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2022-04-06 20:53:01EVA.
Emerson's eyes are wide with astonishment and awe as he says, "You're a fucking twin?"
"Was. " I correct and his face falls at that one word. "She's dead. "
Emerson seems at a loss for what to say, and when he opens his mouth to speak; I can tell he's being cautious of his words. "What happened to her? And why are you to blame for her death?"
I drop my gaze from Emerson at the remembrance. The images of that day are clear and undisrupted in my mind, and it drives me crazy with each second I spend thinking back to each detail from that night.
"Carson!" Emerson's yell of my name snaps me out of my thoughts and I lift my eyes to him. "Are you okay?" I can effortlessly sense the worry in his voice and his gaze.
I give him a small bob of my head as I adjust in my seat. "I don't want to talk about it. " I'm not ready to. Not yet; Not to Emers
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EVA. "Where are we going?" I ask Emerson and he spares me only a glance before gazing ahead of him. "You'll know when we get there. " Rolling my eyes at his response, I grab my phone from my side and turn on the screen to be met with new text notifications— Dan and Aliya. I open Aliya's first and a laugh falls from my mouth at the words across my screen. ALIYA: Hey bitch, just a reminder but did you tell Delilah you were the one who told me not to come with and check on her beautiful face? ME: I didn't. I told her you were being an ungrateful bitch, and what are you on this morning? You sound excited, and that's saying a lot because I can feel it from here. With the click of the send button, I scroll to Dan's texts, which will be the first ones I have had from him since I left school. DAN: I'm d
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EVA. After hours of messing around with the ocean, my hair is all wet and Emerson Ford stands in front of me with a proud grin on his face. "It isn't funny. " I scowl at him when I raise my head to meet his gaze and he chuckles before stepping closer to me. "Move your hands. " He says and when I don't comply with his request, he takes my hands in his grip and swats them away from my wet hair before he grabs a fistful of the hair and squeezes, letting the water drops trail down my face. "You should have told me to tilt my head. " I tell him as I angle my head to the side while he gives it another compression. "You should have been smart enough to know what to do. " Emerson responds and I give a slap to the side of his thigh, which earns me a yank on my hair. "Don't forget I have something more painful in my
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We're at the end!!! Woohoo!Where do I begin? So far, Hatred turns out to be the most challenging book I've written. Not just with the trope and the content, but both emotionally and physically. There were a lot of challenges along the way, but I made it. WE made it, and I know you're probably tired of hearing me say this now, but I truly wouldn't be here without your support. Hatred isn't just a step out of the comfort zone for me, it's a book that I found myself so attached to along the way and one I learn a lot from, so thank you all, for letting me write Eva and Emerson's story, for believing in me and for staying with me until the very end. I still find it hard to believe at times when I look at how far I've come, and how many of you have travelled with me through this journey. I recognize some of you from my very first book, A Night With The Billionaire, and you have no idea how glad it warms my heart to see you up till now. Thank you very much for enduring and for staying. I
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EVA. Emerson holds my hand as I stand in front of her grave, and I smile at him before I drop the flower I have in hand. Straightening up, I say, "Today is our birthday. Though, physically you aren't here to celebrate it with me. I know you're watching me with a smile, and I just want to thank you for being such an amazing sister. And for taking care of me the best way you could have ever. I've always thought it's selfish to celebrate and be happy on this day without you, but recently, I've found out that what's truly selfish is refusing to celebrate this day with beautiful memories of you, so I promise to never do that from now on. " With a heavy sigh, I speak my last words, "Thank you, sister. For your sacrifice; I'll never forget all that you did for me, and I'll always love you, Lena. Always. " I rest my head against him when Emerson moves to my side and slides a hand around my shoulder. "You did amazing, baby. " He whispers, and I hum, letting him stroke my hair before I g
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ALIYA. "Hey!" I flinch at the loud sound behind me and Eva laughs as she moves around me to my side, holding me by my arm. "You're such a coward. " "Shut up, bitch. You scared me. " I throw her a frown, adjusting the strap of my bag and she wiggles her head as she straightens against me, "Why were you lost in thoughts?" "I was not. " I roll my eyes and she narrows hers at me, "Yes, you were. Were you thinking about Friday? You don't have to come up with something heavy, you know. " I smirk at her at the mention of her birthday. "No chance in hell, bitch. Everyone is coming. " She furrows her brows, "Aliya, what do you mean by that? Please tell me you didn't go overboard with this. " When I don't give her a response and keep the smirk on my face, she screams, "Aliya!" "Fuck sake, we're on campus. Tone it down for later. " I hiss as my eyes move across us to see people are barely paying us any attention. When I look back at her, I say, "I was just fucking with you. There's no one
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EMERSON. "Give me that!" Eva whines as she strides inside the living room, and I laugh as I dodge her attempt to grab the plate from me. "Emerson. Give it to me. " She insists and I shake my head, "I let you have the two other slices; I'm not giving you the last one. "She frowns. "I thought you don't love cakes. You wouldn't have bought it if I didn't insist. ""But we did, and I'm having this one now. I'm not giving it to you, babe. " I state firmly and she drops next to me, "You're so petty. ""Not any lesser than you, Carson. " I tease her as she grabs the remote in front of her, and she shoves her middle finger in my face. Chuckling, I take my attention back to the plate and lift the fork to my mouth. I don't see it coming when Eva suddenly grabs my jaw, turning my head to her and biting the cake out of my mouth. She wipes the corner of my mouth with her forefinger, and slips it inside her mouth as she leans back with a grin on her face, "I told you I'd get it. ""That's chea
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EMERSON. "Hey, " I whisper as she drops her head on my chest. "Hey. "Adjusting against my body, she says, "How do you feel?""Happy?" I say more of a question than an answer, then I settle with. "Happy. You're in my arms. "A smile crosses her face. "Emerson Ford. " She lifts her hands to my face. "You know how to make a girl feel good just at the brink of slumber. "I show a proud smile. "You. Just you. "She hums and drops her chin to brush her lips against my chest. Then she tips it again to meet my eyes, "But I meant the other way. ""I know, baby. " I say, circling my hands around her waist. "And I'm happy. Maybe it's because you're here. Maybe it's because I've finally come to accept that, and the fact that she'll always be with me, or maybe it's because everything else seems perfect. ""You have no idea how pleased I am to hear that. " She murmurs, pauses for the pass of a heartbeat, then adds, "Do you want me to come with you?"I groan loudly. "I'll very much like that, Eva.
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EMERSON. I stand in front of the restroom as I pound on the door, calling out her name. "Eva!" It isn't until a few minutes of yelling and pounding with almost coming close to kicking the door down that she finally opens up, ducking her head through. "What do you think you're doing?" She whispers, and I yank her out of the room, steadying her in front of me as my eyes roam across her body. "Are you okay? What happened in there? Why did you scream?" "I'm fine, Em. " She says, and I slide my hands to her face, cupping her cheeks. "Are you sure? " I glance back at the door before I look back at her, "I heard a scream and thought—" "It wasn't mine. " She interrupts me and when I arch my brows, she says, "The scream wasn't mine. There's someone else in there. Having a moment, it seems. " "Oh, thank heavens. " I let out a breath of relief and snatch her to my chest, lowering one hand to her back with the one to the back of her head. "You were taking long, and I thought something happe
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EMERSON. "Paige?" Eva repeats and I nod my head to the redhead who stands in front of our apartment, with her head turned to us now at the sound of the car. "She's here. " Eva says and I hum, unfastening my seatbelt. "I'm just as surprised as you are. I didn't expect to see her anytime soon. " Eva doesn't respond as we both get out of the car, and walk to her. "Hey, you both. I was just about to leave. " Paige says as we stop in front of her, and I slide my hand around Eva. She's looking more held up than the last time I saw her, with a smile complementing her features. "Eva. " She calls. "Paige. " Eva responds, letting my hands fall from her as they both hug, patting each other's back for a while before they pull away. "You look... Well, you look like you, blondie. " Paige remarks and Eva says, "I can say the same thing about you, redhead. " And they both laugh. A smile stretches to my face as I watch them converse without wanting to throw hands at each other. "Is everything a
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EVA. "Baby. " Emerson whispers in the dark and I groan as I turn my ear away from him. He chuckles, "Are you still asleep?" "Yes. " I respond, gripping the pillow I'm pressed to without opening my eyes. "What time is it?" "It's late now. " His voice is closer as he answers and I force my eyes open, twisting my head to meet his eyes and he's leaning over my body from behind. "Hey, beautiful. " He smiles as he moves his head closer to press his lips to my nose and I hum, my eyes moving down his body when he pulls away and he's still naked. "Why are you up?" I ask him when I meet his eyes again and he collapses next to me, wrapping his arms around me. I remove my hands from the pillow to push back against him, moaning at the press of his cock to my ass. "I went to the bathroom, and realized it's dark. I've been awake for a while. Watching you. " His voice sends chills through my body as he sticks his face in the curve of my neck, inhaling my scent; no doubt I smell of him and I mi
