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chapter 80: panic attack
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Aneesa's point of view I move my car round as I tried to park properly in front of Brielle's restaurant. Getting out of my car,I make sure to lock the door properly also silently praying I did not run into Williams like I had done the other day.I quickly made my way towards the right hand space of the restaurant which was where Brielle's office was situated at,as I had intended to talk to her urgently.Immediately I got to thr front of her office I knocked on the door to make her aware of my presence at the office presently. " who is it?" I hear Brielle's tiny voice shout from the other side of the door,as I made a small laugh at regards the fact that she was sounding all so formal, probably thinking it was one of her staffs or perhaps a customer. " it's Nessa" I say as I went ahead to open the door not at all even bothering to wait for her response as regards if I came into the office or I stayed outside. "You could not even wait for me to grant you the permission to come in" I
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Xander's point of viewI suddenly hear my phone ring. Wondering who it was,I take a look at the screen and saw my brothers name on the callers ID. I take a deep breath as I had been expecting the call to come in for quite sometime, as I pick it after take another deep breath,as regards the fact that I was quite nervous,well I had been ever since I filled in my details on the computer as I had constantly feared what the outcome would result to." heyy Williams, how are you doing? " I say to Williams immediately I picked up the call." I'm good,took you quite sometime to pick up the phone though" I hear him say playfully from the other side of the phone." yeah,was just kind of nervous for a bit" I say to him while taking another deep breath. " Nervous?....okay,that's new. Do not think I have ever seen you nervous though, would love to see what you look like when you are nervous" I hear him say from the other line,which just made me roll my eyes at how playful he always tended to be."
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Aneesa's point of view I groan as I heard the sound of my alarm awaken me as I check to see the time,being that it just felt like I had slept off just some minutes ago,after tossing continously on the bed while trying to get some sleep as the only thing that situated my mind was the thought of Xander.I had tried so hard to get him off my mind,but it seemed like he was almost unremoveable, as different thoughts about him seemed to cloud my head.How did he look now?How was I going to face him Tomorrow? Does he even remember I exit?Looks to me like a narcissist.....I knew I was not meant to be thinking all this at the moment, but then I could not just help it as the thought just came to my head randomly. Groaning inwardly,as I try to force myself up even though my body was saying otherwise, I move towards the bathroom to wash up for the day's work.Getting to my car,I had my chauffeur take me to this office,as I did not think I was in the position to drive as the result of all th
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Xander's point of view. I watch Nessa leave my presence as she walked out of the boardroom with her head held up high.I wanted to call her back and tell her that there was still a whole lot to talk about, I wanted to ask where she had hidden herself for the past 6 years,as it suddenly looked as though she disappeared from the surface of the earth.I wanted to hold on tight to her and try my possible best to tell her how much I loved her and still love her,but I could not as I just found myself rooted to the spot unable to move them,as I felt the words she had said ring continously in my head. And I could not blame her right? as I was the one that hurt her.I remember when she had come into the room a while ago,looking all beautiful but with a very emotionless smile plastered on her face,like she did not want me to read her,or rather it just came naturally to her.I wanted to punch myself in the guts so bad as the realization that I was the one that made her like this continued to ri
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Aneesa's point of view " mom,I would like to get some ice cream " I hear the tiny voice of my son Spencer say from a distance while snapping me into reality." okay,mom would get you an ice-cream but you have to finish your homework first okay?" I say while smiling at him and making cute noises while looking down at him" okay I would" he said while showing me his cute set of white teeth." Good boy,so you have to do everything your nanny tells you to okay?" I tell him again as I watch him continue to smile at me." yes ma'am " I hear him say as he went along with his nanny. Smiling while looking at him tailing behind his nanny, I pick up my phone wanting so badly to disclose the news of what had happened to brielle. " heyyy Nessa, what up? How are you doing " I hear her say after picking up on the third ring." ohh God B. Where the hell do you keep your phone" I say becoming slightly irritated at the fact that brielle had a problem when it came to picking her calls." was beside m
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Aneesa's point of view " so let me guess,your day was horrible right? I hear Brielle ask me the moment I got into her office. I had gone straight to Brielle right after my office hours as I felt like I needed so desperately to clear my head." do not even get me started on that one" I say as I move towards the mini fridge in her office to get myself a cold drink as I needed it to cool the steam I was feeling in my head." so what exactly happened? I mean I kind of already know what it's about,but then it would be nice to hear it from the horses mouth right?" I hear her say as I extend the glass of juice that I had also poured out for her after taking mine." wheew,was such a long day. I mean I had expected it to play out like it did,but then one can never be ready when it came to Xander right?" I say while rolling my eyes." yeah,that is true. Dude has a lot of drama going on with him" she said while taking a sip of the juice that was now in her hand. " I tell you" I say as I take
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Aneesa's point of view. I broke down immediately I got into my house,as I had been trying to keep it together since my talk with Xander earlier on,but it seemed like I had it to the neck already and it was already kind of starting to choke.I suddenly heard my door open up and I saw Brielle coming in,as I turned towards her while holding her tightly, like I needed her to hug me like my life depended on it." I'm stupid you know" I say why sobbing continously, as I could not seem to get over what just happened some minutes ago." No you are not,you are just human okay? And you are going to be just fine" I hear her say while holding me and staring into my eyes." No you are just saying that you calm me down,cause I do not fucking understand why I feel like this every time I just have anything that has to concern Xander. I mean he hurt me right? But then why is it so fucking hard to get over it,why do I get this emotional when I can totally behave like he does not even exist in this wo
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Aneesa's point of view I woke up form sleep feeling so lazy to get up from the bed,as I internally thanked God that it was the weekend and I did not need to go to work.Staring at the alarm clock just beside my bedside table,and stopping it from continously ringing nonstop into my ears,as I wanted to continue where I left up my sleep,being that I was totally exhausted from yesterday's work.I suddenly realise that I had promised willams that I was going to meet up that day,lazily looking at the clock for the time,my eye suddenly widen as I realised that it had been 30 minutes past the time I had told him I would be available. I quickly make fast strides towards the bathroom as I made to get ready for the date,afterwhich I threw on one of my skinny jeans,alongside a ruffled top,parking my hair into a ponytail,I look myself in the mirror and realising I was looking okay,I made my way out of the house while heading towards the pizza shop where we had agreed to meet up.I suddenly saw m
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Xander's point of view " fuck!" I exclaimed as I punched my hand right into the glass frame in my office thereby drawing blood.I could not believe that I had been so stupid by letting Williams cajole me into manipulating a whole company and to think it had to be Anessa's company of all company there where in the world. I knew I had to do something and I had to do it as fast as possible, but I honestly did not know what it was,cause what could I possibly say or do that would want to make her see me any longer.I just had to mess things up when it just started getting better.I move out of the office in a haste catch up with aneesa to see if there is anything I could do to try to make her listen to me to begin with. Not like I had any reasonable explanation though, but I did not want her to leave me just like that.I go to her office but I did not see any sign of her there any longer,as I moved to her assistants desk."Good day sir. Is there a problem? " I hear her say while smiling
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Aneesa's point of view" you look very beautiful mummy " I hear my son's tiny voice say from behind me as I look at his direction to see him smiling at me.I was still trying so hard to understand why I had agreed to go on a date with him in the first place,but then it was not like I was giving any choice at the moment. " Thank you so much darling " I say while smiles in his direction as I look at the mirror, hoping that I was not looking so overdressed. I heard my subconscious mind speak to me while telling me why I was trying so hard to impress someone I claim to have no liking towards, but I decided to shake the feeling away while trying so hard to ignore it.I hear my phone beep as I look towards it to see xanders annoying name plastered across the screen of my phone." heyyy" I hear his voice say the moment I pick up the phone." I'm on my way" I say simply before hanging up the call,not at all giving him the chance to conclude what he had started to say.I move toward the door
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Xander's point of view." heyyy mommy,I had a very nice time with daddy. You should have come with is too" he said happily while grinning from ear to ear,totally oblivious of the growing tension between his mother and I." I suppose you did" she said while smiling and kneeling to his level as she ruffled his hair." of course! dad said we would go out again one of this days,tell me you would come along too. Pretty please " I hear him say to his mother, and I almost laughed because I knew quite well that he was putting Anessa in such a difficult situation and the last thing she wanted at the moment was being in the same space with me." of course darling " I hear her reply through gritted teeth and at that moment I wanted to jump up in the air with joy,I mean it was not my intention to use my son as a ploy to get what I wanted,but that seemed to be the only weak point Anessa seemed to have at the moment. " Thank you momma!" he said while smiling so happily at her" you are welcome. So
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