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2022-04-21 04:09:33EVA.
My lips are parted with no words slipping through and the board falls from my hold as I stare at Emerson with wide eyes.
"I don't just think, Eva. I know I am. " He dares to repeat his words, in a firmer tone this time and I shake my head. "You don't mean those words. "
"Yes, I do, " he argues and I take a step back. "You don't, Emerson. You don't love me. You've never loved—"
"It's different now, Carson. It's fucking different!" He snaps, his chest falling and rising rapidly with each thick breath he takes and I turn away from him, tears burning the corner of my eyes but I'm quick to blink them back.
"Eva—" his voice echoes behind me but I don't let him finish. "You can't mean those words. You need to stop speaking this way, Ford. You need to stop fucking with my head. "
"I'm just fucking with your head!" He hisses and he's
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We're at the end!!! Woohoo!Where do I begin? So far, Hatred turns out to be the most challenging book I've written. Not just with the trope and the content, but both emotionally and physically. There were a lot of challenges along the way, but I made it. WE made it, and I know you're probably tired of hearing me say this now, but I truly wouldn't be here without your support. Hatred isn't just a step out of the comfort zone for me, it's a book that I found myself so attached to along the way and one I learn a lot from, so thank you all, for letting me write Eva and Emerson's story, for believing in me and for staying with me until the very end. I still find it hard to believe at times when I look at how far I've come, and how many of you have travelled with me through this journey. I recognize some of you from my very first book, A Night With The Billionaire, and you have no idea how glad it warms my heart to see you up till now. Thank you very much for enduring and for staying. I
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EMERSON. "Paige?" Eva repeats and I nod my head to the redhead who stands in front of our apartment, with her head turned to us now at the sound of the car. "She's here. " Eva says and I hum, unfastening my seatbelt. "I'm just as surprised as you are. I didn't expect to see her anytime soon. " Eva doesn't respond as we both get out of the car, and walk to her. "Hey, you both. I was just about to leave. " Paige says as we stop in front of her, and I slide my hand around Eva. She's looking more held up than the last time I saw her, with a smile complementing her features. "Eva. " She calls. "Paige. " Eva responds, letting my hands fall from her as they both hug, patting each other's back for a while before they pull away. "You look... Well, you look like you, blondie. " Paige remarks and Eva says, "I can say the same thing about you, redhead. " And they both laugh. A smile stretches to my face as I watch them converse without wanting to throw hands at each other. "Is everything a
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EVA. "Baby. " Emerson whispers in the dark and I groan as I turn my ear away from him. He chuckles, "Are you still asleep?" "Yes. " I respond, gripping the pillow I'm pressed to without opening my eyes. "What time is it?" "It's late now. " His voice is closer as he answers and I force my eyes open, twisting my head to meet his eyes and he's leaning over my body from behind. "Hey, beautiful. " He smiles as he moves his head closer to press his lips to my nose and I hum, my eyes moving down his body when he pulls away and he's still naked. "Why are you up?" I ask him when I meet his eyes again and he collapses next to me, wrapping his arms around me. I remove my hands from the pillow to push back against him, moaning at the press of his cock to my ass. "I went to the bathroom, and realized it's dark. I've been awake for a while. Watching you. " His voice sends chills through my body as he sticks his face in the curve of my neck, inhaling my scent; no doubt I smell of him and I mi
