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A SMALL GIFTWinter was now here, strong winds replacing the cool toasty whisphers of summer, frost nipping at our nose and toes, practially any skin that's left exposed. The landscape is blanketed in white fluffy caps, but lonely. At least that's how it has been for the last few years. I've given up on attempting to get Leila inside. I've resorted to silence to end our constant bickering, since she's being stubborn as usual. Leila's dressed warmly, though I'm still working on perfecting the shoe I've got for her.White puffs of fog, ooze from my mouth as I breathe, glancing at the desolate sky, sun hidden behind clouds. Gerzi paces back and forth, observing Leila before walking over to me, dropping himself into the snowy ground, ice crunching beneath his body.'The grasshopper is carrying''What?' I pause my work glancing up at my wolf. He didn't just say what I think he did.'You heard me right the first time'Related chapters
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AGREE TO DISAGREE I can't contain the urges I feel or the feelings that stir inside of me. It's strange and intriguing, yet annoyingly irritating at the same time. I know I want something yet when I have it in arms I change my find. Food is ridiculously distateful and my God don't I smell the weirdest things. The weirdest part is that I also want and can't stand to be within Grayson's sight, mostly because lately, he treats me like a fragile child. But then I miss him as if we've been worlds apart. I cry when I want to laugh, scream and shout when I only want to be held. I'm a mess of myself and I think Grayson is also reaching his limits with me too.I don't like how he thrums my cords and I think he knows more than he's revealing. He keeps sneaking me these half secret looks, a hand against my forehead, subtly touching my stomach. Fussing that I need to eat and keep warm.It's making me agitated even though I know he's only trying to be
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SALT ISLAND We can't stay here anymore. The blizzard lasted for three days, most of which Grayson hasn't spoken with me for and that's fine. I know when to admit when I'm wrong. The worst part about it is, that he's still worried about us- mostly the baby I think. But he's still kind to me. He's much too good for me. Even Gerzi is giving me attitude too. And even that makes me feel guilty. Grayson comes around one more time checking to ensure I'm comfortable against Gerzi's back. I can tell that the little prick would rather have me walk, but there was nothing either of us could do about it when Grayson has made up his mind. My heart thumbs constantly inside my chest- no not like the usual thumping it does. I was apprehensive, lonely in a way. The sky is bleak above me, ground white and covered in snow, Gerzi's body heat warms me, while I cradle my stomach. For some reason Grayson has his sword out as if anticipating some unknown attack. The scene only serves to drive my anxiety hi
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"Are you happy?"Silence sits between us, and I don't know what to say to him. Yes? Yes I'm happy. Despite our useless and senseless arguments, I'm still happy. I don't get why he's worried, maybe my behavior towards him and Gerzi? Well not much has changed with Gerzi, and I can tell that the little bastard has been more aggressive since I found out that I was carrying their child-Grayson's child."I try, but sometimes I think the gaps between us are larger than I'm able to bridge, especially when you're so nerve rackingly quiet, " Warm breath cascades across my chilled skin cooling before returning with heat. I rest my hand against his head, raking my fingers through his cropped hair. I don't know how to respond to him, don't know how to make his fears leave. Grayson thinks I don't trust him, thinks I don't see him as important or equal. And I do, it's just that I can't help my actions sometimes and maybe, maybe that's all just an excuse to finally give in and let someone take contro
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FRIENDS The opened door hastens me to finish dressing myself, turning around to face Grayson with a sheepish smile on my face that falls flat when I don't find him there.I had originally planned on giving Grayson a hard time, showing a little more skin here or there, before I ended up stripping completely naked, posing in the small mirror like an idiot. But when I heard the heavy steps coming down the hall, I chickened out.Ridiculous I know, but it was more about him than me. I was starting to miss the fact of having my body to myself, now the child inside me pokes continuously and has taken over my sense of smell, organized regular naps for me. I can't even reach my toes anymore. It's the fatest I've ever been and I'm hungry all the bloody time. Ugh, it's fudging frustrating!I can't say f***king anymore since Grayson, has been chastising my language and I promised to be better for the child. Well grant it I just said the word, but it's like trying to be an alternate person and it
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GRAYSONA SECRET REVEALED Leila's still sleeping when I decide to take a walk. Something has been bothering her over the last couple days, she won't say, but her nightmares indicates that something is wrong. Winter has gotten worse, and I've gathered enough men to reinforce the bungalows, though as much as the cold doesn't necessarily bother us, extended exposure will render us immobile; just the same as humans. A werewolves internal heating can only stand so much, the same with wild wolves. It's the same reason they cudddle together in dens, as much as they hunt when needed. My mind conjurs the weirdest thing, seeing a small woman with thin graying hair before me. It's not to be, since no female werewolf ventures here- no woman actually at that, which is the reason why keeping Leila safe is imperative. It's not a mirage I come to understand when I draw closer and the woman doesn't disappear from sight. Her skin is wrinkled, nails long and curled and she wears a devious smile that b
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COMPROMISESThere's something wrong with the window, I suddenly notice, the icy snow suddenly taking over the surface is transparent white cracks like and when I lift myself from the bed to inspect it, I realise the ground is saturated with fog.It's thin, and bubbling, as if it's seeping from beneath the door's bottom filling the room. Panic fills me immediately and I take a step back moving out of it's reach as white wisps like flow upwards towards my hands."No, stay away" I tell it, fanning away the small billows that move towards me. Some manage to wrap around my feet and I feel as if the ground has someone become soft and sandy, Pulling me downwards. They continue to wrap, back and forth, hand and waist while I use my other to fan the smokey assailant, it's arms crumbling before reforming once more. I can't scream, voice stuck in my throat, sinking further into the quick sand that has become my room, until I'm fully covered and falling through thick darkness.I come to a sudden
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KAIDMy fingers grip Grayson's biceps feeling a zing of pain that has started to course through me. It cramps my stomach then moves down my legs and I squeeze my eyes shut bearing it. This time it lasts a little longer than it has before. Grayson runs my back in empathy, providing support as I crashed my head against his shoulder. I feel like a bloated elephant, feet swollen at the ankles coupled with the nose of a dog. I've lost my appetite and the only thing I've wanted to do is sleep, but now not even the pain won't grant me repose. "You okay?""Water" I clear my through that's dry as an dessert. "I need water""Okay"He leaves going through the door while I recited a dying prayer."Asleep?" Grayson asks returning. He strokes my hair before his hands move to my cheeks, but I turn my face away from him. Grayson tilts my head, finding the dewy evidence splattered across my cheeks and I feel when his shoulder slump in defeat. He thinks he can't do anything for me.In truth he reall
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DEFINDING HOURI was covered in spilt blood, clothes soaked, face spattered and hands that held the dagger so tightly that my knuckles burned at the meeting of flesh and bone, yet still I kept stabbing him. I kept piercing him through and through despite his dying grunts and squeals, even long after his claws stop raking at my thighs to get me off. Kaid lifts himself, a claw across his cheek, covered in gore likewise as as he pulls me off the deap corpse that I was still hacking away at. "It's dead Leila" Another stab. "I said it's dead" Another stab. With a heavy sigh, Kaid pulls me away, wiping the blood from my face as he stares at me. "I doubt he'll ever cross over to the otherside" "I didn't know wherewolves believed in life after death" "They don't, but there must be something other than this messed up life we're living yes?" He asks wiping down my hands likewise. "The general will be proud" He takes my hand, leading me towards the door. I can still hear the rough and tumb
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BONDS TRIUMPH ANY TRIAL The worst thing about starting a revolution is that you have to see it through. I'm starting not to like that idea. Mostly because I'm stuck inside alone- well not necessarily all by myself but those that support me, cannot attend to my needs.And by needs, you know what I mean.No, not sex. Get your head out of the gutters.I meant conversation, cuddles, and late-night plays.I was part of the front line too, but then I was physically and forcefully removed without choice or option; because we found out an important matter. Only I knew first this time but kept it hidden. For good reason.This eventuality.I sigh once more palming my stomach. Grayson has been gone for three weeks. He's taken my women, his men, frankly anything that would remind me of what's going on outside those gates. So many more humans have joined our cause to live freely and have freedom. And we have spread like a wildfire, expanding our borders in even spaces I didn't think possible. We
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HE'S NOT THE ALPHA Darnick is compliant with his decision to return, which only leaves Rasmus and me as the only jittery pawns on his chess board. This uninformed selfish decision of my father will run everything we've worked for into the ground and when Leila gets wind of this, it will be nothing short of a fuse explosion. "When are we leaving?" "At a convenient time for all of us," Xavier answers as if we're talking about abandoning cattle. That these weren't people with lives. Lives that were depending on us to protect them. "When was this decision made? ""Does it matter when it was made? My decision is final.""We're leaving them to die. It's a suicide mission. " I clarify just in case he was too blind to the reality of the situation at hand. "Commander Lyra has the know-how to navigate even the toughest of circumstances. ""The capability but not the equipment she needs. She hasn't had that for a while now. Or was that the reason why you've decided to save half her battalion
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IMPOSSIBLE CIRCUMSTANCESGRAYSON "You've made a grave mistake confronting him before everyone else, " I told my little mate when we had returned to her quarters."I know, I know, " Leila nods. "You allowed your emotions to get the best of you and now he's out for blood. ""I know. He'll want my head for this." She paces around her room rubbing her arms as if exposed to the cold. "I just, it felt too much. After I thought we lost them all. I mourned them, Grayson." Leila's dark eyes meet mine confusion swirling in the midst as she gazes up at me. "How are they still alive, it's not possible? Why wasn't everyone else saved? If he's so strong why isn't everyone still alive? Marie, Louis, and his family. "Leila's body trembles as she breaks into tears once more, her emotions overriding the restraint she had built up now bursting at the seams. "It doesn't matter. They're here and alive. ""Except it does. How can I tell the part of me that's been hollow for months now that it was all a
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A PACK LOST A PACK GAINED I was on the outside surveying our space to plant more food and possibly rear a few animals. It's been a rough couple of months and my arm heals at snails pace. The wolves are still gathered around the periphery of the fortress, steadfast and unmoving since Grayson hasn't lifted his command. Hadn't we had them, perhaps Phineas' attempts to destroy us would have succeeded at his first crack.A hand reaches around, blocking my view and I attempt to back away, ducking beneath in the process, only to be enclosed in hard flesh and bones. "Morning," He growls at my ear ."It's afternoon," I correct."Still early," he rasps at my ear, back pedaling both of us in the process."Where are you taking me?" I question the oaf."You'll see soon enough.""I have work to do," I argue."You're always working," His reply comes, feet still walking blindly and his breath warm a constant against my cheek."Do you even know where you're going?" I enquire not liking the fact that
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STRONGERDaina runs away while I sit in open contemplation. My chest and cheeks hurt like fudge sticks, my shoulders are sore, but my head felt as if I'd hit it against the column, knocking myself out for half my lifetime. My body was heavy as lead, even though I was only seated upright."I wouldn't advise moving as yet, Luna. You took quite a nasty beating and the medicine still needs time to circulate.""Impeccable timing," I told him, my voice croaking as that of a hoarse frog, my eyes quickly sweeping the room. It wasn't mine, but from the nonexistent accolades, I knew this was Grayson's plain room. I could almost chuckle thinking of how filled this room will easily become with Tyler's drawings over the years.That is if he intended on staying here. Fear seized my chest and I clutched at it, telling myself I'm only overreacting. Where else would he seek to go?"Where's Grayson?""The Alpha is currently being looked after." Gamma Kole answers.My brain dissects the funny way he dec
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DAINA ALL MEN MUST SERVE Inside was just boring and mourful. All everyone bickered about was the war and how things should have been different. They lamented about losing people and about not being prepared more. All it did was agitate me. It was the past, it was said and done and cannot be changed. I desperately wanted to scream at them to just shut up and move on with their lives. Focus on freaking surviving. What else could we do at this point?Glancing around the blackened room and finding the newly acquired Alphas only made my mouth more sour. Six people from two entire packs survived that freaking attack. What kind of monster army did Alpha Phineas have to have subdued them like that? His Luna had been such a simple girl when we met last. I supoose that's the reason behind her apparent simpleton behavior. Her Alpha was terrifying.I push to leave the suffocating atmosphere of the dead and dying, a human warrior shifting into my path and blocking my way."Sorry," He says voice
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GRAYSON ALPHA COMMAND That bastard Phineas, I bet he had timed Leila just right to have cornered her inside her room. I had every intent on ripping his head from his shoulders, but the damned ass had escaped rolling over the window and scampering down the wall with his tail between his legs.I huff, watching as he scurried away, a f*king cheeky smile on his face, echoing the words of his return. I can't stay furious, turning to find Leila unmoving, my worst fears manifesting seeing how beaten up she was.My teeth screech on edge, Phineas now making himself my number one enemy. Known to him, I promised death to whoever touched Leila and my wrath knew no bounds or creed. My body bows with stress, kneeling before the blood that heats my veins. Leila cries out from pain that strikes my soul, her entire being trembling as I took her into my arms. Her lips bleed, bruises lining her forehead and arms. That son of a bitch!"I'm going to die, I'm going to die," Leila whispers, her words mir
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SACRIFICES ***WARNING: May contain triggers.Our walk to the fortress takes days when in reality it should've only been a few hours. With the massive injuries that our group had sustained, we were left to creep as old men, creating shelters and entertaining others from dwelling on the reality of our condition. Tyler sticks on my heels aiding me to gather as much fruits as possible. A few murmur about having only that to eat, but I turn my ears and bite my tongue. What did they want me to do, hunt a boar? They weren't Tyler and I was never asking Grayson to go find one either. Everyone had to learn to live within their means and accept the case for what it is. If we send enough abled out people out and they were attacked, any hopes of us rebuilding would be smashed against the rocks. I glance at the sky a little perturbed about the overcast weather, but think better of it when I glanced back at the ailing pack. Maybe it was best that we didn't rush them. Tyler tightly grips my arm u
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BLEEDING HEART "Leila, you cant afford to have your emotions control you," Gerzi scolds or maybe it's sturdy advice. My entire body trembles at the thoughts of the many people we've lost. The glossy eyes that stare back at me- us by extension. The many children lost, the parents that are beside themselves in agony. Too traumatized to even utter a word. The carnage of Trish's body flashing before my eyes forcing me into a mental hell I wanted not. I paused my steps, closing my eyes as I grit my teeth through the pain. I didn't want to loose anymore people to this. I couldn't!War has places us all on the same ranking. We were all vulnerable and helpless. Dependent on each other for growth, stability and strength. We were as weak as the smallest one among us. It shed light on our shortcomings. The distrust and lingering desparities between us. There were no lines today in that attack. We were all preys."There's a large cave nestled in some rocks ay the edge," Gerzi directs. "Just ke
