SOMA:
“You kissed him or he kissed you?” Cassie throws a sort of confusing question at me, earning a twitch on my face.
“I don’t get you,” I say.
“I want to know who made the first move between you two. Did he do it? Or did you do it?”
I press on the pillow I have under my left arm while still trying to figure out what she’s trying to drive at with her statement. “Does it make a difference if it was me who made the first move or him?” I quiz, shrugging alongside.
“It does, Soma. In a whole lot of ways. Kissing him first means you’re desperate to have him knowing fully well he has not made a decision about what the two of you share. But if it’s him who made the first move, then he’s starting to acknowledge the bond. Which, I will say, is a green light there,”
Well, this i
LUIS:Leaving the land area into the woods uncleared is the most unwise decision made by the Alpha. Probably no one has complained to him about it. But without it being mentioned to him, he should have noticed it already himself. At least he frequents the woods.Because of the Alpha’s negligence, I have to make sure I walk really fast while going through the woods at present. If I had the super vision that most of the others have, I’m sure it would be a different scenario. But right now, I can only force myself to try to embrace the low area I can cover with my vision.I’m in here to train. Training has been the better part of me for years now. It’s the only way I can feel worthy of being a wolfling that already knows he’s got no chances of being like the others. Although it is a bother for me, I still ensure to do what I can do to make myself stronger every passing day.
SOMA:A weird thing I did today was to park my ride by the entrance of the territory and then go into the woods to transform into my spirit wolf. Pretty weird because of the timing. Why didn’t I just take my ride to the main quarters and then do what I wanted to do? I can be so messed up sometimes.But the feeling that came with me bringing out Rainia after a very long time didn’t let me think things through and so I just went along with the flow. I’m certain the warrior guards must think I’m crazy after seeing me suddenly jump out of my car and then instruct them to get it sorted for me.Rainia had been so delighted when I finally let her out right in the woods. But first I had taken my clothes off to prevent them from ruining in the process of the transformation. They were perfectly good materials that I paid a lot of bucks for.The cheerful howl from a yellowish-white wolf
LUIS:Asides from the fact that I chose to come to see Soma today without much of a reason established, I might be here to break down a piece of terrible news to her. And it’s more about my well-being once again.I know I shouldn’t be doing this same cowardly act over and over again — for sure I’m a coward now — but I can’t help it.Soma’s relationship with me has been going well. She has been frequenting my pack over the weekends to train the Luna, although she made it clear that I am the reason because it should be the Luna going to her pack for the training and not vice versa. However, I took it in good faith with a lot of looking outs to ensure no one sees us together.She’s going to be devastated once again. She will be utterly disappointed in me after hearing my newest flimsy excuse. I know she will. And the contrasting feeling is eating me up.
SOMA:Every damn thing about me lately has been contrasting. And what’s more contrasting is how embracing I’ve been as they come to me. But now I’m fed up.First I start to feel something for a man. Later I find out it might be in shambles because he does not feel the same way because of his inability to produce a spirit wolf. I still try to get on with it but my best friend seems to disagree with me because of it, citing that he’s undeserving of me. I think I want to believe that now because his insecurities have been a major factor in trying to make the relationship between us work.The new situation that he cited might actually be one of the reasons he’s so insecure, but trying to make it sound like it’s my fault is the factor I do not even want to consider. It was irritating to the core because this was meant to be a two-person thingy. If anyone is at fault here, it shouldn’t
SOMA:He doesn’t resist. No, he doesn’t at all. Instead, he just looks down at me with a wide stare, telling me how surprised he is. But that doesn’t even last for long because he is back with the smirk for the umpteenth time.“Don’t you think you’re going a little bit far? We could always talk out whatever is going on without getting violent,” he says, mockery laced in his tone.“Oh, you think this is too far?” and I put more pressure on his neck. “What about this? How does it feel like?”The crazy thing about it is that he doesn’t even flinch one bit. I think he might be entirely resistant to pain, which might be a disadvantage for me if this goes on like this.“Still feels the same to me, Soma. I still can feel your anger pouring out through your arm. You might need to tone it down a bit,”
SOMA:I knew it was a bad idea when I decided to go on heels today. Now my feet are all weary as I try to take them off.I do not struggle with it because I know it would add to my distress. And so, gently and comfortably, I take them off, heaving a sigh of relief soon after for a job well done.Did I really resolve anything with Leonard today? I guess not. It was more like we had a little fight before venturing into a healthy conversation.At least I achieved something from all of that. I found out he’s not the culprit in Luis’ predicament. And neither does he have an idea what’s going on. How could I tell? I have this itch for knowing when I’m being lied to. And I sure as hell knew he wasn’t.Still, that didn’t get me anywhere. It means Luis would still be going through the ordeal without having an idea what’s going on. I’m suppos
LUIS:“And there you go messing up again,” Ryk says as soon as I finish the explanation that has my mind all cranky all day.“I know I did, man. You don’t remind me once more about how stupid I can be most times,” I respond saucily, bending my head a little to avoid a tree branch.“I wasn’t implying that. I just do not understand why you keep messing things up with Alpha Soma. I get that this is your first time trying to make a relationship with a woman work, but is it worth all of these insecurities you’re portraying?”“Even with what I just told you is going on around me, you think it’s not worth it?”Perhaps he didn’t get what I said about the issues I’m facing. Because why would he be making a conclusion based on just me messing things up with Soma? I admit that I did mess up, and I’ve a
SOMA:“Mark, I have to go now,” I announce, getting up from the training mat set up outside the main quarters.A sudden odd feeling just took over me. Really strange to me I just say because I have never felt that way before. Feels more like a thorn in my heart and I can’t seem to explain how it came to be.“Where to?” Mark’s voice gets to my hearing, bringing about a further confusion in me. Can’t even say how much bother I am going through at the moment.“I don’t know,” I say, and with already somewhat conviction of what I have in mind, add, “My room, maybe,”“Are you okay?” he asks as I begin to take a move say from the location to head into the building to freshen up from the sweaty skin of mine.I should respond to Mark’s question but I do not see the reason for suc
SOMA:Two weeks later.Two whole weeks after the Dark Moon pack went through a whole crisis because of me. Two weeks after I managed to save them in some way. And two weeks after doing the only thing I thought best at that time which was to secure my mate.Marking him was never my intention at first. I have no idea what came over me. But I would pin it on the fear of losing him once again. Claiming him was the only way I can be sure of connecting with him should I case something like what happened to the Dark Moon pack goes down again.He did the same. Yes, he marked me too. And we went a full week after that trying to ease my unquenchable pleasure. Never knew a female wolfling would fall into a week of ecstasy after being marked. One of the reasons I should have taken my time to study a lot about my kind.But it was the best one week of my life. The best I could ever wish for. I
SOMA:I do not have it in me to do it. I tried but I cannot see myself killing my brother. Not even a bit. No matter the amount of rage fueled in me, there is a major part of me that still acknowledges him as my blood. So, no, I won’t do it.He must be surprised to see that he isn’t dead yet. Especially when he opens his eyes to look at the sword dug right into the ground beside him. It was at the last second that I changed the course of direction or else he would have been long gone now.I stand upright, pulling up the sword from the ground alongside. My eyes are closed as I take in a deep breath to relax my nerves. I must have hit an adrenaline rush by now with the rate at which I took the fight with him.“What’s stopping you? Why don’t you just kill me?” Harold's voice interrupts my brief peaceful state. He sounds like he is in distress. Almost as if he cannot t
SOMA:The transformation, the breaking of the chains, the chaos happening outside which was apparently something I masterminded — those things should not have happened, but they all did.It all came down to using the special gear. It was something fortified to counter the weakness bestowed upon a wolfling. One of a kind and linked with my insides and energy, according to what my father had told me when he handed it over to me some years ago.What I had just done set Harold into another round of shock. How I had suddenly transformed into my spirit wolf while he was attempting to strike at me was much of a surprise to him. It should not be happening. And even I would not have pictured such a thing if I had not remembered my gear.In his stunned motion, Rainia has aggressively clawed at him, right at his chest. At the last second, he moves back to avoid her paws digging right into his chest. Inste
SOMA:A closer look at me and you would know how much concentration I have fallen into. Although I have not shut my mind completely from the outside world, I can hardly hear anything ongoing around me. That’s if there is any.It would probably be the fifth time I would be in this state of position since I got the gear back from Leonard. And the usefulness that Leonard wanted to know about has not been maximized yet. I’m sure it would in no time.At the moment, I feel so confident. Much more confident than I was a day ago when I first opened my eyes to this hellhole. Much more confident than when I realized my brother has destroyed the image of the family bloodline. Even more confident when my mate proved to be as insecure as ever.I have this glee in me that something worthwhile was about to occur and I am in full preparation for it. I just want to set my mind to it and hopefully, it woul
SOMA:“Did being a Black Lotus fill a void in your heart? A void that no one else knew was there?” I was tempted to ask and so I do. It was mostly out of sentiment that I proceeded with that minutes later because I had to let him dwell in his regrets. There was no doubting how bad he feels about his action.He turns around to stare at me in disgust. And to be honest, it made me feel like shit. “Why do you care?” he asks. “It’s not like you were not blessed to be outstanding in all things while I was not. So don’t come at me trying to make it seem like you’ll understand how I feel.”“Have you always had a problem with me? I didn’t ask for any of this for me,”“That... That right there is the problem I have with everything. You got all of that without requesting but it was given to the wrong person. You are the wrong person,
SOMA:I have never been this hurt in my entire life. Not in my existence. Not even when I was cheated by was when I was little.Maybe he is right. I should have let him be from the scratch. When he told me that he wanted nothing to do with me because of his insecurities, I should have listened to him and let him be.“No matter the situation, at least show her a little appreciation for making an effort to save you. Don’t you think you are being selfish by making her feel worse than she already is?” Leonard snaps at Luis in my support and I know Luis is not going to take it lightly.“Stay out of this!” Luis talks back at him.“You do not get to tell me when to speak!”“It’s okay the two of you. Just forget about it,” I caution them before it could go further than that. And I am glad they adhered to it.
SOMA:I don’t know if I am fighting the feeling or the feeling is fighting against me. But the discomfort from it is not something my mind could withstand.Perhaps I am imagining things because suddenly I start to see the opposite of my mate right in this dark alley that I am in. Didn’t I subdue him earlier? What is going on here?As he starts to approach me, I try to move back but a force is preventing me from doing anything. I cannot move my legs and neither can I move my arms.The lightning speed he uses in catching up to me was beyond comprehension. And just like that, he has his hand tightened against my neck as he begins to snuff life out of me. That was the last feeling I got until I forcefully open my eyes to see that it was not real.My eyes try to get in line with the happenings around me as I gasp for breath. I was in a dark room just similar to the dark al
SOMA:The transformation took place within a second. Too fast to even worry about. But within that short time frame, I felt the quick breaking down and repairing of my bones as Rainia took over my entire being, pushing me to the back seat.The first thing she does is howl, claiming her right as the only available wolf here. That is if Mark doesn’t come out of that building to do the same. Luis was not a given in this situation.What would be revealed to the others now is a creamy white wolf about to go on a riot on all fours. A wolf three to four times bigger than the size of a built man. And with this, I could get the needed advantage over a dangerously possessed Luis.The speed at which Rainia takes to get to Luis is twice faster than my regular speed. And through her eyes, I can see Luis getting ready for the attack, which proves her speed has not beaten his yet.With he
SOMA:This is not my Luis. No, nothing about the man approaching me can be linked to the one I can confidently call my mate.The footsteps, his stare, it felt like he was deluded. More like possessed because the range at which he was coming at me felt completely different from the man I know.And to confirm my skepticism, I call his name, “Luis?”There was no spark of recognition from him. Not even a reaction to tell that he recognizes me. Immediately I knew how bad the situation is that I have to look up at the supposed mastermind of this whole thing — the masked man on the roof.“What did you do to him?” I ask, gritting my teeth in anger. I can swear that everything in me was telling me that I should charge at him.“What did I do to him? You’ll find out soon,” was the instant response I receive from him.