JUSTINI had told her to keep her phone close but she hadn't listened. Even after telling her to be careful and make sure to pick up as soon as I tried to reach her, Astrid was no where in sight. I searched for her everywhere, yielding no result. I went to all her classes and even searched the library since I knew that was somewhere she usually frequented but she could have disappeared or even never existed due to how I never found anyone who had seen her. I asked the boys if anyone had seen her but they all came up empty, mentioning that they hadn't seen her all day. I hoped she would turn up before the end of practice but she hadn't. What was even more strange was Alden not coming for practice too. He had made up an excuse stating that he had to go home earlier which was odd since Alden almost never backed out of a plan, especially not one of this much importance. Backing out last minute was something Alden never does but due to the urgency in his voice, I let him go, reminding m
JUSTINI saw red. Everything that happened next was almost instantaneous and seemed to drag out at the same time.A roar I couldn't believe came from me ripped through my throat as I charged at Alden. I caught him unawares and when he turned to look at who had interrupted him, I held him by his shirt, making him let go of the rope before slamming him against the wall. I heard Astrid fall to the floor and I yelled over my shoulder to Jonah, without loosening my grip on Alden. “Check on Astrid.”Vaguely aware of Jonah answering to my request, I pulled Alden to the floor before sitting on him and punching the hell out of him. Every punch was fueled by anger and hurt. The fact that my best friend could do something like this to me made me even more angry than I ever have been. “How could you do this to me?” I yelled at him as I punched him. It made me even more angry that he wasn't looking remorseful. He looked to the side and smiled. He kept smiling until I looked in the direction he
JUSTINFor the second time in only a short while, I was staying by Astrid's side in the hospital but this time, everything was different. For one, I was holding her hand without a care as to whether anyone saw me or not. I was beyond thinking about what others would say when I only want to know what she would say. As I gazed upon her face, I knew I had to tell her how I felt. It would be hard to explain how my feelings underwent a turn around so soon, even after a had been a total jerk to her a few weeks back, but she needed to know the truth. I'm going to tell her everything. And the world needs to fucking know she's mine too. Just the thought of it would have sent me into a state of panic and disgust but somehow, I found myself welcoming the idea of everyone knowing she belonged to me. I was still deliberating on this when the doctor came in. He had checked everything with her earlier before he allowed me to stay here but he hadn't exactly told me the results of the tests he ran
JUSTINIt's been two weeks since Astrid fell into a coma and there's been no improvement. Although, as I had earlier resolved, I had stayed at the hospital all through, it was taking a toll on me. For the duration I had been in the hospital, I hadn't been to school and word had gone out in school about Astrid being my wife. Jonah came by regularly to fill me in on everything everyone was saying but I didn't care. I couldn't be bothered with that, not now that Astrid's life was on the line and I didn't know when she would wake. I told Jonah to shut them up since I didn't owe anyone any explanations. Despite being the Alpha, I wasn't allowed to see Astrid. Even when I tried to use the title card, I was strongly told off and even the doctor insisted that I shouldn't be allowed to see her. It made me recall the conversation I had with her parents two weeks ago. TWO WEEKS AGOI came back into the ward after I spoke to Jonah to see her parents by her side. They turned to see who came in
ASTRIDKrisI saw Kris again. I wanted to stay with her in the dream I knew I was having. It was better to be here with her than to go back to reality where everyone hated me. I could at least stay here with someone whom I know loved me. “You have to go back, Astrid.”Kris's mouth was moving but the words dropped into my mind. I couldn't hear her but she spoke to me in my thought. “No, Kris. Let me stay here with you.”She shook her head and smiled at me. “You can't. You have to live your life well, Tri. You have so much to look forward to.”Her use of her nickname for me made me cry and I screamed at her. “I don't want to go back. Everyone hates me, Kris. I want to stay here with you, forever.”“That's where you're wrong, love. There's someone who loves you so much and he cried because he thought he lost you. You have to go back, for him.” I am now awake and her words keep ringing in my ears. There was no way that was true. It had to be her way of trying to make me feel better an
JUSTINEven if she wanted to, there was no way I was going to let her leave me. I tucked her into bed and I knew she was on the brink of saying something, the very thing I dreaded having a conversation on. And I did try to avoid anything that would bring up the divorce again. I couldn't tell her why I didn't want the divorce anymore and there was no way I could tell her about my feelings just yet.I needed to be sure if what I was feeling wasn't just pity or guilt over the fact that her getting hurt was my fault. These feelings were new and totally foreign. What I had with Audrey was something similar. I figured telling Astrid about my feelings only to find out they weren't true later would be awkward. I sat down on the chair next to my bed and reached out to Jonah through my mind. Astrid was resting at the moment and that made it the best time to plan out the trial. As much as I wanted to be there through the “Have everyone know about the mandatory meeting and trial. The sooner Ast
ASTRID My mind screamed at me, telling me just how wrong this was, but I shut the words out. It was wrong, yet, I couldn't stop. It felt so good. I wondered if this was something I could allow myself to indulge in and enjoy even if it was once. I have the right to enjoy my husband, right? I asked myself and I knew what my answer was, which was exactly why I had said no in my mind when he asked me to stop him. I made sure I didn't say it out loud and he couldn't tell from my expression but my silence was more than enough for him because he kissed me again. This time, he picked me up from the floor and on their own accord, my legs wrapped around his waist, locking me tighter against him. He paused again. “Tell me to stop before you regret this because I know I won't.” He looked at me, as if searching my eyes for the answer.Would I regret this? Is this a good idea? I had several questions running through my mind and I knew I was supposed to run from the bond we had and not strength
JUSTINThis just changed everything. How was this possible? In a flash, I saw everything and I finally made sense of a lot of things. I felt a connection greater than anything I've never felt with anyone, nor even with Audrey but maybe that had to do with the fact that Audrey was never my mate, Astrid was. Astrid is my mate. The thought kept ringing in my head over and over. But how was that possible? How had I not known all these while?I recalled the conversation I had with my father concerning the mate bond. I told him about the disappointment I had felt when I didn't feel overwhelmed by the fact that I had my mate but I loved her, Audrey. With Astrid, however, it felt right. Overwhelmingly right. I felt everything my father had explained I would feel and even more. It felt like it was always meant to be this way. I could only imagine just how much Astrid had suffered every time I made love to Audrey. The mate bond would have ensured she felt everything. Why hadn't she said som