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2025-03-17 13:59:17
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HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR MISSING
GINGER:I didn’t mean any of the things I said to Hu, and I never would. After my mother told me to choose wisely, I wrote out the pros and cons of both Hu and Caspian. Unfortunately, Caspian has never hurt me, but Hu—that night will forever stay in my mind, and it breaks my heart. I wanted to tell him I loved him back, but I couldn’t.After successfully holding back my tears, I lock my windows and make my way downstairs. Caspian is seated in the living room with my sister, Daisy, and my mother. Daisy is making weird faces, and he’s returning the gesture, but the moment he sees me, he stops.“Can we go now?” he asks. I nod, and he gets up. I glance at my mother before heading upstairs with Caspian behind me, holding my hand.As we walk, I try to ground myself, focusing on the fact that Caspian makes me feel safe. That should be the only thing that matters right now. I shouldn’t care about Hu because he probably just wants sex from me. Even though I know that’s not true, I try to convi
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-17HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR I WANT HER
GINGER: For a moment, I try to convince myself that nothing bad has happened to Hu and that he is probably at his apartment, needing space to process what I said to him. “Ginger, are you there?” Hana’s voice snaps me back to reality. “Please put Caspian on. I’ve been calling him, but he isn’t answering. Hiram went to Hu’s apartment in town, but he’s not there. Everyone is worried, and I don’t understand why he keeps doing this.” Her voice cracks, and I can feel her pain. “Hold on, please,” I say, my mouth barely able to form the words. I tap Caspian’s arm lightly, causing him to stir. “Babe,” he groans. I roll my eyes with a sigh and tap him harder, making his eyes snap open. “Hana wants to speak with you. Hu is missing.” His body shoots upright like a robot given a command. He grabs the phone from me and brings it to his ear. As I watch him take the call, a sinking realization settles in—I am the villain in this story, and there is no sugarcoating it. I shouldn’t have come to
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-18HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR IN LOVE AND CONFUSED
GINGER:“I want her.” The words replay in my head like I’m in a movie as we all file out of the room.I know he’s trying to get back at me, but a part of me doesn’t want to see it that way because that would be selfish—thinking everything revolves around me. I hate what he’s doing to me, and knowing Ruby will be the one seeing him while he’s in that condition makes me feel… jealous.“At least he’s okay, even if I have to watch that monster walk into my house every single day,” Hana says, and I try to keep a straight face as we make it to the general living room.I sit there, waiting for Caspian, who is still in the room with Hu. Guilt presses down on me, and honestly, I want to let it out. I want to tell someone that I caused his accident, that I’m sorry and never meant to hurt him, but they will never see it that way. So instead, I sit quietly, saying nothing.Shortly after, Caspian comes out of the room, and Hana gets to her feet, walking toward him.“Thank you so much for coming,”
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-18HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR THERAPY
HU:A week goes by again, and just like Hiram promised, he makes sure I don’t see Ginger or speak to her. I stay in the hospital wing of the house, far from her room, far from temptation. Every night, he checks on me to make sure I don’t sneak out. And to be honest, it’s helping. Everything seems to be going great—including therapy.Hiram secretly hired a different therapist, not wanting Hana to find out and risk her telling Ginger, which might cause her to spiral and text me. Therapy has grown on me, because it’s easier to tell her how I want to rip off Caspian’s head, claim Ginger as mine, without being judged for it.Today is Hiram’s wedding, and I have a therapy session too. I contemplate skipping it until Hiram walks into my room.“I’ve arranged for a driver to take you to therapy. You’ll be back just in time for the wedding,” he says.I nod without a fight. Ever since I let him take charge, things have been better, and I won’t mess that up now.I throw on a shirt and some pants,
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-19HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR SITTING ARRANGEMENTS
HU:I stare at Ginger without a word, my body tense, and my mind blank except for the overwhelming need to go to her. Fuck, she looks so pretty in that dress, and just staring at her brings up a lot of thoughts—none of them pure. I don’t even realize how obvious I’m being until Hana’s voice cuts through my trance.“What are you staring at, weirdo?” she asks, raising a brow in complete disgust. “Does anyone here look like Ruby?” she continues, making it clear she isn’t over me messing with one of her best friends.The thing is, I never really messed with Ruby. She told me she liked me, and when I asked about Hana, she clearly said she would give up anything to be with me. I defined our relationship and told her I didn’t want a girlfriend, but she insisted, probably hoping she would be the girl who changes the guy. That wasn’t the case, and I don’t think it ever will be because no one really changes
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-20HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR THE WEDDING
HU:Ginger’s reaction is instant the moment Ruby pulls me to the table. Her back stiffens, fingers curling as she grips her lap as though she is trying hard to compose herself. She avoids meeting my eyes, and I try to compose myself too, but I cannot help but shut my eyes slightly, inhaling her scent. Fuck, I shouldn’t be doing this. I open my eyes at once, then pull out a seat for Ruby, trying to be the perfect gentleman.“Thanks, babe,” she mouths, and God, I wish she would stop calling me that.Caspian, on the other hand, leans forward, extending a hand.“Hu,” he greets, and I take his hand, shaking it briefly because I do not know what else I will do if the handshake lingers.“How’s your health?” he asks, tilting his head slightly, and I force a smile.I force a smile because I am not truly happy, and it is killing me. Caspian has been nothing but a good friend. He wrote my not
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-20HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR COLD BLOODED BETRAYAL
GINGER:As I watch him walk away, it eats deep into my chest, and soon, the feeling of suffocation creeps in. He doesn’t look back even once, making me wonder if I’ve misread the entire situation. I could have sworn all day that he wanted some time alone with me, and when Ruby left, I saw an opening. So, I messed up Caspian’s shirt just to have some time with Hu, but clearly, it was hate all along, and doesn’t give a shit about me.Humiliation burns through me—hot and suffocating. I curl my fingers against my lap, gripping the fabric of my dress as if that will hold me together. I don’t know why I expected anything different, why I expected him to stay when I’m the reason he’s like this.I caused his accident, so I don’t deserve anything good or any comfort.Despite that, it hurts. A part of me wants to reach out to him, but I cannot because Hana and Wendy are close by. I think they are already getting suspicious, especially because he wouldn’t stop staring at me in the hallway.Ruby
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-21HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR WHAT?
HU:The second I step into my room and see Caspian with the burner phone, I realize how badly I’ve messed up. I want the ground to swallow me or to turn back time to the first night I walked in on Ginger in that room so that I can undo everything. But the damage has been done, and I know I will probably be losing my best friend, so I brace myself for it.Caspian stands in the middle of the room, shoulders squared, breathing unevenly. I want to apologize for what I’ve done, but god, that would only make things worse. The fact he knows slowly sinks in, and it feels like my entire body is ripping apart.The tension in the air is suffocating. I force my expression to stay neutral, pretending I don’t see the storm brewing in his eyes. I take a slow step forward. Maybe he doesn’t know, and he just found the burner phone and is reminiscing about old times. It’s stupid, but I try to convince myself.“Had no clue you would still be into the burner phone.” My voice comes out low, and he glares
Huling Na-update : 2025-03-21
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HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR SHE WANTS YOU
GINGER:Ginger’s breath comes in ragged gasps as she rushes down the hallway, her vision blurred with unshed tears. The echo of the crowd’s cheers for the Blue Shadow Pack rings in her ears, each sound amplifying the shame tightening in her chest. She cost them the game. She fell at the most critical moment.She doesn’t stop until she reaches the empty corridor leading to the locker rooms, but heavy footsteps pound behind her, gaining on her fast.“Ginger!” Hu calls out, but she doesn’t slow down.She clenches her fists, trying to ignore him, but within seconds, he is beside her. His longer strides close the distance between them, and before she can pull away, his hand curls gently around her wrist, forcing her to stop.“Leave me alone, Hu,” she whispers, her voice cracking.He doesn’t let go. “Why are you beating yourself up?”
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR FEMALE HOCKEY
GINGER:The locker room is buzzing with high energy as we prepare for the match against the Blue Shadow Pack. Everyone is talking over one another, debating who should go on the field first. I sit on the edge of the bench, tying my skates, trying to block out the noise. Then I see a pair of familiar shoes walking toward me, stopping inches away.Ruby speaks before I can look up. “She shouldn’t play.” Her tone is laced with disgust. “She’s too fat, and she’ll slow us down and make us lose.”My fingers freeze over my laces as I lift my head to see her standing with her hands on her waist.Silence falls for a brief second before a few girls start giggling, while others shift uncomfortably. My chest tightens as heat rises to my face, and I will myself to look unaffected, but my nails dig into my palm.“Ruby might be right,” someone says
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR BUSTED
GINGER:I push the door open, my body still damp from the pool, Hu’s oversized shirt clinging to me. My heart sinks the moment I step inside and find Janet’s side of the bed empty. Worse, my property is all over the place. My clothes are on the ground, and they are wet.A shaky breath escapes me as I scan the room. I walk over to one of my shirts, lifting it off the ground, watching as water drips from it. Tears well up in my eyes, and I try so hard to ground myself, but they keep falling. I know I hurt someone, but this is too much karma for my sins. A choked sob slips out, and suddenly, I sink onto the cold floor, pulling my knees to my chest.I try to breathe, but it feels like I’m suffocating. Like the walls are closing in. And then it happens before I can stop it. The darkness I dread envelops me, pulling me under like quicksand, dragging me back to a place I never want to be.The room fades, and it is just me, standing with my father, watching him p
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR LIFE GUARD
GINGER:“Hey! Stop!” I call out to Janet as she catwalks away toward the pool exit.I cannot believe I bought into her nerdy girl nonsense because, looking at her now, I can barely see that. She is the typical mean girl—the ones who spend their entire lives investing in heavy skincare, starving themselves to have an enviable build. She is… Ruby!“Hey! Stop!” I try again, pushing myself against the edge of the pool, but she only laughs, tilting her head.“Why?” she taunts. Then she pauses, a smile curling on her lips as we hear the voices of approaching students. “You better stay in there because I doubt anyone wants to see your mom tits.” She glares at my bra. “I cannot believe those boys are fighting over this. Ew.”I suck in a shaky breath, trying to hold myself together. “Don’t do this, please. It isn’t fair.&r
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR EVIL JANET
GINGER:Janet and I swim around for a while, splashing each other and floating lazily in the cool water. The sun shines down on us, warming my skin despite the chill of the pool. It’s peaceful having just the two of us here, and a part of me dreads that this will soon end when the other students arrive.Janet swims closer, resting her arms on the edge of the pool. “You know,” she starts, her voice softer than before, “I just want to say… I’m really sorry for everything. The bullying, the rumors, all of it. You don’t deserve that.”Hearing her say this doesn’t make me feel better about myself, because a part of me feels like I deserve it. I hurt Caspian, and this is probably my karma.I shake my head at her.“I know I can’t change what’s happened,” she continues, “but I just want you to know that I’m here for you,
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR JANET AND I
Ginger:The blare of a loud alarm sends both Janet and me flying from our beds. I land back on the bed on my butt. It hurts a bit, so I rub it slightly while Janet tries to stand on the ground where she has fallen.“Attention, students! This is Coach Billy, and I am here to officially welcome all of you.” I groan at his voice, which scratches my ears as it blares through the speakers. “I know I met some of you yesterday, but on behalf of the Red Pack students who arrived late, I am welcoming you guys once more.”The Red Pack is here? I question myself.I had no idea my pack had a hockey team now in high school. I pray silently that I do not see anyone I know, because I do not want to answer questions.“The first match is tomorrow, but for today, you can mingle, make friends, and have fun together because it is a Sunday.” He yells a slogan that I can barely make out. &
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR JANET
GINGER:Sometimes I wonder why Hu will not just leave me alone, and other times I am kind of glad. If he did not care about what his actions did to me, then I probably would have killed myself.Today, the hockey team is traveling to the Blue Shadow Pack. My luggage is almost empty, because over the past two weeks, I have put on a lot of weight. As I stare at myself in the mirror, all I feel is disgust. My arms look flabby, and I cannot help but pull at the bulging fat on my back. I have stress-eaten so much that I did not realize it until now. No wonder I have been getting bullied so much.My heart aches as I think of the best way to mask the fat. I rush to my wardrobe, pulling out a tape. Drawing out a long streak, I place the end on my left armpit, then wrap it around, looking at the mirror. It looks good, so I continue until I feel comfortable. Then I grab my shirt, draping it over my body. Examining myself in the mirror,
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR MIDDLE FINGER
HU:The days go by fast, and with each passing second, my life keeps crashing down. Every day is torture, watching Ginger get bullied because of my stupid ass, but I always make sure to go after whoever is responsible. Yet, they never seem to stop. Worse, I cannot even tell who is behind it. It could be Ruby or even Hana. I want to confront them, but I don’t even know what to say.It’s been two weeks, and it feels like hell. Today is Friday, the last day of school before we travel for the hockey match. I am in my room packing, and I cannot help but stare at Ginger’s window. I wish we were still on good terms because we would be talking by now. Maybe I would send her a pic of my room and how horribly packing is going. Then I would probably sneak into her room to help her with hers, sleep over, and end up hurriedly packing the next day.The thought of it sends heat through my core as a smile forms on my face. Her curtains are shut, but I can picture her perfectly.“I can’t believe that
HOCKEY ALPHA'S FORBIDDEN AFFAIR TAKE IT AWAY
GINGER:I don’t wait after practice is over. The moment Coach Greg dismisses us, I grab my bag and head straight for the exit. A lot of thoughts swirl in my head, especially the coldness I saw in Caspian’s eyes when I expected him to defend me. I know I did him wrong, but god, it fucking hurts, and I wish there was something I could do to make it stop.I barely make it down the hallway when a hand grabs my wrist, yanking me into the janitor’s closet. I know it is Hu, and the moment he flicks the lights on, I stare at him, my brows crumpling.“What the hell is wrong with you?” I ask when our eyes meet. His eyes look troubled, but I remind myself that it is not my place to comfort him, especially considering the fact that he acted like an asshole.“Ginger, please,” he says in a low voice, and I hold his gaze for a moment. “I am sorry for what happened at the wedding. I wasn’t in the right state of mind, and believe me, the last thing I want is for you to be hurt.”Not even an ounce of p
