*Valerie*I dabbed at my flowing tears gently after what seemed like hours. I never expected Adam to be cool with the news about our sex resulting in the twins but I also didn't expect this reaction from him.He just yelled at me for not telling it to him earlier and I couldn't help but just feel hurt. I also pretended not to see the hurt on his face when I broke the news to him.Well, I didn't expect any of it. The worst I ever expected his reaction to be was me being so daft to not use protection. I thought he'd insult me for getting pregnant, I thought he would behave nonchalantly to the news but this was completely different. Now I don't even know what to do, I don't know if I should go after him or just stay here and cry my eyes out. I'm confused! And I truly hope my boys are okay.The thought of them made my eyes well up with more tears. What if they refused to eat anything given to them? What if they've been starving since the day before?What if they fall sick because of the
*Valerie*Next morning~~Thanks to Kenneth, I could take a comfortable nap, even if I couldn't sleep too peacefully without knowing the welfare of my kids. I forced my eyes open, stretching my hands to reach out for Kenneth but he wasn't on the bed anymore."Did I wake up too late?" I asked no one in particular as I willed myself to leave the bed, but then I sighted Kenneth's retreating figure as he paced round the room.Worry and fear gripped at the thought that there might be gruesome news from the kidnappers."What's wrong, Kenneth?" I asked, showing up behind him. He paused, but didn't face me"What's going on? What happened?" I asked again with a shaky voice, but there was still no answer."Kenneth, just spill it, will you?" I said brokenly, my tears threatening to fall anytime soon. This suspense was making it all so obvious already."Ken? What the hell is going on?" I yelled, this time with my tears flowing in rhythm but his answer broke me even further."Nothing much is going
*Valerie*Tears tugged at my pupils, threatening to fall anytime soon. Kenneth's words suddenly weighed on me, making me want to disappear from the entire face of the earth.How could he ever say that? Who the hell does he think he is to say that? Why the fuck would he say that I won't ever find my children?I strolled towards no direction exactly but then, I needed to get things straight with Adam. This is probably just another sign that we've been slacking off big time.If only we've made a move to find those kids, then maybe that would have reassured Kenneth. Now, I could only conclude that Kenneth feared for me. He was scared that I might end up like those kids. That's the only logical explanation anyway.I strolled around the pack house in search of Adam. Every corner of the house was as familiar as the back of my hand, it got me wondering why they didn't refurnish and change the entire structure even after eight good modern years.I could still recall my time with Adam, Analisse
VALERIEI sniffed in once, twice, thrice as I walked out of his study. I didn't have any idea what to feel, how to feel or what to do and Adam wasn't giving me a chance to think properly too.I was caught up in a spot, stuck and with no leads on how to act. Maybe I shouldn't have come here after all. Maybe it was a mistake I made for coming back to Moonstone pack.Tears welled up in my eyes as frustration filled me to the brink. All I'm ever wishing for right now is to find my kids, how can that simple request be so hard right now? To think... I'm even stuck in some foolish emotional thoughts that are making me even angrier.I hate the fact that I'm the one who needs help the most, but I'm the most useless and helpless one here. I needed the help of those three to find Jaden and Jordan but I'm here finding it hard to be on good terms.Kenneth isn't helping things either. I'm just sick and tired of being stuck in the middle."Kenneth!" I called weakly, strolling round every possible pl
VALERIEI felt so mad and angry even though I shouldn't be. I shouldn't expect anything from someone like Adam and I was angry at myself for actually expecting him to be a better person.How could he let me be the only one stuck in the middle while he acts as if nothing happened? As if we never had an argument right there at his study?He really is the mean type. I wonder how I managed to fall in love with him throughout the precious time of my life.I regret not meeting Kenneth earlier! I regret every decision I made up to the morning Analisse and Adam betrayed me. I started to regret the moment I agreed to come here in search of my son's too.He is surprisingly and amazingly good at acting nonchalantly. I don't know why I'm getting all worked up when I shouldn't even care but it hurts to think that none of my pain means anything to him. I bet he's just trying to help me because he contributed to the creation of those boys.I bet he didn't want to look like a coward and the bad guy t
Valerie's POV.I inhaled deeply as I stepped through the doors, the smell of home lingered in my nostrils. I had to get out of that house, I was tired of sitting still while my sons, my poor babies were missing. It felt like my world was crashing around me. I needed to get them back and I was going to do whatever it took to get them back. I know Adam said he had his best men looking for them but it's not enough, there has to be more that could be done.Walking around the town, most of the structures were still the same. The games stores where Analisse, Adam, Rendall and I would run after school making bets on who would be the first to get there, the stores my mom and I would go grocery shopping, the park where my dad and I would go strolling on the weekends. This was my home, before Adam banished me and as hard as it may seem I miss it in some twisted way. I could still remember when we were all friends Analisse, Adam, Rendall and I. We were the thickest bunch, always together, you co
Valerie's POV.. As I remembered how Kenneth had saved me, a stranger, someone he was meeting for the first time and he risked his safety for me. I knew in my heart there was no way I was going to leave this person here without trying my best to help them. There was no harm in trying, this could either go one of two ways. It is either the person was in danger and the crowd rushed to protect him or her which even to my ears sounded a bit too good to be true or they had done something to draw the attention of such a crowd and were in serious danger. I pushed through the sea of bodies, elbowing my way through the crowd as determination coursed through my veins urging me to continue. “Excuse me” I muttered, squeezing my way through two male wolves who stood directly in front of the perpetrator. It was a man, the person this crowd has chased with such fervency was a man. He sat on the floor, he didn't look like much he had on a torn hoodie covered in dirt and some traces of blood. He look
Valerie's POV…Today had gone from boring to exciting to downright unbelievable, as I walked back to the pack house all I could do was replay everything that had happened today. I hadn't seen Kenneth throughout today and I was becoming worried. I saved someone from being harmed. Actually I saved one of my best friends from getting killed by an angry mob but all he could do was mutter a thank you to me. He couldn't even look me in the eyes as he said it and it hurt my feelings. Am I that despicable? That no one wants to be around me anymore?To think that while we were comfortable in the pack house everything we could ever need or want at our disposal, no one had his back he was just wasting away and trying to survive by living a life of crime. I was contemplating on whether or not to tell Adam, he should know what happened to Rendall… Why hasn't he done anything about it?As I slipped through the gate I noticed a figure standing in front of the house, it was getting late everyone wa
Valerie's POVI was done today and was ready to call it a night. In conclusion, the next time my mind wasn't feeling so sure about a particular place or location, I wouldn't touch that place with a ten foot pole. I couldn't stand by and watch the guards feed her the poison even though she planned on doing it to me. My mind wouldn't have been at rest if I had let her be poisoned by Adam's guards. After Adam dismissed everyone and cancelled the rest of the dinner, I just stood unmoving. It was still a lot to take in but I was going to get over it. I knew it, though I felt like my life was ending and I was constantly getting betrayed by the people around me, I could tell it was going to get better soon. After everyone had left Adam reached for my hand and pulled me towards the house. I could hear him talking to me and trying to reassure me but it felt like an out of body experience.I could feel him pulling my body but it felt like the contents of my body were temporarily gone. My feet
Valerie's POVI've always disliked abuse whether it was physical, emotional or mental. Whatever form it came in was an instant no for me. So when Adam kicked the maid, I screamed out so loud I was sure I scared away the birds that were on the neighboring trees. I had expected him to shout at her, to maybe humiliate her but the last thing he would do was to kick her. The moment his foot landed against her stomach, I pushed my way to the front of the crowd and made my way towards him.“Adam stop kicking her, she's a person. You don't do such things to people regardless of how you feel about them.” I said pulling him off her but being stronger than I was he wouldn't budge.“She wanted to kill you,” he said, kicking her once more. I knew he was trying to defend me but he was going about it the wrong way. I meant nothing to the pack, he shouldn't be doing this for me.“Exactly she wanted but she didn't, I'm still here and I'm okay you don't have to hurt her.” I said, still urging him and t
Valerie's POV“I almost got killed again.” It was a hard pill to swallow but it was the truth and I had no choice but to accept it.At this point I didn't know if it was just bad luck or I had a death warrant on me that others could see but I couldn't because I was beyond tired of getting ridiculed, of being attacked, of all the near death experiences I was having and tired of basically everything. I was just tired, we had all watched in awe as she cried and begged over and over again to be forgiven. She did it like she had no idea what she was doing when she had put the poison in the food but I just couldn't be moved to say anything. I was still in a state of shock from everything that had happened this evening. Her cries and wails filled the room but no one dared to move, Adam features were filled with disgust and contempt as he watched her putting on a show. I couldn't blame him, she had gone from defiant to sorry in the blink of an eye. Her cries seemed forced and fake.The murm
Valerie's POVThe heated back and forth between Adam and the maid had been going on for quite a while and I was sure as hell that aside from myself every other person seated on this table was getting irritated by it. Adam had been insisting she take a bite of the steak but she kept on refusing everytime he asked. The smile that spread across Adam's features everytime she told him the word ‘No’ was calm but had a menacing look to it. The smile not getting to his eyes was a telltale sign of how fake it was.“I know that the helpers are not allowed to eat the food of Royals but as your Alpha, I'm ordering you to eat from it. Plus it's not like you're finishing the entire plate, you're only taking a bite from it.” He said still adamant that she eat from the plate.Adam's gaze snapped to the maid, his eyes glinting with a cold intensity. "Eat a piece of the mutton," he commanded, his voice low and menacing when he noticed she wasn't moving when he asked.The maid's eyes widened in terror,
Valerie's POVSo much for not wanting to be the center of attention, the whole room was still in shock from how loud the timbre of Adam's voice was, the once lively table which was filled with laughs and chatters of guests had now become as silent as a graveyard. The table was now filled with surprised gazes, wide eyes and hushed tones but no one dared to move or question his order. Most of the eyes on the table had thrown their attention my way trying to deduce his reason for raising an alarm and scaring everyone. The weight of their gazes felt uncomfortable against my skin, I could feel myself turning a bright shade of crimson with how embarrassed I was.The entire room had instantly turned quiet, if you dropped a pin on the floor you would probably hear it echo inside the house. My mind was currently in turmoil, why had Adam reacted like that, he knew I didn't want people's eyes on me and he literally threw me to the wolves.“Why don't you want me to eat it, is something wrong?”
Valerie's POV“I thought I was done with these stupid panic attacks.” I thought to myself as I fought to keep my tears at bay.I had to take a minute to calm down, and reduce the pace of my breathing. I was scared out of my mind, the only thing that kept echoing in my head was how I got beat-up and kidnapped a while ago. I tried to convince myself that it was a thing of the past and I was safe but my body wasn't accepting the fact. I thought I was over the attack but I guess it took being put in a similar position to show that my healing journey was far from over.I could still feel my pulse pounding in my temples, and my hands were shaking slightly. I closed my eyes, focusing on the sound of my own breathing. I tried to slow down my heart rate, to calm my frazzled nerves. But my mind kept replaying the sensation of the hand over my mouth, the feeling of being trapped and helpless. I ran my hands along the length of my arms trying to warm myself up but my efforts were futile as I k
Valerie's POVI could finally confirm it now, Analisse didn't have a heart, matter of fact where her heart was supposed to be, there was a fist sized boulder there and instead of blood, it pumped poison through her veins. I had stood at the same spot for about five minutes watching her facial expressions to see if her stoic mask would crack and she would feel some empathy for her brother before gathering him in her arms and taking him inside but it was the exact opposite and in some crooked way I knew that was going to be her reaction. All she did was stare at him with contempt and irritation in her eyes.I didn't know how possible it was that every time I saw Rendall he managed to look worse than the previous time I had seen him. This evening had taken the crown, his clothes were torn, the sole of his shoe had finally burst open, he looked like he was covered with several layers of sweat and grime. His hair was matted together by lumps of dirt. He had several cuts and bruises l
Valerie’s POV“This was a bad idea” I thought, as I placed my palm on my temple, groaning to myself. I should have done something else for Adam, instead of coming to this party. I could have pretended I was sick, he would have believed me regardless of what I came up with after all we had spent most of our day in a body of water, it wouldn't sound weird if I came down with a fever or a cold. I felt so out of place and uncomfortable, the cocktail event for the dinner had started a few minutes before I stepped onto the terrace and so far I've hated each and every moment of it. The invited wolves around me were moving from place to place with a drink in hand, talking, laughing and socializing with each other but here I was tucked in a dark corner of the room regretting my decision of even coming outside. It wasn't like the party was bad, actually it was the exact opposite, the drinks were good, the appetizers were delicious but it was the company of people in the party that made me f
Valerie's POVI walked gingerly across the garden path towards the staff door, making sure to survey the vicinity with each and every step I took to avoid bumping into anyone who would ask pressing questions. I couldn't afford for anyone to find me outside and inquire on where I had been. The staff door led straight to the kitchen. I didn't want to meet so many people but I knew that was inevitable whether or not I used that door or the main garden entrance,aside from that it was the entrance that came with the least prying eyes and suspicious glances. The memory of what happened the last time I was in the kitchen played itself in my head and it was the warning I needed, to come up with a good plan before entering the kitchen, as a precaution this time around in case I bumped into anyone and especially to prevent a repeat of what happened the last time with Analisse or one of her cohorts. I pushed the door as gently as I could to prevent it from squeaking before quietly stepping insi