Yes, it was possible to feel the heart full of happiness in the same way, it was possible to feel it strangely ill. Ian was her everything. Ian was all she could ask for but, regrettably, she had a date with her past. Nancy was not going to stop until she said the truth but, if only she could understand how hard it was. As soon as the smile on the face of Alice was erased, without hesitation, she took her cellphone, the keys of her sister's car and headed out, trying not to look behind. There was so much to explain to Ian but, that was not the moment to talk to him. Her only purpose was to gather enough courage to face her mother-in-law. She was not ready to talk to Gabriel and Nancy had to understand that. Maybe, it was too easy to focus on her problems first before stopping just a second and hear out her surroundings. Maybe it was better to let herself be loved before loving someone. Maybe Ian was full-aware of her feelings and she didn't need to let him know that when, for her,
If only someone had told her she was not weak for showing him her feelings, if someone just had told her she would do right if she had stopped him in the mere instant her heart asked her to do that, maybe her heart would feel as heavy as she was feeling it.She had made many mistakes in her short life and, apparently, that was the way of her to act even if her inside was being torn apart.It was true, what begins is fated to end someday, but, if the decision to finish what had not started was upon the person he loved with his entire life that he felt not even a whole life would be enough to tell her how much he loved her. What about that? She was being an immature young mom again. He loved her innocence, but what she was doing was not due to her innocence but her cowardice in feeling her son away as soon as he met his father. She was not an angel, she was not a demon, but acting like that would make her look like a selfish demon who wants to owe everything.  
Alice's heart finally felt calm, the same calm she just felt when Joseph was close to her to heal her wounds. She had just done for a man what she never imagined to do after the most painful betrayal she had gone through because of her first love. She was convinced Ian was going to come back for just one reason; her love, the love she was giving him maybe, since the first moment they encountered for the first time after many years. All her fears had been put aside in the moment she felt –for a moment– her heart was almost facing his absence. A fairytale had begun in that moment. Regrettably, it was going to be hard not to see Ian as always walking through the hospital corridors, smiling for every time he ran into her like he had encountered the most beautiful treasure in his way. After all, she was his most precious treasure.If only she could know how happy that man had boarded the plane, if only he could explain to her all the emotions and fe
Rita the receptionist had broken into Alice’s peaceful morning, informing her about someone who wanted to see her without having an appointment or documents that could endorse that person being her patient.“What is his name or her name?” asked Alice. Her pale face revealed more than she would have been able to say.“It’s his name, it’s a man,” continued Rita, “and his name is-“At the mere instant, the receptionist was informing her about the person who had come without any documents, an intense dizziness was presented to Alice. Instantly, she was held by Rita, who was dramatically alarmed at the moment. That seemed to scare Alice. She had never felt like it consecutively.For the first time since her pregnancy, she was worried about herself. She feared her body was not okay as she always wanted to be, but on the other hand, she thought it could be anything. The
New mornings came, delusions went away and, once again, the sun rose like nothing had happened. The truth was, many things had happened since the moment she discovered her first love betrayal and then, the pregnancy. So many days went by in the same way, wishing her life was distinct, wishing Gabriel had never crossed her way, wishing he had just stayed in the same position he always kept when he was looking at Paloma from afar. Paloma and Alice were always different, they were just opposite poles. What Alice didn’t have, Paloma had, what Paloma never had, Alice always had. A fool if Alice thought Gabriel would change all of a sudden. He always wanted to have Paloma for him, he always wanted her by his side. It was stupid to think he would have changed that for Alice, a woman who was as simple as any other, but special in front of the right eyes. Alice was barely starting and she already had a baby inside her, a new little person who
It was still difficult to look back to those days where the sadness was all reigned in her life. It was still difficult to remember. There was no one else there but her baby and the family that took care of her. Yes, she was thankful to those people who were with her at the most difficult moment in her life, but that didn’t mean she didn’t want to give her son another life, the kind of life her son saw in his friends. We can’t have everything at once. That’s right but, why did her son have to pay the consequences of the mistakes of those people?It was hard to remember or even, to look back at those memories just for one second and see herself taking care of her son when she was giving up. Maybe, if Gabriel had been there, the present and the future would be different.But among the pain, among the sad moment, among the tears, the loneliness, the regret, the anger was Ian and the present, in that present where she had finally said everything. Th
There were just ruins in the hearts of the people who were taking hands in that place where the truth had destroyed more than had healed. How long had they been waiting for that moment? Gabriel’s heart knew that, his heart always knew there was something else, something she had to be hiding. Those sleepless nights, those dreams, those screams in his heart and finally, that moment between his son and him.Stars, heaven, God and maybe, all of them at the same time had heard Joseph’s prayers before going to bed. Just heaven knew how much he had prayed for that moment, because not even his mother was aware of the pain she had caused him by running away from the person that hurt her but not her son. In the end, Joseph was not guilty, he had just been a victim there.Human beings make mistakes, some of them make bigger mistakes and others just make mistakes, but, what about those ones who mess up with their lives so that innocent ones make them pay for what they
Once upon a time, there was a meaningless life waiting to be lived. Once upon a time, there was a meaningless life waiting to be cherished, because that is a life for, isn’t it?What about those people who spend their lives complaining about the things they had and they don’t have? What about that life that was given to them to be lived as they pleased but preferred to look into other people’s lives to see what theirs are lacking?Life is not only a process we have to live because, first of all, “have to” it’s not the phrase we should use when we refer to life. Life is a pleasure, life is seeing that hopeless world turning into a world full of magic, of colors, of wishes, of love.What happens when our lives get stained by the colors of negative feelings? What happens when negative feelings start growing in our hearts? The truth is nothing happens, the truth is everyone feels –at some point in their lives– tho
A DREAM COME TRUEIn life, thousands of decisions to make; in life, millions of different paths to follow; in life, just one lonely soul who struggles day by day, step by step, second by second to give the best when that person is not even the best version of oneself.What about the world? What about that world which expects the best of us? How wrong the people who say adolescents like to feel they owe the world. They can destroy it and build it as many times as we want.When we are adolescents we don't look for becoming a wrecking ball to destroy the world and build it our way. If people could just understand, we just look for that path, that way we can walk through and feel ourselves.We want to be loved, we want to feel we belong to one heart, we just want to stay in the heart that will become our home eventually for the rest of our lives. Because if something of what people think of a
In the end, there is no such medicine as time. Time heals wounds, time makes us better people, time makes us understand those things we could not understand before. The present hurts while the future sleeps and the past dies. No one knows the reasons of the events that we're going through at a given moment until later the threads of life came to be just one, giving meaning to all the things that didn't have in their moment. Everything is time, nothing comes if it's not by time which leads it to us. There is no answer that doesn't depend on time. If we, most of the time, don't have reasons for all our acts, how do we pretend to have the answers that life has just to the questions that make for the same life?The past and present beget the future, that one which we're more afraid of.Learning to love is part of life, waiting for the right one is knowing what we deserve.Alice had closed a very important cycle i
The seconds went by quickly, not even Alice expected what she had seen for the last time, because it was enough a long step from Gabriel to approach her and then, with no warning of his intentions, his hands behind her back head and their lips together again after seven years. If she was not in love with him, that kiss would speak for her. Alice didn't close her eyes, not even for a second, she wanted to get rid of him, but regrettably, she felt nothing compared to the manly strength he put forth.He had finally reached her lips, he was kissing how he had wished to do since the first moment he met her and Alice. She was about to lose who she loved the most as a consequence of that unwanted and undesired kiss.Alice's heart broke at the mere moment she saw Ian with teary eyes looking at them. Damn her fortune was, the man she loved the most, the man she thought about living the rest of her life with was staring at them with some t
Feeling the headache killing her, she couldn’t process what her friend was telling Alice.“Alice?” named Dayanna, as she hadn’t heard Gabriel’s voice.“Yes, Dayanna?” replied Alice, sitting up on the grim.“Congratulations, you're going to be a mom!”Her breath stopped, her mind stop sending messages to her body and suddenly, she just became a living body that acted by instinct. Those words that her friend said had come directly into her heart. She couldn't believe what she just heard, it couldn't be possible. Once again, she was pregnant, once again a life was inside her and suddenly, she felt the same inexperienced teenager that was pregnant with Gabriel’s baby but now, with the difference she didn't need that baby to cling to life. Now, she would be able to give him or her life not the other way around as happened at the day she gave birth to Jos
It'd been three days since the day Gabriel swore to get closer to Alice and then, have her heart again. He was convinced she was still in love with him, he was convinced she tried to have feelings for Ian just because she wanted to forget Gabriel. In his mind, Alice was still his, it was just a matter of time to make her believe in the world he was starting to build for her and his son. They were a family already, he just needed to get closer to her. He had changed and it was time for him to show Alice the new person he had become after the pain Gabriel had caused her.Gabriel just couldn’t stand the idea of Alice thinking about Ian all the time. Gabriel couldn’t stand the idea of Alice working not to let Ian down. If Alice could see into Ian’s eyes, everything would be different, she wouldn’t have to worry about being the perfect woman in front of him, because if Gabriel had to be aware of something that was, he had been the first one to make it
What happens when one color gets combined with another one? What happens when feelings come into the one person's heart and that person's feelings come into our hearts? What happens with the merger of water and earth? What happens when the sound and the words combine and make themselves one? What does it have to happen to exist the magic, the magic of love?Maybe all that needs to happen to exist magic, genuine feelings, colors that we don't see frequently is to hear the crying of a new born.“It's a boy!"There, where Alice felt she couldn't hold anymore what she was feeling and after having pushed for the third and last time, she could finally lean back her head at the same time her body seemed to lay down as well.It was done, all she feared one day, all she couldn't imagine because of her fears had ended there. It was over, one cycle had been ended when she felt how her body could lay down an
Once upon a time, there was a meaningless life waiting to be lived. Once upon a time, there was a meaningless life waiting to be cherished, because that is a life for, isn’t it?What about those people who spend their lives complaining about the things they had and they don’t have? What about that life that was given to them to be lived as they pleased but preferred to look into other people’s lives to see what theirs are lacking?Life is not only a process we have to live because, first of all, “have to” it’s not the phrase we should use when we refer to life. Life is a pleasure, life is seeing that hopeless world turning into a world full of magic, of colors, of wishes, of love.What happens when our lives get stained by the colors of negative feelings? What happens when negative feelings start growing in our hearts? The truth is nothing happens, the truth is everyone feels –at some point in their lives– tho
There were just ruins in the hearts of the people who were taking hands in that place where the truth had destroyed more than had healed. How long had they been waiting for that moment? Gabriel’s heart knew that, his heart always knew there was something else, something she had to be hiding. Those sleepless nights, those dreams, those screams in his heart and finally, that moment between his son and him.Stars, heaven, God and maybe, all of them at the same time had heard Joseph’s prayers before going to bed. Just heaven knew how much he had prayed for that moment, because not even his mother was aware of the pain she had caused him by running away from the person that hurt her but not her son. In the end, Joseph was not guilty, he had just been a victim there.Human beings make mistakes, some of them make bigger mistakes and others just make mistakes, but, what about those ones who mess up with their lives so that innocent ones make them pay for what they
It was still difficult to look back to those days where the sadness was all reigned in her life. It was still difficult to remember. There was no one else there but her baby and the family that took care of her. Yes, she was thankful to those people who were with her at the most difficult moment in her life, but that didn’t mean she didn’t want to give her son another life, the kind of life her son saw in his friends. We can’t have everything at once. That’s right but, why did her son have to pay the consequences of the mistakes of those people?It was hard to remember or even, to look back at those memories just for one second and see herself taking care of her son when she was giving up. Maybe, if Gabriel had been there, the present and the future would be different.But among the pain, among the sad moment, among the tears, the loneliness, the regret, the anger was Ian and the present, in that present where she had finally said everything. Th