I can't 7

Author: Thank you for reading 'He's special To Me'

Hae Jin: You ignored me in the previous chapter!

Author: Chapter 7 begins. Wait!! I have to thank someone before anything else!

😔*Clear throat, thank you for reading 'He's Special To Me' and for voting 'Sbongile Love' for me, it means to world. Thank you.

Hae Jin: Don't ignore me!

😑Author: Oh, right, I need to say this. In a few days from now, it will be exactly 6years since Hae Jin's death. That's why he said he died 6years ago when it wasn't exactly so. He just ignored the fact that its a few days before it will truly be 6years before his death.

Hae Jin: Right, just like how you are ignoring me now.

Author: Sigh.

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"Listen to me Hae Jin" And the atmosphere turned serious again. Like Hae Jin wanted. For some reason, before, he felt hot, giddy and excited at the thought of Tae Jin growing up to be a fine, good looking young man.

It was embarrassing as hell!

That's why he now felt relief when Sung Yoon changed the subject.

What he felt.......

That wasn't right! Yes, it wasn't! Tae Jin was only a kid! He could even be his father for god sake!!!

"Hae Jin?" Hae Jin snapped out of his embarrassing thought, looking at Sung Yoon with a questioning look.

Realising Hae Jin heard none of what she said, Sung Yoon sighed tiredly, repeating what she said before, "I said, we ghosts can't have any feelings for humans"

"But what about our families and friends?" Right, what about their families and friends? Can't they (Ghosts) worry about them? Take care of them? Can't they guide them?

"You don't understand. You will find out yourself. In any case, as ghosts, the only think you should worry about besides your families and friends is yourself. No one else. You can't develop feelings for humans"

"Because we live in different worlds?" Hae Jin asked, sounding sad.

Sung Yoon was definitely talking about Tae Jin here. Hae Jin was sure she has notice he wanted to created a connection with Tae Jin. As a friend that was.

He didn't know for how long he would stay in this world but at least, he will experience being alive, being human with Tae Jin in his life.

This was why he was hesitant to let the kid go. Thinking Tae Jin will never come close to him again if he found out he was a ghost, he decided not to reveal to him that he (Hae Jin) was not human.

"Yes" Sung Yoon replied, looking at Hae Jin with a sympathetic look on her face, feeling bad for Hae Jin who stared up at the ceiling with a sad expression on his face.

"Because we live in different worlds, because sooner of later, we will have to live their (Humans) lives. Is better not to created a strong connection with anyone as it will only end up hurting both of you in the end"

"I understand"

"Sorry, you don't have to feel anything towards Tae Jin. Don't feel sorry towards him because as a special one, he is already destined to be used. You're not doing a bad thing. You can just touch him or let him touch you and if he really is your special one, just stay away from him and find him when he's grown up. Then you can tell you him all about yourself and him being your special one. He will have no choice but to help you" okay the last sentence didn't sound good. She sounded like a villain in some kind of a historical movie.

Using people, just wasn't her thing but she had to make it clear to Hae Jin. He needed to accept this fact.

"I can't Sung Yoon" And did she forget he was trap in the house? How would he go out himself to find Tae Jin when he's all grown up?

"What?!!" Sung Yoon exclaimed in shock.

"And what if he finds out about me being a ghost, being my special one, he might ran away. He might choose not to help me"

"You really are the definition of negativity. What's with the 'What If' thing?!"

"I don't want Tae Jin to find out am a ghost or what he is to me. I don't want to use him. I will find a way myself. I will find a way to remember my past life, settle my business here (That's if he even had one) and then if I really crossover, glory be to God, if I don't, I'll just wait until is my time"

Wow, she didn't know what to say to his decision. Hae Jin really was......... too kindhearted and too stubborn for his own good.

"You have made your decision?" Hae Jin hummed, nodding in reply.

"You.......do you have feelings for the kid?"

"What do you think I am?! A pervert?!! He's just a kid!!!"

"I didn't say anything. You could be waiting for him to grow up for all I know"

"He could be my child!"

"But he's not"

"Stop your nonsense Sung Yoon. I only think of him as my first friend" The first he had after his death.

"And what am I?" Sung Yoon asked annoyingly. Here she was thinking she was Hae Jin's first friend, however, he has already made his decision. Then, what was she to him?

"My first ghost friend" Hae Jin replied with a smile.

First ghost friend? The ghost wasn't important. She will remove it and then, it will be 'First Friend'. Yeah, that sounded much better.

Satisfied with her choice, Sung Yoon smiled happily. "So, are you sure Tae Jin is your friend"

Hae Jin hummed in reply with a smile. "He is. He's my first human firend. I repeat again, first human friend"

"I'm not convince"

"You can think whatever you want" 

He will never use Tae Jin. The first human who could see him, hear him. The first human, with whom he could feel human again. He will never lose him or use him. Even if it will cost him never finding out his past, it was okay.

At least, he could feel like human again.