When we get back to the car there is a tension that was not present until I took the inhibitor pill. Andy didn't engage me in conversation again and started answering my questions with one syllable words. I think he just doesn't want me to act weird with him again, which I totally understand, but he doesn't know that I would act a million times worse if I didn't take them and just let my wolf keep infesting me with his feelings. This time I open the windows of the car because I don't want his scent to fill me up again and I take him home driving in complete silence while Andy has his arms crossed and just looks outside, clearly annoyed. Rodrick is outside the house working on something that looks like an engine. His attention focuses on us as soon as I park outside the house. He watches me with clear distaste and even ignores my greeting in a very obvious way. Truth be told, I think Rodrick's hatred is because he recognizes that I am a potential threat to his brother. And I re
{ Andrew } "What the hell happened? Why did he drive you home? Where's your car?" Rodrick asks as soon as Alessandro leaves and he releases me, looking me up and down as if he's inspecting that I have every body part intact. "Alessandro took me out to lunch and brought me here instead of taking me back to the chapel," I blurt out, even more annoyed than before because I just remembered that I have my own car and he didn't have to bring me directly to my house. "Why didn't you tell him to take you to your own car, Andy?" He demands, looking at me reproachfully like it's a big deal. “Because I forgot," I reply, and it's the truth. But I don't tell him I forgot because I was too busy thinking about how upset I am with my boss over a very dumb thing, "I'll ask Clara to drive me to work tomorrow." "That inconsiderate douchebag. Always making everything harder for you," Rodrick mumbles, shaking his head. I have nothing left to do but roll my eyes and end the conversation before he get
{ Alessandro } I didn't take inhibitors today and I didn't bring them with me because I didn't think I would need them tonight, but now I'm realizing that it was a mistake. Since I haven't seen Andy in three days and I had been feeling relatively well, I thought I would be fine hanging out with Monica today as a normal man, but that was a bad idea. My wolf is absolutely convinced that the ‘dream’ I had on Thursday was a real thing. He thinks I had a real conversation with Andy's Omega wolf. He says he's had his own conversations with him and that it wasn't really a dream but a magical connection that happened in my head because Andy refuses to let him out. Because of that, he is now 100 percent sure that Andy is our fated mate. There is no doubt about it. But I know it’s not possible. I think my wolf is going through some kind of wolfish dementia. So, I made use of the document Andy gave me and called one of the omegas on the list. Monica Jacobs. She's twenty-nine, beautif
{ Andrew } The encounter with Alessandro ruins the rest of my night completely. As soon as he leaves with his date sweetly holding hands, I have a bunch of people around me wondering what the hell just happened, but I can't answer because I'm just as lost as they are. "Hey! Stop!" growls Frank from his spot almost ten meters away from us. Everyone immediately stops, "Andrew, come here." Oh, no. Oh, no. Am I in trouble? I walk away from everyone, but Olivia follows me until I get to where her father is, on his sides are Dalia and Lucinda. "Olivia, no one called you," Frank says to his daughter with a raised eyebrow, "Go somewhere else." "This is a free fair, I can go wherever I want. And besides, I'm just coming in search of my mate," she lies, because Daniel is playing with the pups elsewhere, but Frank doesn't move his eyes from his daughter until she is forced to walk away, giving me an apologetic look before leaving me alone. "What's going on with Alessandro?" he asks a
{ Alessandro } I can see Frank's face change from disapproval to intrigue. He settles back in his chair and gives me his full attention. I wasn't planning on talking about this with anyone, but now it's the only way to explain my behavior. "I have never done anything inappropriate against Andy and I never will," I begin, feeling for the first time on the other side of the coin, being the one being judged, "I am fully aware that the age difference between us makes him a child to me and I don't find him attractive… but my wolf does. Ever since I first saw him in the courtroom, my wolf woke up and decided that Andy is his fated mate. That's why he felt so... possessive yesterday, when he saw Andy kissing another alpha." "What?" Frank asks, his face turning pale with horror. "I don't understand it either, sir. I've tried to explain to my wolf that Andy is a beta and therefore it's impossible for him to be his mate, but he's sure of this," I continue, shaking my head. Frank mouth is
I end up arriving at William's house at ten o'clock at night. He lives a bit far away, half an hour from the office, but it doesn't matter. As long as he doesn't want to charge me a lot of money to live with him, it's worth the gas. "Hi," I greet when he opens the door for me, looking up at him with embarrassment. "Come in, I made you some dinner too," he says and I walk into the house, looking around. It's very empty, it only has a couch and a TV, but what else does anyone need? This is perfect, "I could tell you were having a hard time. You fought with your brother, I imagine?" "Not really. I'm actually avoiding a fight," I explain and sit in a small chair in his kitchen table as he moves to serve what he's cooking. It's some kind of chicken with a sauce I don't know, "I'm not bothering you?" "No, not at all. I made butter chicken, do you like it?" he asks and I nod because even though I've never tasted it, it smells delicious and it's not meat so it’s no problem. William smil
I'm so hard and frustrated that I can't even deal with myself. I have to lie still and close my eyes trying to think about anything but Andy or anything to do with him. I would love to go jerk off but I can't because I know I'm going to think about him. And I'll feel horrible if I do that. I stare at the ceiling for a long time and try to calm myself down without risking putting my hand down to give myself even a little relief. I can't do that, I don't deserve it. I have to stay like that until I slowly fall asleep and the next morning I head to the hospital first thing to talk to Carl Willis. "Good morning, Mr. Judge," Carl greets me as soon as he opens his door for me. I sit down in the chair in front of his desk, "What's going on?" I release all the air in me and blurt out the whole situation to him, about how my wolf is going through a moment of dementia. The doctor frowns and listens to my story with confusion. "How sure are we that the guy is really a beta?" He asks o
I stand there for a long time, unable to digest what just happened, until I manage to move and plop down on the couch with one hand on my chest, trying to stop my heart from racing. Putting aside how much I hate Alessandro right now for what he said in Frank's office... this is the first time I've had him this close. If only this had happened a week ago, I would have been the happiest guy in the world. His body is so much bigger than mine and even though I couldn't fully enjoy it because of the fear his wolf caused me... it was hot. Having him be all alpha with me now that the shock is wearing off... fuck, it was exciting. It was everything I've been dreaming of since the moment I met him. If only my wolf could wake up from his fucking long nap... I squeeze my eyes shut and try again to connect with him. All my life I've had to endure living as a beta while he in my head repeats and repeats that I'm not. But now when I really need him to repeat that to me and make it manifest
I really don't know what happens after I get the news. I'm in complete shock. Alessandro keeps touching me all the time and everyone tries to strike up conversations with me, not realizing that I'm not really paying attention because I’m lost in my own mind, trying to deal with my overexcited wolf. A couple of hours later we say goodbye to everyone and it's finally time to go home. I feel like there's something pushing on my shoulders until I manage to get into Alessandro's room (our room?) and I'm able to lie down on the bed. "What's wrong, baby?" asks Alessandro, sitting down next to me on the bed, "Are you thinking about the pregnancy?""I'm just thinking about everything. I feel like I woke up in another dimension, I mean... I was asleep for a whole week and now everything is different. I don't know how to feel yet," I honestly admit. Alessandro nods and looks at me with understanding in his eyes."I can imagine how hard it must be. Come here," he says, but he doesn't even wait
{ Andrew } I have no idea what happened after I decided to let my wolf out for a while, but when I return to my body, I'm naked and next to Alessandro in a bed. My body feels freshly fucked and that makes my face turn hot. I don't freak out because it's obvious that Alessandro is the culprit, but I'm pretty confused about at what point exactly that happened. "Hey, Kitten, you woke up," Alessandro says next to me, putting a hand on my face, "It's you again, baby. How are you feeling? Your wolf's been out all week." "What?!" I exclaim and sit up in bed in absolute shock, "What do you mean all week? Was I on heat again?" I was only supposed to log out for a little while. A little while, meaning an hour or two while my sadness subsided. Not a whole damn week of my life, what the hell? "You weren't in heat, you just decided to give control to him," he explains, looking at me with so much love it leaves me even more confused than before, "Some things have happened, you want to kno
I don't know how to react to this. I’m upset and relieved at the same time, in equal amounts. All I can do is look down into the most beautiful, innocent eyes I've ever seen in my entire life... even if that innocence is a lie, at least at this moment. "Did you get yourself wet on purpose to come hide here and make me think you were with another alpha?" I ask, still trying to make sense of what's going on before any reaction. "No, no," he answers immediately, looking a tiny bit unsure for the first time, "I was just flirting with that alpha on purpose, I wanted you to go stop him or at least... I don't know, make you look upset, but every time I turned to look at you you were focused on something else. I wasn't planning on the other guy getting me wet or that alpha wanting to bring me here, I just went with the flow to see if you cared enough. But, five minutes? Do you know everything that could happen in five minutes?" This little manipulator. "I don't like this, Andrew. These
I get out of the car after saying that, managing to keep my tears under control because now I'm more angry than sad. I know I have no right to be because it's all my fault, but that doesn't help to control my emotions. I walk inside the house and curse internally when I see the whole family here. Frank, Dalia, Lucinda, Robbie, Carolina, Daniel, Olivia, Rosie, Carolina, Harry and the kids. The only one missing is my brother. I can't believe I was so upset that I didn't even pay attention to all their cars outside. They all look at me with intrigue when I walk in smelling like pure misery, probably. "Hey, how did it go?" asks Clara as soon as she sees me. And since she's the closest thing to my brother, I walk over to her to hug her, "Oh, no. What happened?" "Nothing, everything went fine," I lie because I don't want to be the cry baby of the family anymore, "I just want a hug." ➿➿➿➿ This is the first time I've ever seen my brother so concerned about his appearance. He checks
{ Andrew } Nobody asks me anything about how I feel anymore, not even my brother. It's obvious that I'm not well and it's obvious that I have issues, but I still try to act normal and carry on like I used to when Alessandro didn't exist in my life. I've been living with my brother and Clara again and I spend all day cooped up at home at my new job babysitting my nephew or reading in my spare time, which is still as fun as before, except I'm doing it to escape again and that's not so good. I need to remind myself of the good things in my life again. Like this roof over my head, my big new family and my lovely nephew. "Does that taste good, Phoenix?" I ask my nephew as I feed him and he just bangs his little fists on his table, as if demanding that I give him more food. As soon as I bring the spoon close to his mouth he grabs it in his hand and steals it from me to bring it to his mouth frantically as if he's starving, "I guess that's a yes. God, pup, that's why your cheeks are so
{ Andrew } [ 18 years old ] My wolf was right. I am an omega. I look in the mirror and try to find differences in my body like curves or something, but I'm still as skinny as ever. The only change is the way my wolf feels, like an omega. It's nothing new, he’s always had the idea that we are. But today he knows for sure. And I'm filled with excitement, until it's time to leave my room. Today is Saturday, Rodrick should be at work right now. My dad could be anywhere, working, visiting one of his siblings or just hunting in the woods... but today is the anniversary of my mother's death. My dad is here. It's only nine in the morning but from the amount of bottles around him I know he's already drunk. He looks at me with much more hatred and contempt than usual, although I'm used to it. His hatred for me is always worse this day. I killed the love of his life, after all. Except this time when I approach instead of starting to yell things at me, his brow furrows in confusion an
"I'll leave," I say and turn around to do so, before this gets a thousand times worse. "What?" Alessandro spits and follows me as I walk to the stairs to go to the guest room. My heart is in my throat as he follows me, I feel stalked in the worst possible way. I start to think: what the fuck am I going to do if he seriously hits me? My father was just a beta, a short man without that much strength and even his beatings hurt and left me unable to go to school for a day or two. How would it feel if a strong alpha hurt me? I would probably just pass out from the pain. "Andrew, stop it right now. Why are you acting like this? Look at me!" he roars just before I can get to the guest room and it scares me even more because his command makes me actually stop and turn to look at him. And then I remember that he has alpha power, he can subdue me and force me to do whatever he wants. But instead of grabbing me and hitting me, Alessandro takes a big breath and raises his hands in surren
Alessandro was being serious, surprisingly. Instead of going to work, he drives home and carries me bridal style until we're inside his room. "I missed you so much last night," he says against my lips once I’m standing on my own before kissing me and not giving me a chance to tell him I missed him too. Alessandro kisses me like he needs me to live, touching as much of my body as he can and ripping off Clara's pajamas before pulling away from me to start undressing himself. "Wait," I stop him, "Can I do that?" "Undress me?" He asks and I nod. Alessandro lets out a laugh but nods and suddenly I have another one of my fantasies coming alive. I've always wanted to do this, to have this man perfectly groomed in front of me and be able to undress him bit by bit, making him all messy and wild. It's one of the things I fantasize about every day. Alessandro has a smile on his face as he waits for whatever it is I'm going to do and his scent smells of complete bliss. That gives me the con
I walk into the therapist's office nervously, but she manages to make the conversation casual at first until I start to loosen up and then I can tell her why I'm here. I blurt out all about the wall in my head and my abusive father and how he would do stuff to me. "What ‘stuff’ did he do, Andy?" she asks with a sweet smile that makes me feel good, safe. So I tell her and thankfully her face doesn't change much when I talk about the beatings he gave me since I started walking. Or how he started forcing raw meat on me when I turned twelve until I was fourteen when I was finally able to shift. And then how that was another problem because I was too small, too weak. And then it was another problem because I presented as omega and he didn't like that one bit. "And how do you feel about being an omega?" She asks when I'm done talking. I sit there thinking for a bit. "Before my presentation I was very excited. I always wanted to be an omega... until I actually was and my dad ruined all t