"Okay, honey. I'm going to need you to push with me on the next contraction."
"No. I can't do this alone."
I had started full-on crying at this point because I didn't want to do this alone. One of the nurses had walked over to the side of the bed and took my hand.
"You are one strong woman and you can do this. You are not alone. We are all here with you and we will all support you as much as you need and for as long as you need it. Now you need to be brave for yourself and for your son."
I nodded my head and took a few deep breaths. I was waiting for the contraction and I was ready to do this when I heard dad's voice at the entrance of the room.
" You kept your promise."
I had just said that sentence when the contraction hit and the doctor urged me to start pushing. The nurse stayed on one side, and Dad went to the other, taking my hand and encouraging me from there. When the contraction was finally over and I had not heard a bab
I didn't even look at the name of the hospital that came up in the search and just blindly followed the direction the GPS was giving me. I prayed that I would find him there in the hospital waiting room, sitting with the cuts and bruises from the accident bandaged and wrapped but that would be the only thing that had happened to him. "You have arrived at your destination."I looked up to see that I was taken to the hospital where Clara had given birth and where she and Andrew were still. I didn't think it to be a coincidence but I rushed into the reception area where I asked the nurse about the car crash victims that were brought in. I told her that I was looking for my son. "There were three men who did not have any identification on them that we currently are unaware of who they are. I can take you to their rooms and then you can have a look if one of them is not maybe your son."I nodded and followed the nurse to the rooms where she was taking me. The first two men were not Jack
The moment dad told me he had found Jack and I saw his standing there looking defeated and tired I knew it had to be the worst thing that I needed to expect. We were both in dangerous jobs and enemies is something we had more of than friends and even though there were precautions sometimes some things still happened and families were left without their loved ones.I just didn't think it would happen to my family. I wasn't ready to do anything alone without Jack. Tearing up I knew that I had to ask the words and make sure that he was gone before I started seeing the worst future that could not even be true."Is he... did Jack die?"My dad answered almost immediately. His answer made me relax and fear for Jack's life at the same time. He wasn't dead yet but with the condition dad says he is in it could happen sooner or later.I started removing the blankets from me and searching for the shoes I placed here before going to bed so that I cou
I managed to survive the visit with the twins without breaking down and crying my heart out like I had done when they left and were far enough away not to hear me. The nurse that talked to me in the ICU came and gave me regular updates on Jack's condition and even helped me visit him twice before I was discharged. Now I would only be allowed to come during visiting hours like non-patients. Since my car was still in the hospital parking lot from when I had driven myself here I didn't feel the need to call Dad or Nici to ask them to come and fetch me and Andrew. His car seat was in the car in any case and everything else I needed for him was in the hospital bag. I didn't want to drive out again or be at home alone so I stopped at Dad's house on the way home to pick up the twins. I still didn't think it would be a good idea to let the twins know about Jack until it was necessary. I went to see him and spoke to his doctor before I signed my release forms. Each time I visited he just lo
I woke up still in Jack's arms when the nurse wanted to take his vitals. Blushing and apologizing I rushed into the bathroom to make myself look decent enough to meet with Jack's doctor that would no doubt be coming any minute now.I wanted to know when I would be able to take Jack home because that would be the first time he would be able to hold his son, physically look at him not through a picture on my phone or a video call with Nici when visiting him in the hospital.The fact that he had been moved to a normal patient room had given me hope that he wouldn't need to stay here much longer but I needed some definite confirmation before I got ahead of myself and hoped for nothing because the amount of bandages still on his body had me doubting myself on this.Looking at myself in the mirror I used my fingers to try and comb through my hair and make it look decent enough, washing my face to get rid of the streaked and smeared makeup that I did
Kids dropped off safely I was heading to the hospital to go and visit Jack, hoping to get some good news today that I would be able to take him home soon. The twins were starting to ask questions about when he was coming home and telling them that his mission was taking a little longer than usual and was not cutting it anymore. I doubt if they were believing me about that anymore, but I couldn't start telling them other stories now because that would have me seem less credible. Walking into the hallway, I greeted the nurses that I had started getting to know and asked about how the night went with Jack. At the start of this, they started telling me how the night went in an attempt to cheer me up and it had sort of stuck with me asking them how his night went each time I came to visit and them just telling me because I was not going to lie it did make me feel better to hear that he didn't have any pain and that he was starting to eat like his old self again. "The night went great.
I went down to the pharmacy to get his medicine while he packed his things into the bag that I had brought for him. Multi-tasking to get everything done the soonest as possible, and I also thought that Jack wouldn't want to be seen too long in the wheelchair he needs to leave in. He tried everything to get them to void that part of the policy, but they were consistent that he would be leaving the hospital in a wheelchair. I tried so hard not to laugh at some of his reasonings, but that was just so hard because they started getting sillier and sillier as he was running out of good ideas. I didn't know if Jack would be up to seeing people today, but I did need to go and get the twins and Andrew before we go home. I contemplated leaving him in the car and then just getting them, surprising them when they climbed in the car and there he was. Nici was back at work in the mornings so dad would be alone with the two babies and later all 5 kids, a fact he didn't seem to be too happy about,
Once again while sitting in class I could see that everyone was looking at the bruises on my arms. I tried to hide them, but Carl hasn't exactly been making it easy for me to hide them like he did in the beginning. I don't believe that I could still call him my stepdad because of what he was doing to me. He isn't worth the word dad at all anymore. He had been beating me since I turned six. I can't remember much from before and the only thing that is still really vivid is the day mum told me that dad had died sometime after my birth. I can't even remember how he looks like anymore. Mum and Carl threw away or hid all the pictures or something because there isn't any around the house. I wouldn't dare ask about one again as that didn't go well with Carl. The only thing that I have that is remotely linked to dad is the dear John letter that was sent to mum when dad had went missing from his platoon and was assumed dead when he didn't show up in the following three days and was nowhere to
Mum and I just stood there crying together. I don't know if mums’ tears are of joy or what but mine is definitely joy and relief. If dad is alive, he can come and save me from Carl and this horrible place I am finding myself in. I couldn't wait for him to come back.I didn't notice the time and Carl found us crying about the letter. He was the nicest and had the softest tone of voice when he took mum to their room to help her to bed. After a while he returned with that look on his face. He closed the door and started stalking towards me while I started walking backwards to try and avoid him coming towards me. I knew whatever I do he would be hurting me again.He grabbed me by the hair and pulled me to him. Sitting me down on the floor like a little girl he started kicking and punching me. I tried to crawl to my bed to get under it but before I could fully make it, he had pulled me back by my hair and just kept on hitting and kicking me everywhere he c
I went down to the pharmacy to get his medicine while he packed his things into the bag that I had brought for him. Multi-tasking to get everything done the soonest as possible, and I also thought that Jack wouldn't want to be seen too long in the wheelchair he needs to leave in. He tried everything to get them to void that part of the policy, but they were consistent that he would be leaving the hospital in a wheelchair. I tried so hard not to laugh at some of his reasonings, but that was just so hard because they started getting sillier and sillier as he was running out of good ideas. I didn't know if Jack would be up to seeing people today, but I did need to go and get the twins and Andrew before we go home. I contemplated leaving him in the car and then just getting them, surprising them when they climbed in the car and there he was. Nici was back at work in the mornings so dad would be alone with the two babies and later all 5 kids, a fact he didn't seem to be too happy about,
Kids dropped off safely I was heading to the hospital to go and visit Jack, hoping to get some good news today that I would be able to take him home soon. The twins were starting to ask questions about when he was coming home and telling them that his mission was taking a little longer than usual and was not cutting it anymore. I doubt if they were believing me about that anymore, but I couldn't start telling them other stories now because that would have me seem less credible. Walking into the hallway, I greeted the nurses that I had started getting to know and asked about how the night went with Jack. At the start of this, they started telling me how the night went in an attempt to cheer me up and it had sort of stuck with me asking them how his night went each time I came to visit and them just telling me because I was not going to lie it did make me feel better to hear that he didn't have any pain and that he was starting to eat like his old self again. "The night went great.
I woke up still in Jack's arms when the nurse wanted to take his vitals. Blushing and apologizing I rushed into the bathroom to make myself look decent enough to meet with Jack's doctor that would no doubt be coming any minute now.I wanted to know when I would be able to take Jack home because that would be the first time he would be able to hold his son, physically look at him not through a picture on my phone or a video call with Nici when visiting him in the hospital.The fact that he had been moved to a normal patient room had given me hope that he wouldn't need to stay here much longer but I needed some definite confirmation before I got ahead of myself and hoped for nothing because the amount of bandages still on his body had me doubting myself on this.Looking at myself in the mirror I used my fingers to try and comb through my hair and make it look decent enough, washing my face to get rid of the streaked and smeared makeup that I did
I managed to survive the visit with the twins without breaking down and crying my heart out like I had done when they left and were far enough away not to hear me. The nurse that talked to me in the ICU came and gave me regular updates on Jack's condition and even helped me visit him twice before I was discharged. Now I would only be allowed to come during visiting hours like non-patients. Since my car was still in the hospital parking lot from when I had driven myself here I didn't feel the need to call Dad or Nici to ask them to come and fetch me and Andrew. His car seat was in the car in any case and everything else I needed for him was in the hospital bag. I didn't want to drive out again or be at home alone so I stopped at Dad's house on the way home to pick up the twins. I still didn't think it would be a good idea to let the twins know about Jack until it was necessary. I went to see him and spoke to his doctor before I signed my release forms. Each time I visited he just lo
The moment dad told me he had found Jack and I saw his standing there looking defeated and tired I knew it had to be the worst thing that I needed to expect. We were both in dangerous jobs and enemies is something we had more of than friends and even though there were precautions sometimes some things still happened and families were left without their loved ones.I just didn't think it would happen to my family. I wasn't ready to do anything alone without Jack. Tearing up I knew that I had to ask the words and make sure that he was gone before I started seeing the worst future that could not even be true."Is he... did Jack die?"My dad answered almost immediately. His answer made me relax and fear for Jack's life at the same time. He wasn't dead yet but with the condition dad says he is in it could happen sooner or later.I started removing the blankets from me and searching for the shoes I placed here before going to bed so that I cou
I didn't even look at the name of the hospital that came up in the search and just blindly followed the direction the GPS was giving me. I prayed that I would find him there in the hospital waiting room, sitting with the cuts and bruises from the accident bandaged and wrapped but that would be the only thing that had happened to him. "You have arrived at your destination."I looked up to see that I was taken to the hospital where Clara had given birth and where she and Andrew were still. I didn't think it to be a coincidence but I rushed into the reception area where I asked the nurse about the car crash victims that were brought in. I told her that I was looking for my son. "There were three men who did not have any identification on them that we currently are unaware of who they are. I can take you to their rooms and then you can have a look if one of them is not maybe your son."I nodded and followed the nurse to the rooms where she was taking me. The first two men were not Jack
"Okay, honey. I'm going to need you to push with me on the next contraction.""No. I can't do this alone."I had started full-on crying at this point because I didn't want to do this alone. One of the nurses had walked over to the side of the bed and took my hand."You are one strong woman and you can do this. You are not alone. We are all here with you and we will all support you as much as you need and for as long as you need it. Now you need to be brave for yourself and for your son."I nodded my head and took a few deep breaths. I was waiting for the contraction and I was ready to do this when I heard dad's voice at the entrance of the room." You kept your promise."I had just said that sentence when the contraction hit and the doctor urged me to start pushing. The nurse stayed on one side, and Dad went to the other, taking my hand and encouraging me from there. When the contraction was finally over and I had not heard a bab
Two Months Later Dropping the twins at their friend's house and going into the office to check something out Jack left me alone at home with the promise that he would be back as soon as possible to watch the movies that we had picked out for the evening. Not wanting to wait for him to come back I started the movie so long. I was barely fifteen minutes into the movie when my water decided that it would be a great idea to break and Andrew decided that he would love to come into the world today. I tried calling Jack but all I got was voicemail each and every time. Not getting through to Jack, I tried calling both Dad and Nici but both of their phones were also off and I was not getting through to anyone of them. The only other option I have is to get myself to the hospital in time. Getting my hospital bag and putting it in the car went slowly because of the pain occasionally making me double over before I could go on. I didn't know what I would be doing when the contractions would hi
After we had told Dad and Nici that I was also pregnant we had a little celebration before Nici said she was too tired and that she was going to go and lie down but we were free to continue the celebrations. Not wanting to keep Dad away from Nici for too long we said our goodbyes and left for home. As usual, it was one hell of a fight to get Cathy to leave her granddad and come home with us because she was a total grandad's girl. She had been most fond of him since she was a little girl and once her granddad had her in his arms, no one could steal her away, not even her mother, might I add, because she started screaming bloody murder when you tried. AJ tends to keep at my or Jack's sides most of the time when they are not playing around. He ended up being a mommy's boy. He was quieter than his sister and sometimes that worried me but other times he just made me not underestimate him anymore. Getting calls from his kindergarten teacher telling me that he isn't making friends or mixin