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2022-04-10 20:58:17EVA.
A groan leaves my lips as my eyelids flutter and I open my eyes to the familiar ceiling before I drop my eyes to the space next to me, and move back a bit at the sheets that are not mine.
Sitting up on the bed, I glance around Emerson Ford's familiar room and down to the book that's by my side before the memories of last night come crashing down.
"What the fuck are you doing, Eva?" I mumble under my breath as I swipe my hands down my face before letting them stay on my lap.
With a sigh, I start to climb off his bed and straighten his sheets before I grab his copy of the book to return to the shelves.
With my hands on the edge of the shelf, I stare around his room– one which still holds his smell and wonder why the fuck I left mine to sleep here? Have I grown so used to having Emerson right next to me that I felt something wasn't right
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EVA. "Baby. " Emerson whispers in the dark and I groan as I turn my ear away from him. He chuckles, "Are you still asleep?" "Yes. " I respond, gripping the pillow I'm pressed to without opening my eyes. "What time is it?" "It's late now. " His voice is closer as he answers and I force my eyes open, twisting my head to meet his eyes and he's leaning over my body from behind. "Hey, beautiful. " He smiles as he moves his head closer to press his lips to my nose and I hum, my eyes moving down his body when he pulls away and he's still naked. "Why are you up?" I ask him when I meet his eyes again and he collapses next to me, wrapping his arms around me. I remove my hands from the pillow to push back against him, moaning at the press of his cock to my ass. "I went to the bathroom, and realized it's dark. I've been awake for a while. Watching you. " His voice sends chills through my body as he sticks his face in the curve of my neck, inhaling my scent; no doubt I smell of him and I mi
