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2024-10-29 19:42:56Seraphine wasn’t a saint or a forgiving person by any means. She didn’t want to hold a grudge against Alexandar. Maybe subconsciously, she understood all of this wasn’t his fault although she couldn’t remember anything about it.
Moreover, hating someone equates to one wasting their emotions and thoughts over them, and Seraphine did not want to dedicate those to Alexandar. It seemed he had been suffering and repenting on his own without having her to do anything.
“Even in the previous life, I am not the one you loved; it’s Kayden whom you held fondness towards you even though that man abducted you. Both of you are really fated to be together. I can never take his place in your heart, can I?”
This made Seraphine eyes widen in disbelief. Although it was hard for her to believe she had feelings for Alexandar in a romantic sense, she thought she shared some kind of fondness towards him or else why would she choose to get marr
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