I think I'm losing my mind.
He came as a breeze and left a storm inside my heart.
I bit my lower lips as I felt like he was still standing behind me while embracing me tightly in his grip. I still felt his touch linger on my skin and his lips pressing a wet kiss on my neck making me feel tingles all over my body. My heart palpitates even fast as I breathe the air in which his intoxicating scent still wavers. I closed my eyes and pressed my hands on my chest feeling its race while biting my lip more. This feeling made me feel so different inside and I don't know how to express or even feel about it.
"Nina" I flinched at the sudden voice. I turned to look at aunty Sam and Jennifer standing a little far from me and looking at me. "What are you doing ther
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Because it's time now. I looked at the closed door as anxiety took over me thinking about what will happen once he enters this room. I have been alone with him so many times and at that time he didn't let go of the chance of touching me and today I'm lawfully wedded to him. Then how can I expect him to let me go on our wedding night? My heart pumped so fast thinking about what kind of evil intentions he has been lurking in his evil mind for today. He made clear to me that he won't have mercy on me. As his words roamed in my mind my skin shuddered in fear. A big lump formed in my throat as I kept looking at closed doors. I still heard the fumbling of the doorknob letting me know his presence behind it.
So this is how our first night after our marriage went and I knew it was only the beginning of all the uproar in our life. The entire night we tried to just fit on a small couch. His big frame was consuming most of the part of the couch we were only able to fit as he made me sleep on him. The entire night I closed my eyes and kept acting like I was in deep sleep as soon as I rested my head on his hard chest. My bust was closely pressed to his hard chest making me feel uneasy. How could I sleep knowing how close I was sleeping to him? My eyes closed and I pretended I was sleeping when his fingers were playing with long strands of my hair. My heart was beating loudly thinking what if he decides to put me under him. This thought made me close
And next thing I know he dragged me out of the room with the crowd cheering for us and his words ringing in my brain like a tape recorder. I don't know when he made me sit in the car and now we're driving towards the airport. I was still in shock and looking out at the night roads. He did even let me know he was planning a whole honeymoon behind my back. All thoughts of me being alone with him were scaring me to death. I don't know why I'm so afraid even at the thought of me being naked with him. Maybe because he had called me an ugly duckling all my life. What if he called me more such hurtful words after looking at my naked body this thought scares me to death. I was so immersed in my thoughts that I didn't even notice when he moved near me. I felt his warm breath fanning on my cheeks and it passed a shiver to my sp
I don't know what this night will unfold for both of us. His one hand was cupping my face as he kept moving his lips on my trembling one with slow movement. His other hand moved more up pushing the hem of my nightie further up than it was. He kept stroking my bare thighs with his callous hands passing a shiver to my whole body. His thumb was making lazy circles on my cheeks as he kept kissing me slowly like he was savouring each second of it. I did kiss him back but I didn't stop him either. I just accept it as I don't know what to do anymore. More tears slipped from the corner of my eyes as his words again rang in my ears. What if the truth I felt in his words was just for my namesake. What if once he sees my naked body he changes his mind. What will I do if he leaves me after that?
So we are not alone again. I looked at my old friend and smiled back at him and it even made Jack tighten his hold around my waist as I tried to get out of his hold. "Arron" I acknowledged his presence while still trying to get out of the hold of my possessive husband. "What a pleasant surprise it is," he said and walked towards us while looking at Jack's hands tightly wrapped around my waist. "What are you doing here," I asked him to make him look away from Jack's grip on my waist. "I'm here on a business trip," he said, tearing his hands away from my waist and looking at me. His eyes were questioning me. He wanted to know
His words made me look at him with wide eyes. Only one thing came to my mind. Doomed. My heart was pounding so fast in my chest after hearing his words. I brought this situation to myself. I just wanted him to admit that he was jealous of him. That he has always been jealous of all the boys who came near me. I just wanted him to admit it but I chose the wrong timing. I tried to put him in the situation but the one who is in the situation is me. He was not letting my wrist go out of his tight grip as I tried to get out of his hold to run back to the table. But he was not letting me go. "Can we go and continue eating our dinner? I'm still starving" I said in my pleading voice to make him stop. I bit my lower lips as those words came out of my mouth because we
The only thing I know is I choose him over all my insecurities. I kissed him back matching his pace as I didn't want to hold back anymore even after in the end I lost myself. I know I was fighting a losing war and for once I wanted to feel how it feels losing a battle and this time even all my growing urges. I just wanted to feel how he feels in my touch. I wanted answers to all my unanswered questions so badly. I couldn't hold myself anymore to know the truth. I moved my hands all over his build-up body to know all the answers. I wanted to know if he feels the same as I do. I felt his body shaking as I moved my open palms under his blazer to touch his hard chest. This encourages me more to see all his reactions which he was holding inside him hiding from me. He shivered even more as I rubbed my hands on his waist.&nb
As he said, it was going to be a long night for us. He kept me on my toes all night like taking his revenge on me for making him wait so long. He took his sweet time torturing me making me beg him. I tried to control but I always succumbed to the desire he evoked in me. He only let me sleep when my eyes refused to remain open for a single second more. I closed my eyes as they felt so heavy. He was still not ready to let me go but looking at my face he knew he had all tired me up. I sighed deeply as I felt him removing himself from me but I instantly missed the newfound fullness. I was too exhausted to protest or say anything as I felt not a single strength of energy left in me. My legs were still shaking from all the pleasure he had stimulated in me.&
I pulled all the bags out of the storage to pack them with my kid's clothing. "Jack help me" I shouted from storage as I needed help to carry them to our room. "Coming cupcake," he shouted from downstairs. He came to the storage room and then looked at me and the bag with confusion. "Cupcake, why do we need so many bags?" he said, eyeing all the five bags in front of me. "To lack our clothes, what else would I want so many bags," I said while dusting the bag. "But still don't you think there are too many," he asked, still eyeing the back. "No they are not I need to pack all the clothes for the kids, don't you know Aiden dirty his clothes more than three ti
"Amelia, Aiden" I called my kid's name while searching for my imported files on the desk. Why are they not answering me? "Oh God why I'm not getting it," I said in annoyance as all the things were scratched on the desk and some were even lying on the floor. I stood up with both hands on my hip and eyes on all the mess that was in front of me while exhaling deeply. My desk was a total mess and his desk in the room was not looking any better either. Yesterday I and Jack made this whole mess. We messed up our shared office when kids were at the school. My cheeks burned red as I remembered how I begged him as he kept teasing me to the point I needed to scratch his back needly. It continued until I passed out in his arms. That Satan never lets me off easily. I bit my lower lip as the mere memory of yesterday made me feel hot again. The way he was holding me while saying all the dirty words to me made me feel as if he was still
I don't know when we both slept looking at his cute sleeping face with a happy smile on our faces. The next day I woke up to find me and Jack trying to fit in a small bed trying not to squeeze the baby. He was still asleep with his one hand firmly placed on my waist as if making sure I didn't fall out of bed in the middle of the night. I looked at our sleeping baby and then at him. He was still so deep in sleep. I know we slept less because the baby woke up in the middle of the night crying telling me he was hungry. Jack stayed up with me until the baby fell asleep. Even though I told him to sleep he didn't, instead, he helped me in making the baby burp after I breast-feed him. I knew it was his way of saying he was there for both of us. It warms my heart knowing he was willing to help me in everything. I already knew
And that's how our baby boy made its grand entry into this world. I jolted up from my sleep with the noise of a small cry. Even though my body was feeling weak I tried to sit up. I was still in the hospital and I tried to find the source of the cries I could hear. Hearing those cries my chest heaved with all the disastrous emotions. I found the sound coming from the cradle beside me. When I looked more, that's when I saw a small figure in it crying. My baby was crying and looking at him in discomfort my chest became even heavier. The urge of making him soothe his pain increased in me. I tried to move out of bed even though there was not much strength left in me. I found an IV attached to my wrist. Still, I tried to move to take my crying baby. I was about to step down from my bed when the room door opened, making me l
"Jack my water broke" Those words from her mouth were enough to scare me. The panicked look in her eyes scared me even more. I moved my head down and saw liquid pooling at her feet with a hammering heart. I met her gaze again. I just kept looking at her with a blank look on my face not knowing what to do next. It "My water broke" she repeated her words this time a little loud and with more panic flooding her tone. Listening to her words the chattering on the table stopped making everyone look at us. "We need to hurry fast to the hospital," Jane said in her eager voice, getting my attention. Listening to her I immediately stood up in alert mode while rubbing my face in nervousness. "Jack bri
JACKS POV I buttoned up my tuxedo blazer and hurriedly walked out of the room to go to the adjoining room to help my very pregnant wife. Opening the door I saw she was standing in front of the bed with Amelia standing in front of her dressed in her pink frock. The mother and daughter were speaking to each other and laughing about something. Their laughter was like music to my ears. These two ladies had a special place in my heart. I walked in and my little angel's happy blue eyes fell on me. "Daddy" she squeals in happiness, throwing her hands up for me to take in and I didn't waste time and took her in my arms with a big smile as she stretched on my face. "How do I look? Did you like my frock" she asked in her excited voice. "First let me see
"I hope I'm not disturbing you ladies" He flashed us his pearly white teeth smile and from the corner of my eyes, I looked at Ava who seemed pissed looking at his smiling face. "Long time no see Mrs Miller," he said while looking at me. "I was wondering how you are doing. You look very much pregnant and beautiful as always," he said in his heavy voice which had an accent mixed with his English making me wonder where exactly he was from. I blushed a little at his compliment. He always says all those cheesy words to me, making me think if he likes to flirt with everyone. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Ava sighing in frustration. It was visible on her face that she was not happy to see him there.
"I love you too." The memory of the day makes me smile even in my dreams as from now onwards I have decided only to live with all the happy moments and forget all the bad ones. I have decided to keep moving forward, forgetting all the bitterness of my past but not forgetting the experience I got with it and it is what makes me feel powerful every day. It's what has given me the strength to live my life with all my past good and bad occurrences. These days saying I love you back makes me feel happy. It gives me the power to express my love for him which I have never done before. Those words never stop coming from his mouth and it always warms my heart when he says them to me. It makes me feel like I'm in love with him all over again. The awareness of the person I love loves me back with the same power and thriving in it make
"Yes I would love to" That night we celebrated and Amelia was so happy after listening to my reply. She jumped in happiness from here and there telling everyone that now she had mom and dad. His happy laughter made Jack's and my heart swell up in happiness. I always wanted her to be my daughter and now she was as I had already signed the papers. All the foundation kids were happy for her. She was the favourite of everyone here. They were a little sad knowing she would move with us but they didn't show her and celebrated with her. It has been over a month since that day. Dad, uncle, and aunty come frequently to meet Amelia with gifts for her. They are showering her with lots of love. Why won't they? After all, she is their first grandchild. A smi