, "I just want a hug." ➿➿➿➿ This is the first time I've ever seen my brother so concerned about his appearance. He checks
Her Bitter Rescue Regrets
{ Andrew } Nobody asks me anything about how I feel anymore, not even my brother. It's obvious that I'm not well and it's obvious that I have issues, but I still try to act normal and carry on like I used to when Alessandro didn't exist in my life. I've been living with my brother and Clara again and I spend all day cooped up at home at my new job babysitting my nephew or reading in my spare time, which is still as fun as before, except I'm doing it to escape again and that's not so good. I need to remind myself of the good things in my life again. Like this roof over my head, my big new family and my lovely nephew. "Does that taste good, Phoenix?" I ask my nephew as I feed him and he just bangs his little fists on his table, as if demanding that I give him more food. As soon as I bring the spoon close to his mouth he grabs it in his hand and steals it from me to bring it to his mouth frantically as if he's starving, "I guess that's a yes. God, pup, that's why your cheeks are so
Her Bitter Rescue Pushing Boundaries
{ Andrew } [ 18 years old ] My wolf was right. I am an omega. I look in the mirror and try to find differences in my body like curves or something, but I'm still as skinny as ever. The only change is the way my wolf feels, like an omega. It's nothing new, he’s always had the idea that we are. But today he knows for sure. And I'm filled with excitement, until it's time to leave my room. Today is Saturday, Rodrick should be at work right now. My dad could be anywhere, working, visiting one of his siblings or just hunting in the woods... but today is the anniversary of my mother's death. My dad is here. It's only nine in the morning but from the amount of bottles around him I know he's already drunk. He looks at me with much more hatred and contempt than usual, although I'm used to it. His hatred for me is always worse this day. I killed the love of his life, after all. Except this time when I approach instead of starting to yell things at me, his brow furrows in confusion an
Her Bitter Rescue Who Are You
"I'll leave," I say and turn around to do so, before this gets a thousand times worse. "What?" Alessandro spits and follows me as I walk to the stairs to go to the guest room. My heart is in my throat as he follows me, I feel stalked in the worst possible way. I start to think: what the fuck am I going to do if he seriously hits me? My father was just a beta, a short man without that much strength and even his beatings hurt and left me unable to go to school for a day or two. How would it feel if a strong alpha hurt me? I would probably just pass out from the pain. "Andrew, stop it right now. Why are you acting like this? Look at me!" he roars just before I can get to the guest room and it scares me even more because his command makes me actually stop and turn to look at him. And then I remember that he has alpha power, he can subdue me and force me to do whatever he wants. But instead of grabbing me and hitting me, Alessandro takes a big breath and raises his hands in surren
Her Bitter Rescue Bad To Worse
Alessandro was being serious, surprisingly. Instead of going to work, he drives home and carries me bridal style until we're inside his room. "I missed you so much last night," he says against my lips once I’m standing on my own before kissing me and not giving me a chance to tell him I missed him too. Alessandro kisses me like he needs me to live, touching as much of my body as he can and ripping off Clara's pajamas before pulling away from me to start undressing himself. "Wait," I stop him, "Can I do that?" "Undress me?" He asks and I nod. Alessandro lets out a laugh but nods and suddenly I have another one of my fantasies coming alive. I've always wanted to do this, to have this man perfectly groomed in front of me and be able to undress him bit by bit, making him all messy and wild. It's one of the things I fantasize about every day. Alessandro has a smile on his face as he waits for whatever it is I'm going to do and his scent smells of complete bliss. That gives me the con
Her Bitter Rescue Content
I walk into the therapist's office nervously, but she manages to make the conversation casual at first until I start to loosen up and then I can tell her why I'm here. I blurt out all about the wall in my head and my abusive father and how he would do stuff to me. "What ‘stuff’ did he do, Andy?" she asks with a sweet smile that makes me feel good, safe. So I tell her and thankfully her face doesn't change much when I talk about the beatings he gave me since I started walking. Or how he started forcing raw meat on me when I turned twelve until I was fourteen when I was finally able to shift. And then how that was another problem because I was too small, too weak. And then it was another problem because I presented as omega and he didn't like that one bit. "And how do you feel about being an omega?" She asks when I'm done talking. I sit there thinking for a bit. "Before my presentation I was very excited. I always wanted to be an omega... until I actually was and my dad ruined all t
